Katniss? What's wrong?
Chapter one: KATNISS?
The sobs could be heard all throughout the house. They only seemed to get louder as time went on. It was clear to prim her sister was very upset but, why? Their mother was attending someone who need medical help. Sometimes she would be gone for hours or days just depending on the situation. Which left prim knowing she was going to have to try soothing her sister. She wasn't sure what to do katniss hardly ever cried or showed a soft side.
Prim decided to venture off to try and help her sister as she was only getting worse. The sobs eventually turned into full blown balling. She was scared to find out what was wrong. Did a peacekeeper hit her? Was she worried about reaping day? The thoughts continued as she reached her sisters room. As I peeked in I seen my sister balled up and balling it appeared her clothes were much more mangled then they should have been.
"Katniss?" Prim asked, sheepishly.
Her sister didn't respond she just continued crying out in pain. That's when Prim knew something bad had happened. Prim slowly moved closer and closer til she was close enough to try and stir her sister out of it. Prim gently shook on her sisters shoulder. Katniss response was irregular. She jumped and right at rolled off the bed to get away.
"Katniss! It's Prim! Are you ok?" Prim asked, slyly.
Katniss realizing her sister must of heard her begin to dry her tears and tried to stop but, she couldn't . Between sobs Katniss tried speaking to her sister. "I I I'm fi..ne please go baa go back to bee..bed." Katniss sobbed.
"I can't what's wrong?" Prim, continued.
"Prim please! I just need to be alone get out!" Katniss, yelled as anger begin to overcome her. She would never yell at her sister unless she was in danger but, she just couldn't help her self.
"No! I'm not leaving you alone like this! Clearly something is wrong. You either hurt or upset. I'm your sister. Your always there for me I wanna be there for you now. Don't shut me out like mom." Prim, protested to her sister.
Katniss sobbed for another hour thinking of what her sister has said. She's right though she does need help and she's my sister. I can't help but feel she is too young to understand. Katniss begin to look down noticing some blood that's still fresh. She knew she needed medical help rather she liked it or not. "Prim, I'm sorry! I do need help I need mom. Where is she?" Katniss, pleaded.
"Helping someone that needed medical attention. I can find her if you need me to. I'm not a little kid anymore." Prim, suggested.
"Oh, little duck. Ok, go to Peetas and have him help. Please, just be careful and fast." Katniss, told her knowing she had no other choice.
Prim started her adventure, never before traveling alone. At least Peeta was close just a minute walk and she was running. She thought her sister was dying. As she ran all she thought about was Katniss laying balled up with ripped bloody clothing. She made it to Peetas within three minutes and helped herself in. "Peeta! Peeta!" Prim, yelled.
Peeta came running down the stairs she a very scared and panicky Prim. "Prim? Are you ok? What's wrong? Where's Katniss?" Peeta, exclaimed out of fear.
Katniss is at help bad shape, sent here and need help finding mom." Prim, told him still catching her breath.
"What's wrong with Katniss?" Peeta, asked concerned.
"I don't know she told me I was basically to young to understand but, she needs mom as fast as possible." Prim, explained.
"Is she injured?" Peeta, asked fearing Katniss was badly hurt.
"I don't know! There was blood not a lot but, enough." Prim, shared.
"I'll go get her mom and you stay with her if she gets worse come here get my mom." Peeta, told her and she nods.
Prim ventured back to her house fearing it would be too late. She loved her sister sometimes more then her own mom. Katniss always took care of her no matter what. Her mom though changed after their dad died in the mining accident. As she came through the front door of her home she didn't hear anything no sobbing or even a peep. She decided to run to Katniss. She ran into her sisters room to discover no one was there. She panicked not knowing what happed and begin running through the house in a panic.
As, she enter the wash room she stopped dead in her tracks noticing Katniss in the tub. Katniss had bruising on her neck, arms, back, and scratches or scrapes everywhere. "Katniss? Let me help, please!" Prim, pleaded.
"Please, I'm sorry I yelled at you." Katniss told her.
"It's ok. Your clearly, not alright and I see that." Prim, told her inching towards her.
"Prim, please, don't look at me. Just stay in the room and keep me company." Katniss, suggested.
"Of course." Prim, answered. "Can you please, tell me what happened so that I'm not so worried." Prim, asked her sister.
Katniss took a deep breath debating on telling her or just ignore the question. " I can't tell you, it's not something you should hear. I don't even want to tell mom." Katniss, pleaded.
"Look at me. I'm your sister, I can handle hearing whatever happened to you. I'm not a little kid anymore, at least tell me something. I just I want to help you. Your MY sister and I need to help you." Prim, explained.
"Ok, I was out hunting and a peacekeeper found out and instead of beating or whipping he did something a little more extreme." Katniss, explained.
"I don't understand what did he do?" Prim, told her.
"Let's just say he did things that no men should ever ever do." Katniss, told her.
Prim thought long and hard as she begin to think of what it could've been. "Prim, can you help me up please?" Katniss, asked. As Prim begin to help her sister out of the metal tub she begin to put pieces together. Her sister would jump at touch, and there was blood from her pants. Not to mention now that she is helping her from the tub she notices spots by her leg moving up.
"Katniss? Did he rape you?" Prim, whispered a question.
There was a long pause.
