Hi everyone welcome to a new story that is part of a series, then please read the first two stories before reading this one. If you have, then's a catch-up.
So previous…
Do You Deserve Me – after Chloe rejected Pierce's proposal, she was kidnapped by Father Kinley and was forced to learn the truth about Lucifer's identity. Lucifer rescued her after he killed Cain. It was hard at first but Chloe managed to accept Lucifer and they confessed their love to each other.
You Are My Home – Lucifer and Chloe started dating until Eve came in and persuaded Lucifer to go back to his dark side. The couple overcome their issues, Linda had baby Charlie, Charlotte was murdered by a demon and Amenadiel took her up to Heaven. Lucifer left to go to Hell to secure the demons, Chloe is heartbroken until a week later she found out she's pregnant!
Chapter 1
Chloe's Pov
It's been over a week since Lucifer left L.A to go back Hell. No day goes by without my heart painfully ache, knowing that I will never see Lucifer again. Every night before I go to sleep, I closed my eyes and in that blind version, I always feel like I am reliving that night. Memorialising the pain that was melted in our eyes, feeling how our hearts were torn into tiny billion pieces and left them bleeding. I spend my days at home with Trixie and Dan for the whole week as they were still upset since Charlotte's death.
And it gets worse….
Yesterday was the day I found out that I was pregnant and probably carrying the Devil's child. Today, I went to Lux and stayed there for the whole day. Lux was very quiet at that time in the afternoon, not many people were around. Dan was still staying at my place after poor Charlotte's death, Trixie will be there with him because staying close to his daughter is the only thing that eases his pain. I only needed to be alone so I could adjust the news.
I wasn't drinking at Lux, my mind may have melted away from the shocking news of my pregnancy, but I know that alcohol is no good for the baby. I don't even think that I have the stomach as it's was already anxiously twisted in tight knots. But then, thousands of questions began flooding in my head;
Do I want the baby?
Will it be difficult to raise a half-angel baby? Or a half-devil baby?
Will demons come back to take Lucifer's baby?
Will God and other angels come after my baby because he is the Devil's child?
If I get an abortion, will it actually affect the baby?
"Here" Maze's voice suddenly appeared and dragged my head out from the clouds. The demon sat down beside my chair as she got us a short glass of crystal tequila.
"Oh, thanks" I courteously replied while holding a fake grin before I drifted off in a daydream again, but Maze could see through my charade and saw the unhappiness in my blue eyes.
"Now, are you going to tell me?" Maze unexpectedly questioned me in a serious tone as she focused her stare hard on my face.
"Tell you what?" I asked with a curious gaze.
"About what's going on with you over the last week?" Maze expanded her question.
"Nothing's wrong" I lied, and I knew that Maze saw through it. I tried to give out a reasonable answer, "I'm just with still sad, you know, with… Lucifer being gone."
"That's not it" Maze denied my answer as she could sniff that out my lie like a bloodhound, then Maze points out, "Chloe, you've been sick every morning for like a week. You go to the bathroom like every five minutes."
"That's not true" I lie again.
"And, you've been eating a lot of food" Maze mentioned.
"Well, excuse me for being hungry" I dramatically replied with a wide smile.
"Seriously, what's going on?" Maze repeated her question.
"Nothing, I promise Maze. If it's bad, I'll tell you" I vowed because if I am positively pregnant then it wouldn't be long for Maze to find out. And, I know Maze is taking Lucifer's disappearance very difficult like me and the others. Maze was the first and closest friend to Lucifer before me, Linda or anyone else. Now, he's gone, I think Maze is looking for a distraction from the aching pain, same as me.
"Cheers" I raised my shot glass and so did Maze, we gently clicked our glasses together and Maze gulped down her drink in a second.
However, when the cool alcohol touched my lips, I quickly remembered that I can't drink any alcohol because of the baby. I wondered how the hell, for a moment, did I forget about not drinking. I let the alcohol access into my mouth, but I didn't let the liquid slip down my throat. While Maze was distracted by pouring herself more of that tequila into her shot glass, I slowly turned my head around and quickly pour the alcohol back into the shot glass again. Once all of the tequila is out from my mouth, I faced Maze again and saw the cringy curious look on her face. Guessing that she noticed me.
"I just remembered that I don't fancy tequila" I excused with a fake smile. Maze was quiet and I first believed that perhaps she might have bought it, until she began creepily sniffing near me.
