This feeling in my gut is so visceral that it is frightening. A tangible feeling it sounds and a tangible feeling is going to be when Hiro decides to take away my anal virginity. I am no longer beating around the bush. This build up is now beyond me to show you readers on what is going to happen.

I am lying in bed. Naked, I may add as I am waiting on Hiro to return with the supplies. He believes that it is best to relax my anal muscles before he inserts his 'enlarged clitoris' into me. Or at least that is what I am referring to as. After all, he did say that he wanted to be my girl.

Hiro's silky sheets are comfortable and cool to the touch. The air conditioner is blowing, showing the bumps pimpling out of my skin. It is worry, fearing the inevitable. Never in my young adult life did I think I would be the one taking it. It makes me lament on the days when I jam my dick roughly towards GoGo or Abigail and didn't give them a thought or a feeling of remorse after fucking them. It wasn't like I didn't care about their feelings. I do. It is just when instincts come, I allow it to take over.

Now it seems that karma has returned to cash in its chips. If life is a gamble, then love is the casino. Hiro commented to me about that. He got it from a song. So, if that is the case, he is gambling this opportunity to prove his love by depositing his chips into my casino.

If you didn't get the metaphor, then I suggest…. Let me stop. That wasn't called for. I just can't shake the feeling that Hiro is going to pestle my mortar. He is going to insert his rod into me. And ladies, gentlemen, Hiro is a blessed individual. A bit envious, but his shaft is a tad bit larger than mine. I am quite titillated, surprised that he has yet to use it on others.

And why not? There are more fish in the sea than a guy like myself. Why does Hiro prefer me? Has he seen my track record with relationships? It is amazing that GoGo wants to date a guy like me. It is amazing that Abigail would want me. I've slept with other women. I am unfaithful, unloyal. I hate myself. I don't feel worthy as a future innovator in robotics. I have cheated on exams to get through college. There have been times in which I have stolen ideas, even from dear friends such as Wasabi, Honey Lemon, or Fredzilla. I have even sabotaged GoGo's chance of scoring well on her GRE by having sex the night of the exam. Not because I really wanted it, but feared that she would score higher than me.

I am insecure. I am confused with what I want to do. Why would MIT want a guy like me? I am a liar, a cheater, a deceiver, a heartbreaker. And worst of all, I am a brother fucker. So, why Hiro? Why do you want to date a guy like me? I wouldn't date me. If I were Abby's boyfriend, I would kick that bastard's ass. Don't get me started, readers! Moments in which I wanted to pick up the phone and arrange a meeting place for Abby's boy to come and beat the crap out of me.

I am not worthy of anything, but to suffer. Maybe this is why Hiro is doing this. Karma came in the form of my brother and it is now cashing in its chips. Well, Karma, congratulations. For you are a merciless bitch.

A bitch that is worthy enough to give me what is coming to me.

The door opens. It is not a surprise that it is my brother dearest. He carries a tiny basket in his hand while wearing his red-and-white polka dot panties and a matching bra. He is humming femininely, which heightens my sensitivity. "Hey, aniki," he says giddily. "Are you excited for what is to come?"

He knows that I won't say anything. The kid is enjoying my plight. Knowing that his forcing me to become a muse has become a success. Entrapped in this twisted castle that he calls our love nest. He sets the basket down inches from me. I can see sporting rubber gloves. "I would normally do this raw, but since this is your first time, I would make it easier." Hiro sticks out his tongue as he reaches for a container of vaseline. "I ran out of my usual lubricant." He lowers his eyes. "A dick deprived little girl longing for a cock to call her own can do things." He opens the container and applies it to the gloves. "Don't worry, sweetness. Think of it as giving you a suppository." He giggles.

I clench my teeth as I prepare for impact.

He gives no warning as he inserts a finger into my ass. I yelp loudly. It is to my surprise that Baymax hasn't made his appearance. However, that soft looking marshmallow has been wrapped under Hiro's finger. It makes me wonder who was his true master.

"Your ass is tight," he says excitedly. "Feels tighter than mine after using dildos and that mighty cock of yours." He swivels his finger, trying to stretch as wide as he can. What he tells me is that he doesn't want me to hurt. He explains that anal sex can hurt, especially when one is unfamiliar or is inexperienced. Plus, he knows that I am a man, he doesn't want me to bleed.

"I would love to play with your meaty cock, but that is distracting," he says to me. I can tell by his ahegao face that he wants to partake. However, he knows that time is of the essence. Aunt Cass returns tomorrow. To Hiro, this was now or never. The weekend of being his love slave is drawing to a close. And he is going to make sure that his weekend will be fulfilled, literally and figuratively.

