Olivia sat across from her therapist. It was her first appointment since she'd been home from the hospital for just over a week.
"Hi Olivia, it's so nice to see you," the therapist said.
"Hi Dr. Oliveria," Olivia returned with a small smile.
"I haven't seen you in a while. Last we spoke," she said as she went over her notes. "We discussed your anxiety around giving birth. Now, you've had your daughter, congratulations. Giving birth and having a child is one of life's biggest moments. How are you feeling?"
Olivia smiled, "thank you, it feels big. I'm still adjusting to being a mom, it's new, and my emotions have been very um…deep and easily triggered. I had a really rough birth so I'm still healing from that but I have my daughter and she's amazing and it just feels like everything I've been through was worth it when I look at her tiny little face. She's so beautiful and it's been easy with her."
Dr. Olivera smiled, "oh that makes me so happy. Children are such a blessing when you're ready for them."
Olivia nodded, "she truly is. I'm so grateful that she's healthy and she's gaining a lot of weight for her size. She gained a pound in the last week. She came at a little over 32 weeks which is moderately preterm but we're lucky that apart from her being really tiny, she was perfectly healthy. Her pediatrician thinks she'll be at average weight by the time she makes it to her original due date. She's about 5 and a half pounds right now. My mom thinks she'll get fat. I was born at like 5 pounds full term and she said I was 12 pounds when I went for my 6 weeks check-up."
"That's great to hear. How has it been bonding with her?"
"It was hard at first, the c-section made it impossible for me to hold her or even really see her initially then just as I thought it was over I had a pretty extensive hemorrhage. I ended up going into cardiac arrest and I had to have a hysterectomy. By the time I was able to hold her, she was over a week old. I think that was the hardest part, not physically you know but mentally."
"Why do you think that was?"
"It just hurt to know that she came into the world really vulnerable and I couldn't be there for her…if that makes sense. Rationally, I know that it's not my fault or anything like that but still, I wanted to be able to hold and comfort my baby as soon as she came into the world and I couldn't do that. Luckily, she had her dad and two grandmas, grandpa and aunt so she was well taken care of..she just didn't have me."
"That must have been hard- how do you think you're recovering from that?"
"Leaving the hospital, the first few days were rough but I'm beginning to feel leveled. You know, happy, it's week 2 now, Sienna is growing, I'm healing, and that traumatic birth experience is behind me. It helps that I had so much support..my boyfriend was and is amazing. So were my mom, his mom, and sister, and his dad. My doctor and nurses were amazing- miracle workers practically so I'm just getting the chance to appreciate that."
"So what do you appreciate? Tell me about all the positive things?"
Olivia chuckled, "My favorite thing to do is talk about my boyfriend and my daughter so naturally I love this."
Dr. Olivera laughed.
Olivia took a moment to gather her thoughts before she began, "There wasn't a second that I didn't feel supported and loved and taken care of by him. My mom as well- I'm so happy we made up because she was really important too, especially in the aftermath of it all to help care for me- I love Fitz to pieces but I don't want him wiping my bloody vagina and helping me change my pads so my mom being there really helped," Olivia said with a chuckle.
Olivia continued for another half an hour before she ended the 50-minute session to go feed Cece when her timer went off. She walked from the study to the nursery to find Maya with Cece by the changing table.
"Hey Livie," she said as she tossed Sienna's dirty diaper in the diaper bin. "She's hungry. I was just coming to get you. Are you finished?"
Olivia nodded and smiled, "Yeah, my boobs are so full."
"Her diaper was full," Maya said as she lifted Sienna from the pink blanket on the changing table. "She's getting so big. I feel the weight coming on."
Olivia stretched for her and took her, "good," she said as she kissed her forehead, "I want you to drink all the milk you want."
She walked to the couch and sat against the cushion with Cece in her arms. She opened her snap-top shirt then pulled out her breast and began feeding Cece who drank hungrily.
"When is that lady coming for our hair?" Maya asked.
"She should be here by two and Cece should be down by then," Olivia said as she caressed Cece's hair with feathery strokes. Olivia gazed at her and smiled. "God, she is so stinking adorable. I can't stand it. She has us all wrapped around her tiny little fingers."
Maya chuckled.
Olivia nodded. "I'm wondering if I should start pumping."
"Why?"
"I've been producing a lot of milk, she's drinking every two hours exactly but my boobs are still leaking and Fitz wants me to pump so he can feed her at nights instead of waking me up all the time. He hates doing it even though I tell him I don't mind.," She said with a chuckle. "I've been a doctor for 3 years, I'm used to taking up every hour and a half when I'm paged."
"Maybe just pump at least a bottle or two so he can do the feeding sometimes. It'll also be good to be able to measure how much she's drinking with each feeding."
"That's a good idea. I think she's doing about 2 ounces but I can't be sure if I can't measure it. I got a really good pump from my baby shower so I'll try after we get our hair and nails done."
Maya nodded.
Olivia finished feeding Cece and then gently burped her and just a few minutes later she dozed off. This was usually her routine. She slept a lot, which Olivia expected. She woke every hour and a half and would usually be awake for 20-30 minutes before she was ready to feed then she would sleep right after drinking.
Fitz was in the office having a phone meeting with a few of his general managers, accountants, and assistants. After Olivia put Sienna in her sleep sack and laid her on her back in her crib, then grabbed the monitor and went downstairs with Maya to check in with Simone for lunch. Since it was finished, she decided to bring the bacon, spinach, and mozzarella cheese paninis up to Fitz since he'd been in his meeting for most of the morning and she figured he would be hungry by now. Simone put together food on a tray, it consisted of the hot sandwich, a ginger ale, and some potato chips. She stood with the tray and slowly walked up the stairs with it while Simone finished putting together food for her and Maya. Catherine and Gerry had gone out for lunch half an hour earlier.
She walked to his office door and realized it would be hard to knock with the tray. Instead, she called him. "Fitz?"
"Livie, come in," he said.