"Little duck you shouldn't know stuff like that." Katniss told her.
"I'm 12 going on 13. I know more than you think. Did he?" Prim, questioned.
"He… he… h." Katniss tried to answer when she heard her mom running in with Peeta shortly behind. "Get out! I'm changing!" Katniss yelled.
Peeta stopped and left them room as quick as possible. As Katniss mom noticed ripped bloody clothes in the corner and a daughter that could barley stand with bruises and scratches everywhere.
"Katniss! Tell me it's not what I'm thinking happened." Her mom, pleaded.
Katniss stood there with a towel around her staring to sob again. " I tried mom, I real.. realll…y tried. He he was too strong momma. The peach keeper he got meee. I'm sorry." Katniss, sobbed out.
"Come here. Listen Katniss whatever happened isn't your fault at all. I have to know what happened exactly or I won't be able to help you correctly." Her mom, told her. Katniss just nod her head in agreement. "Did he rape you?" Her mom asked softly. Katniss stood there for what seemed like eternity before finally she just nod her head yes as the answer. The three of them stayed quietly forever until finally their mom broke the silence. "Katniss…your going to need examined. There could be a number of things wrong and we need to check make sure your ok. Follow me to the table or would you prefer the bed?" Their mother, asked.
"The bed seems comfy." Katniss, answered shyly knowing what her mother meant.
As Katniss laid in the bed only covered by a sheet she grow more and more anxious.
"Katniss, I'm going to check see if anything needs medical attention first. Prim will hold your hand and I will first left the sheet and access the area. Her mom, explained. Katniss nod in agreement. Prim walked over to her sister and held her hand. Her mom slowly moved the sheet up just enough for her to access the trauma. Has she viewed the damage obtained from a peace keeper she chocked back tears. There was blood everywhere where, he ripped right through her. Theirs tears and rips so bad it could cause permanent damage. She first cleans the area with some sterile wipes, as her hand reaches her daughters area she squirms back asking her mom not to. The fear was like no other, this was her strong daughter nothing could break her. "Katniss.. I. I'm sorry I have to baby. It's really bad and if I don't clean this up and stitch it back… you could bleed to death." Her mom, explained.
"Pllleaassse. I I I… don't wanna dooo thiiiiss. Stop it! Please!" Katniss cried out.
Her mom tried again but it was no use, her daughter was squirming too bad. It was causing more blood to sneak out. She had no other option than to ask Peeta if he could hold her down long enough for her to patch her daughter up. He agreed and Katniss mother begin to stitch her daughter up. Every stitch and every movement she would hear or she her daughter trying to move or escape and plead for them to stop.
"Katniss, you can stop I'm don't with that part. I'm sorry but the rips were really bad I had to stitch them baby. I'm sorry." Her mom, cried out.
"I hate you! Just leave me alone let me be. Get out!" Katniss, yelled out of anger.
"Katniss, she had to sew you up. There was rips the size of my finger. She was only trying to help." Prim, protested.
"Will you ever stop trying to make her sound good… I've had to provide for this family since I was younger than you. I got raped! Because, someone had to step up and feed us. What do you do? You sit around the house and watch us.. ME do everything. Just everyone get out and leave me alone!" Katniss, yelled.
Everyone left the room completely understanding her reason to be mad except Prim she didn't understand why she was made at their mother at her and Peeta. All they did was help her. And she yelled at them instead. Prim looked a round at her mom and Peeta, they were sitting like nothing happened. "Ain't you guys mad?" Prim, broke the silence.
"Prim, it's not her fault. Your sister has went through something very traumatic and is trying to deal with it. She don't understand why or how to process what happened." Their mother protested. As she looked at Peeta she asked him to leave nicely so she could talk to her daughters alone. He agreed and they promised to keep him updated. I got down to Prims level. "Look, I'm going to explain why your sister is a little angry and using us as bait. It's not going to be a easy subject though." She told her daughter.
"Ok" was all Prim could say.
"Do you know what rape is?" She asked her daughter.
"It's when someone touches you in a why that makes you uncomfortable." Prim stated.
"Good answer. It's a little more complexed than that though." Her mom said.
"How?" Prim, questioned.
"It's when someone sexually enters your body without your consent either with their sex organ or an object." Her mom, explained.
"So, the peace keeper… he entered Katniss… like sex entered?" Prim, questioned.
"From what I can tell he used his own member forcing it and possible using other objects as well. So, yes." Her mom, answered.
"I'm the worse sister ever! She's going through something I can't even imagine and I was mad at her." Prim, cried.
"Don't cry! She wouldn't want you too. Your sister is tough and will bounce back we just need to be a little sensitive around her for awhile." Their mom said.
Katniss laid in bed unable to really move, the stitches hurt and she was afraid of them being ripped out and having to repeat the process. She stared at the wood planks of the ceiling and then put the window that had paints chips peeling. It was beginning to rain which really got her lost in thought. How could a peace keeper do something so wrong and obviously painful. Did it hurt him to? It was her first time ever and had no clue what to expect and had no option but to submit. It just kept replaying through her head.
