So I've been feeling from Seasonal Affective Disorder related anxiety and I remembered back in my middle school years or as a like to call it my 'Psycho Years' cartoons like 2003 TMNT and Spirit: Stallion of the Cimmaron really came at just the right time, in particular TMNT's idea of Mutation probably really helped me through puberty I think by using my imagination to take my stress about my changing body and in fantasy imagining changing into a beautiful and strong cartoon animal adored by the Turtles and terrifying to my enemies and sort of cementing in my mind that cartoons can make the ugly beautiful (BTAS also helps me with this idea, seeing how many people find not conventially attractive men like Scarecrow and Mad Hatter sexy) I joke I am Toonsexual I'm only attracted to people who come in two dimenstions. So this fanfic is really a throwback to my earlier stories where the heroine is a transformed human (Idea taken from when I borrowed and rented tapes of the 80s TMNT cartoon to refamilerize myself with it since I was in preschool when it originally aired) rather than an uplifted animal

With Jonathan's proposal to become her tutor, for a few moments Vanessa and Don were frozen with utterly incredulous expressions on their faces, Don in particural was amazed by the audacity of the Supervillain, after years of acts of terrorism, he expected a young girl and her family would accept him as a tutor?!

Vanessa however while she also had those thoughts also realized there was something else on her mind, a different reason she was angry at Jonathan wanting to tell her parents where she was.

"Um...Professor..." Vanessa said "...Could I talk to you...Alone?"

"I'm not sure you should go alone with him..." Don said folding his arms "...I insist on going along so I can see what this conversation apart..."

"OK Donny..." Vanessa said "...I guess I would like to tell you about this too, just you none of your brothers..."

Now Don was suspecting this might be about something else entirely.

They went out of the lair a few feet into the sewers, Don hoped those Mutant Dogs wouldn't come back looking for their brother...

"The night before I found you and Riddler..." Vanessa said quietly "...As I was just catching my breath...I had these thoughts...About...How I always preferred the night to the day and...Have either of you heard of The Incredible Mr. Limpit movie?"

"No." Jonathan said "Other than Hitchcock there are very few movies I've ever liked..."

"Mikey's more the movie and TV expert..." Don said

"OK..." Vanessa sighed realizing these two were probably the least likely to know. "...Long and short of it, Don Knotts plays Henry Limpet, a man who wishes he was a fish, gets his wish turns into a fish when he falls into the water, meets a lady fish which causes trouble cuz he has a human wife, at the end his wife...Basically let's him go so he can be with the lady fish and he says 'Maybe all along I was meant to be a fish...Maybe Nature just corrected her error...' and part of me bagan to think...What if this was how it was meant to be...Maybe I was meant to be a spider..."

And both the Ninja Turtle and the Human Rogue realized how serious she was being.

"Are you...Sure this is really how you feel?" Don asked "...That's it's not something you're telling yourself to help yourself feel better in the liklihood there is no cure for your Mutation?"

"The Turtle is onto something..." Jonathan said "...This might be a way you're trying to psychologically cope with your new situation."

"Yeah well..." Vanessa said "...My human life wasn't really that great, contantly bullied at school for being a weirdo, parents who barely understood me...The only people I felt came even close to understanding me, were the people online who praised my artwork, but after last night...I've realized I've felt happier than I have in years! I feel I actually have friends for the first time! And that's why I didn't want my parents to know where I am...I've been thinking, what if I'm happier living the might outlaw's life...Being a Mutant Animal living in the shadows! I've come realize my Spider body is far stronger than my human body ever was...Even if I'm living in the sewers I feel more free than I ever was as a human!"

So kind of deconstructing the early stories where the Heroine just goes on to live a Mary Sue life after becoming a Mutant, here kind of hints that her fantasizing about being a 'midnight outlaw' isn't emotionally healthy