Forbidden Love
"Well, all right then." Bobby says and knelt down on the ground in front of Cas and we looked at him, "Is this good, or you want the whole "forehead to the carpet" thing?" Bobby asked and I looked at Dean, "Guys?" He tells us then me, Sam and Dean hesitated then started to kneel down, even though it was hard to do with the pain in my ribs.
"Stop." Cas says and we straighten back up, "What's the point if you don't mean it? You fear me. Not love, not respect, just fear."
"Cas..." Sam started to say
"Sam, you have nothing to say to me; you stabbed me in the back." Cas told him and looked at Bobby, "Get up."
"Cas, come on, this isn't you." I say to him and he looked at me, I'm not sure what I saw in his eyes but they weren't the eyes that used to look at me. I used to be able to see some small bit of humanity in them and now I see, nothing.
"The Castiel you knew is gone."
"So what, then? Kill us?" Dean asked him
"What a brave little ant you are. You know you're powerless, you wouldn't dare move against me again. That would be pointless. So I have no need to kill you. Not now. Besides...once you were my favorite pets before you turned and bit me."
"Who are you?" I asked
"I'm God. And if you stay in your place, you may live in my kingdom. If you rise up, I will strike you down." Cas says looking at us then turned to Sam who I noticed was looking to good, "Not doing so well, are you Sam?"
"I'm fine...I'm...fine."
"You said you would fix him - you promised!" Dean said to Cas
"If you stood down, which you hardly did. Be thankful for my mercy. I could have cast you back into the pit."
"Cas, come on, this is nuts! You can turn this around, please!" I begged him
"I hope for your sake this is the last you see me." He said then disappeared and we all looked at each other then Sam's nose starts to bleed.
"Sam, you okay?" Dean asked him but Sam fell to the ground and cuts his hand on some broken glass.
"Sam!" I yelled rushing over to him followed by Dean and I looked at Sam's hand then Dean.
"Come on. Come on, baby." Me and Bobby heard Dean grunt when we walked over to him laying down in the car with his feet on the roof.
"So you fixing her or primal screaming?" I asked him and he got out of the car then Bobby handed him a beer.
"Yeah. Thanks. Sam?"
"He's still under but alive." I told him
"Oh, yeah? What about God part deux?"
"I got all kinds of feelers out. So far, diddly." Bobby told him
"And what exactly are you looking for?"
"Exactly. What? Miracles, mass visions, trench coat on a tortilla? I don't know what I'm looking for." Bobby says
"Ah, well, he'll surface." I said and took a drink of my beer
"So say we do suss out where New and Improved flew off to." Bobby said
"Yeah?"
"Hell we plan to do about it?" Bobby asked
"Well, I don't know, Bobby. I got no more clue than you do." Dean told him
"I don't even know what book to hit for this."
"Well, figure it out." Dean says and Bobby looked at him, "I'm sorry."
"This isn't in any book. If you stick your neck out, Cas steps on it." I pointed out
"So you know what I'm gonna do?" Dean asks
"What?" Bobby said
"I'm gonna fix this car. Because that's what I can do. I can work on her till she's mint. And when Sam wakes up, no matter what shape he's in we glue him back together too. We owe him that." Dean tells us and I nod my head
"I'm with you." I said
"Me too." Bobby added
"Sudden deaths of some 200 religious leaders are currently under investigation. The Vatican has yet to issue a statement. But some are already calling this an act of God." The newscaster announced on the tv as Sam and Bobby joined.
"We all saw him, no beard no robe. He was young and sexy. He had a raincoat." A woman they interviewed says and I looked at the others.
"Believed to be targeted hits high up in white supremacy organizations. The FBI now believes the Ku Klux Klan has been forced to disband." Me and Dean heard on the cars radio as I worked on the passenger window of the car while he worked on the driver side one.
"Can't argue with that one." I point out
"Same."
"Freak lightning strike on the heels of the fire that burned down the Center for Vibrational Enlightenment today. Said a spokesman, " This tragedy represents the largest loss in New Age motivational speaker history."
"Motivational speakers?" Sam asked while they worked on the hood and I turned off the radio
"Yeah. I'm not sure new Cas gets irony any better than old Cas. Of course, old Cass wouldn't smite Madison Square Garden just to prove a point. He is off the deep end of the deep end. And there's no slowing down." Dean pointed out
"So what? Try to talk to him again?" Sam asked
"Sam-" I began to say
"All we can do is talk to the guy."
