(I'm truly sorry.)

Good Morning, Good Afternoon, and or Good Evening ladies and Gentleman, It's me. M4a1andbarretts.

So, honestly this was a long time coming and I have rattled my mind over and over about this decision. It is with a heavy heart that I say: I am no longer going to try to finish my SI Fanfic Second Chance. I have also decided to stop writing in fanfiction as a whole for a while longer.

It's not because I hate fanfiction and it is not because I hate writing. My job offers little to no time to write and with what little time I do have, I am using to workout stuff with my family and solve some issues I have been struggling with internally for a long time.

I was serially abused by my mother since the age of 4. Spiritually, mentally, and physcially. There was no end to the torture. A part of me believes she enjoyed hurting me. The whole reason I enlisted in the military was to get away from her. But, all the abuse that I buried in my heart and head started to come out and my mental health severally declined because of that. I didn't know how to properly handle the horrible memories and the past abuse I endured. So, any off time I do have is to find was to cope and deal with the past trauma.

I can see the question coming: What do you mean your working out stuff with your family if your mother did abuse you as you stated? Well, i'm not. I have cut all contact with my mother. I only contact my younger siblings who are under her care, which have been proven difficult for a number of reasons that I'd rather not say.

I will miss writing on my S\I and on fanfiction, but i dont have the drive anymore. It is unfair to have you all wait months and months for a chapter to come out on any of my stories. It's not right at all to keep you all waiting so long, and for that I am so sorry. I wish there was more I can say but in truth, I'm very sorry to for not writing so long.

I'm sorry to be letting you all down like this. I'm sorry that I'm pretty much putting something I love on a pause so I can focus on my sanity. Writing is what I love but right now, I need to heal.

Anyone that tries to spread hate or say vile things in the comments, your comments on fanfiction will be deleted. I just hope you all can understand.

It was fun though while it lasted, wasn't it? To any and all fans I may still have left, thank you for your patience.

I will let you all know when I decide to come back, If that ever happens. But, I will end this off with a quote from Robin Williams from the movie Dead Poets Society.

"But only in their dreams can men be truly free. 'Twas always thus, and always thus will be."

For the final time, this is M4a1andbarretts signing off.