"I realise something" Maze purred as her dark eyes curiously began scanning my body from top to bottom, "That weird scent on you, Linda had it as well. That was when she was…"
Maze didn't manage to finish her sentence, but if I was to guess, then I would say that the last word Maze was looking for 'pregnant.' There was a long pause between us until Maze's dark eyes suddenly widen in a shocking realisation, she loudly whispered, "Oh shit! You're pregnant?"
"You're pregnant!" Maze yelled her repeated words and I quickly straight up and loudly shushed her.
"Maze! Keep it down! Okay!" I quietly growled while looking around making sure that no one heard us. I know that Lux is filled with strangers just dancing and drinking, but still I don't want my pregnancy to be spread out as the main juicy gossip.
"Damn, Chloe!" Maze breathless gasped until she widened her eyes in a questionable look, "Wait. Is it Lucifer's?"
I slowly nod as my answer, and Maze responded with her eyes widen in deep shock as she added, "Oh shit. You're carrying the Devil's baby. Did not see that one coming."
"Neither did I" I utterly agreed with that statement, while Maze leaned over the bar counter and grabbed the bottle of different alcohol. She began pouring the liquid into her shot glass and a certain question popped up in my head as I asked in a nervous tone, "Wait, am I carry the Antichrist then?"
"Nope. That's just some made-up bullshit" Maze answered which calms down my nerves then Maze began explaining, "Think about, Jesus Christ was a son of God. But the Antichrist is a son of the Devil, and Lucifer is far from God."
"And more like a back-stabbing bastard" the demon angrily growled as she downed her drink then furiously slammed her small glass on the counter.
Maze's actions spoke louder than words when it goes to understanding her feelings and yells loudly to me that Maze is still very pissed off at Lucifer. From her chauvinistic point of view, Maze thinks that Lucifer selfishly abandoned her without saying goodbye to her. I understand her ubiquitous rage because, as far as I know, Maze was Lucifer's closest friend, so it must have felt a punch in the chest if her best friend left without saying a word.
"Hey guys" Linda cheerful voice echoed from behind us. She slithered through the crowd wearing a black, long sleeve shirt with flamboyantly followers printed. The first thing I noticed was that she was carrying a baby carrier basket and I quickly realised that her baby boy, Charlie was resting in it.
"Linda, what are you doing here?" I asked with a bright but baffled grin, as I thought that Linda she was staying at her home with her baby.
"Heard you were here and thought of checking up with you guys" Linda answered as she sat herself next to me on the right after she carefully and placed Charlie in a carrier basket on top of the bar counter.
"So, what we are talking about?" Linda asked as she took out a long bottle of orange juice from her bag. It wasn't for the baby, but it was for herself as Linda couldn't have any alcohol same as me because it disrupts the milk-producing when she's breastfeeding the baby.
I thought since she asked, it wouldn't hurt to tell Linda the truth, especially now since Maze knows. So, I was about to explain to Linda about my pregnancy, "Well, actually…"
"Chloe's pregnant" Maze quickly blurted out my answer after she drank more from that alcohol bottle.
"Maze!" I faced the demon and shouted in a loud, irritated tone.
"Fu…" Linda choked on her fruity juice and coughed till her voice was clear enough for her to speak properly. However, Linda came pit speechless as expected, "Wha… you… pre… What!?"
"Yeah, I'm pregnant" I admitted.
"Holy sh…" Linda muttered in a dumbstruck tone, "Wait, is it Lucifer's?"
"Shocked me as well" Maze confessed.
"How do you feel?" Linda faced me with a deep anxious look on her face.
"I don't know. I don't know what to feel. It's just so fast. First Lucifer left and now I found out I'm pregnant with his child" I answered as my breathing began in an uneasy pace and my heart began beating fast like it could pop out from my chest. All day, I've been questioning myself about how should I feel about this pregnancy.
I was so lost in my mind that I didn't that my hand reached down to grab my shot glass, with the tequila that I spit out before, and drank it into my mouth again. When tasty alcohol touches my inside wet skin and my dried tongue, I quickly evoked myself about not drinking alcohol. I spat the tequila out again and groaned, "Oh God! Somebody take this away from me!"
"Here, here" Maze offered to remove the shot glass from my hand and distance it from me. Then, Maze decided to drink the tequila, which made me feel very nauseated since she swallowed the liquid that I spat out twice. But, Linda's sedating voice distracts me from Maze for the moment.
"Calm down. Maybe you're not actually pregnant" Linda reached over and rested her hand softly on the side of my arm.
"What?" I gave a puzzled stare.
"When I got pregnant with Charlie, I took that test like six tests to make sure it's true" Linda explained as my eyes darted to cute Charlie, seeing him fiddling with his tiny fingers and putting them into his mouth. Linda continued, "Because, honestly, I never expected that Amenadiel and I could actually, you know."