"He's not a guy, he's God. And he's pissed. And when God gets righteous, get out of the way. Haven't you read the Bible?" I asked him
"I guess."
"Cas is never coming back. He's lied to us, used us, cracked your gourd like it was nothing. No more. We've spent enough on him." I told them
"Okay." Sam says and I walked away heading back into the house then leaned against the counter putting my head down trying to hold back tears.
"Alexis." I heard Bobby say and I quickly wiped my eyes then turned to look at him
"Yeah?"
"You okay?" He asked and I put on a fake smile
"I'm fine. Just uh..came in for a drink."
"Alexis." He said and I sighed
"It's just, this Cas thing. He's letting this whole power thing go to his head and I have no idea what to do or how to stop him before he kills more people."
"Is that all there is?"
"What else would there be?" I asked him
"Are you kidding me?" He asked and I shrugged, "You can't stand there and tell me that you want to stop him from killing more people because that's just part of it."
"What are you trying to say?"
"What are you trying to hide?" He asked me and I looked at him
"I..I don't..."
"Alexis." Bobby says and I looked away trying to hide the tears again then looked at him
"I wanna save him because I...I just..."
"You just what?" Bobby asked
"Because I love him. Ok? I'm in love with him and have been for a while." I said putting my head down as Bobby walked over to me, "But I can't...do anything about it because he's an angel, or well God now but even if he was still an angel I couldn't tell him. I'm pretty sure it's against their rules for an angel to be with a human."
"Alexis.." Bobby started to say
"I can't save him Bobby, not from this and that...that is what kills me." I tell him and a tear falls just before he pulled me into a hug which I returned closing my eyes.
"She's looking good. Considering." Bobby said to Dean as we looked at the car
"Considering? I should do this professionally."
"So, you seen Sam lately?" Bobby asked us
"Yeah, why?" Dean asked and we looked at him
"What? Well, spit it out." I tell him
"How is that kid even vertical? I mean, Cas broke his damn piñata."
"We know."
"I mean, I get how he came to help us, back at the lab. Adrenaline. Sure. But now?" Bobby asked as Dean tapped the antenna
"He says he's okay." I point out
"How?"
"I don't know." I said
"I just pray to God it's true." Dean adds
"We need to come up with a new saying for that." Bobby says
"Seriously, though, Bobby. I mean, look at our lives. How many more hits can we take? So if Sam says he's good, good."
"You two believe that?" He asked us
"Yeah." I said and he gave me a look, "No."
"Yeah me neither," Dean adds, "You wanna know why? Because we never catch a break. So why would we this time? But just...just this one thing, you know? But I'm not dumb. I'm not gonna get my hopes up just to get kicked in the Daddy pills again."
"Hey." Sam says walking into the garage
"How you feeling sport?" Bobby asked him
"Can't complain, heh."
"Great." I tell him, "What's the word?"
"A publishing house literally exploded about an hour ago. The body count is getting up there. We gotta do something."
"What we gotta do is hunt the sumbitch. Unfortunately, I lost my God gun." Bpbby mentioned
"Is there some kind of heavenly weapon? I mean, maybe something out of that angel arsenal that Balthazar stole? There's gotta be something that can hurt him."
"He's God, Sam. There's nothing." Dean said and I thought about it
"But there might be someone." I mentioned and they all looked at me
I tossed the match into the bowl causing it to flash then Crowley appeared holding a drink and looked at the trap on the ground, "No. No, no! Come on."
"Don't act so surprised." I tell him
"My new boss is gonna kill me for even talking to you lot."
"Lucky we're not stabbing you, you piece of..." Dean began to say
"Wait, wait, wait. What new boss?" Sam asked him
"Castiel, you giraffe."
"Is your boss?" I asked him
"Is everybody's boss. What do you think he'll do when he finds out we've been conspiring? You do wanna conspire, don't you?"
"No. We want you to stand there and look pretty." Bobby told him
"Listening."
"We need a spell to bind Death." I tell him
"Bind? Enslave Death? You having a laugh?"
"Lucifer did it." Dean mentioned
"That's Lucifer."
"A spell is a spell." I point out
"You really believe you can handle that horsepower? You're delusional."
"Death is the only player left that has the kind of juice to take Cas." Dean says
"They'll both mash us like peas. Why help on a suicide mission?"