She was just about to get a very nice buck, it would last her family at least a month if they were careful. She heard someone approach the same time she shot the arrow and missed the deer. "Thanks a lot Gale!" Katniss, exclaimed playfully. Has sure turned to face him it wasn't Gale she tried to run off but,the peace keeper caught her. "Your breaking enough rules to be executed. Leaving your district, hunting in the Forrest, and trying to flee the scene. I might let you go if you do me a favor." The peace keeper, stated.
"What kind of favor?" Katniss, asked seating the answer.
He smirked and checked her out. "I think you can guess… you may be a little scrawny but, I can make do with it." He told her, as he got closer and closer.
"NO! You can beat me or turn me in. But, I will NOT do what your asking!" Katniss, stated.
He got closer and closer and started grabbing her wrists pushing her against a tree and rubbing his member against her. "I will do as I please. You are just a little girl from district 12 nobody will care and you've broken enough rules to be killed for. Go ahead scream and yell. No body will hear you." The peace keeper, whispered in her ear.
"Please don't. I.. please. I don't want to." Katniss, almost whispered out with tears escaping.
He begin to wonder with his hands first rubbing her arms and then slowly moving towards her breasts has he touched them she head butted him and kicked as hard as she could causing him to move back . She tried to run but, it was no use he tackled her and punched her a couple times to the head. "Like it ruff do you?" He, exclaimed.
"I… I've learned my lesson. Please just let me go I won't break any more rules I swear." Katniss, pleaded.
He had her pinned and just gave a smirk. "I'll make sure of that. Your new rule is to meet me here every Friday at 8:00p.m.. I promise your learn your lesson the hard way or I'll have you turned in." He, told her. And he begin to remove his clothing and slowly removing hers. She fought as much and as hard as she could but, he was too strong for her. She laid there in just a bra and panties and he laid on top in just boxers. He started squeezing her breasts and bitting her lip while thrusting towards her. He cut her bra and panties off with a knife and stared in amazement while she sobbed quietly too scared and shocked to do anything else."hmmm… you may be tiny but, your body is something. You got pointy boobies and just a strip of hair down the center of your juicy looking pussy." He whispered in her ear.
He started to lick and kiss moving his way from her breasts to her pussy once he reached it he began to lick it and she couldn't resists the moans that escaped her mouth. She screamed at him to stop but, it had no effect. He moved back up and told her, "your just a little virgin… I hope you can stand my 9 inch cock." She just laid there as though she was dead. She wished and prayed he would be done soon she had no fight left in her there was no point.
He started to position his member to her entrance and started to penetrate it. "I won't lie… this is going to hurt." He said, truthfully. He jammed his member in her and she let out a cry and sound so loud the birds flew off. He begin to thrust deeper and deeper then faster and harder with every thrust. Any hope she had left was gone.
The rest was a blur. She couldn't remember how she got home.
She ventured out of the bedroom she was in after a few days to find her mom and sister still waiting on her in the front room. Prim was asleep but, her mom was awake. "Katniss.." her mom, said. Katniss jumped at sound assuming they were both asleep on the couch. "You scared me!" Katniss, exclaimed.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to startle you… are you hungry?" Her mom, asked.
"I don't feel like eating. I don't even feel like being out here or even in there… (long pause) I'm lost and I'm scared and I.. I don't know what to do.." Katniss admitted.
"It's ok. You have every right to be mad, upset, or any emotion at this point. I'm sorry,.. this shouldn't of happened to you or to anyone." Her mom, stated.
"I'm surprised you're even still here. You don't understand what I went through and when did you even start to care.." Katniss, snared.
"I've been patient these past few days and I'll admit I'll never take home the best mother of the year. I am so sorry you had to take the pressure of trying to supply for the family and look after Prim. I am trying though." Her mom, explained.
After what seemed like forever of them sitting in silence Katniss breaks the silence.
"Im sorry, I need help mom." Katniss, cried out.
"What do I need to do honey?" Her mom, asked.
"I.. I don't know… I have to go back Friday." Katniss, explained.
"Back? Back where?" Her mother, asked.
"Mom, back…to the woods." Katniss, said.
"What for?" Her mom, wondered.
"He told me.. every Friday at 8p.m. I have to go back again for.." Katniss, cried out the words not even able to finish the sentence. Her mom could understand what for though she wasn't stupid and just embraced her the best she could. Hoping and praying they could think of a solution by then.
After a couple hours of Katniss being snuggled by her mom.
"Here take these." Her mom, said. Reaching her two little pills.
"What are those?" Katniss, questioned first.
"There… pills to abort.. unwanted pregnancies. I figure he didn't wear protection." Her mother, said.
Katniss grabbed the two pills and swallowed them not thinking twice. "How? How, did you know if he actually used his you know." Katniss, asked.
"I did an exam. It told me a lot of information." She, explained.
"So,.. you know." Katniss, questioned.
"That he did things to you? I'm sorry, I don't follow." Her mom, said.
"You know he took my…virginity." Katniss, told her.
"Yes, even though you swear you lost it last year to that boy…Gale." Her mom, said raising an eyebrow.
"Sorry. I just couldn't stand you always lecturing and trying to give me talks about (whispers sex) it was embarrassing." Katniss, stated.
