Derailment
A guest asked for a oneshot of Snow overhearing Emma saying "I know my mom loves me, but I really derailed her life."
I couldn't help but feel hurt that Emma believed that was how I felt about her life. She had joined me at Ashley Boyd's (as Emma still referred to her, it was hard enough accepting your parents as fairytale characters) mommy and me class. At the end of the class, Emma was having a hold of baby Alexandra and chatting with Ella. I managed to catch some of the conversation.
"I know my mom loves me, but I really derailed her life." Did Emma really think that about me? About my relationship with her? Emma was the farthest thing from a derailment in my life. Her, Charming, Neal and Henry were my gravity keeping me on the track. Did she not realise she was no accident? That her family and I had planned it carefully? We desperately wanted a child together- and that was her. We may never have got to raise her, but she was still our child; our baby girl, our firstborn. The choice to put her darkness into Lily was not Emma's fault, it was me and Charming who made that decision, not her. Not raising her was again, not Emma's fault. The pain of never seeing her grow up was a burden she bore as much as we did. Any decision I made to protect her was worth making. Diving into that portal not long after being reunited not only with Emma but with Charming was worth making, because it was for her. Did she truly not understand all this? Did she believe I looked at her and saw a mistake? What this world might refer to as a "broken condom"? No, she was my precious girl. She was everything I ever dreamed she could be. She was worth all the heartache, all the tears and all the pain. I just wished that she could see that.