A/N: This chapter has mentions/depictions of suicide. You've been warned.
Newt- It was morning. After last night, I didn't think morning would come. Wicked took more kids, they took lives; they took Minho, and Julia… Oh, Princess… How was I supposed to help her through all this? She was already bloody messed up from losing Gally, feeling guilty about Chuck, and now her best friend had been taken on top of having an identity crisis! The woman who bloody runs Wicked is her mother! Granted Julia's nothing like her, nevertheless, knowing that a person like that gave her life, raised her… I can't even imagine what's going through her mind. I stepped outside our tent and saw Tommy sitting on a rock, looking out in the distance. "Tommy," I whispered, standing next to him. He looked at me with sad eyes, but he smiled when he saw me. "Newt, can we talk?" he asked me. I nodded and followed him when he stood, leading us away from where everyone slept. We went up the mountain hill and sat inside a little cave, looking out on the sunrise. "I need to tell you something, and I need you to please listen while I say it." I stiffened, nervous. "Okay."
He took a deep breath and asked if I remembered when we found him and Brenda at Marcus' bar, strung out on alcohol. "Yeah, I bloody remember; you were both a mess." Tommy started fidgeting, he never could sit still. He nibbled his lip and kept glancing at me, like he was afraid of what he had said and how'd I'd react. "She… she kissed me. But…" he trailed off, resting his head on his knees. I was confused, but also angry, and jealous. "Okay…and, what? You confused about your feelings or something?" He sighed and shook his head. "No, I'm sure about my feelings, they just aren't for her." I sighed, realizing where this was going. "Tommy, Teresa made her own choice. Don't beat yourself up just for liking her," I told him, trying to hide the jealousy in my voice. "No, Newt. I never liked Teresa." I felt a small seed of hope bloom in my chest, but I shook it off, not wanting to get my hopes up. I started to get nervous, so I attempted to lighten the mood. "Tommy, if you tell me you're crushing on Julia, I swear…" "NEWT!" Tommy snapped, looking terrified. I put my hands up, giggling.
"Newt, please come here," Tommy asked, not looking at me. I walked over and sat next to him, waiting. "Tommy…" "Newt I like you!" Tommy rushed out, cutting me off. I choked on my breath. "I… I have for a while now. Julia she…" I choked on a laugh. Bloody meddlesome little girl! Why do you always have to be right! "Julia made me promise to tell you when the time was right. I know we're not a hundred percent safe, and I know we have to figure out how to get Minho back, but…" Then he looked at me, hope in his eyes. "But I think now is the best time, maybe even the only time. All I know is I don't want to waste any more time." My heart was going to explode at this rate, and I don't doubt if Tommy could hear it. "If… if you don't feel the same…" I couldn't even let him finish that sentence. I grabbed his chin and brought our lips together in a deep, but gentle kiss. I pulled away, cupping his face, and resting our foreheads together. "Tommy, you have no idea how much I've wanted to hear that. Julia, brat that she is, knew it before I did." He laughed, then looked into my eyes, gentle tracing my face with his finger. Then his eyes went a little dark, and my breath caught. "Can I kiss you, Newt?" I brought our mouths an inch away from each other's and whispered, "Don't ever ask again."
And with that, Tommy crashed our mouths together, and we moaned. He pulled me onto his lap and stuck his tongue in my mouth. I gripped his shirt tightly and sucked on his tongue, making him hiss in desire. When we finally pulled away, our lips were bright red and swollen, and we smiled at each other. "So, what was the whole thing about Brenda then?" I asked because I wanted to hear him say the words. He smiled and gently pecked my lips. "I thought I was kissing you." I moaned, satisfied. "Good that." Tommy looked away at something in the distance. "Now we gotta tell her," he said, and I looked over and saw Julia. She was in the same spot we left her in last night. She was staring out in the distance, curled around herself, not moving. I sighed and looked at Tommy. He nuzzled my nose. "She'll be okay. Maybe not now, but she will get better." I nodded and stood, pulling Tommy up. We held hands as we made our way over to Julia. We stopped behind her, waiting for her to notice us, and when she didn't, I got nervous.
"Love?" I called softly. No reaction. I glanced at Tommy, and he squeezed my hand. I sighed. "Okay, Jul, come on! I know how much you love to say how right you are!" I teased her. This gained a reaction. She turned sideways, then saw our clasped hands, and smiled. Then her mouth started quivering and she let out a watery laugh, then started crying. I grabbed at her and held her, letting her cry in my arms. Thomas sat next to us, rubbing her back. She sniffled and wiped her face, then smiled at us. "Well, I did tell you, didn't I?" We laughed at her. "Yes, love, you're a genius," I told her, nuzzling her neck. She sighed, burying her face in my chest. "What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to live knowing that monster made me… that I was so blind." I shushed her, assuring her once more that she was nothing like Wicked, nothing like her mother. Tommy took her hand and rubbed it, waiting for her to look at him. When she did, he spoke.
"Julia, I know you're broken, and I know you don't think you'll ever get better. But you have people that care for you. And we'll put you back together, help you pick up the pieces whenever you fall apart. I promise." I smiled lovingly at him. "Huh, nice to know you care about me, Greenie," she joked, though her voice held no humor. I wanted to rip out my heart and give it to her, knowing that hers is broken beyond repair. "Julia, darling, I know this is hard, but you need to…" "I'm trying, Newt!" Julia cut me off, yelling, her voice cracking. I jumped, shocked by the anger lacing her words. "I've lost a friend, a brother, my best friend, my boyfriend…" she choked at that, remembering Gally. "I come from the monster that ruined our lives, my father, whoever he is, dead, and a woman who treated like her own dead before I could get to know her!" She nailed me with angry eyes that were filled with tears, while she sobbed, and struggled to breathe. "So do not tell me what I need, because what I need is to break! I need to just let everything out before it consumes me."