Chapter 2: Closer
It's the day before Friday, everyone seems a little jumpy when around me like I'm broken or like I'm a weak little kid. I just wish they would treat me the same. Peeta accidentally bumped into me and apologized a hundred times, prim won't talk to me, mother insists I need to eat and sleep and it's driving me nuts. Tomorrow I am supposed to go back to the peace keeper which makes my stomach turn. I don't know what to do anymore… I can't go back but, if I don't I'm afraid he will come to my house. He may attempt hurting my little sister or mom. He could turn me in for breaking rules, he could do whatever he wants he has the upper hand.
"Katniss!" I hear my mother yell from outside. As I'm slowly walking to the sound of her yell I notice a peacekeeper in OUR yard… could it be? Did he show up at my house earlier to get his fix. I begin to panic not now not right now. I couldn't bare to even try again, im still healing from the last time. Maybe he is here to turn me in anyways. As I step out my stomach begins to spin and I puke all over what green grass we have. "Yes, mom.." I say, through a dry voice.
"There's a guy here needing to talk to you." Her mother, tells her scared of what might be happening again to her daughter.
I can't speak I only stare at the peace keeper silently wishing he's just here to turn me in. I watch as he removes his head gear and I release a sigh. It's not him! I stand there puzzled now what did this random peacekeeper want? "Can I help you?" Katniss, asked.
He reaches his hand out to shake mine but, I refuse to shake his hand. "Fair enough! You've been through enough. I'm here to deliver papers from our leader Snow." The peace keeper, told her.
"What are they for?" Katniss, asked.
"There was some talk of a new peace keeper, who may of broke some rules." He stated.
"And what does this have to do with me?" Katniss, demanded.
"Aren't you old enough to know,… Panem is wired everywhere. Your accident last Friday was caught on camera and Snow sent you a letter the contents of which I do not know." He stated and left.
Katniss went back in examining and wondering what could be in the letter. She wanted to find out but, knew it would only be more trouble.
"Katniss, do you want me to open it?" Her, mother asked.
"Please." Katniss, answered.
Her mom ripped it about and begin to read it in her head before telling Katniss the context.
"Katniss, he states in this letter the peace keeper will be prosecuted at the earliest convenience and is apologetic for what you went through and is offering compensation for your trouble." Her, told her.
"Let me see.." Katniss, demanded. She quickly scanned through the letter to her avail her mom was right he wants to give her money. It would be enough money they would be set for at least the next 10 years. "Mom, it says I would have to attend court for the compensation." Katniss, told her mother.
"So be it, they already seen what happened." Her mom stated.
"Right." Was all Katniss could say.
Katniss sat at a chair in the living room. So many thoughts was racing through her head. I'm going to have to say what happened to me in front of strangers maybe in detail. What if they play the video? I can't do this.. if I don't do this they may let him go free and then I'll have more problems.. I shouldn't even be worrying about stuff like this I'm 16 years old… wonder what Peeta thinks he ain't really said anything to me or even came to check on me… probably thinks I'm a nasty whore now. "Ouch!" Katniss yelled as her sister jumped on her lap.
Prim quickly got back up apologizing. " I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."
"It's not.. you didn't hurt me little duck. I still have some nasty bruises and some stitching." Katniss, explained.
"I forgot for a second." Prim, stated.
Katniss watched has her little sister begin to walk off. "Hey! You wanna take a walk down to the meadow?" Katniss, asked.
"I would love too!" Prim answered in excitement.
The two begin their journey to the meadow neither one saying a word even when they arrived they just sat there in peace for a while. It was prim who finally broke the silence. "Do you think you could sing that song." Prim, asked.
"Anything for you, little duck." Katniss, replied.
Deep in the meadow, under the willow
A bed of grass, a soft green pillow
Lay down your head and close your eyes
And when they open, the sun will rise
Here it's safe, here it's warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you
"I really love that song." Prim, said.
"Yeah. Me too." Katniss, agreeded.
A few more days pass and there's a knock at the door. Katniss made her way to the door and peeled out a creak to reveal Peeta. What's he doing here? It's been a week, with not even a simple are you ok. I seeing the door wide open and stand there questioning and giving him the stink eye. "What?" Katniss, said, coldly.
"Ouch..look, I just wanted to check on you but,… I didn't. I wanted to give you time to process and me too. I did a lot of thinking and will you walk down to the lake with me?" Peeta questioned.
I didn't know how to respond. I can't really be mad at him he's just the baker boy. But, I thought of us as at least friends. "Ok. Fine." Katniss, said.
When they reached the lake Peeta stared at her seeing the sparkle in her eyes the strength she had the wavy hair, and he couldn't stand it he liked her. No, he likes liked her. "Katniss, I'm sorry. I wanted to come see you and make sure you was ok. The thing is.. it hurt me too!" Peeta started and ended in a yell.
"You don't have to yell! Nothing happened to YOU!" Katniss, retreated back.
"You don't understand.. something did happen to me…" Peeta, froze.
"What?" Katniss, asked.
Peeta took a long breath and said, "I couldn't protect you. I couldn't protect, the person of had a crush on since I could remember."
Katniss just stood in shock.
"Say something, please." Peeta, begged.
"I don't know what to say….I might have the same feelings but, I can't say for sure." Katniss, said.
"That's fine. Let's not call us friends or even befriend girlfriend… but, let's take this slow maybe hold hands and walk together. Hey, I know let's get in the creek nobody comes this way.." Peeta, suggested.
"That sounds like fun but, I have nothing to wear in the water.." Katniss, told him.