She didn't want to lean the tray against her stomach so she tried balancing it on one arm and then opened the door. As she did it she remembered her time waitressing and chuckled as herself.
"I wanted to bring you lunch," she said as she walked inside.
He smiled, "I'm starving, I was just coming down."
"Oh-crap- so your meeting is over then."
He nodded and walked to her, "It was a fucking great quarter."
Olivia smiled, "that's great."
He took the tray and kissed her, "Thanks but I'm gonna come down and eat with you."
"Even better," Olivia said.
"Cece is knocked out, I'm guessing…" he asked with a smile.
Olivia nodded, "yeah, I just fed her."
They walked out together and headed towards the grand staircase. "So I'm gonna try pumping tonight. I'm thinking I can start with a bottle or two and see how it goes."
"That's good and even if you don't want us to bottle feed her now we can store it for when you're back at work and drag out the breast milk as long as possible."
Olivia groaned, "Don't remind me, baby. I don't wanna go back anytime soon."
"Right, we won't mention work."
They headed down the stairs to the kitchen. Simone set up lunch for Olivia and Maya on the island and as she saw Fitz approach with the tray she took it from him and fixed him a place setting in front of his chair. They all sat together and ate before the hairdresser and manicurist duo arrived a little earlier than their appointment and they headed to the 1st-floor bathroom that Olivia worked with the interior decorator to turn into a home salon and spa room. The hairdresser washed and treated Olivia's hair then blow-dried and pressed it while the manicurist worked on Maya's nails and toes. Once each was finished they switched and just as they were both Finished and Olivia cured her cream gel polished fingers. Fitz texted her that Sienna was awake. She paid both stylists before she headed upstairs and Maya stayed back as they packed their belongings and then saw them out.
When Maya reached upstairs, she realized Fitz and Olivia had moved to their bedroom with Sienna when she found neither in the nursery. She decided to leave them be and went to her bedroom on the opposite wing of the house to watch tv and relax. She had informally quit her job- after Olivia went into the hospital for the birth, she didn't show up to work for days nor did she call to let her boss know the reason. She was too consumed with Olivia and the baby. There were plenty of missed calls and nasty messages throughout the entire ordeal but she never responded. When she mentioned it to Fitz while Olivia was comatose, he told her not to worry about it because she didn't have to go back. He would take care of her as they agreed. Yesterday morning, she woke up to a deposit notification of a few thousand dollars from Fitz. it was significantly more than she made working and after arguing about it being too much she relented and accepted when he playfully ignored her arguments. Most of her things were back at her apartment and it didn't cross her mind until she saw a text come in from Abby as she scrolled through Facebook on her phone.
She checked the text.
Abigail: "Hi Maya, I moved out of the apartment. I left the key for the doors and mailbox with the super so whenever you're ready you can stop by and grab it. I'm really sorry for everything. Bye."
Maya dialed Abby and held the phone by her ear waiting for her to answer but the phone rang out until she got a voice message. She decided to text back. "Fine."
As Olivia sat on the couch, breastfeeding Sienna her phone chimed. She was leaning against Fitz's chest and couldn't reach her phone on the table.
"I got it," Fitz said before Olivia could ask.
He saw Abby's name on her screen from a text message.
"Why is Abby texting you?"
"I don't know- we haven't spoken since the hospital. Can you check it?"
"Or you could just ignore it."
Olivia chuckled, "Maybe I won't respond but at least I'll see what she said."
He opened her phone and checked the message.
Abby Bff: Hey, I hope you and baby Sienna are doing okay. I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to but I was hoping I could call you. I'm really sorry about everything that I did and I want to make it right. Please answer my call."
Fitz groaned after reading the message inwardly.
"What did it say?" Olivia asked.
"She wants to call you."
Sienna stopped sucking and Olivia realized she was full. She gently pulled her nipple from her mouth.
"I'll burp her," Fitz said.
Olivia smiled and allowed Fitz to take her from her arms and lay her against his chest. He'd dropped her phone in his lap. He tapped her back gently until she burped and then he kissed her hair. She was wearing a cream, long sleeve onesie that fit her quite roomy. Her name was embroidered in pink on the collar. Sienna stretched adorably in his arms and groaned. Fitz kissed her against her hair and laid her against his chest.
"How could you make such a perfect baby?" Fitz complained playfully, "She's amazing."
Olivia grinned and turned her head to him slightly and puckered her lips for a kiss. Fitz leaned down and gave her a sloppy, playful kiss. "We were blessed with an awesome baby girl," Olivia said.
Fitz kissed her again and smiled, "Thank you for her."
Olivia blushed, "Stop, you're gonna make me cry. You know I'm still a little whiny from the birth."
He chuckled, "fine-"
There was a knock on the door.
"Who?" Fitz called.
"Fitz, it's Ari, I wanted to come see my niece," she said.
"Come in," Olivia said.
Arianna let herself in and walked over to them with a grin. "Where's my little twin."
"She's right here," Fitz said.
"I want to hold her," Arianna said as she reached for Sienna in Fitz's arms. Fitz allowed her to take her and Arianna kissed Sienna against her light reddish hair.
"Fuck, she's making me want to go out there and have an unplanned pregnancy."
"Go do it then, it worked out great for us," Fitz said with a chuckle.
"You literally hit the jackpot with Olivia- somehow I feel I won't be that lucky."
Olivia chuckled, flattered by Arianna.
"I absolutely did, the first time in like 5 years that I went raw in someone it happens to be Olivia- god is on my side, obviously," Fitz said with a grin.
Olivia laughed, "Shut it."
Arianna grinned as she kissed Sienna again. "I can't believe you have a kid Fitz- like what was going through your mind as you were conceiving my niece?"
Olivia laughed, "I can't stress to you how much I wasn't thinking. I just decided I wasn't gonna care for the night. Truly, he kissed me and felt me up a little and I lost my mind for the night."
Fitz shook his head and laughed as well, "I was thinking that if I got you pregnant, I'd be okay with it."
