Hello : ) This is Linnéa asking for your attention for the little while, maybe the few minutes it would take for you to read through this message. And she… wait why am I talking about myself in third person? Well, let's start over again.
Hello : ) I just wanted to take the opportunity to, tell you how much each and every one of you mean to me. This is kind of random so if you think it's nothing else than nagging for attention you're probably right! Well… onto what I was actually going to say to you.
Well, if we have been chatting much the last few months then you might know that right now I am facing some major changes. And I'm not going to lie, I have been feeling… like everything I have done earlier is just going to waste and that this will never go well… but that feeling have started to fade more and more, and right now I can usually shrug and have a feeling that "it will be alright"
A bit ago I got a couple of really good news and well… I know that other people- not least my friends on here have helped me to get so to the point I'm going to be able to do this so to the point that I just feel that things are going to be alright in the end- no matter how! So I just wanted to say thank you.
I wanted to thank you for being my friend, or for believing in me- because even if it maybe from time to time was only a "great chapter" a bit here and there or a couple of messages every once in a while or whatever it was- it was too much for me to explain in a simple message with written words.
So if you were there for me, and believed in me then thank you. There is no way I could have been where I am today without you. So thank you yet again, you've meant so much more than I could ever say.
And if there is something I have gotten wrong and in fact you weren't my friend or didn't believe in me. Then I think that the news I have gotten the past few days will give me the right to say…
…in your face!
-Linnéa
Kayleigh: Thank you so much for your reviews. Hmm… I actually don't know if we ever got to know in the series what happened to Roxy. Well my chapter for Roxy is just what I had an idea for might have happened to her, so that's it. And if you think it's too weird or whatever you don't have to read it.
Lily: Thank you so much for reading and reviewing. I'm so happy you liked it
Liam Richard/ Diana: As you might have seen I deleted one of the reviews you wrote. It had a phone number in it and whether it's yours or not you really should not put phone numbers on the Internet where anyone can see it. Also, I'm not Liam, nor Richard, nor do I know anyone of them or any other from the series. I'm just a fan who likes to write. Thank you for your reviews.
Toby Coleman
"But please mummy." Four year old Toby Coleman tucked his bottom lip out and laid his head to the side to look at his mum with his best puppy- eyes. "Pretty, pretty please can I have the figure for Anthon in Anthon's solving mysteries? Pretty, pretty please?"
Nancy Coleman, Toby's mum sighed and forced herself to look away. She knew Toby really wanted the plastic figure of the main character in his favorite comic. But it would be Toby's fifth birthday in just a few days and she had already bought it and hidden it in her closet for Toby not to find it until Nancy and Toby's father Sebastian would give it to him for his birthday.
Toby knew exactly how he could do to make his mother give in and give him what he wanted. And he had tried all of his tricks over and over again already. Nancy would normally have gave in hours ago but she had to force herself to tell him no. Although when Toby looked at her with those eyes it was really hard.
But at the exact right moment Sebastian came into the room and gave his wife a meaning look. She had to keep on telling Toby no.
"Toby, honey." She said at last. "Look! It's five o'clock. Your favorite show on the TV starts now shouldn't we watch it? Come on. We need to find out what happens to Maria!" Toby hesitated- he knew what show his mum was talking about and he loved it. He just didn't want to give in and he was getting angry because his mum wouldn't give in.
"I want you to get me Anthon you b*tch" he shouted at last.
Toby didn't quite know what the word he had just called his mother meant. But he knew it was something really bad, and if he hadn't known it before he would have figured it out on how his parents gasped at the word he used and stared at him as if he had gone mad all speechless.
"Toby Sebastian Coleman. Where on earth have you heard that word?" Sebastian was the first one that found the right words again. Toby just shrugged and at last Nancy acted too and lifted Toby up on the kitchen bench like she always used to, to have Toby at her level when he had done something he shouldn't and they needed to talk.
"Toby." She said calmly. "What you called mummy was a really, really bad word. And your first punishment is that I and your father will drive a way for a little bit. And you cannot move from this kitchen bench until we come home and tell you that you can and then we will have figured out some other suiting punishment for what you just said."
Toby hated being left alone. But on this Nancy and Sebastian wouldn't give in so they walked out in the hallway and had just started getting their shoes on when Toby said anything at all again.
"I HATE YOU" He shouted. "I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU…" He continued shouting. "I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU…" He didn't stop until he heard the door slam after his mother and then silent and slouched where he still sat on the bench.
