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1 Week later

Chizuru POV

Sen-chan came to stay with us a few days ago. Hijikata-san was fine with her staying at headquarters but was reluctant to agree when Sen-chan said that it would be best for me to start dressing like a girl again. Kondo-san agreed that it would be for the best and even the devil vice commander couldn't argue with him, so here I am on my way to the common room with tea for everyone dressed in a simple soft pink kimono with a cherry blossom design on it.

As I entered the room, I handed the captains and Sen-chan their tea, then sat down between Sen-chan and Sanosuke. We called everyone here to tell them the news and I was pretty nervous.

Sanosuke started to speak, "I'm sure you're all wondering why you're here. Well, Chizuru and I have some important news."

Souji thought it would be a good idea to pipe up at that moment. "What is Chizuru pregnant?" After he said that, he started to snicker until Sen smacked him upside the head with her fan. "Ow, why did you do that?"

"Because you're being immature. Now knock it off and be polite," she said while remaining elegant.

"That's no fun. Hijikata-san, are you going to let her treat me like this?"

Hijikata kept a stern yet emotionless look on his face. "You deserved it, so yes I will. Besides, I'm not crazy enough to go against an angry female, who may I remind you is also a demon."

I smiled. "Um, thank you, Sen-chan and Hijikata-san, but can we get back to the reason why we're here?"

"Right, as I was saying, Chizuru and I have news." As I gazed at Sanosuke's face, he started to blush like crazy. I thought it was so cute. "Well . . . I asked Chizuru to marry me and she said yes." That's when Sanosuke looked at the ground, still blushing like crazy.

"Chizuru-chan, that's amazing," Sen stated with a big grin on her face. then she tackled me to the floor in a giant hug, we both started laughing while the guys started to congratulate Sanosuke.

"Look who's a big softie after all. Aren't you so cute?" Souji mocked, Sanosuke gave me a look as if asking for permission to hit Souji.

"Go ahead, I won't stop you."

Sanosuke grinned, "Souji, I'm so glad you said that now I can do this."

"Huh, do wh..." Then he got punched in the shoulder and everyone burst into laughter. "Oww, alright, I'll knock it off."

As everyone started to calm down, Hijikata-san spoke, "Well, I was kinda shocked you didn't ask her sooner, but remember when you're out on the battlefield, you need to still fight with all your heart. Otherwise, there's a chance that you'll die."

"I understand. Don't worry, I don't plan to die anytime soon. I said I would protect Chizuru with all my heart and I meant it."

Hijikata nodded with a small grin on his face. "Good to know. Now in case you forgot, it's time for you to go on patrol."

Sanosuke stood up and was about to help me up so we could leave when Sen-chan stopped him. "Sorry Harada-san, but I said I would train Chizuru-chan so she can unlock her full potential, so I'll be stealing her for a while."

"Um, okay, I can't deny that I want her to learn as well. So I'll see you when I get back Chizuru." He leaned in and gave me a light kiss on the lips. "I love you. See you in a little while."

I blushed when he did that in front of everyone. "I love you too," I said watching as he left.

"Wow, Chizuru aren't you a brave one doing that in front of all of us?"

I shot Souji a glare that made him shrink back a little. "Remember Okita-san, I'm learning how to use my powers, so I would be careful what you say to me from now on. You know as well as I do how fast of a learner I am."

"Um, right. You know, I just remembered that I need to go train my troops for a little bit. See ya" he said running off.

Well, that was fast. At least I can deal with Okita-san now. I remarked

"Well Chizuru-chan, are you ready? Let's go to the training room since no one will be there." I nodded and we left.

Sanosuke POV

In the streets of Kyoto, Sanosuke was thinking to himself.

I wish Chizuru had come with me, but she seemed truly thrilled to learn how to defend herself. I wonder though, if that basted hadn't done what he did to her, would she even want to learn how to fight, would she still be her happy and cheerful self? Sanosuke sighed, Well, at least she isn't afraid of me holding and kissing her. I guess I should be grateful for that. Also, she doesn't want to die most girls that went through what she did probably would.

Sanosuke overheard one of his soldiers talking, "Hey, the captain seems out of it today. Do you think it's because that cute little number isn't with him?"

Sanosuke was filled with rage and he pointed his spear at the man. "I don't believe I heard you correctly and if I did, I would think that when we get back you will be ordered to commit seppuku. Now what were you saying?" He stared at the soldier with eyes that could kill a man.

"Umm... I-I was just saying that you a-are . . . Umm I'm so sorry sir, I beg for your forgiveness. Please I was rude and inconsiderate I shouldn't have said it."

Sanosuke lowered his spear and calmed down. "This is your first and final warning. Don't forget it and that goes for all of you. Now let's finish our patrol."

Chizuru POV

Meanwhile back at the Shinsengumi base.

