Sirin POV
"…Are you sure you don't want us to help?"
"Yes, yes. I can handle it if something were to go wrong but I might not if anybody else is here. So, just focus on training a bit by yourself, little sister."
"…Don't harass him."
How cute, little sister. Reminds me of the time that you would fight Bianka for the remote control, or the time that I found your secret stash of light novels.
…Haaah… Just… Why did you lose your memories?
Contrary to my thoughts, I just teasingly smiles at her, "Awww~ little worried that I would touch him~?" I direct my smile towards that purple, Mei I think it was? Behind my dearest little sister.
…Alright, I think I teased them enough. I don't want 2 potential Herrschers gunning for my ass, even though I am confident that I will win.
I just wave my hand at them before they could say anything, "Don't worry so much. I am not into young guys." Then snap my finger to close the void, with the indignant face of them the last thing I see.
"…Haha… It really hurts…"
Seeing as I don't need to keep my mask on, I let out a loud sigh as the feeling of… Whatever the hell it is, but all I need to know it hurts me whenever I see Kiana looking at me like a stranger, threatening to rip my heart apart… Like before… Before mother glued it together.
It wasn't perfect, far from it. I had contemplated on whether to run away from her and the Kaslana family. That they were annoying. That I should have stayed with the Will. That my destiny wasn't to be with them, only killing.
…Yeah. Then mother would always come to me and comfort me. Never yelling at me for thinking like that. Never telling me that I was wrong. Or to change myself.
She just showered me with affection and warmth.
Slowly, I changed myself. The time I thought playing with my new little sisters were annoying, became the best moments of my life. Even though Kiana would try to eat my hair. And Bianka punching me… Fuck…
I still haven't found Bianka… I would gladly exchange my life for her to be here… Ah… She might not even remember me… Just like Kiana…
Nonono, just hope that she remembers! That she is trapped somewhere but still has her memories!
Please… Don't forget about me… I couldn't handle the pain when I first heard Kiana didn't remember me… Not you too…
The pain I felt during the experiment days, fighting for most of my life, rebelling against the Will…
All of it… Just… Pales in comparison to the aching feeling in my chest. I would rather relieve those moments again than to live with the fact that my family was changed. That everything was a lie. A dream. A -
"Urgh…"
I snap out of my mental breakdown to look down, seeing the twitching face of a certain human laying on my lap… Along with some wet splashes on his face… Oops, didn't realize I still had some tears left.
I slowly wipe away the spilled tears from his face then contemplate on what to do. I… Never even talked to a person unrelated to my family… I just ran away after helping people… Oh, right, just do what I do to my little sisters whenever they have a nightmare.
I carefully rub his head, running my gloved fingers through his hair, oh wait, I did it without my glove. I quickly snap my fingers, then watch as the glove disappears, back into my closet, then resume running my fingers through his hair.
"Ah, its… Working!" I unconsciously let out a cheer as I see his face slowly going back to peace. I was only hoping to relieve at least some of his burden but this worked better than I hoped.
…Haha, the mighty and grand Herrscher of the Void, getting all excited over a human boy… If the past me were to see this, she would just launch all of the spears in storage at me while shouting that I am a fake. Or an embarrassment to the title Honkai Queen.
Can't believe –
"Argh…"
I flinch and quickly pull my hand back as I hear him groaning while slightly moving around, then he slowly opens his eyes and looks around while rapidly blinking, I guess to get rid of his tiredness.
Ah! That means he succeeded in freeing Benares! I-I mean he did, right? He's awake, so that means he succeeded!
"Finally woke up? Did you succeed?" I ask, trying to control my hope in case he-he failed…
Ah…Ah…AH! He did it! Hachiman actually succeeded! I feel my body becoming lighter, even though I would really know when Benares wakes up…
"Thank you… Hachiman," I sincerely thank him for helping her… Even though he could have refused or didn't tell me anything.
…Awwwww, how cute~ he's blushing~ even though his eyes resemble those dead fish's eyes whenever mother served fish for dinner, he really looks cute. Ah, he finally got up! My legs, rejoice for your freedom!
"Is somebody feeling shy now~? Why, you could have enjoyed yourself some more on my thighs. Oh and all of them are back at the house, don't worry they know since they came to check up on you, so you can rest easy."
Awww, his ears are red too. Haha, oh god, I really am hooked on teasing him and the others. I can't help it since – wait. Nononono, you aren't supposed to take my offer!
"Hey! I didn't mean –" I try to tell him that I was just teasing him yet he has the gall to cut me off then closes his eyes…
"…Insane bastard. I know that I got a pillow under me but my leg is numb…" I mutter out loud as I have half a mind to just get up yet I remember that he helped me so I stay put, to which I sigh.
Alright… Take this as rewarding him for helping you… Even though he shouldn't and stay away from me… "Oh fine… I guess this is your reward."
I really can't figure out why are you helping someone like me? Even though you should be afraid of me, hate me, loathe me, despise me…
Yet, why can't I see any of those emotions in your eyes? Years of seeing the same emotions have let me see even a speck of it, yet I see none in your eyes.
…You really are weird, Hachiman.
I run my fingers through his hair though I feel something impacting the barrier that protects my realm, making me freeze in place as I quickly take a look outside to see those Valkyries using a new toy of theirs that can apparently find this place.
"…Ah some annoying birds have come knocking… Guess he managed to find this place."
I really should have killed that detestable man when he first asked me about Death.
*ASWASWASW*
Authors Note
Just a little look into Sirin's mind when 8man was sleeping. Anyway, on to the comments!
Guest - ahah, yeah, here's another update and *REDACTED*
patiphat1998 - I wonder too
eightmanantartica2428 - yep, the legendary thigh pillow! Even though its not the face facing valley one lol. And lmao
DrackNath - lmao yep, yep, yep, yep
Alt Zero - *pleased persian cat face* who knows? My imagination is shared between multiple personalities that fucking loves to change things
