(WARNING THE IS CHAPTER CONTAINS MENTIONS OF SUICIDE! IF YOU WISH TO CONTINUE, BE CAUTIOUS!)
"(Y/N)-Swan~!, Nami-Swan~!, Robin-Swan~! Breakfast is ready!" Sanji calls to you and the girls. "Luffy, Marimo, Brook, Franky, Chopper, Usopp! Come eat!" You giggle at the sudden change in Sanji's tone as he speaks to the boys. "Good morning cook." Robin smiles at sanji. "Morn'n," Nami says. You smile and lean over the counter close to sanji. "What's cooking, good looking?" You wink at sanji, and soon after you immediately regret saying those words cause now the whole crew is staring at you, including sanji of course. Embarrassed you hide your face in your hands. "W-Well I'm making french toast-" Sanji stutters, a visible blush on his face. "Sounds tasty-...I'm going to uh...Freshen up before breakfast-!" You say while running off to the bathroom embarrassed out of your mind with Nami at your heels. "What the hell was that?" Nami asks. "I...I-...I honestly have no clue-" You reply. "Well I think you might need a little schooling on how to flirt-" Nami gets cut off by Robin slamming the door open. "(Y/N) I need to speak to you," Robin asks. "O-Okay..." You smile while walking over to Robin. "I know why you said that, you like Sanji don't you? And you can't say you don't!" You nod hesitantly, a blush forming once again on your face. "Touche, Robin, Touche..." Nami snickers. "I...I just know he will never feel the same way. Hes just same old sanji, the stupid love cook." You sigh while holding your knees close to your chest.
Later after breakfast...
"You are sitting in your room, reading a cookbook when you hear a knock upon your door. "come in!" You call to the person outside. Slowly someone opens the door, it was brook. "Hello, (Y/N) I wanted to check up on you after the whole incident with sanji," He sits down on your stool his long bone legs crossed. "I understand what you feel for him, and before you aks robin told me. If you confront him about his feelings you would be very surprised with the outcome bad or good." Suddenly a petal falls from his hat. "Oh! right i brought this for you!" brook hands you a yellow rose that was pinned onto his hat. "Oh why, its beautiful thank you brook!" You take the rose and admire its astonishing color. Canary yellow. "I must be going now. Oh and (Y/N)," He stands up to leave. "Be sure to keep it alive, even though im dead! Yohohoho!" He then leaves while laughing to himself.
slowly you get up from sitting on your bed. Placing the rose onto your vanity, you step outside onto the deck walking to the kitchen to get a snack. While walking up to the kitchen you hear a voice. Its sanji hes cleaning the dishes. "Dam skeleton, he knew I-..." he says while aggressively scrubbing a plate, muttering cause words under his breath. "You know what? Ill find a better rose! One perfect for my goddess! A rose fit for a goddess!" He smiles and spins around like a tornado then stands up straight and lights a cigarette. (Wait...a rose? M-My rose?!) you thought to yourself, while panicking you scurry away from the kitchen. (What did he mean about finding a rose fit for a goddess? I-... This is confusing...). You take a moment to recollect yourself then someone calls to you. "(Y/N)? Are you alright?" Its usopp, he tilts his head to the side. "I-...Im okay! Im just peachy!" You lied, you never lie. Something is wrong and you can feel it deep within, a small blob of anxiety is forming.
You run to your room, as soon as the door closes your eyes well up with tears. You don't know why your crying, maybe because you wanted Sanji to really like you or because of the thoughts running through your head. You lay your head down on your pillow and hold your knees close to your chest whispering things you know aren't true about yourself like how bad of a person you are, you should just die, no one wants you. But everything just faded, you went numb. Numbing yourself is all you did when you were at whole cake island to survive, but this time you didn't need to so why did you numb yourself? Why? Slowly you grab your sewing needles and prick your skin, droplets of blood drop off your arm. You watch carefully as if they were a creature unknown to you but so beautiful.
*Click* *Creak*
"(Y/N)?" Its Sanji's voice. (Why was he here? What did he want? Your arm! Hide it!) Your inner self screamed. "Oh my god!" Sanji runs over to your side and holds your arm out. Tears slowly start to form in his eyes, he picks you up and holds you close. "Whatever it is you can tell me... whatever you need i will get for you... whatever or whoever i need to kill i will do that for you just please...Don't do this anymore..." Sanji cries into your hair while holding you. "Please... don't do this anymore (Y/N)."