"Look you want Cas running the universe?" Bobby asked him
"It's from Crowley." Bobby told us walking into the study with a piece of paper handing it to me and I looked at it
"Who feels like hog-tying Death tonight?" I asked them
"Old age is overrated anyhow." Bobby says and I chuckled
"We got most of this stuff, but we have to make a run for a few things." Bobby points out.
"Like?" I asked him
"Like an act of God crystallized forever."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Sam asked
"Thinking actual crystal. See, lightning strikes sand at the right angle it crystallizes into the perfect shape of itself."
"Lightning. Act of God." Sam says
"Jenga. You got yourself a fulgurite. We're gonna need a biggie."
"And let me guess. Rare." Dean mentioned
"I found the records of an auction. Winning bidder lives about nine hours from here." Bobby told us
"So, road trip. Who's bringing snacks?" I asked and they all looked at me, "I guess that would be me." I said standing up and grabbed a set of keys.
"Don't forget the.."
"Pie. I know." I said cutting Dean off, "Send me the list of what we need for this spell." I told Bobby and left.
We pull up to the mansion and Dean turned the lights off on the car then me, Sam and Bobby head over to the security box, "Hey." We heard someone say and I saw a guard standing there.
"Excuse me, got any Grey Poupon?" Dean asked walking up behind him then knocked the guard out
"Grey Poupon? Seriously?" Sam asked him
"It's what popped in my head."
"Hey, guys." Dean told us when we walked into the room seeing a man and a woman tied to a couple chairs, "Uh, so this is Dr. and Mrs. Weiss."
"Hi." I said and gave Dean a look
"I found the God thingy."
"Well, let's light this candle." Bobby says setting the bag down and we set everything up then Sam brought over the god crystal smashing it up in the bowl and I took my knife then cut Dean's arm dripping his blood into the bowl.
"You're welcome." He tells me then I picked up the spell and started reciting the words on it. I couldn't explain it but an electrical surge went through my body as I continued to read and suddenly the room started to shake then it stopped.
"Um Hello? Death?" Dean asked
"You're joking." We heard someone say and I saw Death standing there
"Sorry, Death. This isn't what it seems." Dean told him
"Seems like you bound me."
"For good reason, okay? Just, uh, hear us out. Um Fried pickle chip? The best in the state." Dean said walking over to the bag he set up
"That easy to soothe me, you think? This is about Sam's hallucinations, I assume?" Death asked and we looked at Sam
"What?" I asked looking back at Death
"Sorry, Sam, one wall per customer. Now unbind me."
"We can't. Yet." Sam told him
"This isn't gonna end well."
"We need you to kill God." I said and Death looked at me
"Pardon?"
"Kill God. You heard right, Your Honor." Bobby says
"What makes you think I can do that?"
"You told me." Dean mentioned
"Why should I?"
"Because we said so and we're the boss of you. I mean, respectfully." I said
"Amazing." I heard Cas say and we turned to face him
"Cas." I said and he looked at me then the others
"I didn't want to kill you. But now-" He began to say lifting up his hand
"You can't kill us." Dean told him
"You've erased any nostalgia I had for you."
"Death is our bitch. We ain't gonna die, even if God pulls the trigger." Dean pointed out
"Annoying little protozoa, aren't they?" Death asked Cas, "God? You look awfully like a mutated angel to me. Your vessel is melting. You're going to explode."
"No, I'm not. When I've finished my work I'll repair myself."
"You think you can because you think you're simply under the weight of those souls. But that's not the worst problem. There are things much older than souls in purgatory and you gulped those in too." Death pointed out
"Irrelevant. I control them."
"For the moment." Death tells him
"Wait. Uh, what older things?" I asked
"Long before God created angel or man, he made the first beasts. The Leviathans."
"Leviathans?" I asked and looked at the others
"I personally found them entertaining but he was concerned they'd chomp the entire Petri dish. So he locked them away. Why do you think he created purgatory? To keep those clever, poisonous things out. Now, Castiel has swallowed them. He's the one thin membrane between the Old Ones and your home."
"Enough." Cas says and I looked at him
"Stupid little soldier you are."
"Why? Because I dared open a door that he shut? Where is he? I did a service taking his place." Cas told him move closer
"Service? Settling petty vendettas?"
"No. I'm cleaning up one mess after another, selflessly." Cas says
"Quite the humanitarian."
