Synopsis: You've been trying for ages to do it with Thoma, but struggle to get past your own sensitivity. After he refuses to do it with you out of fear of hurting you, you find a way to give him the outlet he deserves . . .

Theme(s): Fluff, Comfort, Smut

Relationship: Dating

Trigger Warnings: Sexual Themes, Sensitive Reader.

Word Count: 3961

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Quick Job From A Slow Burner

"You okay?"

You nodded.

"You sure?"

"Yeah," you murmured, nodding into your boyfriend's shoulder as he held you tight in his arms, the two of you standing safely in the softly lit bedroom.

You had already undressed each other and partaken in a makeout session. Slow, soft and tender . . . no tongue . . . just the way you liked it. He had massaged all around your body, his hands never going any lower than your waist, unless you prompted him to do so. Nor would he go near your chest; not without your hands over his, granting him permission to gently palm your breasts.

It was one of your favourite things about him. Even though you had done this foreplay many times before, he still understood your boundaries and respected them with a smile.

You had done this foreplay enough times that his hands massaging your upper thighs had become a nice familiar feeling. And yet it still gave you butterflies down there. The only thing was that as soon as you began to think about down there, it began to sting.

It had stopped you every time from taking things to the next level.

Even when it was with someone you loved and trusted, you couldn't get past your own fears and sensitivities.

And you worried it frustrated Thoma as much as it frustrated you- if not more. As sweet and caring and patient he was, he was still a young man- a young adult who needed and deserved an outlet, just like everyone else.

As you rubbed your head off of Thoma's shoulder, leaving light wet kisses on his neck, you shut your eyes as he continued to massage your upper thighs. You tried to focus on how soft and warm his hands were and how gently he rubbed you.

"Is that okay?"

"Mmhm." It genuinely did feel nice. In fact, you felt a nice kind of churn down in your stomach. You even thought you felt yourself open a bit down there.

It made your eyes light up.

Maybe today would be the day . . . You glanced up at Thoma with excitement.

"I think we can try it."

"You think?" Thoma's already bright eyes flickered a little. "You sure?"

"Yeah!" You fought a wince when you thought you felt it throb down there. Instead you tried to focus on your boyfriend's soft warm smile as he brought his hands to your face.

"You wanna go top or bottom?"

Your first instinct was top. It would give you that little bit more control that would made you feel more comfortable. But at the back of your mind was that concern that you would cower out as soon as you got the slightest bit sensitive. So . . .

"I'll go bottom."

"Okay then."

He kept a gentle hold of you as he lowered you down onto the bed. He allowed you to settle yourself down on the pillows, stroking your hot cheek.

"You want me to wear a condom?"

"Yes please," you said, nodding eagerly. You'd considered asking it, but had been kind of afraid to. So it was quite a relief when Thoma smiled and gave you a quick kiss before heading over to his drawers to get one.

"Thoma?"

"Yes, m'love?"

"Can . . ." You gulped, gripping onto your suddenly churning stomach. "Can we do it slowly?"

"Of course!" Thoma almost sounded surprised as he approached you, fiddling around with a little wrapper. "We can go as slow as you like." As he slid the condom over his erect member, he gave you a sincere reassuring look.

"You talk to me all the way. Tell me how deep you want me to go, how fast you want me to go. And if it hurts, don't be afraid to say the safeword. I will happily stop for you. I won't be upset. I just want you to feel comfortable . . . okay?"

You sniffed as he crouched down for a kiss. He had given you that speech so many times and it was still so comforting to hear. As you kissed him back, you felt a rush of excitement in your lower stomach. Maybe, just maybe, you would finally be able to do it.

"Okay . . ." Thoma leaned down to your ear, massaging around your thighs. When he spoke again, it was in a soft whisper.

"Good girl . . . relax, m'love . . . relax . . ."

His touch was so gentle. He made circular motions on your skin, slowly nearing your entrance. But just the slightest touch from his fingertips, and you suddenly shuddered from your own sensitivity.

Please no. You were doing so well . . .