Olivia's mouth fell open, "so you thought I'd get pregnant when we did it? It's not surprising when I told you I was pregnant you were very okay with it."
"Yeah, I mean I didn't think you'd get pregnant, I just knew I'd be fine if you did. Like there's some people you sleep with where you just know you'd never want to have a kid with, at least for me and then there's you -I was willing to risk it all for you."
"I totally understand, I knew I never wanted a kid with Herman- and thank god I stuck to that-wait, I said I wasn't gonna talk about him ever."
Arianna laughed, "So Fitz you looked at Olivia and said: this is a potential mother?"
He laughed, "Gimme my baby and get out."
"No, no- can I take her?"
"No," Fitz said laughing as he stood and stretched for Cece.
Arianna rolled her eyes petulantly and gave Cece back to Fitz. "This isn't fair. Can I at least take her for a walk or something before Mom comes and tries to steal her?"
"No," he said again.
"Fine," she said grumpily as she headed out.
Olivia smiled as she watched Arianna. Fitz sat with Cece who opened her eyes slightly as she sucked her pacifier. "Did she disturb you sweet baby?" he whispered. Olivia leaned over and kissed Cece softly against her tiny hand. "Sometimes it hits me that she should still be in my belly, snuggled and warm and being comforted by the sound of my heartbeat."
"Sometimes I think about it too," Fitz said. "But just like her father, she likes a dramatic entrance."
Olivia smiled and kissed him, "my turn to hold her."
"Fine," Fitz said, pretending to be annoyed.
Olivia took Sienna from his arm and cradled her against her chest just her computer dinged with an email.
"I got it," Fitz said as he lifted her laptop from the table and opened it. He knew the password to her phone and computer just as she knew his. He opened her email and pulled up the latest message. He took a moment to read it then his eyes opened wide. Olivia turned to him, "Baby, what?"
Fitz smiled.
"What does it say?" Olivia said with a confused smile of her own.
Fitz decided to read the message aloud.
Dear Dr. Olivia Pope,
I write on behalf of Pfizer's research and development. Recently, we were made aware of a bacteriophage treatment you created to treat a septic condition present in a pancreatic cancer patient at Massachusetts General Hospital. This treatment was successful with no reported adverse effects in the 4 months following treatment. We are interested in acquiring the active ingredients for this viral cocktail to further research its effects and hope to acquire its patent as well as partner with you through the research and development of the cocktail. We hope to eventually make this cocktail available to the public under the Pfizer brand. We would like to talk further and if possible, schedule a meeting to discuss a partnership.
Rachel Guille,
Chief Executive of New Projects
Pfizer Inc.
Olivia's mouth fell open. "Oh my god- is that real?"
Fitz laughed, "It's very real."
"No Fitz- please don't lie to me, it's real?"
He turned the computer screen to her and allowed her to read it as she cradled Sienna in her arms. "Oh my god-" Olivia said again.
He smiled and put the laptop on the coffee table. They sat quietly for a few minutes before Olivia spoke. "I need a lawyer right."
"You have to patent it first," Fitz said. "I'm gonna connect you with my intellectual property attorney."
Olivia nodded, "what should I respond?"
"You shouldn't respond," Fitz said as he pulled his phone from his pocket.
"What? Why not?"
He smiled, "Have your attorney respond." He opened his phone and searched for his attorney's office number. After getting through her assistant he was transferred to his attorney.
"Lisa," Fitz greeted as he put his phone on speaker.
"Mr. Grant, it's good to hear from you."
"So, I'll keep it short. My girlfriend created a drug, Pfizer reached out to her intending to acquire the right to patent the ingredients of the drug and they want her to help with research and development."
"Does she already have the patent?" his lawyer asked.
"No, she needs to get that done and I need you to help her negotiate the contract. Bill me for the service."
"Absolutely- is she close by, I wanna get started on this patent application right away."
"Hold on-" Fitz said as she handed Olivia the phone and then took Sienna who was now sleeping from her arms and kissed her softly on the lips. "Go get em tiger."
Olivia chuckled and rolled her eyes playfully. Fitz headed out with Sienna to leave Olivia to speak with the lawyer. He took her down to her nursery and laid her in her crib before swaddling her blanket around her. He decided to stay in the nursery with her while she slept. About half an hour later, Olivia walked in with a smile. As she headed toward him he reached for her and sat her in his lap.
"How was it?"
"It was great. She's gonna email the Pfizer executive and cc me on it. She thinks I'll be able to get millions for my patent plus royalties if they successfully put the treatment on the market…that could take years but still, I can't believe it."
"I'm so proud of you," Fitz said, "smart and fucking hot."
Olivia smiled and kissed him, "Thanks for helping me with the lawyer."
Fitz caressed her cheek, "I love you."
"I love you too," she said as she leaned down and kissed him again then hugged him tightly to feel his embrace. Fitz wrapped his arms around her. "How does your body feel?"
"Good," Olivia said. "I feel better every day. It doesn't hurt so much when I walk anymore. I think another two weeks and I'll feel relatively normal."
"Are you still bleeding?"
"A little," she said. "I should enjoy it. Once it's over I'll never bleed from my crotch again."
"Are you really gonna miss that?"
"No," she said with a grin. "I'm scared though. My body might change for the better or the worse, I'm scared of the latter."
"What would the latter be?" Fitz asked.
"What if when I'm healed my vagina gets dry and it hurts when we have sex and my libido sinks to the floor."
Fitz groaned playfully. "Tell me something good."
Olivia grinned, "on the other hand, I can get extra wet and easily aroused."
"Okay now tell me something to even me out before I get a woody."
"Can you help me to pump? I wanna try to pump a few ounces for her tonight."
"I was hoping you'd say you wanted to take a shit but fine."
Olivia laughed, "I'm still constipated so I wish I wanted to poop too."