"If your comfortable enough would you be ok in our undergarments?" Peeta, questioned.
"What are you? 60? Undergarments?" Katniss, asked jokingly.
"Undergarments was a bad choice of words. I was trying to be discreet and polite. Would you be ok in our underwear?" Peeta, asked again.
Katniss waited before answering, "yeah." She said sheepishly.
Peeta done had his shirt and shoes off… she had shoes off. As they walked into the water and started floating with the current Peeta reached over and asked permission to trace the scar on her upper arm. "What's this from?" Peeta, asked slowly tracing up and down it.
"I was going hunting outside the barrier when my arm accidentally touched the bar wire. It started to spin and that's how it happens." Katniss, answered. She begin to study his body she couldn't help it. She noticed Peeta had a scar on his upper thigh.. she traced it with her finger tip.. "Whats your scar from?" Katniss, asked.
"My mom…she seen me toss some bread to a girl on the streets… she dragged me up the stairs and grabbed a coat rack smashing it into my leg." Peeta, answered.
"Your mom? I'm sorry, I was the girl.." Katniss, said.
"Yeah. I would do it again in a heartbeat if I had too… I really care about you Katniss. I've watched you from a far for awhile. Everyday, you walk your little sister home and your mom is normally always gone. I've heard you sing the meadow song more times then I could count. Katniss I know it's early but, I truly believe that I love you." Peeta, explained.
Katniss floated there taking in what he said and couldn't resist it. She had crossed her arms around his neck and wrapped her legs around Peeta. They stayed that way for awhile just taking in each other's presence. Katniss went in for a kiss and they kissed again and again.. it eventually turned into a make out scene. Katniss started to feel his member grow and poke onto her area. She liked the feel of it she was wet and she knew it but, something made her push away.
"I'm sorry, I didn't… I'm sorry, I didn't mean for (pointing down) to do that… I can't help it when I'm around you." Peeta, stated.
"No, I'm sorry. I just got scared….. I.. I… I liked it." Katniss, said shly with a brush.
Peeta smiles. "Come back over then."
Katniss makes her way back and guides her hand to his chest slowly moving down towards his member. When she reaches it she grabs it and begins to jerk it back and forth. A moan escapes Peeta. Katniss then returns to her spot with arms around neck and legs wrapped around.
"Katniss, if you don't wanna do anything.. maybe we should stop.." Peeta, explained.
Katniss smiles back and begins to kiss him passionately. "I.. I want you Peeta." Katniss, insisted.
Peeta begin to slide his hands down her chest until he felt her curvy petite breasts. He squeezed them and pinched her nipples mind escaped her and he raised her up sliding her bra up enough to reveal her breasts. He begin to suck and bite her nipples. Then they begin to remove their undergarments. "Are you sure this is ok?" Peeta, asked.
"Yes." Katniss, said without hesitation.
He slowly moved his member towards her area and grinded up and down til slowly entering. He was gentle nice and slow he would thrust just enough and then when he felt she was ready he begin to move faster.. "faster…harder" Katniss, moaned. He moved faster and harder they both begin to moan til they heard each other sigh in relief. They stayed there soaking up what had happened.
Katniss went to put her undergarments back on when she realized in the heat of the moment they forgot where they was. Their undergarments must of floated down stream.
"Peeta my… I don't have.." Katniss, stated.
"Underwear??" Peeta, exclaimed. "We will just have to swim back and put our clothes on I guess." Peeta, said.
They begin to swim back when they heard a familiar voice one Katniss knew all to well… "Katniss? Peeta? What are you guys doing? Come on up here. You have that court hearing today." Katniss' mother, yelled.
They were both frozen in fear and stayed exactly where they were.
"Come on, you haven't much time dear.."Katniss' mom, stated. As she walked closer she begin to notice their clothes laying on ground. "I'm not going to say nothing just come on." She, yelled.
"Mom…I..we..we can't come out.. our clothes went down stream." Katniss, explained.
"No there laying up here." Her mom, told them.
"Not those clothes. We have nothing on! If you go home we can get dressed." Katniss, said hoping her mom wouldn't look further into it.
"Oh,..we need to have a talk when you make it back and Peeta I will be wanting to talk to you eventually." Her mom, told them as she begin to walk home.
"Think she knows?" Peeta, asked.
"I hope not." Katniss, said as they got out and got dressed and walked their separate ways home.
As Katniss made home she dreaded hearing what her mother had to say. She wasn't much for hearing sex talk or any talk from her mom. "Mom! I'm home." Katniss, said hoping no one heard her.
"Sit. We need to talk." Her , mom said. " I don't know what was going on exactly, I hope you will tell me." Her mom says.
Katniss doesn't respond.
"Ok. Look, sex is a fun thing to do but, you need protection. There's all kinds of things that can go wrong.." Katniss cuts her off.. "No, mom! You, do t get to do this.. I've already had sex ok." Katniss, explained.
"Rape is not the same thing honey. It should be shared with someone who loves you and who you love. I feel your too young to jump into this." Her, mom states.
"I'm too young to choose to have sex but, not too young to be forced into sex…" Katniss, yells.
Prim has started ease dropping from the next room.
"No! Your too young for both.. your 16! You shouldn't rush into these things. I'm sorry, your was robbed your first time but, running fucking everything ain't going to fix it." Her mom, explained.
