Morning came and 3 things I was absolutely sure about.
1. I passed exams, now my schools will start soon and edward will make sure i get independent
2. Jacob wont trouble Edward but he will make sure i hold up my end of the deal and i am not sure how i will be able to do that.
3. My mom will meet me either with the help of Jacob or Edward. I won't be able to avoid her.
I was feeling tired and sad. I stayed in bed till Sue came to check on me.
'What happened love. Are you not feeling well?' Her concerned voice made me feel guilty for not going out earlier.
'I am fine Sue. has he left for office?' Sue knows I am talking about Edward.
'No he is working from home. Now get ready for breakfast before he asks about you. I don't like hiding things.'
'Can I stay in bed today, please Sue'
'What? Why? What happened?' I don't have an answer to any of these questions. I pulled my hair and groaned in a blanket.
Sue finally smiled and asked 'What do you want bella'
'I really wish he and I could stay in bed and not go anywhere today. We hardly spend time together. Unless i have thrown some tantrum'
'Fine. Let's go, we will tell him, he will feel very happy I am sure.'
'Nooo… dont tell him.'
"Bella, you do want to spend the day with him right?"
"Right Sue. but he lost so much because of me I don't want to trouble him for my silly desire to stay in bed"
With a huff I got up from my bed.
'I don't think you troubled him and ask him maybe he also wants to take a rest today?'
I laughed out loud at him resting. I don't think so. I got inside the bathroom and took care of my morning routine.
When I came back Sue was folding my blanket. 'Sue please, I can fold those you don't have to. You please take care of breakfast.'
'I didn't stay here to fold your blanket' Sue said while a naughty smile played on her lips.
I looked at her questioningly 'I want to know what's your plan to stay in bed' Sue asked I don't know where she is going with this.
'I am not asking him Sue. I will finish breakfast with him wait for him to go back to his study room and then i will be back to rest on my bed'
Sue didn't like my idea at all. She left the room right that moment. I smiled and focused on getting ready. I know Sue means well but i really don't want to disturb Edwards work, he already lost so much because of me.
When I came down Edward was already on the breakfast table reading the News paper. He looked up when I reached the table.
'Good Morning Love' he said, extending his hand towards me.
I took his hand and he made me sit right beside him. I was feeling a bit nervous from yesterday's event. But before he could notice Sue came with breakfast and started serving.
'As the weather is a bit cold I thought to serve everything hot today.'
"Thank you Sue' Edward said
Sue looked at him and then me "Why don't you two talk about your plans today while i make few more pancakes"
Shit. I stared at her. She is gonna put me in trouble. Edward didn't see me looking at Sue; he started answering Sue's question.
'Well, I have a few meetings and calls for office and a few more meetings with Elaser. I might connect with your principle in evening to know updates on your school schedule'
I felt sad knowing he will be busy again. I started my pan cake without delay
'What's your plan, love?' Edward asked
I hated Sue at that moment because she was creating problems. Why doesn't she understand that I don't want to trouble him? I already feel so guilty for making him lose a deal and now Sue wants me to ask him to take a day off so I can enjoy my day in bed. It's such a selfish thing to do.
"Bella?" Edward probed again when i didnt answer for long.
"i…..I …. didn't plan anything. I might work on my trigonometry or something.
Edward laughed "You don't have to. I know you already know everything in that book of trigonometry."
Sue came back from the kitchen with more pancakes. She served Edward before coming to me and asking if I wanted more, I just nodded my head but she didn't put it on my plate. I looked up to her and she was again indicating to me to talk to edward. I shook my head at her and she started pushing me with her eyes.
"What's going on?" Edward asked
Shit, Sue finally put the pancake on my plate and left me alone to face him.
I looked down at my plate and bit my lip. I don't know what to say to him. He took my hand from the table and asked again.
"Bella, will you please tell me what's going on?"
"It's nothing important. Nothing you need to worry about. It's just me and Sue… its nothing really"
"Bella, I can ask Sue the same and she will tell me. I would rather you tell me. Let me decide if it's to be worried about or not"
I felt Sue come up behind me and hold my shoulder to give me support. I know she wants me to ask, he wants me to ask but I feel so guilty ruining his business. I bit my lip last time and spoke
"I just wanted to spend the day in bed."
"What?" Edward laughed at my words "Why were you so scared to ask that?"