He laughed and lifted her from the couch, holding her gently as he carried her through the door. He let her down just outside of Cece's nursery and closed the door softly. They headed downstairs to the kitchen and she helped Olivia pull her breast pump from the cabinet that one of their maids, Anna, had tucked away. The house was so large that he had to increase the cleaning staff to two full-time employees and a part-time maid on the weekends.
They decided to go back to their bedroom so they wouldn't disturb Cece with the noise of the pump as she slept.
They sat on the couch and as Fitz pulled out the pump Olivia pulled down her top slightly and pulled on the breast pump bra then fastened it around her breasts. After attaching the bottles she turned the machine on and watched as drops of yellow milk slowly dripped down.
"How long do you think your milk will be yellow like that?" Fitz asked.
"I'm hoping for as long as possible. That's why Cece is gaining so much weight."
Fitz nodded with a smile, "So once you pump, will you have enough to breastfeed after or will we have to bottle feed."
"I'm not sure, I want to bottle feed to see how much she drinks in one setting so maybe we can bottle feed when she wakes up."
"You know I'm the one feeding her right?"
Olivia laughed, "Yes, breastfeeding is my job, bottle feeding is yours. Are you happy?"
"Ecstatic," he said.
Olivia pumped almost 5 ounces of milk split into 2 and a half ounces in each bottle. When Sienna woke, Fitz fed her warmed milk from the bottle and she drank 2 ounces exactly. After Fitz fed her Catherine came to take her to spend some time leaving Fitz and Olivia alone.
Just over a week passed.
Fitz and Olivia both stood in the pediatrician's office as she weighed Sienna. Olivia had her doctor's appointment with Dr. Fencer earlier and now they were visiting a pediatrician in her practice.
"This is outstanding," she said. "She's 7 pounds and 1 ounce. She's more than doubled her weight in the month since her birth. Well done Mom and dad."
Fitz grinned, "do you hear that little princess." he said as he leaned down and kissed Sienna's belly. She was only in a diaper and pink socks.
Olivia smiled as she watched him step back and the doctor lifted Cece from the scale and lay her back on the table. Sienna kicked her little legs and arms. The doctor checked her navel.
"Her belly button looks clean and clear of infection."
Olivia and Fitz nodded.
"How much does she drink in one sitting when she bottle feeds?"
"Well, she only bottle feeds at night and she does around 2 ounces," Fitz said.
"When she breastfeeds she drinks until she's full and she's drinking quite consistently every 1 and a half to 2 hours."
"Well, Mom and Dad, she's perfect. She's moving well, she's gaining weight rapidly and she's stunning. I'll give you the option of deciding if you want her to get her second hepatitis shot today or on her next visit anytime within the next month is fine as I'm sure you know Dr. Pope."
"What do you think baby? Today or in a couple of weeks?"
"Let's do it today and get it over with," Fitz said.
"Okay," the pediatrician said. The nurse at the other side of the room brought over the supplies on a tray and placed it beside the doctor then she took an alcohol pad and wiped Cece's leg. The doctor took the syringe from the plastic.
"Wait, is she gonna feel it? Is she gonna feel pain?" Fitz asked.
The doctor nodded, "briefly, she'll be upset-"
"Oh no," Fitz said as he lifted Cece from the exam table and cradled her. "You're not gonna do that to my baby today."
Olivia guffawed and laughed. As did the doctor.
"I'll have to give her the shot at some point," the doctor said amused by his protectiveness.
"Okay, so I'll take the next couple of weeks to prepare her but you can't just spring this on her."
"Fitz she's a baby," Olivia said laughing.
He kissed Cece against her hair, "Do you see what they're trying to do to you. Luckily you have Daddy to protect you."
Olivia laughed again and leaned up and kissed him, "You're ridiculous. I love you."
They quickly dressed Cece and headed out after scheduling their next appointment.
On the drive home, they stopped at Mcdonald's so Olivia could order fries as was their routine when they would return from her doctor's appointments during her pregnancy. She sat in the back with Sienna who was sleeping once again.
Once Olivia got her fries she began snacking on them as Fitz drove home.
Their days at home with Sienna continued. She grew ounce by ounce each day. Olivia continued to work with her lawyer on her patent and began discussions with Pfizer about a contract. Arianna returned to New York while Maya and Catherine began to argue for time with Sienna.
Sienna was over six weeks old now and after her doctor's appointment Fitz finally agreed to get Sienna her hepatitis shot. They were home and Olivia couldn't help but laugh as he complained to Sienna.
"I can't believe they did that to you," he groaned again. "Don't worry my little princess, it'll be okay."
Olivia laughed and shook her head. She rode in the front beside Fitz this time.
"You've been giggling for like 20 minutes now," he quipped.
"Because you're funny. She has a lot more shots in her future, are you gonna freak out every time."
"Yes. I don't see why not," he said with a shrug. "It's so hateful-"
Olivia laughed again, "Hateful? How is it hateful?"
"Because she hates it!" he complained.
Olivia erupted in laughter again, so loudly that Sienna fussed at the noise.
"Look at what you did?" he said as he pulled over on the road leading to their home. They weren't far away. She adored how fussy he was about Sienna.
Fitz climbed out and opened the back seat to ensure Sienna was okay. He slipped his pacifier back in her mouth and once she calmed he moved out of the back and closed the door then he got in the driver's seat and pulled off. Within 5 minutes, they were home.
After they got in, Olivia decided to give Sienna a sponge bath. She readied Sienna while Fitz prepared the bath. When Olivia took her diaper off and wrapped her in a blanket she walked her quickly over to the tub where Fitz was waiting. Olivia laid her gently on the bath support in the tub with the blanket around her. Fitz took the small detachable specialized baby shower faucet that sprayed a small gentle stream of warm water. Sienna smiled a lazy toothless smile as she felt the water and Fitz's mouth fell open.
"No way," he said excitedly.
Olivia's mouth fell open as well, "what? She shouldn't be smiling this early? Oh my god."
