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Posted 7-2-2024
Entry 24:
July 16th, 1993
Dear Aimee,
I'm sorry my handwriting is so bad. My hands can't stop shaking, and my vision is all blurry. I feel like I can't breathe. I'm just SO furious.
It's just-I can't believe it. How could this happen?
I woke up for breakfast this morning and went downstairs and found everyone hysterical. Mum was sobbing so bad she was gasping for breath, Iris looked like she was going to faint and Dad was yelling at someone on the Floo. And when I say yelling, I mean that he was yelling so loudly he needed a Throat Tonic afterwards because his voice was gone. All the glass in the dining room was broken from accidental magic.
I asked what was going on and Mum just started crying even harder. It was Iris who gave me the Daily Prophet as an explanation.
Peter Pettigrew, the man who gave our safehouse's location to Voldemort THAT night, escaped from Azkaban last night.
I-, it's-, how could the Ministry-
I can't write anymore. I'm going to the basement to break stuff.
I wish you were here,
All my love,
Evan
Entry 25:
July 30th, 1993
Dear Aimee,
Last night was terrifying. At first, everything was normal. Dad was out at work (I still can't believe they put him on Sirius' team. I get why, they want to try and curry favour with me, but Sirius' team is for the best of the best of the Auror office. People work for years to be considered good enough for it. It's no place for a man who was only a Junior Auror when he left the force 13 years ago! I'm worried he'll get hurt.). Mum was working on her latest Charms article for the Charms magazine, Charmed Cheats, and Iris and I were about to go to sleep when lights started flashing outside. Mum ran to the window and went really pale, then Daisy popped in and said that a wizard was taking down the wards, and that he'd have managed to get in within the next twenty minutes.
Sirius said this morning that he must have gotten a ward breaker from somewhere. They're SERIOUSLY illegal, but you can get them if you know where to go.
Anyway, Mum was panicking, saying we had to go, so Iris and I begged to go to Black Manor. We know the password for the Floo, and it's safer than Hogwarts, especially with the Fidelius Charm on it. So we Flooed there, and just in time too.
Apparently Pettigrew got inside and ransacked Castle Peverell just after we left. Ranby saw him get in as he and Daisy Apparated to Godric's Hollow to hide in the cottage. A bunch of our stuff is going to have to be repaired or replaced, and we have to stay at Black Manor until the end of summer, at least.
He's coming for me, Aimee, I know it. I don't know if he wants revenge for his master or what, but he's definitely coming for me. I've suspected it since I found out about the escape, and now I KNOW.
But it won't be like the last few years. This time I'll be ready for him, and when he comes, I'll make him rue the day he betrayed our family.
I wish you were here,
All my love,
Evan
P.S. Iris got her Hogwarts letter. Professor Dumbledore came over to visit Ally and hand-delivered it. We're going to Diagon Alley once everyone is finished getting dressed.
Entry 26:
July 30th, 1993
Dear Aimee,
Just a quick note to say that I was talking to Ally. Turns out that Remus will be our DADA professor this year, so at least we finally have someone who'll actually TEACH us. Also, Lockhart got 155 years in moderate security. Ten years each per Obliviation, and then another five for the attempted assault in the Chamber. Plus he had to pay compensation of two thousand Galleons each per person he attacked, and his books have been all been pulled, with all royalties to go towards the compensation. Ally said, and I quote "Skeeter ripped him to shreds."
Serves him right, the poncy prat.
Unfortunately, Lucius Malfoy escaped with nothing but the loss of his Board seat and their elf, Dobby. He also got fined for elf abuse, but that's not nearly enough. But Sirius is still searching for proof, and if anyone can find it, he can.
I wish you were here.
All my love,
Evan
Entry 27:
September 1st, 1993
Dear Aimee,
Today was terrible.
A Dementor got on board and was searching the train and I fainted from the shock. Aludra actually cried; it was so awful. I really can't describe how utterly terrifying and awful it was, Aimee. I remembered you crying THAT night, and Grandma screaming. Then I remembered that tearing feeling. It must've been the day you died and our bond broke.
The weird thing though is that it felt like it wasn't fully broken. It felt like a piece of parchment being half-torn. Like part of it is still intact, as if you're still with me, just, changed.
Lady Magic, I'm stupid, amn't I? You're gone forever, and no amount of wishful thinking is going to bring you back.
I just miss you so much. We all do. Our family broke the day you died, and it's never been fully repaired. I don't think it ever will be. There's a hole in the family where you're meant to be, and there's nothing we can do to repair it.
Not even Merlin could bring back the dead.
I wonder what you would be like if you were still alive. Alive and healthy, I should say. Would you still look like a female clone of Dad, with Mum's eyes? Would you be a Gryffindor? Definitely. You were always so brave. Braver than anyone else I know, except maybe Aludra.
Merlin, I'm very depressing tonight, amn't I? I just miss you so much.