"I….." I really don't know what to tell him.
"Tell him everything Bella" Sue said from behind me and I closed my eyes. I know now Edward will be mad again i tried to hide things from him
"There is more?" he asked Sue
I felt his finger on my chip pulling my face up. I opened my eyes to look up at him but I didn't see the anger I was expecting. He looked sad and disappointed. I hated that it made him that way.
"I …I just thought maybe….if possible…if you could and…..but i don't want to trouble you." I took deep breath
"Bella, its okay" He tried to sooth my worries and i tried again
"You dont have to, i understand you are busy"
"Bella what is it about?"
"Can you…. Will… I mean if possible i want….. wanted to ….just spend a day with you."
"What?"
"You dont have to i know its silly i understand you are busy and i know…."
"Bella stop….did you just said you want to spend the day with me?"
"Yes …..but you dont….."
"This is what you are building up to." He started laughing again while I am still trying to understand what's going to happen.
Sue cleared her throat from behind my back. Edward stopped laughing and I looked up at Sue. now what she wants. She just looked at me like expecting me to speak more.
"There is more?" Edward asked again this time his voice was very hard. I had involuntarily replied to his hard voice.
"Edward, I really don't know. I am sorry I just thought this much. I don't remember anything else"
Before Edward could reply to my pleading Sue spoke "It's just the same but her exact words were 'I really wish he and I could stay in bed and not go anywhere today. We hardly spend time together.' and she think you guys spend day only if she had thrown some tantrums"
"Oh god no…" Edward holds his head in his hand. Like it's all his fault not mine.
I squeezed his hand which i am still holding "I am sorry Edward"
he laughed and look up "You have no idea how wrong you are about that" he kissed my hand
And within seconds he scooped me up in his arms. I was shocked. What is he doing? My face must have given me away because his next words answered my question.
"We are gonna spend the day in bed" his smile brightened my mood. I was laughing and smiling as he took the stairs.
"I will send rest of the breakfast in bed," Sue said from behind us.
"Thank you Sue." he shouted loudly and I could feel his happiness.
He put me to bed as soon as we reached his room and turned on the TV. He took the remote and blanket and joined me in bed.
"What do you want to watch?" I wanted to tell him I just want to watch him smile just like this.
"Whatever you like" he looked at me when i said this. But I looked down as soon as he turned his focus towards me. I didn't want him to see in my eyes how I feel for him.
He tilted my face up with his long fingers again. "There must be something you wanted to watch and never got a chance?"
My face turned hot red as i answered this "I don't care about TV or movie i just….wanted to spend time with you"
He laughed again. He is so happy today. He kissed my hair and selected something in TV then threw the remote
He set a few pillows behind your back and told me to lay down. And his phone started ringing.
"Shit….I will be back in a minute. I am so sorry for this" he kissed my hair again before leaving bed
The guilt I felt before started choking my throat again. I am ruining his business. He must be losing more deals just to fulfill my silly dream. I held my tears in check as he soon returned.
"I switched off the phone. No more calls today" he said and came back to bed
I settled back on pillows, he must have noticed my expression because he asked me what's wrong and I just shook my head.
He sat beside me and pulled me closer. Now my hand is on his chest while his hand is on my waist. He kissed my hair again.
"Are you mad at me? I am sorry i didnt switched off my mobile before…"
"No ..No Edward how can i be mad at you. Don't say sorry please."
"Then why are you sad now"
I looked down and bit my lip thinking how to answer that.
"Hey.." He said pulling my face up and freeing my lip. "Just tell me the truth. No more hiding please"
"Edward.. Its nothing I just….. felt guilty" I altered the truth feeling myself turned red again
"I don't understand love. Why do you feel guilty if I get an office call?"
"I just feel that I am making you lose more deals, causing trouble in your business. That's why I didn't want to ask for your time today. I know you are busy…"
"Stop, stop listening to me…do you know what money holds? It's nothing bella. Even if I make 100 business deals today it won't give me happiness, what you have given me. So please don't feel guilty because if you had not asked me I would have missed this happiness."
And truly I can feel his joy, his happiness flowing through his body.
There was a knock on the door. Edward covered our body under a blanket before saying come in. It was Sue with a big bowl of popcorn.
"Thank you so much Sue. Do you want to join us? It seems Bella wants to watch Frozen" Edward said
I didn't even notice which movie he put on. But I know he is teasing me. I just know one trick that is to change the subject.