"And how would you know? What are you really? A flyswatter?" Cas asked him
"Destined to swat you, I think."
"Unless I take you first." Cas pointed out
"Really bought his own press, this one. Please, Cas I know God. And you, sir, are no God."
"All right, put yourjunk away, both of you." Dean said and they both looked at him, "Look, call him what you want, just kill him now."
"All right, fine." Death says raising his hand up to Cas but then Cas snapped his fingers and the binding fell from Death's wrists, "Thank you. Shall we kickbox now?" Death asked him but Cas just looked at him and Death walked away, "I had a tingle I'd be reaping someone very, very soon." He says sitting in the chair grabbing the bag of fried pickle chips then looked at the doctor and his wife, "Don't worry, not you." He reassured them then Cas disappeared, "Well, he was in a hurry."
"Um.." Dean began to say
"Shut up, Dean. I'm not here to tie your shoes every time you trip. I warned you about those souls how long ago? Long enough to stop that fool. Here we are again, with your little planet on the edge of immolation." Death said and stood up
"Well, I'm sorry, all right? I've been trying to save this planet. So maybe you should find somebody better to tip off."
"Maybe I should spend my effort on a better planet. Well, it's been amusing." Death says and started to walk away
"Wait, hold on. Hold on. Just give us something. You have to care about what happens to us." I said to him and he faced me
"You know, I really don't. But I do find that little angel arrogant."
"Great, let's go with that." Dean says
"Your only hope is to have him return it all to purgatory. Quickly."
"We need a door." Sam pointed out
"You have everything you need at that lab. Get him to return there and compel him to give up the power."
"Compel?" Dean asked
"Figure it out."
"But that door only opens in the eclipse. And that's over." I mentioned
"I'll make another. Three fifty-nine, Sunday morning just before dawn. Be punctual. Don't thank me. Clean up your mess. Try to bind me again you'll die before you start." Death said looking at me and I swallowed hard as he walked away, "Nice pickle chips, by the way."
"You want some coffee with that?" I asked Dean as me and Sam walked into the kitchen seeing Dean with his laptop in front of him on the table.
"Oh, it's 6 p.m. somewhere."
"We gotta hit the road. How are we supposed to get Cass to that lab by friggin' 3:59 a.m?" Sam says
"We don't."
"What do you mean?" I asked Dean
"We can't bring the horse to water and we can't make it drink. Why fool ourselves?"
"Dean, look. I know you think that Cas is gone." Sam says
"That's because he is."
"He's not. He's in there somewhere, Dean. I know it." I told him
"No, you don't."
"No, I don't." I said and he looked back at his computer
"Look I was pretty far gone sometimes myself you never gave up on me." Sam mentioned
"Yeah and it turns out that you're about the same open book as you've always been." I said and he looked at me, "Hallucinations? Really? We gotta find out from Death?" I asked him
"What was I supposed to do?"
"How about not lie? How about tell us that you've got crazy crap climbing those walls?" Dean asked
"Why? You can't help. You both got a lot of pretty severe crap swinging your way lately, I thought.." Sam says and I sighed, "What, I thought why burst the one good bubble you had left? It's under control."
"What? What's under control?" I asked him
"I know what's real, what's not."
"Sam..." Dean says
"Look, we can debate this once we deal with Cas."
"Know how I'm gonna deal? I'm gonna stuff my pie hole, I'm gonna drink. And I'm gonna watch some Asian cartoon porn and act like the world is about to explode because it is." Dean said and I rolled my eyes, "Hey. You gotta be kidding me."
"What?"
"Massacre at the campaign office of an incumbent senator by a trenchcoated man," Dean told us and I walked over to the computer, "There's security footage." Dean said and pulled up the feed of Cas standing there talking to one of the people then he turned and faced the camera and it froze then cut out, "Well, I think reaching Cass is, uh, out of the cards." Dean pointed out and I walked away heading outside.
"Cas, it's me. Look maybe this is pointless. I don't know if any part of you even cares but, um, I still think you're one of us deep down. I mean you're way, way, way off the reservation but, we still have till dawn to stop this. Let us help. Please. I can't...I can't lose you. I..." I prayed then stopped and looked around but no Cas. I sighed then walked back inside hearing the noises on Dean's computer and he held up a drink, "Only if you turn that off." I said indicating to the laptop. He shut it and I walked over sitting down then Sam walked into the room.
