old great bulgaria's wife

* she prolly had dark hair and dark eyes and was sturdy and tall

* idk how to name her
* idk of any female bulgar names, all I know are male bulgar names like krum, boris, boyan, asparuh, etc
* female bulgar names weren't recorded I think
* there are some bulgarian female names that are reportedly of bulgar origin but even if their root is bulgar, they've definitely had some sort of slavic influence
* so yeah she's remaining nameless for now

* very similar in demeanor to old great bulgaria

* aggressive, impulsive, always trying to get what she wants, non-materialistic, yet down-to-earth and pragmatic
* not exactly passionate, more of a pragmatic person, but can be passionate under certain circumstances
* doesn't care about wealth, riches, status or luxury, she only cares about having enough to survive
* proud and headstrong
* sly, smart, takes people out with short, well-timed roasts
* easily reads people, quickly sniffs out their fears, finds out their weaknesses and insecurities with ease
* not vain, looks down on vain people
* doesn't care about stuff such as jewelry, the way your body looks, makeup or feminine clothes (not that there were pink dresses in the 7th century steppes, female and male clothes were quite similar as men and women did similar stuff, women had to defend settlements when men were at war, but women's kaftans were longer than men's thus she prolly found them impractical)
* doesn't care about traditional female roles either (she sees caring about such stuff and being self-conscious about it as submitting yourself to slavery)
* still this doesn't make her any less of a woman as she clearly considers herself a woman
* btw she's clean and so are her clothes

* blunt, doesn't care about being nice, good, traditional, virtuous etc
* yet she has a very strong sense of justice
* if she rlly hurts someone's feelings she might feel bad afterwards but only after her anger has subsided (which happens after she roasts the person who's pissed her off)
* but she rarely feels guilty
* isn't concerned about what she has said, done, etc, doesn't look back and ruminate on stuff

* overall she sees feelings of shame, guilt, remorse, etc as tools which others or society use to control u
* looks down on people who're guided by those feelings and who try fitting in norms
* she feels such feelings extremely rarely, if she does, she represses and suppresses them, seeing them as a weakness
* still she's not some remorseless psychopath with no empathy, if she sees some child, animal or elderly person suffering, she'll help them
* she's unlikely to help an adult as she believes that ppl gotta be strong and if ur not strong, u deserve to suffer

* she probably lived on the fringe of human society (even though it was kinda unlikely and quite hard in those times)
* like people found her weird and scary but also respectable and admirable
* didn't fit into norms, order, etc, she was standing on the sideways as a potential ally

* sigma grindset 8)
* (btw are there rlly people who unironically believe in this alpha beta sigma omega bs? holy shit thats so cringy)

* enjoys her freedom, doesn't bother visiting her sons as a ghost even though she can do that

* "they're fine without me they gotta become tough and this isn't gonna happen if I'm around babying them"

* (it's an excuse for not wanting to spend time with them)
* (she doesn't want to spend time with them bc she hates the feeling of softness, kindness, meekness, concern, motherly love and adoration that she feels when she looks at them)
* (she sees such a feeling as a weakness)
* (she prolly had to fend for herself from an early age and prolly had some quite unpleasant experiences with people so that's why she became like that)

* the only times she interacts with her sons, she's cold, rude and distant, as to not reveal her weaknesses and distance herself from the weakness that is maternal love
* what a jerk

* the first time she knew love was when she met old great bulgaria (whom she considered to be an ordinary human warrior) as an adult
* they weren't kissy or cuddly or any shit like that, rather, they'd nudge each other, playfully punch each other, etc
* btw they'd fight a lot but not physically, more like arguing cuz they both were rlly headstrong and determined

* a warrior
* more of an archer than a fighter although she could take on dudes in wrestling and defeat them
* this was something that impressed old great bulgaria and made him interested in her
* cuz he didn't care about weak people, he wanted someone as strong as him both in spirit and in physical strength

* died shortly after childbirth
* now she's free to roam the steppes of the afterlife, ride horses, shoot with bows, fight people for fun, wrestle, etc

* she prolly hangs with old great bulgaria in the afterlife
* maybe he then told her who he was, they had a falling-out as he had lied to her initially, but after centuries, they got back together?
* or what if humans and nations go to different afterlifes
* still I bet old great bulgaria would find a way to see her and meet her

* hates khazaria with passion, enjoys harassing and bullying him
* calls khazaria a sh*tstain
* she's aware that she can now spend time with her husband due to the fact that khazaria killed him but still hates khazaria deeply
* she wished her husband was alive and thriving even though the afterworld isn't bad

* now that I said husband
* were they actually married?
* if neither of them had a family?
* in bulgarian culture, there was the possibility of a girl running away to her bf's place if her parents were against her marrying that guy or a girl and her bf staging a kidnapping so she'd have to be with him but idk how it was in bulgar culture
* if neither of them truly cared about traditions, norms and society, then did they rlly marry?
* maybe they had some sort of an oath or something idk