He spools saliva from his mouth and drops it to my ass. He wants it as extra lube to apply his second finger into my ass. "Ooh," he says. "Your ass is inviting. It is saying ``let me take this clitty from your loving brother."" He is laughing. "Won't you agree, a-ni-ki?" He blows onto my dick. The cool contact to my sweaty pores excites my middle man. I squirm as he uses his fingers to spread wide my ass. I want to move but he deters me otherwise.

He doesn't have to say a word. A piece of the evidence is revealing itself by that blinking red light coming from the eye of the teddy bear. And readers, I knew. Hiro isn't as sly as he thinks he is. Even when we were having sex in my bed, that plush toy was watching. As the eyes were watching God, God was definitely upon me, showing his full control.

This goes on for a few additional minutes. He continues stretching my anus back and forth until he feels that it is loose enough for entry. I know, Hiro. Although he wants to make me comfortable, he is a Hamada. Instincts will overtake him. I pray to Mother Mary for mercy.

He clicks his tongue. "Okay! You're good!" He removes the rubber gloves and tosses it to the trash can. "Now, onward to the next phase."

"Next phase," I retort.

In his hands, he has shaving cream and a razor. "You already know that when we fucked, my pussy was smooth as a baby's ass. So, I don't want any rug burn when I put this in your ass, aniki."

"You're going to put it in me raw?"

"Hmm-hmm," he says excitedly. "You spurted into my pussy. So, why can't I?" He clicks his tongue again and flicks my dick. "You were always fussy, my loving brother. But, no more time to spare, I have to get us ready for tonight."

"What do you mean tonight," I ask him.

He doesn't answer the question. I hear the sound of the shaving foam coming out from the canister. He continuously hums as he applies cream onto my dick. He is gentle, applying to any area that has hair. It doesn't go without stroking my shaft momentarily before getting back to the matter at hand.

"You may feel a bit ticklish," he says as he applies the razor to my crotch. I squirm again as I feel him gliding the razor in a downward motion against my crotch. "Such a thick forest, young man," he tells me as he continues shaving. "You know it is good to scorch the Earth every now and again."

"Whatever," I say to him. "I just want to get this over with so I can move on with my life."

He shrugs his shoulders. "That's fine and dandy. It still doesn't change things on how I feel about you."

"Then, why play this game if you know there is a means to an end?"

He uses his hand to hold my ass he shaves around my ass. "Like I said, aniki, it doesn't change how I feel about you." He sticks out his tongue when swiveling around my balls. "What is a game to me? A game means to play. For this game, I've chosen you. You are my brother. A brother who I love very much, despite your imperfections." He takes a pause from shaving. "A brother that has reared me, taken care of me, aspired me and inspired me all of my life." He moves closer to me. "A brother that knows more of his thoughts, his dreams, his desires, his everything. You can't tell me that despite your ways of cheating on women, stealing ideas, playing with people's minds that a person can still love you regardless." He produces a smile. "That is true love. That is dedication. And it shows that no matter how you look at it, you should appreciate that there is a person standing in your corner, willingly."

His face flattens. "All I want is you. You and only you! I get tired being in second place fighting for your affection. It aggravates me that I have to be in line to spend time with you. We live feet apart from each other and we act like total strangers." He grips my leg. "Tadashi, do you recall that night when you saw me and Anna in Aunt Cass' bedroom," he asks me.

I swallow a lump in my throat. "Yeah!"

"Do you recall me crying out to you?"

So, he was crying out for me.

Even now, I wasn't sure it was out of wanting me to save him or wanting me for just the sake of wanting me.

Even though I think she was the one that started the fire for why Hiro wants me. Or she may have authorized the bombing but I am a hundred percent sure that she lit the fuse.

And so did the powers that be.

"Yeah."

"Did you know that the only reason why Anna blew me was to get to you?"

"I...I...I…"

"Save it, Tadashi," he replies sternly. "Anna had a huge crush on you. It pissed her off because you didn't return her feelings. She told me in secrecy that she made subtle hints and you have ignored it." I honestly couldn't recall anything about Anna doing those things. Anna was dorky, an otaku, a wallflower I would have overlooked. In other words, there wasn't anything appealing about her.

"I watched you stroke yourself as she gave me a blowjob. She was pretending that my dick was your dick. All I wanted was for you to reach out and save me. I wanted my big brother to come and get me. Instead, you cream your pants while allowing our babysitter to do that to me."

I begin to feel a bit sullen. Hypocrisy at that. I tuck in my lip. I can see his crestfallen appearance. The glow in his face is fading away. This is the first time all weekend to see his vulnerability.