I don't know how I'll manage dealing with those Dementors for however long the Ministry keeps them around. How long I can stand listening to you crying and feeling our bond tear before I go crazy. Magical twins aren't meant to live without each other. Even Sirius and Remus were talking about it. Ron told us how one of his uncles was killed in a fight with some Death Eaters and the other died from the shock.
Apparently the only reason I survived with my sanity intact was that you being sick weakened our bond.
I'll never say this aloud, but sometimes I think it would've been better if I HAD died with you. Being a single twin is just...wrong. I feel like I'm missing part of my soul.
I wish you were here. I miss you so much, I can't breathe at times.
All my love,
Evan
P.S. Iris is in Gryffindor. At least I have one of my sisters with me. At least I can protect her the way I was never able to protect you.
Entry 28:
September 2nd, 1993
Dear Aimee,
That, that hag! How dare she mention you? I rue the day I ever took Divination! She's as bad as Snape, just in a different way. Usually I'd protest Ally complaining to her grandfather, but in this case I fully approve. Do you know what she said? She said you were 'haunting my footsteps'! And she also said that I'd die soon! What kind of teacher says that to a student? A 13-year-old student at that!
Why is that lunatic allowed to teach? Apparently she chooses a student each year and torments them with predictions of their upcoming doom (none of which have apparently come true, I might add).
Oh, I'm just SO mad. I can handle the death predictions, but mentioning you is just too far. It's the second time in two days and it's driving me insane! It's like everyone is taunting me with what I want most but can never have. How am I supposed to 'get over' your death when people keep reminding me about it?
Aludra said I have two weeks to switch courses, and it's very tempting. Ancient Runes sounds useful. It's a requisite for learning warding, which could come in handy in the future.
The problem is that I'd be leaving Ron alone, and I don't want to do that. Maybe I could convince him to change courses too.
We had COMC after lunch, which went very well thankfully. Hagrid is the new teacher, but he has Newt Scamander mentoring him for the next three years to make sure he doesn't misjudge safety standards. He showed us a bunch of different creatures we'll be studying, and it looks like it'll be interesting. I'm glad for Hagrid. This is his dream job. It's even better that we won't have our lives at risk either. At least one of my electives will be fun.
I wonder what electives you would have chosen? Not Divination, that's for sure. You were too smart to do something that dumb.
I wish you were here.
All my love,
Evan.
Entry 29:
September 3rd, 1993
Dear Aimee,
We had our first DADA lesson with PROFESSOR Lupin today. He's an amazing teacher. We were dealing with Boggarts, so Remus found one in a wardrobe and everyone had to fight in class.
Well, almost everyone. I didn't get a chance.
You see, what happened was that first Remus asked a few questions, what's a Boggart, why do groups have an advantage (I answered that one; it's too confused to know what to change into), that sort of thing. Then he had Neville face the Boggart. It was some Death Eater called Bellatrix Lestrange. I guess she was the one who hurt Lord Longbottom back during the War. He turned her wand into a rubber chicken, gave her a giant hat that covered her face and made her voice all high and squeaky.
Almost everyone got a go. Ron's was a giant spider of course, and he took its legs off. Aludra's was her father dead and she hung him upside down by the ankle, with his other leg swinging around and his robes hanging down so everyone could see his boxers. Susan didn't get a go. Before she had a chance to go, it came to me, but Remus jumped between us (side note, his is a crystal ball by the looks of it. Is he afraid of prophecies?) and then it got destroyed after Neville had a second go.
Maybe Remus thinks I'm too weak to handle it. I thought he and Sirius had faith in me but...But maybe it was for the best. My original thought when he said for us to imagine our greatest fear and how to make it funny was Voldemort, but then I realized that was wrong.
My worst fear is a dementor, and being stuck with that awful feeling of fear, trapped and helpless to protect my family and friends.
What would your worst fear be, I wonder?
I wish you were here.
All my love,
Evan.
Entry 30:
1st November, 1993
Dear Aimee,
I can't believe it! Pettigrew was IN THE CASTLE! He destroyed the Fat Lady's portrait trying to get inside Gryffindor Tower! It proves that the dementors were a terrible idea. Pettigrew scampered right past them.
Neville thinks he was going to wait until we came back from the feast and attack when we were all full and tired. I just-
He's coming for me, Aimee. I know it. Remus has agreed to tutor Ally and I in how to cast the Patronus Charm. I'm going to ask if he'll give me some more duelling tips, too. I won't let Pettigrew get his filthy paws on me without a fight, that's for sure.
He won't be the one walking away when we finally fight. I won't let him get away with what he's done to our family, and I won't let him take another child from Mum and Dad. Ally and I overheard them whispering to each other (I think they were called in to help with the search) and I heard how frightened Mum is of something happening to Iris and I. I know how much they grieve for you. I won't add my death to that pain.
I wish you were here.
All my love,
Evan