Maze and I nodded as we all believed that angels can reproduce offsprings until now. Linda added, "Point is, it could be a false positive. How many did you take?"
"I took about three, two yesterday and one this morning" I answered.
"Maybe you didn't pee on the stick right?" Maze improbability wondered.
"This isn't my first pregnancy you know" I reminded Maze about the fact that I had Trixie as my first child, "But, I'll do a few more when I get home."
"Great, let's go" Maze eloquently encouraged as she quickly stood up from her seating position.
"What? Now?" I questioned.
"Yeah, come on. It's like the final of the X Factor. Phone in adding an 01 for a negative or an 02 if you want to see a Satan Junior" Maze cheerfully joked with a wide smile and a derisive laugh like she was prioritising the pregnancy.
Maze already took off from her seat and was heading towards the staircase, Linda and I both shared a perplexed share before we decided to follow Maze out of Lux. Linda carried baby Charlie into her car and secure his safety in the back passers seat, while I drove down in my car with Maze next to me. I drove quite slowly on the main road as the fast speeding from the car and those around me were causing a lot of butterflies to flutter inside my stomach.
We reached to my apartment which appears empty and quiet, I guessed that Dan took Trixie out for a long walk on the sunny beach. It was great that they won't here, so they wouldn't witness me and the other coming in with anxious and suspicious looks on our faces. The first thing I did when I entered inside was to drink a lot of water enough to make my bladder almost exploded. When it was time for me to go into the bathroom upstairs inside my bedroom, I carefully peed on the three pregnancy sticks.
Time flew past after a few minutes, Linda and Maze were waiting patiently on the side of the bedroom as Linda glanced down at her watch. Meanwhile, I was sitting down on the end of my bed nervously as the bed started to slightly vibrate as my legs began shaking, while my fingers began fiddling with each other. Linda sat down beside me and her hands covered over mine, feeling her warm touch smoothly stops the shakiness within my arms and slowly calms down my nerves.
She softly spoke, "How are you feeling?"
"Honestly, really nerves" I calmly answered while I was trying to control my heavy breathing.
"You'll be okay" Linda gave a friendly smile, and I returned with a thankful grin but it quickly melted away.
"Chloe, do you want the baby?" Linda asked the most important question that was repeating endlessly in my exhausted head.
"I um…" the words quickly dried out from my mouth, I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe in before I presented an honest answer, "I actually don't know."
"I mean, when I found out I was pregnant, I knew it was Lucifer's because he was the only man I have been with. But now, all I have been thinking about is what am I going to do with this baby" I managed to bring out some sense about what I want to do.
Linda held up an understandable grin and listened to me as I explained, "I thought of abortion or perhaps give it away for adoption. But then, whoever adopts it probably won't handle them if they soon developed some angel powers or something, but then if I keep it how I would handle it."
"Then afterwards, I feel somewhat bad because Lucifer would have never wanted any of that. He would probably look at me like I was his father who abandoned their own child" I ended in a low tone of disappointment with my tired head dropped forward and my hands catch it. I could picture in my mind Lucifer's face filled with his implausible wrath when he argued about my fallible decisions.
"Chloe, Lucifer will never see you that way" Linda gently rubbed the side of my arm, and her kind voice sounded like half like a therapist and as a great friend, "I know that whatever you do, it is what you think it's best for you and your child."
Unaware to us, Maze entered inside the bathroom and took out the three pregnancy tests. Meet us inside the bedroom and announced, "It's ready!"
Which raised me and Linda to our feet, I want to go over but my legs were frozen to the floor. "Can you look at it, please? I can't" I stayed behind at the back of the bedroom while the others were standing by the entrance of the bathroom. I faced the wall and even after a few silent seconds I impatiently asked, "Well, what's is it?"
"It's negative" Maze revealed with a downcast look on her face.
I turned around with my pale face painted in a deep shock, "What?"
"They're all negative" Maze repeated herself.
"Oh… well, there it is. You were right. It was all false positive" I responded in a light chuckled, sounded happy as I should. My rapid breathing gradually changed into a much slower and calmer pace. I held a wide smile, "Wow, I mean, that was a rollercoaster. That's… that was a close one."
Thinking back at all the time I was so worried about this baby and how I've been questioning myself about it, unsure about what to do with the baby. Now, I don't need to worry because they were all false positives. Linda and Maze both shared a stare until Linda faced me and asked, "So, you're happy?"