You tried to push it aside and focus on the nicer churning feelings in your stomach. You tried to remind yourself how much wanted to please him as much as he wanted to please you . . . You realized you hadn't even opened your legs yet, and pushed them out as far as they would go.

"That's it . . . good girl . . . relax . . . yes . . ."

His hot breath fanned in your ear, warming your skin and making it tingle. He lightly kissed your neck, still massaging nearer and nearer your entrance. The nearer his fingers got, the more your stomach lurched, to the point where you thought you might vomit. Your breath hitched as his fingers got so close to your entrance, you thought he might slip them in. The thought forced you to gulp back a gag.

"Y/N? You alright?" Thoma suddenly paused and sat up, taking your face in his hands. His face melted when he saw the state you were in.

"You're shaking . . ."

You were?!

"I- I'm alright," you lied. "Please . . . let's keep going." You forced a smile when Thoma cocked his head at you.

"Are you sure you're okay with this?" He looked and sounded so worried . . .

"YES." You forced it out, afraid if you gave away any more signs of hesitation, he would stop completely.

Thoma still looked a little uncertain. So you took his face in his hands and pulled him down into a kiss, your body clenching and bucking as you did so. The nerves in your entrance were definitely throbbing- the lower he got, the more painful it felt.

And yet you wanted it so bad . . .

"Please. I want you to do it."

"Okay, m'love . . ."

Thoma went back to gently tracing around your entrance. You knew he was trying to give you all the time you needed to settle. But you worried that your time would be too long for him . . .

"You ready?"

You nodded.

"You sure?"

"YES!"

"Okay . . ." Thoma took a deep breath as he lay himself down over you. You slid your arms around his neck, shutting your eyes tight as you felt him drawing nearer. Short breaths shot rapidly through your nose as you braced yourself for penetration . . .

"Okay, here we go . . ."

Just the slightest brush of his tip off your entrance made your nerves scream. Sharp pain shrieked up your walls, making you shudder. A small cry escaped through your teeth. Immediately, you felt Thoma pull away.

"Thoma, wait." You opened your eyes and tried to tug him back in. "I didn't say the safeword."

Your heart sank when he ignored your protests. He slipped out of your arms and lay down by your side, keeping his eyes on yours.

"I'm sorry, m'love. I can't do this to you."

"No . . ." Your voice cracked. "I wanna do it."

Thoma shook his head, heaving a heavy sigh. He gave you a loving, almost pitying look, gently caressing your cheek.

"Y/N . . . I can tell you're not comfortable with this."

"N- no!" you blurted out. "I want us to do it. I am comfortable, really."

"Y/N, sweetheart . . ." Thoma's already soft facial expression softened even more. "I know you're just saying that to make me happy."

You let out a moan. It was the only protest you could muster. Your head sunk into your shoulders, your eyes drooping.

"I'm sorry . . ."

"Nooooooo, no . . ." Thoma took you in his arms as you began to sniffle. "It's okay, m'love. I'm not upset. I promise you, I'm not upset at all."

"It's just we got really close that time-" Your breath hitched. You sniffed. Your face felt even wetter- it was then you realized you had tears streaming down your cheeks, which Thoma was wiping away with his thumbs.

"I'm sorry . . . I always get so sensitive."

He stiffened a little. "I didn't hurt you, did I?"

You sighed and shook your head, getting a sigh of relief from him. You knew deep down, he had barely touched you. On one hand, you felt quietly grateful he cared for you enough to stop at the first cry. But on the other hand . . . your head sank even more . . . You had gotten so close . . . You felt you had let him down so badly.

"You wanna stay here and cuddle?"

You nodded sadly.

"Okay." Thoma wrapped his arms tight around you, squeezing you in a cozy embrace. You sniffed and snuggled up to him, so relieved that he was still so willing to stay with you.

"You want kisses?"

"Yes please," you croaked.

"Okay." Thoma began planting lots of gentle loving kisses in all your favourite spots. All while running his warm hands up and down your back. It felt so nice . . . It almost added to your shame.

"I'm sorry."

"No, it's okay. Really it is." The softness of his voice made you comfortable enough to brave a peep up at him. Above you, Thoma's eyes shimmered with warmth and compassion.