"She's 6 weeks old. That little book said she can smile now-"
"If she was a full-term baby but she's almost 2 months preterm, she should be delayed-"
"Well she's not and it's great-," he said as he pulled out his phone from his pocket with his free hand but just before he tried to take the picture Sienna's smile dropped.
"No-" he groaned. "Don't do this to me."
"Please smile, my sweet baby," Olivia said. She'd stolen Fitz's nickname for Sienna some time ago.
Fitz moved the faucet and gently rained warm water down on her tiny body. She was wrapped in a blanket that was now soaking wet and clinging to her. Sienna smiled again and Fitz was able to snap the picture.
"Yes," Fitz said excitedly. Olivia grinned and opened the blanket and gently ran the soft sponge over Sienna's skin with gentle soap. "She's perfect. Look at who we made," she said softly.
Fitz leaned over and kissed her. "If they're gonna come out this perfect we'll definitely have to make use of the other eggs."
Olivia laughed but she'd never really given any thought to the other fertilized eggs after her talk with Dr. Fencer. She would love more children especially since her time at home with Sienna had been so perfect but the idea of surrogacy was not something she was ready to do. To pay a woman to go through a pregnancy when she couldn't guarantee she would come out in one piece felt wrong, especially after her own very difficult pregnancy.
They finished her warm bath a few minutes later and brought her out to the nursery to dress her before Olivia breastfed her and Fitz burped her then put her down for a nap
The next morning when Olivia woke, Fitz was still asleep beside her. She stretched and sat up and noticed the tent from his morning erection under the sheets. She leaned over to him to gaze at his face.
He'd been having morning erections for weeks. When he did wake to see them, he would usually ignore it until it went away, and if that didn't work he would take care of himself in the shower. It was the most awkward part of their morning but usually Cece would wake and distract them from it.
This morning she felt different. It had been over six weeks since Cece's birth and her surgery. Even though she was no longer bleeding, she wasn't anywhere close to being able to have penetrative sex but she was ready to do other things.
She leaned over him and kissed his lips softly as she ran her hand down his bare chest. He was sleeping in just pajama bottoms and boxers.
Olivia shoved the sheet from his body and reached down into his boxers and grabbed his stiff penis. Fitz woke seconds later and pulled her face closer as he kissed her. Olivia moved her hands up and down the length of his cock and began to massage him.
"Hmmm-" he groaned before he realized what was going on and jumped up. "Livie?"
"Sshhh," she said as she moved from his lips and kissed down his chest slowly. "Let me take care of you?"
"We can't start until you're ready," he groaned, frustrated that he was so horny and Olivia touching him was only making it worse.
"I'm ready," she said softly as she reached his groin and pulled his cock from his underpants. Before he could protest, Olivia took him in her mouth and sucked hard. She moved up and down his length, lubricating him until he was sliding in and out of her mouth easily. The feeling of him in her mouth reminded her of how much she enjoyed their love life and how much she enjoyed pleasing him, even if this time he couldn't please her back in return. She moved her hand to the base of his cock and began to massage his balls.
Fitz bit his lower lip and grabbed her cheek and shoved himself deeper in her mouth only to feel Olivia push him even deeper until there was nowhere left for him to go.
"FUCK!" he cursed as his eyes roamed to the ceiling.
Olivia moved her mouth up and down on him, each time pushing him to the back of her throat before she moved back. She did this slowly as she sucked his orgasm from him, making sure she gave attention to every part of him. It took just moments to climax and moan curses in the air. He was so far to the back of her mouth that she barely tasted his cum as it slid down her throat. She waited until he calmed before she slowly moved up and let him out of her mouth. She could hear him trying to catch his breath and smiled as she wiped her mouth then slowly kissed up his wet, flaccid penis then continued up his muscular torso until she reached his lips. He was smiling.
Olivia kissed him softly and felt Fitz pull her against his body and spank her ass lightly. She giggled before she deepened the kiss but Fitz broke it.
"You can't do this to me," he said.
Olivia leaned up and frowned. "What?"
"That blowjob- as great as it was only makes me want to fuck you- which is off-limits right now. My penis isn't discerning okay, it's feral when it comes to you, it thinks that now it's time to fuck. Look at it."
Olivia looked down and saw he was semi-erect. She gasped, amused.
"Seriously?"
"Yes, which is why I've been ignoring it or jerking off in the shower. Blowjobs are only gonna make this harder…your mouth feels so fucking good. Why Olivia!" He complained.
When she looked down again he was even more erect.
"I'm sorry baby," she said as she kissed him again. "I woke up and I just needed to taste you."
"This is on purpose now-" Fitz said as he leaned up.
"No- okay, I'm sorry, no more blowjobs until my vagina is in working condition again."
He chuckled, "This is a really odd ask but thanks- before I forget I asked your mom to babysit tonight. I'm taking you out later."
"Yay- our first date night since Sienna! Where are we going?"
"It's a whole thing, we're gonna take a helicopter to Nantucket and have dinner there then we'll head back."
Olivia smiled, "I don't regret that blowjob one bit. Do you want a handjob to match?"
Fitz pulled up his pants over his erection and stood from the bed then he relented and groaned "Fine. One more blowjob then that's it!"
Olvia laughed and stood from the bed and kneeled in front of him. Fitz pushed down his pants and boxers then stepped out of them. Olivia leaned forward and ran his hands up his legs as she took one of the balls into her mouth and sucked it then she moved to the other.
Fitz stared down at her as she kissed up his shaft and moved both hands to the base of his penis. She began to twist back and forth around his shaft and swallowed the head of his penis and slowly lubricated him.
"Oh my god-" he moaned.
Olivia was pleased with the sound and moved faster as she flicked her tongue against the head of his penis before she began sucking him harder.
"Fuck- take more-"
Olivia took him deeper and Fitz grabbed her face and thrust into her mouth just a few times before he came. Once his orgasm passed he pulled himself from her mouth and stepped out of his pants then lifted her around his waist and walked her to the bathroom. He let her down and turned on the faucet to shower.