"Yeah, I am" my voice sounded very pleased though Linda and Maze won't very sceptical as they didn't believe in my words, and crazy enough, neither did me. At that moment, when I should be thrilled, but I felt somewhat a bit disappointed which puzzles me. I raddled on despite my unsure feelings as I added some short and fake laughs, "I mean. Having another baby, it would have been crazy. Raising it on my own, all the cries, the changing, and…"
My voice slowly dies out at first, until it picks up again with more reasonable explanations as I faced the others, "And, you know, you will have Amenadiel to help you out when your son grew wings and all that. And, Lucifer wouldn't be here with me for all that."
Saying those hurtful words out at the end, I felt my arching heart began tearing in half. It was like reality suddenly slapped me in the face, reminding me of the new world that I was living in now, a world where Lucifer will never be here and where I could never see him again. I grievously whispered, "He'll never be here."
The ladies stood still and silent, their eyes filled with compassion and sorrow. Linda rushed into the bathroom and grabbed some tissues to bring them to me as my eyes were flooding up with sorrowful tears.
"Thanks" I quietly whispered as I used a tissue to wipe the first few tears that were sliding down my cold cheeks then gently dab another tissue at my eye to whip the wetness.
"Come here" Linda comforted me with her wide arms coiling around my back and gently brought my body closer as I rested my chin on the edge of her shoulder.
"God, why am I crying?" I quietly sobbed.
"You tell us" Linda suggested, acting not as a professional therapist but as a good friend wanting me to uncover my true feelings. Even though it would definitely bring me more pain with sore memories, but it would also help me to release some pain. Soon, Linda breaks apart our warm hug and gave me some time to start reflecting on what I've been thinking.
"I know that I said that maybe it's best not to have a baby. But, if Lucifer never comes back and I'll never see him again. Then…" I took a breathe while my fingers started fiddling again with the wet tissues stuck in between them. My wet eyes drifted their stare down on the floor then glanced down at my stomach before I gazed back up at the ladies. I inhaled one last deep breathe before ending, "It would have been great to keep something that belongs to him. Just so I'll have a reminder of him."
Maze and Linda understandably nodded at my truthful reason. I must admit it wouldn't be so bad to have another baby again, I may be in my last 30s but I loved being a mother especially with Trixie. I loved being a part of those precious times during motherhood; listening to Trixie's first laugh, her crying then me making her happy again, watching her from crawling to walking, her first words, and watching Trixie growing from a child to a young, smart and beautiful girl. Thinking about all of that now, it would have been amazing to relive it again, and this time it would have been with the man I love. Lucifer would have been a fun and great father. But now he's gone, and so is the baby.
I whined as I squeezed more tears from flooding out from my eyes, "God it's… It's so stupid. It had to be negative."
There was a long, silent pause between the three of us, adjusting the sad truth that was crushing our hearts. Until, Maze broke the silence, "No."
I sniffed before asking, "No what?"
"No, they're not negative" Maze repeated.
Linda reflected the exact shocked and gawky look on her face same as mine as I questioned again, "What?"
"They're all positive" Maze replied as she grew a small smile.
"Wh… Really?" my dry speechless began completely speechless.
"Yeah, I was lying at the beginning" Maze gave me the three pregnancy tests and when I looked down and realised that she was right, they were all positive.
My jaw was dropped to the lowest and Linda had the same reaction, I looked up to Maze in a confused gaze, "Why did you lie?"
"To show you how you really feel about it" Maze explained with a chucklesome smirk.
Unexpectedly, a wide and blissful smile bloomed on my wet face as I chortled, "Oh, you sneaky, little bitch!"
I raised up on my feet and dashed to Maze and hugged her tightly, and Maze returned it as she didn't really mind the name-calling as she must have expected that. Normally, I would have yelled at Maze for committing such a lie to me, I didn't really care anymore as I actually felt relief instead of angry. I knew that Maze was right, that I needed to confront how I really feel about this baby.
"So? Are you keeping the baby?" Linda asked.
"Yeah, I am keeping the baby. I'm having a baby" I gazed down at my stomach. I didn't know why but hearing those exciting words made me childishly chuckled, "I'm going to have a baby."
The others bloomed the same Cheshire-cat smiles on their faces as we three dug in and I was melted into the centre of our hug. When our heads were slightly close, I heard Linda's whisper, "Oh, and Chloe, you would never be alone."
"Yeah, you got us" Maze added, "Auntie Maze and Auntie Linda."
"Thank you, guys" I happily grinned as I patted each of my hands on the edgy sides of their backs, appreciating their caring support and how they are such great friends for me.
Maze was the first one to break apart the group hug and jokingly suggested, "Now, let's celebrate for real tonight, about how we're going to have our real Rosemary's baby."