"There's no rush in this kind of thing. I don't care if I have to wait years and years for this. I don't want you to think I expect you to do this with me. I don't want you to feel like you have do anything for me that makes you uncomfortable, okay?"

The way his eyes were glistening with so much love, all of it for you; Highlighted by his warm smile. And the way he held you so tightly, stroking your body . . . You absolutely crumbled. You grabbed his face and mashed your lips against his. He kissed you right back, gently stroking your cheeks as the tears streamed down them.

"You alright, m'love?"

"Mmm." You nodded through the kiss.

"Good," he whispered as you slowly separated. He gave you a soft smile, gazing lovingly at you. Every time he gazed at you like that, with those beautiful glistening green eyes of his, it was like seeing them for the first time.

"I love you, Thoma . . ."

"Awww." Thoma let out a soft warm chuckle, squeezing you tight in his arms. "I love you too, Y/N . . ." He let out a blissful sigh. "You're such a good girl, you know that?"

You struggled to fight a laugh, your head sinking down as a heat rushed up to your cheeks.

"Don't start . . ."

"I mean it, Y/N. You're a great girl." Thoma planted a kiss on your head to emphasise his words. "And I'm not saying that to arouse you or turn you on. I think you're a wonderful girl who needs to learn to be kinder to herself."

"Stoooooop."

Thoma shook his head, nuzzling his cheek off your hair.

"I'm gonna keep saying it until you believe it. You're such a sweet, strong, hardworking girl . . . And I'm so happy to be with you."

At this point, you were melting from all the affection. You knew he meant every word he said. If anything, he believed in those words more than you believed them yourself. It almost made the appreciation harder to handle. All you could really do was sigh and sink into his arms, burying your face into his chest.

"You wanna put your clothes back on? Or do you wanna lay here and relax?"

You let out a little moan, realizing how sleepy you were. So you mumbled "i wanna relax . . ."

"Okay. We'll do just that then."

He sighed contently, giving you a peck on the head, wrapping his strong warm arms so tight around you, you felt almost cocooned. Like he was making sure you knew he was there to make you feel snug and safe and sound. Every now and again, he would remind you how much he cared by squeezing you tighter and kissing your temple, getting small pleasured sighs out of you.

You felt better and worse at the same time. Better from the relief that Thoma was still here, happily looking after you. Worse because deep down, you still felt you owed him an outlet or some form of pleasure . . . You heaved a heavy sigh, slowly giving into your boyfriend's warmth . . . Your eyes drooped down with heavy blinks . . . You were about to drift off to sleep when your eyes picked up on something down there. It woke you up immediately.

"You're still hard . . ."

"Huh?" Thoma blinked and glanced down at himself almost innocently. "Oh yeah, you're right!" he chuckled. "Okay . . ."

You grabbed his arm as he sat up. "W- we can try it again in a few minutes."

But Thoma placed a gentle hand on your shoulder and gave you a small reassuring smile.

"We'll try it another time, m'love. You lie down and relax."

"But-" You couldn't stop your eyes from darting down. He was so hard, it looked almost kind of painful. Was it your imagination or was he throbbing . . . ?

"Doesn't it hurt?"

Thoma's body sank a little, his smile growing wider and warmer.

"Not as much as I think it would have for you if I'd gone ahead." He leaned down over you and gave you a reassuring soft peck.

"You relax, m'love. I'll take care of it myself."

That did it.

You lashed out and grabbed his balls tight.

"OH-!" Thoma's face dropped, his body stiffening, his eyes widening. "O- okay! I guess you can do tha- h'ahhh!"

"W- would you like me to?" You stiffened yourself, loosening your grip when he shuddered, his eyes clenching shut. He gritted his teeth. He gripped the sheets underneath him. His cheeks flushed scarlet red. He took a few deep breaths before slowly gazing down at you.

"Are you comfortable with it?"

You gave him his answer by squeezing his balls. He thrust his head back, struggling to fight a moan.

"Ahhh . . . I guess you are then- AHHH!"

