"I am sorry. I am so sorry." She starts.
I look at her and can see the honesty in her eyes. She takes a step closer and starts to speak again.
"During the curse I started to fall for you. I didnt realize it until that night when you kissed me. That kiss felt like no other kiss ever did before. With that one kiss you made my knees buckle and I knew that I wanted more. That I needed more. When you started to apologize I didnt want to hear it so I kissed you again. That was when I realized that you made me feel things I've never felt before." She takes another step closer and I take a deep breath forcing myself to stay put instead of taking a step back. I am forcing myself to keep my walls up so she doesnt see what effect her words have on me. I look into her eyes trying to find the lie in them but all I see is honesty.
"The weeks after that were the best weeks of my life. I missed you when we werent together and when we were I couldnt stop thinking about how much I loved you. I just loved everything about you. I loved listening to your stories and getting to know you. I loved knowing that I was the only one one you were opening up to. The night when we first..." she looks at the floor for a second with a sheepish smile. I cant help the small smile growing on my lips as well as the memories of that night replaying in my mind. But with the memories of that night the memories of the day after return as well and the smile fades.
"Then..." she looks back at me with a sad look and I know how the story continues.
She takes a deep breath and takes another step closer. I brace myself for whats coming next by taking a deep breath, putting my walls up and crossing my arms in front of my chest.
"Then the curse broke." She looks straight into my eyes and I cant handle it and look away. Anywhere but in her sad eyes.
"All of a sudden I remembered everything and I was confused and angry. Angry at you for cursing us. That was the night when you were on my doorstep."
"Ruby...Please." I interrupt her. I already went through those memories today. I cant handle reliving them for the second time within a few minutes."
"No, you need to listen to me. Please. I need to say this." She tells me with a firm voice. Once again I am taking a deep breath while she continues.
"That night I was angry and hurt. So I lashed out. I told you that everything you told me was a lie because otherwise it didnt make any sense to me. It didnt make sense that you trusted your enemy's best friend with your deepest fears and thoughts. It didnt make sense that you fell in love with me with all the history between us. So I broke your heart and with the slamming of the door I broke mine as well."