Sen-chan was standing a few feet in front of me. She said seriously, "Okay Chizuru-chan, to begin we need to open up your inner energy, so I want you to close your eyes and imagine your aura. Your aura is your life force in a matter of speaking. Visualize it flowing out of you and forming a ball in front of you, but you need to be careful not to use too much. If you do, you could get sick or die. You might also feel dizzy, but that is fine. Now, have you visualized the ball of aura?"

I could see a pink ball of light in front of me and I felt something inside of me. "Yes, I see it."

"Good. You know what the true form of a demon looks like, so I want you to visualize yourself having white hair with golden eyes, as well as horns on your head. Don't worry if you don't get it right the first time, it takes prac . . ."

"Um Sen-chan, are you okay?" I opened my eyes to see her staring at me in shock.

She said, "Yeah, I'm fine. It's just that you took on your true form quite fast. It takes most demons a few weeks to master it like you have."

I was a little scared, not because of how well I did but because I could feel my new form: the horns, the eyes, the . . . power, It was strange. I hope Sanosuke doesn't hate me because of my true form. That thought scares me the most.

Sen-chan snapped me out of my train of thought. "Hey Chizuru-chan, now that you have that mastered, let's stop for today. The rest of what you need to learn is really easy and you said that you know how to use a sword well enough, so we should be good after tomorrow."

I gave her a big smile. "Thank you, Sen-chan, for everything."

"No problem, I'm glad to help."

we started to walk back to the main part of the base so I could rest. Sen-chan said she would make dinner for everyone. I tried to argue, but she wouldn't hear any of it.

As I was lying down on my futon, I ended up falling asleep and I started to dream.

I was standing surrounded by darkness and I saw a figure a few feet from me. The figure started to walk closer to me. As it came into view my eyes widened. It was . . . "Shiranui."

He grinned an evil grin scaring me. "Well look who's all happy. Now that you know how to use your powers and you're engaged. Congrats, but that doesn't change the fact that you don't mean anything to that human of yours. Face it, once he sees your true form, he will hate you wanting to kill you and you know it."

"You're wrong, that's not true. He loves me for me," I said while crying my eyes out.

"Really? your such an idiot so I guess I'll show you how much of an idiot you are." He started walking towards me until he was right in front of me. he started to beat me while I did nothing but lay there crying.

Sanosuke POV

once I got back from my patrol, I assumed Chizuru would be in the kitchen cooking dinner. Even though everyone insisted that she take a break from all of her chores, she was too stubborn not to help out. It was just her nature and it's one of the reasons I love her.

As I entered the kitchen, I saw that Chizuru wasn't there. Instead, Sen-chan was. "Um excuse me, Sen-chan. Where is Chizuru?"

She turned around when she heard my voice. "Oh, Harada-san. I made her go take a nap after our training because she was a little worn out. She should still be sleeping in your room."

"Ok, thank you."

I left and headed to our room. When I entered, I walked over to Chizuru who was still sleeping. I looked at her to see her tossing and turning. She started to mumble, "No . . . please stop please"

I immediately ran to hold her and started shaking her gently to wake her up. "Chizuru. Chizuru, come on. Wake up please."

her eyes suddenly opened wide while she was breathing fast.

Chizuru POV

I woke up to see Sanosuke's worried face. "Sanosuke, I'm so glad you're here," I said jumping into his arms seeking comfort.

"It's okay, Chizuru. I'm here, you're safe now. What happened?"

I was a little scared to tell him, but I explained everything, how Shiranui was beating me and how he said that Sanosuke would hate me. When I finished, Sanosuke asked, "Did he say anything else to you?"

I hesitated before replying, "Well, he said you would hate me and want to kill me once you saw my true form."

I looked at him and saw his face contort to anger as he punched the floor. after a second he calmed down and looked me straight in the eyes. "Chizuru, listen. If you're truly that scared of what I would think of your true form, then show it to me and I will prove you wrong. Nothing in this world could make me hate you, let alone make me want to kill you."

I stared at the floor as he said that. "You may not want to, but what about the others?"

"Chizuru, they all see you as family. Hijikata-san and Kondou-san are like your father and uncle. Saito-san, Shinpachi, and Okita-san are like your older brothers, while Heisuke is like a younger brother. Yamazaki-san is like your childhood friend and I'm pretty sure Sen-chan is basically your sister at this point. What I'm saying is that no matter what, none of them could hate you and they would never dream of killing you. So if you want a little closure, tonight at dinner show them your true form. I will be right there next to you, okay?"

I stared at him and suddenly realized that he was right. They were the closest thing I had to family. They had always been there for me no matter what and I was grateful for that. I have to put my trust in them like I decided to a long time ago.

"You're right, I'll show them my true form tonight."

"That's my girl," Sanosuke said as he leaned in and gave me a soft but passionate kiss. I started to kiss him back. We parted after a few minutes and I knew that I was loved.

A/N To anyone who has stuck with this story I thank you it means a lot to me and please read and review I will continue the story no matter what but knowing what you think of the story so far would be a big help.