She turned away, and she gripped her arms, rubbing them. "I can't let it…" she broke off, staring off in the distance again. She kept rubbing her arms, almost like she was trying to warm herself. "I'm sorry, Newt… it just happened… I wanted it to go away…" I froze, staring at her. "Julia, what did you do?" She didn't answer, didn't look at me, but she took off her jacket, and I screamed. Both of her arms were wrapped with cloths, stained with blood. I pulled her into my arms, and I sobbed, hurt and angry. I heard Tommy cursing, and he yanked us into his arms, trying to console me and rocking us all back and forth. I couldn't even ask her why; why she did it, why she didn't tell me. "I wasn't trying to die. I didn't cut deep enough, I swear, I just wanted the pain to stop." I choked on air, trying to breathe. Her words were awful, but they helped a bit. I grabbed her face and turned her towards me, my tear-stained face meeting her own. "Never do this again! If you even think about it, you come to me! Hell, go to Tommy, even! But don't you ever break like this again!" I struggled to not yell, my voice was to broken and watery to yell anyway.
I rested our foreheads together, looking into her eyes. "Please… you can't leave me… I know you didn't want to… but please don't do this to me, Julia." She choked on a sob at my plea and gripped me hard, her nails digging into my back from the force of her hug. "Tommy's right; we'll help you, love, pick up the pieces, we all will. But you will not do anything except get proper rest, eat, and you are not allowed to be alone ever until I'm confident you won't…" I can't even bring myself to say it, what she did, even if death wasn't her intention, she still… She didn't argue, just cuddled closer to me. "I told you you'll never lose me, Newt. I swore it, I'll do it again if I have to." I kissed her head before resting my own back on hers. I glanced at Tommy, his face unreadable. "Should I leave?" he asked softly. "Stay," Julia and I answered. And he held us both close, kissing my head, then nuzzling Julia's.
**Skip**
Newt- He is out of his mind. If I didn't care about this bloody Greenie! "Thomas, what you're planning is impossible. If there was a way to get Minho back, I'd be standing up there with you now." Jorge came over and commented that Tommy's plan was more suicide than a plan, but Tommy didn't care. "I'm not asking anyone to come with me, but I know what I have to do; I'm going to kill Ava Paige." My heart dropped. "Now that is a plan I can get behind," Julia said, waltzing up to Tommy and resting her arm on his shoulder. "I want the bitch dead, too. That should be my right. Promise me?" Tommy and Julia shared the same look; determined and a little deadly. He nodded at her, and they fist-bumped. If this weren't so serious, I'd laugh. Then Harriet marked that she'd love some revenge, Vince told Tommy what a great bloody speech he gave, and then, "What's your plan, kid?" No one said anything, we all just looked at Tommy, ready and willing to follow his lead. Ever since this bloody shank ran into the Maze, I knew I'd follow him anywhere, even now, when all seemed lost, I'd still follow him. Tommy smiled slightly at us all, put down the pack he put together, and said we'd all talk once we moved out and got settled somewhere else.
"Everyone finish packing! We move as soon as possible!" Vince yelled out to what remains of the Right Arm. He and Harriet started walking around, making sure they grabbed whatever they needed. "Julia," I called to her. She looked down at me. "Do you think you can, you know, kill someone?" Fry and Tommy glanced at her, nervous, and she inhaled sharply. "That psycho bitch is mine! Mine to kill, mine to rip apart or shoot, whichever opportunity is available to me." "I told you that you aren't allowed to have guns," I scolded her, meaning it. "Does it look like we have the option anymore?" Tommy smirked at her. "You tell him, Ma'am!" Fry egged her on. I glanced at him; eyebrows raised. "What? She needs to be encouraged, Newt, not scolded. She's a woman, not a child, ya' know?" I knew he was right, but the last thing I needed is a gun in her head, aimed to take a life after watching the love of her life do it in cold blood, half out of his mind. But then I looked at Tommy and he was smiling encouragingly. "She can do this, Newt. And if the time comes and she can't, then I'll do it for her." Julia smiled softly and thanked him.
I walked over and cupped the back of his head, staring into his eyes. "Promise me, too," I whispered. "If she can't…" "I will, I swear," Tommy answered. I kissed him, feeling soothed by the softness of his lips. I heard Fry whistling and laughing with Julia, and someone choking, probably Brenda. I forgot she sort of liked Tommy. I forget exactly what she felt for him; probably nothing since they kissed, and he rejected her after. We broke apart to shocked faces and our friends teasing us. "Well, I kind of saw that coming, still shocking though, hermano." I smiled at Jorge and Brenda laughed, coming over and punching Tommy's shoulder, smirking that all-knowing smirk that all girls seemed to have. Julia and Fry came over and we all wrapped our arms around each other, smiling and just enjoying each other's company. We would be okay, we would find Minho, we would make Julia better, and then we'll all be free someday.
Notes:
We have reached the end of Scorch Trials! TBH It was never a favorite of mine, not that it's bad, just...meh. LOL.
I hope I did my plot-twist justice, and I hope everyone that reads enjoys it too. I'm glad so many people have liked this story so far!
Death Cure era is up next!
See you all then!