Toby saw his parents get into the car on the parking lot and then drive away. But he knew that if he moved and his parents came home and found that he didn't sit at the spot where they had left him he'd be in even more trouble and therefore he didn't move.
Toby couldn't help but feel that they were gone for too long, usually when doing this his parents would only drive around the block and not be gone for long. But now Toby waited and waited and they just didn't come back. It started getting dark, Toby was afraid of the dark but they still didn't come back.
Toby couldn't read the clock and therefore didn't knew for how long his parents had been gone. But still he just couldn't move, he knew that he'd be in so much trouble and he kept on telling himself that his mum and dad would be back very soon.
He started twisting and turning when he felt he needed to go to the bathroom. But he wasn't going to move from the kitchen bench still. Even though it got harder and harder to hold it he wasn't going to move.
Toby was certain that if he moved his parents were going to come back then and he'd be in trouble for moving from the kitchen bench so he stayed there with twisting and turning hoping that his parents would come home before he had wet his pants.
But Nancy and Sebastian didn't come home, and at last Toby couldn't hold it anymore. He hadn't cried earlier today, but when he saw and felt the warm fluid stain his pants he couldn't help but start crying and all the anger that had filled up his emotions earlier had run off.
"Mummy" He whimpered. "Mummy, please come home. I want to say I'm sorry. I don't need that toy I just want you to come home so I can tell you that I love you." Toby sniveled and leaned his head to the side and the kitchen cupboard.
It had started getting dark, and while it go darker and darker Toby couldn't stop crying in his own, silent way where he sat hugging his knees and almost half asleep. Late at night he had gone so tired he had almost fallen asleep but shivered and looked up when he saw something lighting up. And at first he thought it was his parents coming back.
When Toby saw it wasn't his parents but a police car he was disappointed. But the guy who lived under the Coleman's apartment was a bit of a trouble maker and a police car outside the house wasn't exactly an unusual sight. So Toby laid his head back towards the side of the kitchen cupboard again.
"Mummy?" Toby looked up when he heard the knock on the door and then the hallway door opening. "Mummy are you home now?" He stopped talking when the two people who had come inside came around the corner of the hallway wall and saw that there were not his parents- but two cops.
"Hello honey." The woman of the two said. "Is your name Toby Coleman?" Toby nodded nervously.
"Are you here to take me to prison for what I said to my mum?" Toby asked and his voice had gone weak and high- pitched as he was closer to crying than ever before and two big tears rolled down his cheeks.
The police looked to each other, and the woman stepped forward and came over to Toby. "No honey. Of course we won't, we don't put little boys in prison when they have been angry with their parents. See honey? My name is Haley, and that man. His name is George." Toby nodded and did his best to dry the tears with his sleeve. "And… oh… What happened here?"
Haley looked down on the stains in Toby's pants. "I'm really sorry." Toby was getting even closer to crying again. "But it got so hard holding it when mummy and daddy never came back. I don't know where they went. Do you know where they went?"
Haley nodded. "Yes honey, I know where your parents went. And I and George will take you to them. But don't you think that we should get you a bit washed off and get you in some new clothes first?" Toby nodded, while George came up behind Haley and stuttered something. "It will only take five minutes Georgie!"
"Don't call me that!" George mumbled, but he didn't protest or say anything more and just leaned against the wall in the hallway to wait for Toby and Haley to get done.
In Toby's room Toby was choosing out his nicest pair of jeans and an all-white button- up shirt to look as nice as possible when he was saying sorry to his mummy, and then he and Haley went to the bathroom where Haley held the shower and helped Toby to get washed off. And she couldn't help but notice how Toby was ashamed and devastated over what had happened.
"Don't worry about this Toby." She said calmly while she was helping Toby with the buttons. "I have my own little boy named Danny, he's almost an adult now but I must have helped him at least a million times with things like these. You've got nothing to be ashamed for okay honey?"
And then at last Toby and the two police got into the police car and George who had sat down by the steering wheel backed out of the driveway after Haley sat down next to Toby in the back seat and tried to explain to him what had happened to his parents and why it had taken so long before anyone had come to him in the best way possible.
"When your parents drove away…" Haley began. "They were driving back home and in a turn another car drove into theirs. Your parents got hurt and they were sent to hospital in each ambulance. The doctors tried really hard to find you or someone else who knew your parents but no one answered their phones. And then they reached a friend of your mum's through her phone and she told the doctors about you. But it took several hours before they knew about you. And then they called us because there were no one else that could come and pick you up."
"Will my mummy and daddy be okay?" Toby looked up. Haley frowned, she didn't know- she hadn't heard anything else than that they had been in a crash and were in the ER. But she didn't want to tell Toby that so she pulled them closer and stroke his hair.