Katniss begin to ball, her mom was right and she knew that deep down. "MOM! Just stop." Katniss, yelled.
"I can't! This isn't you, your not the type to sleep around and in a lake. You have more self respect then that." Her mom, protested.
"We do love each other!" Katniss, yelled again the room went silence.
"Look, it may seem early or fast past to YOU. I know what I am doing. It was gentle and nice and and..I love him mom and he loves me." Katniss, explained.
"You don't know what love is! Your just a kid." Her mom, exclaimed.
Katniss nodded her head in disagreement. "Your wrong because, I know so much about him. Like he's a baker, painter, he has a lot of strength,he sleeps with the window open, he saved my life once, he has the biggest heart I could think of, and I can't help but, smile when he's around."
"Just promise me your use protection and take your time you ain't even stared dating yet." Her mom, suggested. "Go get ready for court." She told Katniss.
Chapter:3 Hear Here
Katniss was saying goodbye to her sister and mom has the peacekeepers was there to escort her to the capital."I love you guys" Katniss, shouted being rushed off to catch the train. As she entered the train a tall lady was found standing and waiting for her. The lady had a 2ft hairdo that was as blue as the sky. She had a skin tight outfit with flowers everywhere on it and makeup like a clown. The lady reached her hand out. "Hello, my dear. My name is Effie. I will be your company during your visit. That makes you my responsibility." Effie, explained.
I just nodded to her response.
"Ok, we will be at the capital before you know it. The train travels at 200mph but, you can't tell." Effie, told her.
Again Katniss only nodded as response.
"Not much of a talker I see. The food carts are free help your self, bathroom is up that hall and your sleeping quarters are opposite of that." Effie, said.
Katniss once again just nodded. "I'm going to my quarters." Katniss, finally said something.
"If you need anything… I'll be here." Effie said in a high pitch.
I walked the to my quarter and once inside I made myself comfy on the bed. It's not like our beds it's soft and you don't feel any springs.. before I know it I've drifted to sleep. When I finally awoke it was early morning. I crept back to the main area to find it empty, I scanned over all the food sitting on the carts. There was colorful food, and I didn't know where to begin. I decided to go with a doughnut the long ones filled with cream. I then noticed they had coffee. My mom always talked about coffee and how she missed it before dad passed anyway. "Good morning!" Effie, screeched.
Katniss jumped in response… "Are you always this excited?" Katniss, questioned.
"Oh, my dear. I have every reason to be smiles and happy." Effie, responses.
"Right. Cause, you have no worries.. we have to worry about having food, drinks, clothes, and are beds are crappy..you all sit at your 'CAPitAL' with not one single worry. Must be nice." Katniss, complained.
"Young lady, in all my years… you should really learn some manners. We the Capital keep everyone in line from having a chaotic war. We have the biggest jobs of all. I suggest you not to say anything of that nature to anyone else." Effie, explained.
"I'll be nice to the official people… your probably just a spawn in snows twisted little game." Katniss, suggested.
"I am Effie, I escort outsiders and assure they will be adjusted. You how ever, may be a problem." Effie, said.
As Katniss goes to speak the train stops redirecting her attention to the crowd gathered outside. "Wow! Why are all these people here." Katniss, questioned.
"Everyone at the capital has heard of your mishap with the peacekeeper. They are awaiting the courts answer and you are kind of popular amongst them." Effie, explained.
"How much do they know?" Katniss, asked.
"Dear, there are no lies here. They know all details." Effie, answered.
"Great! That's just splendid… at least no one knows my business." Katniss, said mocking Eddies voice.
"Come dear, they will escort you in." Effie, said. Motioning Katniss to proceed.
Katniss begin to walk with the two peace keepers her stomach going in nuts. Every since the that one took advantage of her she's grown to not like any peace keeper. She fault like puking and walking through tons of people chanting liar and justice was causing her anxiety. They got through the court doors and they told her to sit by a door. It only took another 5 minutes before that door opened calling her name. I begin walking into the actual court room and stood behind a wooden box.
The judge used his hammer saying order order.. "Miss Katniss, please walk up her sit beside me for questioning.." the judge, ordered.
A lawyer walked up after I sat down. " hello my dear, I remind you.. your under otha now. Do you understand the meaning of that?" The lawyer, asked.
"Yes. I understand." Katniss, said.
"Is it true.. you slept with a peace keeper?" The lawyer, asked.
"Yes.. but, it wasn't a neutral thing." Katniss, explained.
"Please, yes or no answers." The layer, told her.
"Now, did you enjoy your self?" He, asked.
"I didn't want.." Katniss, started before being interrupted.
"Yes or no!" The lawyer, repeated.
After a little pause, "Yes." Katniss, answered. She did enjoy it but, she didn't want to do it. She couldn't help how her body felt.
"Wasn't this your first time being intimate?" He, questioned.
"Yee..yes." Katniss, hesitated.
"Isn't it possible that you just lied.. What if you lied cause your mother found out.. maybe you were scared your would get in trouble…" he, continued.
P"I.. I didn't lie. He forced me into doing it.. I begged for him not too." Katniss, responded almost in tears.