He turns his face back in my direction. He hits the bed. "Why in the hell do I think I have to play this way to get to you? Do you think I enjoy blackmailing you, playing with you callously, and seeing you suffer at my expense? I felt that in order for me to get your attention, I have to become the very thing that turns you on." He turns his head away. "I don't care if you think of me as a freak that I desire my brother as a lover. I don't care what society thinks about this. I can't help what the heart wants."

"Hiro!"

"That day flipped a switch in me, aniki. It made me realize that in order to get what you want, you would have to take it," he tells me earnestly. "Tadashi, sometimes I think you aren't aware of how much of a dick you can be. Blessed to have a smart mind, to have the guile and the respect of others, and you still don't appreciate it."

"Hiro...Hiro…"

"This weekend was one of the best weekends to have spent with you," he says to me. "Even if it was to your disliking, it felt good being just the two of us. No GoGo, no Abby, no Aunt Cass. Just you, aniki." He moves and lies beside me. He uses his finger to stroke my chest. "Sorry for being selfish, Tadashi. But is that what love is all about? Being selfish?"

"Hiro," I say to him.

"Yeah," he replies.

"Stop talking." I go against my better judgment and go into autopilot. This time I won't allow inhibitions to get in the way. I take Hiro's chin and pull him to my lips. He muffles, but I refuse to pull him away. I get a taste of his lips. It tastes like cotton candy. I invite my tongue into his. I can tell that he wants to break away, but I wouldn't let him so.

I break the kiss, leaving a trail of saliva in its wake.

"Aniki," he says as he catches a breath.

"Come here," I say to him as I pull him into another kiss. I take the lead as I grab his hair, drawing him into the kiss. He gives in, allowing his body to give me control. I use my hand to stroke his dick. He muffles, but I won't let him go. I continue stroking his cock as it is getting harder.

He tries pulling me away. "Aniki, no! No," he says. I don't listen. I continue giving him his sweet kisses. I can feel his dick leaking precum as he is raring to go.

I break the kiss again. I give her a peck to his nose. His eyes show bewilderment. "Aniki," he says again. I don't answer. I turn on my back. I take steady breaths. I spread my legs wide enough to allow him entry.

"Aniki," he says again.

"Is this what you want," I say to him. I overlook my pride as I spread my fingers to my asshole. "Did you say that in order to get what you want, you would have to take it? Was it you?" I give him a sweet, tender smile. "C'mon, Hiro baby! Give me the payback I deserve. This is your moment. What are you waiting for?"

The way I am talking I still can't believe it. Am I this excited for him to take my ass. But, it hit me. I learn that this affair, this situation has nothing to do with conventional norms of heterosexuality or homosexuality.

My brother truly and sincerely cares about me. This love he has given me is nothing more than unconditional love. You heard him, readers! No matter the things I have done to him, to GoGo, to Abby, to anyone else, he still loves me for who I am.

And so here I am allowing him to take my anal virginity. In return, I am beginning to understand the complexities of my brother's feelings. Sure, the feelings I have for him I can't say are romantic. I am being honest. But, I do love him.

I love him. I love my brother, Hiro.

My God, that is what he wanted to hear.

God, have I been this selfish?

He wanted certainty, assurance that no matter what happens, I will be here for him. Damn, do I feel like an idiot.

"Sure you can handle yourself, Hiro," I ask him with a hint of nervousness.

"I've done some practices with onaholes in some of my videos," he says with a smile.

I clench my teeth. I grip the sheets. I feel his cock slowly entering inside of me. I hiss. He is cautious. "I am sorry, aniki."

"Keep going," I tell him.

"But, you're in pain."

"Nothing is more painful than not to realize my brother's dedicated feelings about me," I say to him.

"Tadashi," he says to me meekly.

"It's okay, Hiro," I tell him. "I know you can do it. It's okay! No matter what, I will always love you."

His lovestruck eyes became known as his pupils turn heart-shaped. That is the trigger. Those are the very words that he wants to hear. "I love you, too, aniki." I make a cry as he fully inserts his dick inside of me.

It hurts. It hurts really bad. This foreign sensation inside of me. I make silent apologies to GoGo, Abby, and the few other girls I have fucked. Now I know the feeling of having the shoe on the other foot.

He slowly bucks his hips. "Tadashi! Tadashi!" He is sloppy. I know he will definitely be the girl of any relationship. I don't tell him that. I lie motionlessly as he thrust his hips into me. I try to take my mind off the pain.

I keep telling myself that I am doing this for Hiro. I am doing this for Hiro.

I am doing this for us.