Your eyebrows shot up. These noises you were getting out of him were making you feel things. Nice things. A mischievous smirk spread across your face as you squeezed his balls harder. Thoma was biting his lip, trying so hard (but failing miserably) to keep his moans in.

"You like that?"

"Ye- yeah . . . H- hold on one sec- h'ahhhhh!" With eyes clenched shut and teeth almost baring, Thoma rolled over and flopped down onto his back, almost bouncing off the mattress. You rolled over with him, keeping a tight grip on his balls.

"Okay, m'love." He slowly opened his eyes and sealed sincere consensual eye contact with you. "You can do whatever you want with me."

Your eyes lit up. Your smile grew wider as you massaged him a bit gentler. It gave you a bit more time to plan out what you were going to do with your newfound power. Biting your lip, you took the condom and peeled it off his cock. It seemed to free him up a bit more. Your eyes widened even more as Thoma's erection sprung even taller. You couldn't help laughing awkwardly.

"You alright?"

"Y- yeah. It's just . . ." You suddenly realized how shy you felt. "I've never done this before." You raised your hands over his cock, trying to find a good place to start. "D- do I have to use ointment or-?" You let another awkward laugh when Thoma smiled at you.

"You do what you feel is best."

"Um . . ." His answer hadn't really helped at all. You had no idea what option was best. Thoma must have realized it because he gently took your hand and guided it back towards his balls.

"Why don't you start here?"

He allowed you to take his balls yourself, shuddering as soon as your palm landed over them. He shut his eyes and plopped down onto the pillows as you began to massage them once again.

"Ngh . . . that's nice . . ."

"Yeah?"

Your eyes lit up again. Not only did he seem to be enjoying it but you were getting some satisfaction out of it too! It was quite satisfying to massage him like this, searching for the little spots that got the best sounds. The harder you kneaded, the more intense his noises got.

"AH! Y/N! Mmmm . . ."

"Yeah, you like that, don't ya?" Your grin was growing wider as you clasped a hand around his continuously hardening cock.

"H'AHHHH! Oh, Y/N . . . D- don't . . . stoooaaaa!" Thoma thrust his head back as you began to slide your hand up and down, still twiddling his balls with the other. At this point, you were living for his reactions. Though his eyes were shut, you could tell they were rolling all the way back to his head. The way he gripped the sheets and bit his lip to try and keep himself from gaping and moaning. But as you began to slide your hand up and down his cock faster, he began to make higher, more rapid whines.

"OH MY- H'ohh, Y/N! . . . h'aaaAAAHHH!"

Harder, and faster . . . At this point, you were starting to pant . . . But nowhere near as intensely as Thoma, who could barely breathe, let alone speak with the pleasure. Your hand shot up and down his cock, and one of Thoma's hands shot to his mouth in a desperate attempt to keep his moans in.

"Aww come on," you smiled, sliding a hand from his balls, up his torso and up to his wrist, gently prying his hand away. "I like the noises you make."

"Oh . . . okay, Y/N- h'AAAAAHHHH!" Thoma's back arched, a high pitch moan escaping from him. It got a warm giggle out of you.

"You're so sensitive." And you loved him for that. He responded by squeezing your free hand holding his, while your other hand continued to stroke and stroke his cock, up and down, up and down.

"You like that?"

"Ye- yeah . . . h'AAAAAAHHHHH!"

"Yeah?" You giggled again. "That good?"

The poor guy could barely nod at this point. It was so fun to see him in this state below you for you to play with to your heart's content. You could tell by his noises how pleasured he was, and you were feeling that way too. The thought of being able to give him that outlet he deserved without hurting yourself was turning you on even more. It made you shift into high gear, stroking his cock at full speed, getting a little shriek out of your sub, his eyes popping open.

"HOLY- Y/N!" He actually squeaked, every part of his body clenching and arching, his cheeks flushing scarlet red.

You couldn't help bursting out laughing. It gave your hand a little speed boost with no signs of aching or tiring.

"You're allowed say the safeword you know."

"N- no. I wo- AHHHHHH!"

"No safeword?"

"N- no." Thoma barely managed to raise his head and look up almost pleadingly at you. "I'm c . . . cl- h'aaaaaaahhhhh."