"Come on, let's shower together," Fitz said as he walked to her.
"It's okay, I'll just watch you shower."
"Come on," he said as he pulled her towards him.
"It's just better if we don't," Olivia said.
"Okay, I know you're not worried we're gonna have sex because you know that's not gonna happen so if that's not it then what is it?"
"I just…it's not a good idea."
"...because?"
"It's just not?"
"We don't have to shower together if you don't want to obviously but I do need you to tell me what's going on."
Olivia groaned, "I don't like my body okay. I just need more time to adjust until I'm comfortable with it again."
"Comfortable with what? You look the same as you did before you were pregnant with Cece? If anything you should gain weight because Cece made you underweight."
"I'm not talking about weight- I just don't like my scars and I'm insecure about it so I just need some time."
Fitz stepped back to give her some space. "Okay, I'm gonna say something and you're gonna be mad. Are you ready?"
"No- wait till after our date tonight-"
"-no, I'm gonna say it now. Are you ready?"
"No- gimme a second, how mean is it?"
"You need to get over yourself," Fitz said. "You just had a baby 6 weeks ago and you had surgery on your belly. You're human, you're gonna have scars. Get over it and give yourself a break."
"You don't understand-"
"I do-"
"You don't understand, you don't have insecurities-"
"Yes I do-"
"What? Name one?" Olivia said.
Fitz tried to answer but he couldn't so he deflected, "Asking me to think of it on the spot is kind of ridiculous."
"Yeah because you don't have any," Olivia quipped.
"Whatever it doesn't matter because the point remains the same. I'm not saying to walk with your stomach out down the street but why are you being insecure with me?"
"I'm not insecure with you," Olivia defended.
"Okay then show me your stomach. You've shown your mom, you've shown my mom, even Arianna," Fitz said.
Olivia didn't respond.
"I'm your man, show me," Fitz said. "I don't even know what it looks like."
"I'm not showing you my stomach,"
Fitz took her hand and walked her to the mirror. "I'm being an asshole right now but I have to be." He stood her in front of the mirror and pulled her shirt up even though Olivia tried to resist. He managed to get it up until her stomach was visible, forcing Olivia to look at it. He was seeing it for the first time and he was convinced it was in her mind. It was the neatest scar he'd ever seen. It was just thin lines vertical down her navel and horizontal across her lower stomach.
"You had to have surgery to have our baby and you have a scar. It's okay you're still very fucking hot. I shouldn't even have to say this but I'm still very attracted to you and I'm counting down the seconds to be inside you again- why can't you understand that."
Olivia's eyes filled with tears and she wiped them away then turned around and hugged him. "You're an asshole."
"I know, sometimes I have to be," he lifted her around his waist and hugged her.
Olivia leaned up and kissed him softly. "I know it's stupid it's just hard for me to have you look at it but now you've seen it and I have to get over it."
"I've never seen stitches that neat-"
"Well the ones I gave you in Italy were perfect but I get it-"
Fitz laughed and rolled his eyes and walked her into the shower. The water soaked them immediately and he let Olivia down to the ground. She stepped back and pulled off her wet shirt and then pushed down her shorts and panties then stepped out of them. Fitz grinned and lifted her again. His erection was beginning to form. "You're so fucking hot. How dare you hide that sexy little ass from me."
Olivia laughed and kissed him. "I love you."
"I love you too."
Suddenly the sound of crying became audible and Fitz let her down immediately. This was the perfect chance to kill his erection. "The princess is up," he said as he dashed out of the bathroom. "Fitz!" Olivia called.
He grabbed a towel robe from the hook outside of the shower and pulled it one then went to Cece. When he returned he was holding Cece upright against his chest and supporting her back and head. She was fussing as usual when she woke hungry in the mornings.
Fitz grinned.
"She's hungry."
Olivia rolled her eyes playfully and stepped out of the shower as well then grabbed a towel robe from the hook and slipped it on. She walked to him and reached for Sienna but Fitz didn't give her.
"You have to kiss me first," he said.
"Oh yeah?" Olivia entreated.
"Yes, I'm holding her hostage."
Olivia leaned up and kissed his lips softly and he finally released Cece to her. They walked back to the bedroom and sat on the bed, slightly wet as Olivia breastfed Cece. Once they were finished Olivia burped her and they moved to the nursery to change her diaper and clothes and freshen her up before Catherine came to take her and spend time with her.
Olivia and Fitz turned to the bathroom to finish their shower together then went down for breakfast. After breakfast, Olivia called her hairstylist and manicurist to come by and style her hair and nails for her date in the evening. Sienna was down for her nap and Fitz stepped away to his office to take a call so Olivia went to the library in the den to read while she waited for her stylist to come.
It was later in the evening and Olivia was making her last touches to her makeup as Fitz waited for her with Sienna in the nursery. She finished her lips before she slipped on jewelry and shoes in the closet. She decided to reach for a flat pair of gold Dior sandals because she didn't think she was ready to walk around in heels all night. When she grabbed her purse and went to meet Fitz, he was in the bedroom with Sienna, Catherine, and Gerry.
"-I just don't understand why I couldn't take care of her tonight? I'm a little disappointed you didn't ask me, darling, you know how much I enjoy her."
"Maya enjoys her just as much as Mom and she just happened to be closest to me once I finalized my plans for tonight with Olivia so I asked her."
"It's just not fair-"
"Mom, stop, you're complaining about not getting enough babysitting time, you see her every day-"
"And it's still not enough, she's my only granddaughter and unfortunately you two can't stay away from her either so she has a house full of people vying for time with her."
"I understand Mom but I told you that Olivia and I were gonna be home full time with her until Olivia's maternity leave was over, after that, you'll have her a lot more you just have to back off a little right now."
"Back off a little and miss her precious moments, you mean?"
"Honey, come on, Maya is her grandmother, she deserves time as well. Why don't I take you out? We'll go listen to some jazz at the bar at the four seasons?" Gerry suggested.