I rolled my eyes with a light-hearted smile at Maze's joke, before I asked, "How long have you been waiting to say that?"
"For about half an hour" Maze honestly answered.
"Hmm" I hummed as I packed the three pregnancy tests into a small bag and dumped it into the bin. I didn't want Trixie to know just yet as I want to be the one to tell her myself instead of letting her find it, same goes with Dan as he is still adjusting to Charlotte's death.
"Can't have any alcohol though" I reminded myself and the others, now that I am one-hundred per cent pregnant I cannot have any alcohol whatsoever.
"Perfect. More drinks for me" Maze cheered for herself as she exited out of my bedroom.
We stayed all evening with Linda and I holding cups of water or juices to drink while Maze was drinking out of bottles. Our first conversation started with Linda calculating the timing on the day when Lucifer and I actually made the baby. Then Maze began begging me to spill out the gossip on how it happened, sexually, and unfortunately, Linda was deeply interested and began begged too. They broke me and I revealed a few details on the night it happened.
Suddenly, there was a knocking gently banged on the front door. First believed that it was Dan and Trixie as they might have come back from their walk in the park, although they wouldn't need to knock. I walked up the front door and opened it wide and within a second, my face was bloomed with a deep surprise.
"Amenadiel?" I gasped as the tall angel stood outside my door, wearing a black, sleeveless, heavily modified cassock with 'V' shape neckline that reveals his silver necklace that hangs around his neck.
"Hi Chloe" the angel replied and I gave him a welcoming smile.
"Haven't seen you since…" my gleeful grin gradually faded away when I thought of the last time when I saw Amenadiel. It was the night when Charlotte was stabbed by a Hell demon, and I watched how Amenadiel took her spiritual form into his arms and carried her up to Heaven. I calmly exhaled before I finished, "Since Charlotte."
Amenadiel shortly frowned when Charlotte's name exited through my lips, however he spoke in a heavenly tone, "She's okay now. She's at peace."
"Come in" I stepped aside and allowed Amenadiel to walked through the door entrance.
When the angel reached to the living room area, Amenadiel stopped suddenly as his face was painted with an agitated look, he whispered, "Hey Linda"
The arrival of an awkward silence appeared within the unenthusiastic room. I wondered about the unsureness between Linda and Amenadiel, then I totally forgot about their fight before the demon battle at the Mayan. When Amenadiel wanted to take the baby to stay in Heaven forever without letting Linda to say goodbye. It really hurt Linda and even though I was angry myself for Amenadiel's stupid decision, I understood his fear of letting his son getting hurt in the world. It's a fear from every parent.
"Hi" Linda straightens her sitting position as her eyes caught the sighting of Amenadiel.
"I came to your house and you weren't there, so…" Amenadiel began explaining, but he stops when he spotted that some of that sadness from before was still around in the centre of Linda's eyes. He took in a sharp breathe before he confessed, "Linda, I want I'm so sorry for everything from before, from wanting to take our son to stay in Heaven. Shouldn't have done that to you"
"It's okay" Linda serenely replied in a forgiving tone.
I'm wasn't entirely sure how Linda was able to deduce her wrath and brought out a more friendly mood, but maybe it's has been a week and Linda probably have managed to forgive Amenadiel's mistake. However, I was pleased to see how Linda displaced her anger from before of Amenadiel thinking of taking Charlie away without saying goodbye, and leniently wants to reconstruct their relationship. Maze didn't entirely agree as she is not really a forgiving type, especially now when Lucifer left without offering her trip back to Hell.
"So, were you still up in Heaven?" I asked while walking back to my seating place.
"Yeah. Had a lot of catching up in the Silver City" Amenadiel sat himself down and explained until I noticed how his smile began to fade away, "It was great until I heard about… Lucifer returning to Hell."
Our mouths were gluey sealed and our gazes floated down to the floor, I felt Amenadiel's regretful stare pointing directly at me, "I'm so sorry Chloe."
"I know" a sad smile formed on my face.
"Amenadiel, I know that you know Lucifer more than I do, so is there a way to bring him back? Like, get him to get of Hell and not let any more demons escape?" I asked. I knew it was a huge risk to think about getting Lucifer out of Hell without any demons escaping, but I had to ask. I had to have some segment of hope for me to believe that I could see Lucifer again one day.
"I wish knew, Chloe, I really have thought about it for Lucifer's sake. But I don't think there's anything we could do" Amenadiel answered, and even if his honesty felt like a knife was stabbing through my chest and dabbing into my arching heart.
"So, did I miss anything while I was away?" Amenadiel asked in a more uplifting tone to lighten the mood.