Moans fill the room. I hiss and gasp for breath to newfound sensation. Feeling him poking and stabbing my ass is a sensation I wouldn't recommend to anyone. He lowers his body onto me, slowly grinding my insides.

"Tadashi, Tadashi," he repeatedly says. I can tell that he is rushing the process. He knows that I don't care for this, but he wants to end this so he can become what he desires - to be my girl.

"Don't rush yourself, Hiro," I muster to say. "I am not going anywhere."

He is gasping for breath as he continues bucking his hips. "It isn't that. This ass is so tight. I didn't think giving it ever felt so good." I begin to feel warm droplets dripping down to my face. There are tears in his eyes. He wipes his face, covering his mouth. He is actually crying. However, this time, I know this is tears of joy.

He wraps his arms around my neck as he thrust deeper. I can feel the hotness of his precum inside of me. He kisses my neck, biting into it tenderly. He is staking his claim once again.

It's okay, Hiro. Show me your love.

His eyes are rolling back and my dick begins to swell. I am so focused on Hiro that I forget my erect cock. I feel my dick rub against his soft stomach. He continues biting onto my neck. I can hear him exclaiming his pleasures in our mother tongue.

"Tadashi, I am there. I am gonna cum!" He cries to me. "I am going to cream your virgin snatch!"

"Then, claim it then, Hi-ro," I say as I blew into his face. He reaches and kisses me on the lips as he spurts his seed inside of me. My dick twitches, releasing every content of my spunk onto his stomach. Jetlike streams of spunk crams inside of my ass. At each spurt, he bucks his hips, being certain that I feel every essence of his love inside of me.

"Aniki," he cries out to me. "Aniki, I love you!" He doesn't move. He stays on top of me. I use my hand to rub his hair.

"I love you, too, Hiro," I say to him as I peck him on the cheek. "More than anything in this world. It had to take me being such a fool to realize your feelings."

"I am sorry if I hurt you in any way," he says to me.

"Shh," I retort. "It's okay! Thank you for making me realize how you've felt about me. Sorry for being such an idiot to you."

He buries his head into my bosom. He pecks my chest. He clings to me as if he doesn't want to let me go. He turns his head as he sees the clock on the dresser. "It's a quarter after midnight. Aunt Cass will be back in the morning. Do you want to get ready and head back to your room?"

I shake my head in disagreement. "I can spend the night with you. You did say that I belong to you, did you?"

He becomes tickled pink.

"A big brother never forgets, Hiro-kun!"

He blushes. "It has been so long since you've called me that."

"Well, there are some things we need to catch up, don't we?"

Hiro nodded in agreement. "You know, Tadashi. I don't know if you still want to be with GoGo. I just want to be acknowledged is all." He then flicks my forehead. "But, I want you to end this thing with Abby. She has a boyfriend for God's sake."

"And I have a girlfriend," I retort. "How's that any different."

"We're siblings. We have a special connection," he tells me. "So, continue having your fun with GoGo. Maybe in time, I can learn to like her. Just a bit! I mean, she is kind of cute."

"Maybe one day we could include GoGo in this tiny little discord." I rub through his hair. "She did say she had thought of taking your cherry someday."

He pushes my nose. "Don't push it, Tadashi! Just knowing that I have to share is good enough. I am yours!"

I release a chuckle as I take a breath. "When Aunt Cass comes back, maybe we can do a little shopping. I did recall on your wishlist on your webpage that you fancy certain underwear."

He blushes. "Yeah, I did. Would you like me to continue?"

"Your choice, Hiro. You're sensible enough to know what's best. After all, you're my brother with benefits."

He kisses me on the cheek. I can admit it. He is pretty convincing.

I am getting sleepy. I decide to not worry about the spunk for the night as I am too lazy to get out of bed. Hiro lies beside me as he wants as much warmth from his brother.

"Tadashi?"

"Yeah?"

"Don't go to MIT."

A few months later….

The sound of Fredzilla whistling is making himself known as he steps inside of my new office. He takes off his earbuds as he sees the newly renovated and large space. "God, bro," he exclaimed. "Whose pussy did you have to lick to get this much space?"

"Nobody else, I hope." It is GoGo that enters the office. She approaches me and stakes her claim as she kisses my lips. She returns my kiss, giving her a little tongue before grabbing her ass. She pushes me back. "Frisky today, much?"

"Can't help it, baby," I say to her. "Now only am I commemorating my first day as junior leader of the robotics lab at SFIT, we are finally moving in together."

"Golly, this is so exciting." My adorable blonde friend, Honey Lemon, appears as she brings me a fruit basket. She isn't alone. Wasabi and my brother, Hiro, accompany her. "Here's your fruit basket, Tadashi. Gives it a little decor for your new office."