"I'm not saying she doesn't deserve time but this is your first date out with Olivia, which you both deserve of course but why didn't you ask me?" Catherine defended.
"Mom, I already explained it to you," Fitz said.
Olivia cleared her throat and the three of them turned around to see her. Fitz smiled when he saw her and walked to her with Sienna in his arms. "You're stunning-" he said then leaned forward. "I feel a semi coming on, we have to get out of here."
Olivia laughed and kissed him lightly, transferring just a bit of her lipstick off in the process. She took Sienna from his arms, "oh my sweet baby, mama's gonna miss you so much," she said softly.
Her face was beginning to get round and she had a small dimpled chin. Her skin was the lightest shade of brown. Her hair was still red and her eyes a dull blue.
"Olivia, you look gorgeous. I was just complaining to Fitz about not keeping Sienna tonight but he's thoroughly ignoring me so I guess I rest my case."
Olivia smiled, "I promise next time it'll be you. We can just alternate."
Catherine nodded and smiled then walked over to Sienna and took her little hand and kissed it. "I'll see you tomorrow my love-" Catherine gushed. "Uh- she's so precious. I love her so much. She has us all in the palm of her tiny little hand."
Gerry laughed and leaned over and kissed Sienna against her hair, "she's the star of the family for sure."
Fitz laughed, "Okay, we need to get out of here. I have a big night planned for Olivia and me."
"I'll bring her to Mom," Olivia said.
"I'll go and get the car ready," Fitz said.
He Kissed Sienna against her hair and headed out to the car. Olivia took Sienna to the other wing of the house to Maya. When she arrived at the door, she knocked briefly.
"Come in with my grandbaby," Maya said.
Olivia chuckled and opened the door. She would keep Sienna in her bedroom until it was her nap time then she would bring her to Fitz and Olivia's room and stay there until they returned. She had breastmilk in the freezer for her feeding.
Olivia brought Sienna into the room and Maya came to immediately and took her from her arm. "Hi my baby Cece," Maya cooed, "are you spending the night with grandma?" Maya smiled and kissed her against her hair. "You look good," she said to Olivia. "Get out and leave me alone with my granddaughter."
"Christ!" Olivia said with a chuckle. "I'll see you later." She headed out and met Fitz downstairs where he was waiting in the car just outside the front door. He stepped out and opened the door for her when she walked out of the house. Olivia smiled as he helped her into the car and closed the door then walked around to the driver's seat and got in. He pulled off quickly with a guard car following them.
They drove in silence quickly to the airport. This went through a special entrance to the general aviation terminal where the helicopters parked.
He parked by the concierge area and stepped out and walked to Olivia's side of the car then took her hand and helped her out. Olivia stepped out and Fitz closed the door behind her. Olivia hugged his waist. "I'm so excited," she said with a smile.
"It'll be a quick trip…not very quick, it's 45 minutes."
Olivia laughed, "Even better."
One of the helicopter attendants approached them and introduced himself before he took them over to the lounge area to wait just a few minutes before they boarded the helicopter. Once they were secure they took off. With the headphones on she couldn't hear much but the view underneath them was beautiful. She held onto his hand as she watched the lights of the city underneath them. Once they were out of the mainland there was only darkness from the ocean under them until they reached the Nantucket Island airport.
It was almost 9pm when they arrived at the restaurant on the beach. They were seated immediately on the second-floor balcony with a view of the beach. There was live music playing from the first floor but it carried up to the second floor. "This is stunning," Olivia said as she sat.
"It took long enough to get here," Fitz complained.
"Getting here was the best part. I've always wanted to come to Nantucket."
"I promised to take you but after the Herman thing there wasn't a good time."
Olivia nodded and smiled, "we were getting ready to move into our apartment."
"Now we have a home," Fitz said.
"A stunning home," Olivia said with a grin, "and a stunning baby."
"Capital letters on stunning baby," Fitz said. "She's amazing. I love her so much."
"Me too," Olivia said. "I'm enjoying being a mom. It started off a little rough but it's been smooth sailing for a while with you and my little Cece."
"Yes, the first day you came home you were crying about not ever wanting sex again, and a month later your waking me up to blowjobs."
Olivia chuckled, "I don't know, the surgery was so fresh then that I felt so…hurt, not emotionally or anything but physically hurt and bruised in my body and I felt like I never wanted to have sex again or that I would never desire it again so that was scary but in the weeks after that, as I've been healing that feeling is no longer there. I saw you this morning and my clit throbbed a little bit."
Fitz laughed and shook his head.
"What? It did. I finally feel you know…almost normal again," Olivia added.
"That's good but I don't want you to feel like you need to rush to feel better because of me."
"I don't, I know you think I do but I don't."
Fitz smiled but he didn't respond.
Olivia rolled her eyes, "you don't believe me."
"No, I don't. I think you're trying to convince me and convince yourself of that but it's not true, something's changed with you and it's only towards me."
"Is that why you did that this morning?"
He shrugged, "There's a little wall you put up between me and you that's not up for anyone else that matters and it annoyed me a little bit."
"I- you might be a little annoyed if I say this-"
"I won't."
"I'm positive I'm just projecting but I've worked with the vaginey squad and in labor and delivery and everything isn't always as happily ever after as everyone makes it seem."
"Just to be clear, the vaginey squad is ob/gyn right?"
Olivia nodded.
"A lot of men lose attraction to their pregnant wives and girlfriends and cheat, a lot, I can't tell you how many pregnant women get stds because their partners cheat when they're pregnant and give it to them and their babies. If it doesn't happen during pregnancy then it happens after pregnancy when the mom is healing or her sex drive might be different. Women agree to tie their tubes or get hysterectomies with their partners and then get left because they can't get pregnant," Olivia groaned, "it's not fair but I just didn't want you to lose attraction to me and also didn't want for our sex lives to change because I couldn't participate."