The ladies and I all gazed at each other at the same time, thinking that Amenadiel's question came up at the best and funny time. We faced Amenadiel again and saw the confusion spreading on his face, so I decided it was time for him to know the truth, "Yeah, I'm… I'm pregnant."
We watched as Amenadiel's face into a deep shock with his jaw dropped halfway, he was stuck in with that weird look for a short while, giving Maze enough time to slide out her phone and quickly photographed his face. Amenadiel gasped in a half-whisper, "What?"
"Yeah" I nodded, and when Amenadiel turned to Linda she also nodded, "It's true"
"Hold on. Is it…" Amenadiel questioned.
"That's right!" Maze cheerfully cut in as she wrapped her arm over my neck and spoke in a sally and sarcastic tone, "You're looking at the real version of the twenty-first's century Rosemary's baby."
"Hey!" I sounded offered when Maze continued to compare me to the film character from the movie Rosemary's Baby.
Because, firstly she's more of a housewife in a more social feminist way, and I'm more of a liberal feminine woman who carefully balances my family life, personal life and career life. Secondly, in the film, the audience believed that the baby will rise impurely because he is the son of Satan. Now, I equally believe in both nature and nurture, like genetics are important and I think this child will definitely be a reflection of both me and Lucifer. And, if I will raise it alone, then I will raise the baby exactly how I did with Trixie, by securing them with safety, a home, and good health. But, there is no way that I will ever think that my own child will grow up to become evil like how the world sees Lucifer.
"Lucifer? Lucifer's the father? That's impossible" Amenadiel denied the fact, however, one look at Linda and he widened his eyes in realisation, "Oh, yes, sorry, I've forgotten."
"Wait, does Lucifer know?" Amenadiel asked while facing me.
"No, I just found out yesterday" I answered.
"So, he has no idea?"
"No, but if he does then he'll come back?" Linda asked next as she sounded hopeful for me, knowing that it would mean the whole world to me if Lucifer comes back. Maybe if Lucifer heard that I was pregnant then maybe he could come back to stay with me.
"Linda, if he does. Then the demons will come back again" Amenadiel sadly answered, "I'm sorry, but we can't risk losing our son again."
I felt Amenadiel's fear grew as it's every parent's fear of losing their child. I could predict that Linda was about to argue back until I cut in, "Amenadiel's right, Linda."
I supported his point and in return, Linda and Maze gaze at me with complex and surprised stares. I explained, "I don't want Lucifer's sacrifice to be in vain. And, if there's a chance that he could come back without any more demon running around. Then he would, but Lucifer left so Charlie and us and everyone would be safe."
"Charlie?" Amenadiel held a questionable look.
Linda reached over to the carrier basket and rigorously took the baby out and laid her son in her arms. All of our hearts were uplifted in bliss when baby Charlie was making some small, funny and cute noise before Linda answered Amenadiel's question, "I named him after Charlotte."
A joyously smirk grew on Amenadiel's face as he walked over to Linda and kneed down in front of her, locked his focus on his baby son, he mumbled, "That's a great name."
My eyes were blinded by the heart-lifting view of Linda and Amenadiel hanging closely with baby Charlie, however I felt my heart sank into a deep, dark pole. Looking at the small family made my dreamy mind imagined of what it would look like if Lucifer was here with me. If our child was here down now, we are all sitting on the sofa as Lucifer and I blissfully gaze down at our newborn child. Trixie would be there too greeting her little sibling. I could picture Lucifer being a good father, always positive, always supportive, Lucifer would have been better than his own stupid father.
It wasn't before long when Linda and Amenadiel left and took Charlie back to their home, and Maze left because she was still felt a bit hype and angry at Lucifer, so she decided to head back to Lux to drink down her wrath. I was left alone at my apartment for an hour or two, giving me time to think over about what to do now I know that positively pregnant. I thought about talking to the Lieutenant tomorrow about the pregnancy, so they would be aware and could assign me to do some riskless cases.
Shortly after, Dan arrived back with Trixie after their long walk. Dan seem to be a bit better than in the past few days, he'll probably want to go back to his apartment, but I always tell Dan that there's rush or shame in him for staying a little bit longer. Later that night after having a quiet dinner, Dan persuaded me to let him sleep on the couch and me in my own bed. I repeatedly told him that it doesn't bother me, but I knew Dan would feel bad because I haven't slept in my bed in the past few days.
Trixie was already in her bedroom as I entered inside the bright room. My eyes detected the piece of paper that is glued to the front door and I read the writing 'TRIXIE no boys allowed. Except for Lucifer and Dad.' I happily grinned at Trixie wrote Lucifer's name in the paper, it shows to me how Trixie has accepted Lucifer like he was a member of our family.