"Anything?" He asked me and I just shook my head.
"Alexis?" I heard someone say and I turned in my seat to see Cas standing there leaning on the wall
"Cas." I said
"I heard your call. I need help."
"We need the right blood. There's a small jar. End of the hall, supply closet." Cas says to Sam who headed out to go get it as me, Dean and Bobby get everything set up.
"Alexis." Cas says and I went over to him
"What, you need something else?"
"No. I feel regret. About you and what I did to Sam." He tells me
"Yeah, well, you should."
"If there was time, if I was strong enough, I'd fix him now. I just wanted to make amends before I die." He said taking hold of my hand and I looked at him.
"Okay."
"Is it working?" He asked me
"Does it make you feel better?"
"No. You?" He asked
"Not a bit." I tell him and he looked down. I put my hand on his face and he looked at me, "But it's a start."
"Alexis.."
"Stop" I said cutting him off, "We are going to get through this and when we do then you can make it up to me, and the others." I tell him and he nodded. I stood back up and walked over to Bobby.
"Sure you wanna do this?" Bobby asked me and I looked at Cas then back at him
"I have to." I said and he handed me the spell
"Hang in there. Just a couple of minutes." Bobby tells Cas and walks over to me and Dean, "Where's Sam? It's go time." Bobby mentioned and Dean walked out of the room.
"That's good enough." Bobby tells Dean as he drew the sigil on the wall with the blood then helped Cas up, "Okay. Step right up, Cass." He says and stood Cas in front of the wall, "Alexis."
"Ianua magna purgatorii, clausa est ob nos lumine eius ab oculis," I started chanting then Cas fell down but Dean helped in back up when suddenly I feel the same electricity shoot through me like it did when I bound death but I shook it off and lept reading, "Nostris retento sed nunc stamus ad limen huius ianuae magnae et demisse fideliter perhonorifice paramus aperire eam
"I'm sorry, Dean." I heard Cas tell him
"Creaturae terrificae quarum ungulae et dentes nunquam tetigerunt carnem eius ad mundum nostrum nunc ianua magna, aperta tandem!" I finished and the wall broke open then light shot out from Cas going into it and I covered my eyes. Next thing I know Cas fell to the ground.
"Cas?" I asked rushing over to him and Bobby touched his hand to Cas's face
"He's cold."
"Is he breathing?" Dean asked him and checked
"No."
"Maybe angels don't need to breathe." I mentioned feeling my heart ache and twist
"He's gone, Alexis." Boby says and I fight back tears
"Damn it. Cas, you child. Why didn't you listen to me?" Dean asks after they stood up but I stayed down by Cas. Just then I see his face go back to normal then he opened his eyes.
"Cas?" I asked and he looked around then at me
"Hey. Hey." Dean said and they helped him sit up
"That was unpleasant." Cas pointed out and I gave a small chuckle
"Let's get him up." Bobby says and they stand him up as I stood
"I'm alive."
"Looks like." I told him and he looked at me
"I'm astonished. Thank you. All three of you."
"We were mostly just trying to save the world." Bobby told him
"I'm ashamed. I really overreached."
"You think?" Dean said
"I'm gonna find some way to redeem myself to you." Cas tells us then looked at me.
"Well, one thing at a time, come on. Let's get you out of here." I told him and we started to walk but he stopped me and Dean
"I mean it, you two."
"Okay. All right. Let's go find Sam." Dean told him and we turned but then Cas pushed us away.
"You need to run now!" Cas yelled and I looked at him seeing he was in pain.
"Cas?" I asked moving to him but Bobby pulled me back.
"I can't hold them back."
"Hold who back?" Dean asked him
"They held on inside me. They're so strong."
"Who the hell?" I started to ask
"Leviathan!" Cas says and my heart drops, "I can't fight them! Run!"
"Go get Sam Lexi. Go get Sam." Dean tells me pushing me towards the door.
"Too late." I heard Cas say and I faced him, but it didn't look like him
"Cas?" Dean asked and Cas grabbed him
"Cas is, umm. He's gone. He's dead. We run the show now." Cas told him and threw Dean across the room making him crash into the table then did the same to Bobby. Before I knew it Cas grabbed me and I got thrown into a cabinet next to Bobby. I groaned and rolled over to look at Cas as black lines went up his face, "Now, this is going to be so much fun." He says and laughed.