The lawyer walks to the jury and directs their attention to the tv screen. "You all tell me yes or no response.. does it look like this girl begged him to stop?" He, asked.
They observed the tv and when it came on it was broke down into certain scenes.
The peace keeper was licking and kissing making his way down to her area, as he was eating her out, moans were escaping her mouth. After that a video of him thrusting inside her played again with her moaning.
Katniss was balling so hard you could barley hear the moans from the television set. There making her relive that moment right there in the court room with strangers and they didn't even censor the video.
The lawyer walked towards the jury again.. "From what I just watched.. the peace keeper is only guilty of statutory rape. That was a young lady who was enjoying sex for the first time and later regretted it or thought she got fought and was in trouble. Jury, your answer please.." he, said.
The jury spoke silently to each other for a few minutes. Then one guy stood to answer. "We have come to the conclusion… based from the evidence so far… that.. No it does not seem like she begged him to stop." The jury guy, answered.
Katniss felt her heart drop they don't believe her. That lawyer is twisting everything.
Chapter 3: Court Tales
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Katniss sat in a room with her appointed lawyer Koca. She couldn't understand why this lawyer done nothing but, sit and watch. Lawyers are supposed to help and defend. Instead, she sat there feeling her lowest as the other lawyer twisted the situation around and played sensitive footage for all to see.
"Katniss, is something the matter? You seem upset and angry, it's not a very good look." Koca, stated.
Katniss didn't know how to respond. What is wrong with capital people.
"Yes! I am upset and angry. I just basically got called a liar and they showed personal footage. I didn't want anyone to see that. It wasn't even, It wasn't even censored." Katniss, pleaded.
"Here, at the capital we are very different. I can assure you your winning this battle but, every win here at the capital normally has consequences. Maybe uncensored footage was your punishment. That peacekeeper was one the best and we were very fond of him." Koca, explained.
"Great! I get raped by a very fond peacekeeper and I have to pay the price by a whole room watching what happened." Katniss, retorted.
"Come Katniss, it's time to finish this hearing." Koca, told her.
As everyone made it back to the court room a thump was echoed though out the room as the judge hammered his tool down to settle the court room.
"All right settle down! Bring the peace keeper up please." Judge demeaned. You understand your under Otha and punishment will be made if you lie? The judge questioned.
"Yes, sir your honor!" Peacekeeper, answered.
With that Katniss lawyer walks up to begin questioning.
"Is it true, you found Katniss out of her jurisdiction?" Koca, asked.
"Yes, I thought I seen someone go through the border fence and I followed after. Just doing what I'm supposed to. It's against rules to do so." Peacekeeper answered.&
"I've searched everywhere, there is no record of a report. Why didn't you report it?" Koca, asked.
"She offered to have sex if I didn't report it. I wanted to say no but, she started to strip before I could say anything and we'll I'm a guy and she looked of age." Peacekeeper, answered..
"I see. I like to play a footage from that awful day. If everyone will just turn your attention to the television screen." Koca, told them.
A bunch of mini clips started to play.
No! I will not do as your asking-Katniss
Go ahead scream and yell nobody will hear you!- peacekeeper
Though out the clips it was obvious that Katniss tried to fight back she even pleaded for him to not do it. He showed no remorse.
"Does it look like a girl who asked for sex?" Koca turned and asked the jury.
The jury took about two minutes before they answered. "No, she obviously was fighting against. She pleaded no and tried to escape."
"Your honor, I don't even know why we needed a hearing? We all seen the video we know exactly what happened. This is a young girl who got abused by someone we claim protects. She was doing the only thing she knows to provide for her family yes she broke through a barrier to go hunting. That is the only thing that keeps her family fed. We just put the poor girl through a living hell having to rewatch the footage. You know what the right thing to do is." Koca, exclaimed.
"I here by sentence the defendant to a lifetime imprisoned with the chance of parole every 30 years. You miss Katniss I believe you got your punishment for crossing the barrier in more ways then one, you shall be sent back to your district and for the trouble we caused I'm willing to state you the current balance of the peacekeepers bank balance." The judge, ordered.
As court ended Katniss was being bored back on to the train to go home she was told the money would be transferred to her moms account since she was under age. The train ride seemed like ages to get back home. As it approached district 12 Katniss noticed the whole district was at the meeting area. As Katniss stepped of the train there was cheering all around.
She slowly made her way towards her mom and prim wondering what everyone was doing here. "Mom, what's going on?" Katniss asked.
"Your court hearing was aired everywhere. Everyone was ordered to come here and watch." Her mom, explained.
Katniss begin to hyperventilate…"you mean every part of the hearing even the vid video clips?" Katniss asked shly.
"I'm sorry, honey. Yes, everything was aired." Her mom just bluntly put it.
"I need to go. I can't handle this." Katniss pleaded.
"Hey! This isn't your fought. You don't need to feel ashamed you possibly saved other young girls from that monster." Her mom stated.
"I I I I.. cann cann can't be he her heerrer. Mom, there wasss veerryyy uncensored stttuuff." Katniss cried out.
"Ok. Prim, let's go. Your sister needs to go." Their mom insisted.
They begin walking home. Katniss couldn't handle that. Everyone seen her and in her most weakest moment. She was Katniss the girl who could handle anything life through at her she was the toughest girl in the district and it took one guy to change everything.