Her room was half-filled with her detailed pictures when I walked inside and sat on the side of her bed. I tucked my daughter under the bedsheets and purred, "Hey, monkey. Time for bed."
"Mummy" she quietly called me and continued, "Where's Lucifer?"
Listening to his name escaping through her small lips made my cracked heart arch painfully again, none-the-less I bravely held a fake smile, "I told you, he went back to Britain."
The whole Britain idea was made up by me and Maze, I thought because Lucifer has a British accent, I thought it would be reasonable for people to believe when they hear that he left to Britain. It was a bit harder when some people asked about contacting him and I had to lie about how he changed his name or something.
"Then why can't we visit him?" Trixie questioned, and before I could answer she asked something else, "Why didn't he say goodbye?"
"It's hard to explain, monkey. Not because you're a child and you wouldn't understand, you're a really smart girl, Trixie" I replied. I didn't want Trixie to feel like I was hiding secrets from her or that I'm not telling her something important because she wouldn't be smart enough to understand. I thought of something truthful and easy for my daughter to adjust, "It's because it's hard for all of us to progress this too."
"Lucifer left because something really bad happened…" I started.
"Did have to do with Charlotte?" Trixie asked.
"Yes. Charlotte was caught in that bad thing" I gulped down as the memory of Charlotte's death was playing in my mind like a sad film scene, "And, that's why Lucifer left because he wants to stop this bad thing from hurting anyone else. Like us."
"Is he part of a mob?" Trixie mysteriously questioned.
"No, what gives you that idea?" I gaze a puzzled stare. My daughter stayed silent and avoided eye contacting with me, I've seen that from interrogating suspects and those are the small key details to clue you that they're hiding something. I suspiciously raised my eyebrows, "Trixie, have you watching 'The Godfather' again?"
She slowly nodded with an innocent look on her small face, "Maze says that it teaches us a valuable lesson."
"What lesson?" I questioned.
"If you stab in my friend's back, then I shot you harder in the head" Trixie revealed, "That, and keep your friends close, but your enemies closer."
"Maze" I growled in a low, irritated tone. I do sometimes hate how Maze taught my underage daughter stuff that she is not totally ready for. I leaned forward and whispered, "Okay Trixie, please, please, do not repeat that again to anyone."
Trixie lightly laughed at my request and I widely smiled at her adorable chuckles, then I leaned over and softly kissed in her clear forehead, "Now, time for sleep."
"Mum, will you be okay?" I felt her worriedness through her sweet voice when Trixie asked that question.
"I will be" a sad smile bloomed on my pale face.
I think I was half lying when I answered at the time because I couldn't see what I would really be like in the future, but I definitely knew that I would still be depressed over Lucifer's farewell. I gave Trixie one last stroke over her head before I walked out of her room and quietly closed the door.
Dan was already sleeping on the couch, so I carefully tiptoe through the living and up the stairs and entered my bedroom. Once I was inside, I turned on the night lamp that stands on the bedside table and I quickly got changed into my pyjamas. Raised my legs over the edge of the bed and dip underneath the bedsheet. After I was snuggled into my bed, I didn't straightaway turn off the lamplight as I wasn't exactly sleepy yet. Since today, all I have been thinking about is what Lucifer would do if he found out about the pregnancy.
I pulled a draw out from my bedside table revealing a few folded pieces of paper, and I pulled a secret paper from at the bottom of the draw. Once out I carefully unfolded that piece of paper as it divulges itself to be a letter. But this wasn't just a regular letter, this was one of the many last letters Lucifer wrote to me and the others before he left for Hell. This was a letter Lucifer wrote to me and every night since I have been privately reading it to myself in bed. I laid my body over the comfortable surface of my bed and began reading.
Dear Chloe
If I am nowhere to be found, then it is sad to say that I have decided to go to Hell. Hate me as you wish, but I have come to realise that the demons will not stop disobeying as long as there is no king to rule them. If I stay, they will probably come back for Linda's baby again, or worse, you. And, I will never forgive myself if I ever lose you.
I felt Lucifer's strong passion of his love for me through his neat, inky words. His written letter clued to me that Lucifer already planned his leaving before my arrival at the penthouse. My eyes continued focusing on reading.
And, if I have to be truly honest with myself, I have no idea how long I will stay in Hell. So, it is depressing for me to announce that I will probably stay there, forever. So that are a few things that you must know.
