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Chapter Three - BPOV
Over the years, I never realized how toxic my mother-in-law is. Not until the pandemic and the rise of Tik-tok. Now I see women all over the world giving examples of the in-law toxicity, and believe it or not, it's made me secretly fucking hate the woman.
Jasper and I, we fight over her all the time. Believe me, I know it's unhealthy and we shouldn't let his mother, of all people, get in the middle of our marriage, but she does.
My babies are my babies not hers, but the way she talks, you'd think she pushed them right out of her own birth canal.
How are my babies today?
Is my baby not too hot in that shirt?
You really shouldn't let my Bevvy suck her thumb. Imagine the cost of braces.
There's just something about that my that rubs me the wrong way.
The worst part of it all is that she'd never do anything to harm them, so she's their full-time babysitter while I work. If I trusted anyone else in the world, I'd change that, but until they can potty on their own and talk in fluent sentences, then Nana it is.
So, not only do I have to worry that I'm not enough for my husband, I have to fight for my place as his number one. Wife trumps mother. End of story. But sometimes, I have this feeling that Jasper loves her more than me.
"Mom and dad want us to go over on Sunday," Jasper says, sliding into bed next to me. "Emmett and Rosie will be down with their kids."
Don't even get me started on those fucking kids.
"Okay," I say, not wanting a fight at this very moment, and Jasper moves right into my space, his arms wrapping around me and yanking me into his side.
"Mmmm, naked, babe? I love surprises. You're so sexy."
Am I?
I used to think so, but those squirting milfs really have me questioning everything I thought I knew about my body.
I roll into him and press my mouth to his, opening up so he can push his tongue into my inside. He groans, and lifts my leg, hauling me closer until his erection is digging painfully into my stomach. I don't mention it. He gets angry if I ruin the mood, but it feels like he's trying to fuck my belly button, and it hurts.
He runs his hand up and down my thigh, his finger dipping between my cheeks with each downward stroke.
"Sit on my face," he says into my mouth, and I do. I sit on his face and let him lick at suck at my opening. I like it. It feels good. The way he squeezes my ass cheeks in his hands turns me on. I like it when he's a bit rough.
I'm into this. I really am, but then the image of those raunchy pornstars enter my brain, and I can't stop feeling inferior to them. Is he imagining them while he shoves his tongue into my pussy? Does he wish I looked more like them? For the most part, I'm fit. My stomach's a little flabby. My boobs are a bit saggy. My thighs are a bit on the smaller side. I used to think I was a milf, but his search history may say otherwise.
"Babe, what the fuck?" He says when he notices my mind is elsewhere.
"What?"
I play dumb. I'm not going to tell him what I know. I don't usually snoop, but he had been acting strange, so I did a little recon. It's not like I expected to find an overabundance of porn history that bordered on ick.
"You're not into this. I can tell."
"I am."
I'm lying, obviously.
He plops me onto my back and grabs my tits roughly, sucking one nipple into his mouth, and I close my eyes and focus on the feel of his hot mouth and the slide of his rough hand brushing my other nipple.
His mouth pulls off my nipple, and he kisses me as he pushes my legs wide open. He slams inside of me, and I moan into this mouth.
"Whose pussy is this?" He asks, nibbling on my lip.
"Yours," I pant, arching up into his thrusts.
He grunts, and I slide my hand down my stomach until I reach my clit, giving it a rub as he pounds into me.
"Come on, babe. I'm close."
But I can't do it. I just can't. He gets frustrated, but he doesn't stop. He keeps going until he's pushing deep and coming inside me, and I'm left flustered, unsatisfied, and upset.
We both go to the bathroom, and I clean up while he hops in the shower to rinse off. It takes no time at all for him to fall asleep as soon as he's back in bed.
But me, I'm wondering if I'm just a hole for him to put his dick in. I didn't used to think that. But that one Google history search has me questioning everything.