"Hey! Hey Katniss wait up" Gale, hollered.
"What!" Katniss yelled.
"Sorry Katniss I just wanted to see if you wanted to go hunting get stuff of your mind like old times?" Gale told her.
" I don't want to go to the woods. Didn't you see the court hearing?" Katniss told him.
"I did. But, your Katniss. Nothing can destroy you and so what if everyone seen the hearing. Besides that took courage and strength to even do so." Gale retorted.
"Thanks but, I really don't want to go to the woods and I'll probably never go." Katniss answered.
"That's cool. How about we hang in my place there's no one there. You could use the quite." Gale, insisted.
"I said NO! I don't want to! I wanna go home curl up in MY bed and just refresh." She practically yelled.
"Ok. I'm sorry maybe a rain check.." Gale said has he started walking away in retreat.
When they made it home Katniss started to go to her room when her mom stopped her.
"Katniss? Can we talk?" Her mom asked.
"I really ain't in the mood to talk. I just I need to think and be alone." Katniss told her.
"Five minutes, promise." Her mother pleaded.
"Ok. What's wrong?" Katniss asked.
"A few things.. first, do you remember when I caught you and Peeta down at the lake?" Her mom asked.
"Yes." Katniss answered.
"It's been a while since that happened… I was just curious, there's just no easy way of saying it or asking?." Her mom said.
"Spit it out! I'm tired and just want to curl up and relax." Katniss said.
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"Have you…started?" Her mom asked concerned.
Katniss sat there not sure how to answer. Was she referring to her period or asking if we did stuff. Either way she won't be pleased. "I'm not sure exactly what your asking…" Katniss questioned.
"Have you missed a period?" Her mom asked.
"Why would you ask that?" Katniss, asked.
"Katniss, you haven't asked for any female products in a month or so… I guess I just needed to reassure myself that everything is ok." Her mom told her.
There was a long silence between the two and after what seemed like ages Katniss finally broke the silence but, not with words. She fell to the floor almost in panic mode crying. Her sobs could be heard throughout the house and probably down the road.
"I… I don't know. I haven't started yet. I guess I just assumed it had something to do with the abortion pill or maybe even.." Katniss started saying in a shy whisper and then rushing words so fast you could barley hear.
"Stop! Breath. Look, why don't we just take a step back you can take a test and we will go from there. Sometimes stress can be a factor." Her mom said. She ushered Katniss to follow to the kitchen. Her mom actually kept some of her medicine type stuff and there. She reached into a cabinet and reached Katniss the pregnancy test. " instructions are on the back just follow them." She told her daughter.
Katniss ventured off to the bathroom not wanting the results or at least not a positive result. If it is positive she would have two potential baby daddy's. One she absolutely hates and the other give her one evening of romance and sex and ain't really talked to her since. It's been about three minutes the test should be ready she takes a deep breath and looks….positive. She slid down the wall and just sat.
Knock knock knock
"Katniss!?" Her mom hollered through the door.
Katniss still sitting on the ground unaware of what to do. She heard her mom but, she couldn't face her right now she didn't even answer her. She looked around and seen fresh flowers and heard the buzzing of animals outside. It all made her think that she was going to have a human. She was in charge of another human being. It was growing in her tummy. How? What? I don't know what to think. Do I tell Peeta or would he even care. She begin to cry.
Her mom heard the cry's from outside the door. "Katniss, oh honey… please open the door." Her mom said like she was concerned and talking to a little kid.
The sound of the door knob twisting could be heard and their stood a very pale puffy eyed girl who differently looked lost and scared. "Katniss? What's it say" her mom asked.
"Like you don't know! Your pills obviously didn't work!" Katniss yelled. She didn't know why but, so much hate came out of nowhere.
"I know your scared.. those pills had to of worked they have never failed anyone. Are you sure you haven't been with someone else?" Her mother questioned.
"Oh my god! Are you serious? How about saying oh honey it's ok we're figure it out together or it will be ok… instead of questioning my sex life!" She yelled.
"I get it your mad. You don't need to speak to me in that matter. I promise we will figure this out no matter who the daddy is." Her mom reassured.
Prim happened to walk through the door hearing the last part. "Is someone having a baby!" She asked excitedly.
Katniss shook her head and stomped to her room.
"Prim, this was a conversation that was rather private between Katniss and I. I would appreciate it if you would try not to engage next time." Her mother stated.
"I'm sorry I heard you say matter who the daddy is and I got excited… isn't that a happy moment." Prim, questioned.
"It can be. It's also a very emotional thing to find out when you don't intend for it to happen." Her mom told her.
"So, who is.." prim started and her mom cut her off.
"Again. It is a very personal thing right now either I or Katniss will tell you when the time is right." Her mother told her.
"I have question? Why, is Katniss staying away from me? She use to let me crawl in her bed and she would sing to me and all kinds of stuff now she barley talks to me she stomps off and acts mad…" prim, questioned.
"Sweetie, your sister went through a really bad ordeal. She's still dealing with it." Her mother explained.
"I seen parts of what happened.. but, I didn't do anything to her." Prim, said.
"No, you didn't. It's not about you. Your sister doesn't feel comfortable with anyone too close to her right now. She has put up a wall. She's scared and doesn't want to feel scared so she blocks people out." Her mother told her.