Lux will be under manager control with a few good bar owners who are happy to run Lux for a while before they could arrange another suitable manager who will take over Lux permanently. Maze is on top of the list.
I was amazed at how Lucifer was so responsible so quickly that he managed to sort out Lux, because I think Lucifer knew that I would have been worried about what would have happened to his favourite place.
I have written a will and savings account for all my money that should be equally shared, when needed, to those who are in my contact. Linda will need it, especially for her child. Miss Lopez if she needs it, of course. Some for poor Daniel as I believe he wants to be involved with Charlotte's funeral. You and Maze are safe with the money, that includes that little urchin of yours. She may use the money for school and for college, and it's probably best for you to check that the little parasite doesn't use the money to buy herself some delicious chocolate cakes.
I lightly chuckled at the end of that sentence, at how Lucifer was so caring towards Trixie. I felt the pureness of his heart through his tendering words.
Detective, I know that sorting out management for Lux and saving accounts, will not make things better for you, or for the both of us. But, I need you to know that every moment with you was the most precious time with me. Every kiss, every fight, every warm touch, every time you rolled your eyes, I will have them photographed in my mind as one of the most happiest times of my life.
Because before I meet you, I have never felt love and passion and desire, not like how I feel for you. How your blue eyes sparkle like the night stars, your hair flows like a golden river, your ruby lips taste heavily sweeter. Your warm touch touching my skin, making me feel so welcome, so accepted, and mostly so loved that I wonder sometimes how on Earth did I deserve the love from the most perfect creature.
I will accept your rage for thinking that it is selfish of me to leave without saying goodbye. But, truthfully I think my heart wouldn't stand to look at you in tears of sadness. I may be the Devil, but I'm not that strong enough. Not like you.
If I may Detective, could I ask you one last favour? And that favour is for you to live a long, happy life. Solve cases with an open mind, save lives like a great detective as you are, spend every moment with your child. And, if there is a slight chance, for you to find another man who treats you with respect and kindness. Then, please do whatever your heart desires.
My happiness is your happiness.
My heart will always belong to you. Always.
Your love, Lucifer.
I couldn't stop the tears from flooding out from my eyes, as they slide down over my red cheeks and fell off from the edge of my chin to splashing down on the bed's surface. Rereading his heartbreaking words was like reliving the moment where Lucifer and I were saying our last goodbyes at his penthouse. I was glad that I managed to get at the apartment in time before Lucifer would have left. I admit that saying our heartbreaking goodbyes was probably the most hardest thing I have ever done, but I rather been there with Lucifer than not at all.
Then, I thought of something when Amenadiel mentioned that he has tried to brainstormed ideas of getting Lucifer back without letting the demons out again. I tucked my fingers together in a prayer position, closed my wet eyes and exhaled a deep breathe before I started to pray, "God, I know I'm not a prayer person, especially to you since you have been basically a bad father to Lucifer and, well I never believed in you for most of my life."
I started with deep honestly because since I learnt about Lucifer's true past, I deeply despise his father, God, for being a terrible father after he kicked his own son out of his home and not speaking to him for like over a millennium. However, after taking in another deep breathe, I put aside my anger and continued to calmly pray, "But, if you are up there listening, could you do me one, simple favour."
I closed my eyes without releasing any more tears, and my voice broke halfway, "And, that is to bring Lucifer back to me."
"You as a parent understand that children are very important. So, Lucifer has the right, no he deserves the right, to be here with me, with his family" I quietly muttered in a deep, depressing tone, and spilt more truthful answers, "And, with his child."
"He has sacrificed so much, he doesn't deserve to be punished by trapping himself in Hell" I reasoned. I was unsure about how god would react if he knows that I am carrying Lucifer's child. Angry? Happy? Complex? Who could tell?
But, surely, if God is omniscient and could see and know everything, then he must understand that Lucifer being a father might not be bad as it could be. In fact, Lucifer could be a well better father. Gradually, I leaned my head back as my prayer was coming to an end, "So, if you are all forgiving and almighty, then please get him out of Hell and bring him home."
After submitting my wishful prayer, I carefully folded the piece of the letter and hidden it inside the bedside table draw. Then, I turned off the lamplight and cuddled myself into my bed, it didn't bother that small parts on my pillow were soaked from my fallen tears. Rested the side of my head on the cosy pillow and nonchalantly close my eyelids, making my version more darker than it already is.
And dreamed of Lucifer.
Hey, hope you enjoyed this chapter. The pregnancy revealed scene was inspired by the same scene from the tv show "Friends" as it was so hilariously funny.
I don't own Lucifer or any of the characters or the episodes from any seasons.
See you in the next chapter!