"And how, my dude," says Wasabi as he observes the office. "I'm glad that you changed your mind about MIT."

Fredzilla slaps my back. "Yeah, dude! It would be weird with you being gone and it would throw off the vibe." He turns and looks at my brother. "Besides, I wouldn't think our little Hiro could handle being with his brother." He winks at him. "Can you?"

Honey Lemon grips Fredzilla's shoulders tightly. "Easy, babe. I thought we talked about this." She whispers in his ear. It is obviously audible that we can hear. "Lay off the porn. That is why we are seeking counseling."

Fredzilla nods in agreement as he excuses himself from the office.

As you can see, readers, MIT is nothing more than aberration. Besides, not too long after my encounter with Hiro, some things changed.

Aunt Cass is currently in a relationship. He is honestly a nice gentleman. They met while she was on vacation at the vineyard. They kept in touch and so much so that the guy relocated to town so he could be near Aunt Cass.

Hiro continues to webcam, but no longer taking pledges from old men. He decided that it would be for his own hobby versus supporting his income. Speaking of income, Hiro's name has been serialized. So, money is no longer an issue. His desire to live in Japan has changed, but he still refers to himself as a mangaka because of his Japanese ancestry. His manga, Otokonoko Trap, is at a newer volume and by coincidence, I hope, details the events between him and I during our weekend alone.

I slap my hands. "Guys! I am grateful to be in a position in which I can stay here with you all. With great friends, great opportunity." I pause as I reach for my girl's hand. "A wonderful girlfriend." I grab my brother's shoulder. "And the biggest cheerleader of all since day one."

I kiss GoGo on the cheek and ruffle my brother's hair.

"Listen," says Honey Lemon as she grips her blouse. "Let's celebrate! Let's have dinner at the finest establishment in San Fransokyo! My treat!"

Wasabi snickers. "Judging by your wallet, we already know that it is the Lucky Cat Cafe."

"Hey," she cries. "It's a struggle being a graduate student."

Hiro interjects. "No worries, guys! We can have dinner at the wharf tonight. My treat!"

GoGo touches her cheek. "You're too kind, Hiro!"

He winks at me. "Anything for my friends, my brother's girlfriend, and my brother dearest."

Wasabi rubs his hands. "Can't wait to crack some shells tonight." He looks at his watch. "But, hey, I got to head back to the lab. Chigusa has my lunch."

"I got to go, too. Got to see if Freddy Boy is okay," says Honey Lemon as she and Wasabi step out.

"I got to go, too, baby," says GoGo as she kisses me on the cheek. "See you at home?"

I nod. "You know it, baby!"

"I love you," she tells me.

"I love you," I tell her.

I can hear gagging sounds from my brother. "For the love of God, I hope you guys don't christen this office as well."

GoGo playfully flicks his forehead. "Oh, Hiro! Someday, you will find that special someone. Just wait and see." She blows a kiss at the both of us before stepping out of the office. As I am following, I feel the hands of Hiro pushing me back.

"Hey, bro, I have to get back to work," I tell him.

He purses his lips. "And you will," he says as he locks the door. "However, we did make certain conditions about making this thing work, didn't we, aniki?"

I watch as Hiro drops his shorts. He is sporting purple satin panties. He takes off his shirt and he is wearing a matching bra. "All of this celebration has made this girl of yours excited." He positions himself in front of my desk. "For the record, Tadashi, it will be I who christens this place."

I can feel the budding erection in my pants. I rub my cock as I know it desires a taste of my brother's asspussy once again.

I grab my brother's hips as I prop myself to put my dick inside of him. "You can never make things easier, don't you?"

"What can I say," he retorts. "You are my muse, my work of art." He shows his heart-shaped eyes. "After all, you do belong to me." He slaps his ass. "Now, remind me of who I belong to."

I lick my lips, learning how supple his ass looks after being reddened by my hands. "Alright, Hiro. Let's have a little fun."

"I love you, aniki!"

"I love you more, Hiro-kun!"

I thank God that on my request of refurbishing this office to make it soundproof. Knowing my brother, this is going to be one of those days.

"Give it to me, baby. Pound my ass, baby. Oh yeah, oh yeah, fill me to the brim of your sweet cum."

My brother, Hiro Hamada. A complex he can be. An intricate character. Nevertheless, he is my brother. The brother I will love and cherish. Yeah, he can get there. Yeah, he has shown me the extent of claiming me. But, I wouldn't have it any other way.

"How about feeling to the point that I could get pregnant?! I would love to have your children, onii-chan!"

Until we meet again readers, so long!

The End!

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