"Sue what happened to our leftover pancakes?" I asked
"Who eats pancakes while watching a movie? I will serve those to pigeons and sir I always get to spend time with Bella. I know you hardly get it."
With those words she left the room and I snuggled closer to edward. Instead of my hand now my head is on his chest. He kissed my hair again. He never kissed me this much before. I don't know what made him so happy and I really was getting curious. I wanted to ask him but I didn't have the courage and I was worried I might say or ask something which could ruin his mood.
I just glanced up at his face once and his eyes met mine. We both smiled.
"What are you looking at, love?" he asked softly
"You seem very happy"
"I am very happy. Thanks to you. Are you not?"
"I am happy too but…. I am just curious"
"About what ?"
"What did i do that made you so happy today" i asked finally
He just looked at me like he was surprised I didn't know.
"I mean if i know what i did to make you happy. I will do it everyday" i tried to reason with him
He kissed my hair again before answering "You have no idea how good you are, so here it goes. You remember I always told you that I want you to want me but not this way."
Ofcourse i remembered all those times. No matter what I did I couldn't make him happy. I failed so many times. I just nodded in acknowledgement.
"This was the first time you asked me something which was not to please me or serve me. You asked because you also wanted to spend time with me. You asked for something which will make both of us happy. Do you understand why I never felt happy before when you tried?"
Yes now I understand I didn't ask this because he is my master or out of duty. I asked because I wanted it. I smiled at him. I know he is the best person in this world. I put my head on his chest again and kissed him without thinking.
"Thank you my love" with that i felt courageous to try one thing i wanted for a very long time. I turned and looked at him before going towards my goal. His lips. He looked confused. I don't know what my face is showing. All I felt was courage. I don't want to lose this chance.
Before I could pull myself up more to reach his lips, his head bent down to meet mine. And we finally kissed. It started slowly but then my breath sped up and I wanted more of him. My hand reached behind his head in his hair to pull him more towards me. I know I can't slow down even if I want to. Soon I was up on bed, crossed my legs over his, sitting on his lap while my both hands were holding his head on my lips.
There was a knock and my lips broke the kiss with a loud wet sound. And Edward laughed as I tried to rearrange myself back on bed in a better position. Edward said come in as soon as I am again under the blanket. My face must be red hot because Edward just can't hold his grin. Sue entered the room with two drinks. She looked at the table and frowned. Popcorn is still at the table untouched.
I looked down on my lap to avoid her gaze.
"It's been an hour since i left these popcorn" Sue complained
"Sorry Sue, we got busy watching the movie" Edward said but there is still laughter in his voice.
"Yeah, yeah I know. Now finish these and I also brought chocolate milkshakes for both of you. And please let me know what you guys want in Lunch"
Edward turned towards me and asked "what do you want for lunch?"
"Umm anything….." I really don't care about food or movies. He just looked at me and shake his head like he has heard my internal monologue
"Sue how about no cooking we will just order pizza for everyone today"
Sue agreed and promised to bring it by 2 o'clock and told us again to finish popcorn. As soon as Sue left I tried to kiss Edward again but he took me to the table and told me that we should finish popcorn or it will make Sue mad.
We kissed a lot but whenever I tried to take things further he had stopped me. Saying I am yet to earn that and I don't understand what it means. I mean how is that is even possible i used to fuck my master or his friends or his friend's friend. My old master had done things to me that I can't even speak about. How come I don't understand what it means? I tried to argue with him about that.
"You remember the last time when I told you I wanted you to want me but not this way right? You were confused that day too, right? You didn't understand what I was saying. But you understand the meaning of it today, right?"
Yes i nodded my head in agreement "Same way you dont understand what it means to give yourself to someone else. But you will one day and that day i promise i wont stop"
"You said that before too" I grumbled but that didn't stop him. He got his way all day only kissing nothing else.
Night came sooner than I wanted. After 8 O'clock Edward took me downstairs to have dinner even though I said I wanted dinner in bed. Sue kept me company till 9:30 then told me to head for bed. But I don't know where Edward disappeared after dinner. Sue told me multiple times he is busy now but I wanted to see him one more time. At 10:00 Sue had enough of my excuses.
She took me to the bedroom and tugged me under the blankets. Finally I gave up. I was sad that this wonderful day came to an end.