"I'm sure they will honey!"
Toby sat in the middle seat of the back and stroke his knees to have something to move with. He tried telling himself that his parents probably were going to be just fine. He could blew on the wounds just like his mummy had done when he fell with his bike and scraped his knees. But the young boy still couldn't help but worry, he just wasn't sure what would happen if the wounds were too bad for them to heal.
"I'm sure they will be fine." Haley said and squeezed Toby's shoulder when they pulled over in front of the entrance to the emergency room. George looked back at Haley when she moved after Toby out of the car. "My shift have ended, and I don't want to leave Toby alone in all of this. You can go back to the station"
"Excuse me?" Haley and Toby walked up to the reception in the ER and Haley started talking to the reception. "Oh… Hey Rick! This is Toby Coleman and we're looking for his parents. They came in here after a car crash tonight." Toby couldn't see that since he stood on the other side of the reception and was too short to look after the bench. But Rick frowned and suddenly looked sad.
Rick and Haley started talking with their voices too low for Toby to hear. The frown in Haley's forehead got deeper and deeper and still none of them noticed when Toby started walking away and walked around the corner and into a room where he saw a bunk, there was a person lying on it but she was covered under a sheet.
Toby saw the feet of the person under the sheet sticking out and he recognized his mum's blue sneakers and walked inside the room. He walked along the bed to the head of it and then reached up and pulled away the sheet to find that Nancy was sleeping.
"Wait Rick, hold on?" Haley looked around in that moment. "Where did Toby go? TOBY? TOBY?" She ran down the hallway while Rick ran in the other direction. "TOBY? TOBY? TOB… RICK come here." The doctor came running to Haley and turned his head in the direction Haley was looking and saw young Toby standing in the trauma room where his mum laid.
"Mummy" They heard Toby whimper when they had walked down the hallway and opened the door into the trauma room. "Mummy wake up. Wake up, I'm sorry. Mummy wake up, you can't sleep now. Wake up mummy, wake up." Haley looked silently to Rick whom nodded and gestured to her that it was okay and she walked over to Toby and kneeled down by the young boy.
"Can you wake her up?" Toby asked Haley when she had kneeled down. "Wake her up! Wake her up!" He looked to Rick instead. "You're a doctor, can you wake her up? Wake her up!" Haley took Toby's free hand in hers. The one which he didn't use to stroke his mother's cheek in attempts to wake her up.
"Toby, honey can you just listen to me for a little bit?" Haley asked calmly. "When your mummy came to the hospital she was very hurt by that car crash. And sometimes when people are badly hurt it happens that they heart stop beating." She took a deep breath and struggled to continue. "And then the person itself flies away from the body and flies to heaven."
"WAKE HER UP" Toby shouted. "WAKE HER UP. WAKE HER UP! MUMMY WAKE UP. MUMMY, I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY. MUMMY WAKE UP. WAKE HER UP HALEY. WAKE HER UP!" Haley almost heard her heart breaking into pieces with Toby's desperate shouting, but knew she had to go on.
"And when the person have left her or his body it looks like they're sleeping. But they're not sleeping, they are kind of sleeping but they can't be woken up. It's called that someone dies. I'm really sorry honey but your mummy died because she was so badly hurt."
It went all silent in the room for several seconds before Toby continued with a weak voice. "Where's daddy?"
"I'm sorry honey. Your daddy flew away already before they came to the hospital"
Toby suddenly just flew forward and hit Haley where he could reach to get a reaction he hoped for. "WAKE THEM UP. YOU NEED TO WAKE THEM UP HALEY. YOU NEED TO WAKE THEM UP. YOU SAID THEY'D BE OKAY YOU NEED TO WAKE THEM UP AND MAKE THEM COME BACK."
Haley didn't know what else to do, so she did her best to hold Toby still and embraced him. Toby kept on fighting for several seconds and then he just stood there and let himself be embraced while Haley did her best to comfort and calm him down.
"It's my fault." Toby suddenly whimpered and Haley backed away and looked him in the eyes. "If I hadn't been so bad they would never had drove away and then they never would have crashed and then they'd still be here with me instead of in heaven." Haley sighed heartbrokenly and then embraced the young boy again.
"Oh honey, don't say that you didn't know. It's not your fault…. It was just a really bad case of really bad luck."
So, that's it. This chapter isn't as long as the latest chapters have been and to be honest it's not very good either but… well… I hope that you liked it. Oh my god writing this chapter just broke my heart.