"I think that's why I was so annoyed at you this morning because I wasn't sure where all of these insecurities were coming from. You've been shy in the past but never insecure."
"I know and it's embarrassing and annoying for me too because it feels so unreasonable but also real and I'm trying to get over it but it takes time. I've never been insecure with my body, I've always been happy with it. After this morning I feel good. My stomach was the last thing that was bothering me and it still does a little but you've seen it so…"
Before Fitz could respond the waiter returned with water and bread.
"May I take your order for drinks?"
Olivia forgot to check the menu but she wouldn't be ordering anything alcoholic. She quickly reviewed it, and Fitz did as well.
"I'd like a spiced rum and coke," he said.
"Thank you for your order," the waiter said, then he turned to Olivia.
"I think I'd like the sparkling lychee rose lemonade."
"Absolutely and can I take your order for appetizers as well?"
Olivia checked the dinner menu. "Umm…I think I'd like the grilled octopus with butter beans."
"I'll take the same thing with the crab cakes as well," Fitz said.
The waiter nodded and headed off.
"Okay, what were you saying?" Olivia asked.
"No, I mean, I just think that my problem is and has always been that your insecurities are stemming from me or some fear of what I'll do or how I'll react. I don't like the fact that after almost dying from birthing our daughter, the thing that's occupying your mind the most is that somehow I'm gonna cheat because I'm horny-"
"It's not occupying my mind, it's just there sometimes and it's not even cheating, it's just you losing attraction or something...I don't know."
Fitz smiled and stood from the table then he took her hand and stood her up then walked her to the edge of the balcony by the railing. He pulled her in his arms and wrapped his arms around her. "Do you know what I think?" Fitz said as he kissed her shoulder from behind.
Olivia shook her head, "No."
"I think once I start blowing your back out again all of this is gonna fade away. You're gonna be too busy cuming to be worried about any of this shit."
Olivia laughed, "I know ugh, I can't wait. I want you to lick my entire body."
"Your entire fucking body," Fitz said as he ran his hand down her stomach. "But just promise you won't give me any more blowjobs until you can take my dick again."
Olivia giggled, "You should be thanking me. You came and you came so fast."
"That's what sucks about it!" he complained, "why did it have to be so fucking good." He turned her around and devoured her lips, kissing her hungrily. "I've been wrestling my erections all day."
"Sorry. No more blowjobs. I promise."
"I'm not agreeing to that indefinitely, just tentatively because let's be honest I'll probably be begging you for one tomorrow morning."
"Exactly."
They heard the waiter behind them and turned to see the man approaching with a tray of their food. He placed the food on the table and once he stepped away both Fitz and Olivia sat and began eating.
"So the real reason I brought you out here was because there were a few things we needed to talk about," Fitz said.
"Okay," Olivia said as she ate her octopus.
"So I finally figured out what to get you for your c-section gift."
Olivia grinned, "what did you decide?"
"I decided to go simple…ish."
"Simple for you is still big. I'm excited, what is it?"
"It's two-fold," he said as he pulled out his phone and sent a text.
Olivia smiled and took a sip of her drink.
"First of all…and this has nothing to do with your gift but I was thinking that in two weeks when Sienna is two months old, we could leave for France. If you think you and her are strong enough for a trip."
"Of course, I'd love that and I think that Cece is doing great so she is definitely in good shape for a trip, she might just need a few extra shots but I'm so excited."
"Shots?" he asked. "She screamed last time-"
"Yes, then I slipped my nipple in her mouth and she forgot about it."
"I'd probably forget about whatever was bothering me too if you stuffed your nipple in my mouth."
She laughed and rolled her eyes playfully.
"Okay, so France is happening?"
"100%," Olivia answered.
"Great!"
A waiter walked in with a cart with a few jewelry boxes on top. He pushed it to the table and stopped. Fitz stood and walked over to Olivia and took her hand to help her up from her chair. She walked over to the cart and gasped when she saw it. There were over half a dozen jewelry boxes with a variety of jewelry from necklaces, bracelets, and earrings. There was one specific necklace that was stunning. The diamonds forming the necklace were white and large and it had a large yellow diamond teardrop pendant.
"Oh my god- I love it- I love it-oh my god," she said excitedly.
She lifted her hair that was curled and flowing down her back, "I need to try that one."
Fitz laughed as he lifted the heavy diamond necklace from the box and moved it around her neck then clasped it before removing the necklace she wore before.
"It's heavy," she said as she felt it around her neck.
"Well, there are a lot of diamonds on it."
"Can you take a picture so I can see it?" she asked.
He nodded and took his phone from his pocket and snapped a picture of her then showed it to her.
She gasped, "I love it. Are they all mine?"
"Yes."
She reached for him and kissed him tenderly. "Thank you, they are beautiful." It had to be hundreds of thousands of dollars in jewelry.
Fitz smiled, "I'm glad you like them but that's the superficial gift. I have to give you something that's gonna make you money too so I bought you an apartment complex."
"An apartment complex?" Olivia asked, surprised.
"Yeah, it's pretty big, it's like 15 floors and 12 units on each floor. I got it for a really good price so it's paid in full and the profit every month will go to you. It's a lot of fucking money."
Olivia's mouth fell open.
"Before you say anything, it requires no work from you. A management company takes care of all the work that needs to be done for the property, you just have to sit back and collect the profits from it and occasionally review and sign paperwork."
Olivia was speechless.
"How's that for a c-section gift?"
Olivia laughed as he grabbed him and kissed him. "Where the hell do you come up with this? That's amazing. Where is it?"
"It's in New York City, which is the annoying part but that's where rent is highest."
Olivia laughed, "You've made me the thing I despise the most: a landlord."
"You'll love it."
"Can you take me to see it?"
"We could take Cece down with us and spend the weekend at my place in Soho."
"Our moms will throw a fit," Olivia said.
"Good, it'll give us some practice for the fit they'll throw when we go to France."
Olivia laughed. "Deal."