You raised your eyebrows. "You're gonna cum?"

"Mmm." He squeezed his eyes shut, nodding as fast as your stroking hand.

A sly little smile spread across your face. Still stroking away at full speed, you slowly crouched down, licking your lips as you neared his ear. You deliberately took your time, relishing in Thoma's whines and pants as he sensed your presence. You struggled to conceal your chuckles with your own pleasure as your lips got nearer and nearer to his ear.

You slowly opened your mouth so you could let out a nice warm wave of your breath over his ear. You smirked at how adorable your boyfriend's flustered face looked close up. With your free hand, you stroked away strands of golden hair, taking extra care to expose his ear even more.

And then you leaned in close and whispered,

"Cum."

Thoma's eyes popped open. He let out a little yelp. You bit your lip, planting your hand on his shoulder to keep him pinned down on the bed where he belonged. You began to pant harder as you pushed your hand past full speed to the point where it was becoming a blur along with Thoma's cock.

"Yes . . ."

"Oh . . . Oh, Y/N please . . . I'm so close!"

"Are ya?" you asked almost teasingly.

"Ye- yeah!"

"Then cum."

You waggled your tongue, putting all your remaining strength and energy into finishing him off.

"Yes . . . yes . . ." The two of you were panting intensely. You don't know how but for some reason, you could sense how close he was. It got you to stroke even faster.

"Cum for me, Thoma."

"Oh . . . Oh, Y/N, yes . . . yes . . ." Thoma's eyes suddenly popped open wide and white. "YES!"

He let out one final shriek. And the cum all burst out of his cock like a little white fountain. The two of you stiffened and stared at it together. You couldn't help but laugh at your boyfriend's face- he was practically gaping. He looked more surprised than you that he was able to produce that kind of stuff at that amount.

" . . . wow . . ."

He took a few deep shaky breaths. Every part of his body began to droop. You smiled as you watched him shut his eyes and relax down on the bed with his own small satisfied smile.

"Did you like that?"

"Yeah . . ." he whispered, barely moving. You glanced at him for a while, giving him the time he needed to catch his breath.

"Come . . ." He gazed up at you and raised a heavy hand. "Lay with me . . ."

You did as you were told. You didn't realize how tired you were until you were laying back down with your boyfriend. He was even warmer and snugglier now, especially when he slid his heavy arms around you and pulled you in close.

"Was I good?" you asked.

Thoma gave you the tightest squeeze he could muster and planted a loving kiss on your forehead.

"You were perfect, m' love . . ."

Perfect . . .

You beamed and snuggled up tight to him, scattering kisses wherever your lips would land. Thoma's tired smile grew wider with each one.

"See . . . we can enjoy ourselves together like this without you having to get hurt . . . It's nice, isn't it?"

You nodded contently, blinking heavily. Your eyes were drooping down again. It was nice to see that Thoma was no longer hard. The only issue was now there was cum all over his cock.

"Will I clean you up?"

"Huh?" Thoma barely managed to raise his head and get a glimpse down at himself. He stared at it for a moment before giving a heavy shrug.

"Nah." He flopped his head back down on the pillow "I'll wash it off in the morning . . . Besides . . ." He slid his fingers over your hand gently taking it up in his. "Isn't your arm tired?" He smirked a little.

Now that he said it, your arm was aching quite a bit. So you relaxed, allowing your body to sink into his. He smiled and kissed the top of your head as the two of you drifted off, your hands still intertwined.

"Get some rest, m'love . . . You deserve it . . . You did so well tonight . . . And I'm proud of you." He planted another long, loving kiss on your forehead.

"I love you, Y/N."

"Aww Thoma . . ." you moaned, melting into his arms. "I love you too."

He let out a little chuckle. He gave you a soft warm squeeze. He let out a small soft "shhhhh . . ."

And the two of you slowly fell asleep together.

Warm . . .

Cozy . . .

And very, very satisfied.

Well I hope you enjoyed that! I'll be honest, I've never done or even watched stuff like this so I hope it was written well!

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Anyways, I'll see you next time!