"This thing that's happened between us a couple of times doesn't make any sense, Willow." Xander said.

"You mean us kissing a couple of times and now being all awkward around each other."

"Yes, that. That thing doesn't make any sense. I've never wanted to kiss you, so why did I kiss you? And why did it happen again?"

"I've wanted to kiss you for a long time, but the timing of this is weird, I'll admit. Because I know I love Oz. And don't get me wrong, I liked kissing you. I just am not understanding it anymore then you are."

"Maybe it's just hormones. Hormones can make you do stupid things can't they?"

"Yes, they have a big impact on adolescent brains." Willow assured him. "And maybe you're right and that's all it is. Because I'm sure I love Oz and you're sure you don't want to be with me, right?"

"I'm sure. Cordy makes me happy. I've never had that before, Willow. This whatever it is has to stop! We have to get control over our hormones and not let this happen again."

"I agree. So we just avoid each other for awhile and our hormones will calm down."

Xander agreed and left but continued thinking about it. 'I'm not sure hormones explains it.' He thought. 'Because if hormones really had anything to do with it, wouldn't I have felt something before where she's concerned? Maybe it's that displacement thing. Willow means alot to me and always has. We're not as close as we used to be. She's got a best friend and I'm just a friend now. I miss the friendship we had. Maybe that's why it's happening. Because I'm afraid I'm losing her, our friendship. So maybe that explains it. Makes more sense then thinking I'm suddenly attracted to Willow. Because I know I'm not, I don't think about her like that. It's not like I'm thinking about kissing her other times. Cordelia, yes. Faith sometimes. The hot chicks on that show I was watching last night, yes. But not Willow. So maybe that's it, we're not close friends anymore and I miss that and that makes me do stupid things. Makes more sense then hormones.' Xander concluded.

Of course then he had a different theory when he caught her doing a Magic spell.

"You're going to do Magic on me? Without telling me? Have you forgotten that these things tend to not turn out so well for me?"

"It won't be like that, Xander. I know what I'm doing. I just thought if I didn't tell you I was doing it, it would go easier."

"We don't need to turn to the black arts to control our hormones, Willow!" He was angry, he admitted it. 'How dare she use Magic on me without my permission! Doesn't she remember that damn love spell fiasco? How much I hated myself over that stupidity? Why would she want to do something like that on me? Didn't she learn a lesson from it too?'

Their arguing was interrupted by Spike showing up and trying to strangle Xander. 'Great, Angel Junior's back and gods does he stink! Worse then Tony on a bender.' Xander's thoughts were interrupted by Spike again. This time when he slammed a microscope into Xander's head and knocked him out. That was alot of blood on his face.

Willow was frantically trying to find a way out of the old factory Spike had locked her and Xander in. 'Spike actually wants me to do a love spell for him.' She thought. 'Ironic since I was trying to do an anti lust spell on Xander and me.'

'Why?' A voice whispered across the back of her mind. 'I thought you wanted him to kiss you?'

'I did, but now I know I want Oz. So no more kissing Xander. And it's not like he wants to be kissing me anyway. So it's best if we don't kiss each other again.'

'You're sure?' The voice whispered. 'And what about the spell for Spike? You don't have the ingredients for it. Which means he's likely going to kill you both. You've admitted you want to kiss Xander. If you're going to die anyway, why not kiss him one more time? Do you really think he'll object in the face of death?'

'Maybe not.' Willow thought. 'But it wouldn't be me he'd want to kiss anyway.'

'No, you're right. The girl he wants to kiss is Cordelia. The girl he's happy with, he said so. The girl you hate, who made your life Hell by being mean to you for years. Does she deserve to be happy with the guy you waited years for?'

'No, she doesn't.' Willow agreed. Her internal debates was interrupted by Xander coming to and asking what happened. Xander collapsed back as a wave of dizziness washed over him. Willow half laid on top of him.

'I really want to kiss him.' She thought.

"We shouldn't - ." She started to say.

"Death exemption." Xander answered, not really sure why he did.

'Yes, death exemption.' Willow thought. Two gasps from behind her had her jerking back from Xander and she turned to see Oz and Cordelia standing behind them.

"Oh God!" Cordelia said and turned and ran. She didn't get far as she fell though the steps and was impaled on a rebar.

Willow had never seen Xander move so fast. Just moments before his head injury had made him nearly pass out a second time. Now he was kneeling beside Cordelia begging her to be alright.

'What just happened?' Willow thought. 'It doesn't make any sense. Why did we kiss again?' Her own actions were confusing her.