Kevin regained his health at a good pace. Janis soon returned to school and spent the rest of the time With Kevin. She would bring him work along with rumors and news from school. Nazz also spent most of her free time with Kevin. He started to feel human again. Even though he was still struggling with the events that took place. "It takes time." Janis said as she embraced him as he trembled and reverted back.
"I can still see him." He whispered as he clung to her." I can still hear him. I'm still nothing" He sighed as he turned away. Even though he was just starting his visits with a psychologist, the doctors were still worried about him being suicidal. Thoughts of Chase were still torment. Hearing Chases voice in his mind he shed tears. He wanted to hide block out the world when ever his visions came back. He was even having night terrors. They were reducing, yet still there.
"You're not nothing. You'll be ok." Janis said looking into his eyes. He was starting to believe that. Slowly but surely, with each day he knew he was safe. With her by his side he felt stronger. He wanted her, he needed her. "After you talk to the police…. You'll be safe, I promise." Janis said as she calmed Kevin down. Kevin then looked at her; He wanted to be some where else. He didn't want to be reminded about what happen. "I know you are scared of going back. Chase is getting expelled." Janis whispered as she laid down with him. As she put her hand on his chest, He calmed down
"I can't stop. He … did so much…. I can't…" Kevin mumbled as he looked at Janis once again. " I know I have to talk to them. It's just…." Kevin said as he made eye contact. "……I just hate thinking about it. That's all I do. I just think about it." Kevin breathed. Janis then moved her hand to his stomach. He flinched. "Sorry, I just haven't been this full in a while."
" Well, appetite is back. You only weighed 96 pounds when you got here. You need to get use to eating that much again." Janis said. She then scooted over. He then turn on his side towards her and put his arm around her. "Better?" She asked as he smiled.
"Yeah." He whispered as he the pulled her closer and kissed her. Holding each other tightly the two kissed passionately. The warm feeling engulfed Kevin. He then started to feel a new rush rise in him. A nurse interrupted them as she came in. Janis climbed out of the bed as the nurse glared at her.
"You two know the rules!" The nurse snapped. She then left as Janis laughed. Kevin then looked at her. He wanted to hold her once more. Janis pulled a chair up close to his and sat. She took his hand as he turned on the TV. He then began to think about the police that had tried to visit him a few days earlier. All he could do was star blankly when they were there. He was still too scared to talk.
The police and school tried to talk to him but, he still wasn't ready. "If you need more time, we will come back." One officer said as Kevin turn in his bed. They had just finished telling him what they found in Chase's and a few other student's Gym lockers. Among the items were the diapers, Blood stain towels and some of his clothes. They had also discovered a few pictures. Kevin started to cry when he heard about the pictures. It was the first time he had heard of them. His mother held him as he trembled.
"It's ok." His mother said. He then shoved her away and cried harder. Vision reappear again as he curled up. He didn't want to go through this.
"Why did you stop me?" He cried. "I shouldn't be here! I'm NOTHING!" He started to trembled harder."I'M HAIRS! I'LL ALWAYS BE HAIRS!" He wailed. His mother stroked his head as he mumbled, "I'm nothing!" repetitively. His mother then held him again. For the first time, he felt her love. Though she had held and hugged him before he didn't feel it like he did then. "Mom… Mom" Kevin sobbed as he looked at her. The police soon left.
"It's ok!" His mother whispered, "You're safe."
"I tried… I'm…. I'm scared!" Kevin Sobbed. "I tried to… I was scared, too scared. I'm sorry!"
"It's ok, you're still my son." His mother whispered.
"I didn't make the team." He mumbled. "Dad is disappointed."
"NO! He isn't!" His mother said as she looked at him. "No one is disappointed."
"I am! I didn't make it! I didn't have what it takes. I'm nothing." Kevin sobbed. "Please, just say it! You hate me!"
"How could we hate you!" his mother snapped. "You're our son. We could never hate you!"
"I DO! I DESERVE EVERYTHING THAT CHASE PUT ME THROUGH!" Kevin shouted in fury! "I DON'T DESERVE TO BE HERE! I SHOULD BE DEAD!"
"KEVIN! LISTEN TO ME!" His mother shouted. "You were assaulted! Chase hurt you. He should've of never hurt you. Everything will be ok." She held him tight as he cried. It had been a long two weeks.
"Where's Janis?' He said after calming down. "I want to see her."
"She'll be here." His mom said wiping her eyes. "Dad is coming up in a few minutes." Kevin shook his head no as he stared at his knees. "He understands. He knows you tried. Look those boys will pay."
"I didn't know about the pictures! I swear!" Kevin said as he looked at his mom.
"It's ok. You'll be fine." She then sat next to him as he trembled.
"I'm not brave." He muttered! "I'm not brave."
"You did what you could." She said as he hugged her. They then heard a knock as his dad walked in.
"Is everything ok?" His dad said as his mom got up. "How did it go with the police?"
"It was hard." Kevin's mom said. "They told us what they found he took it really hard." His dad then walked over to him. He had been avoiding his dad the whole time he had been at the hospital.
"You don't need too look at me." Kevin said as he turned away.
"Kevin…" His father breathed. He then sat down right next to him. Kevin just stared at the wall. He knew his dad was disappointed with him.
"Don't!" Kevin mumbled.
"It shouldn't of happen." His dad said.
"It did! It happened!" Kevin snapped. "I KNOW I LET YOU DOWN! I DIDN'T MAKE THE TEAM!"
"That's not the point! Making a team is not that important. "His dad said trying to understand.
"I DIDN'T PROVE MY SELF!!" Kevin yelled. His parents then looked at him.
"We should give him a breather." His mom said getting up, "We'll be just out side, Kevin." His parents then left leaving him alone. Kevin then laid back down and stared at the window.
"They don't get it." He thought "Chase didn't accept me. I'm nothing." Kevin then cried harder. He then thought about happen. He thought about the pictures. He never even thought what went on when he was unconscious. He then felt a hand on his shoulder. He turned and saw Janis.
"What happen?" Janis asked quietly. He then hugged her. "Where the police here? You look shook up. "
"They told me what they found." Kevin muttered. "They told me… that they found pictures."
"Pictures? Oh my god! Kevin." Janis gasped. He then held him tighter as they both shed tears. She stayed whit him until he went to sleep. He did start to feel better after awhile. He finally even looked at his dad.
Over the next few days, Kevin spirits improve. He started to gain weight. It scared him at first. But, got use to it. He started to get a little braver. He started to talk with his parents more often. He wanted to feel like their son again. He also started to see the other Kids from school. When ever Jonny or Rolf came they only visited for a few minutes. Double-D came in as a tutor. Kevin started to regain his confidence.
With some convincing, He finally talked to the police. He told them what happen in some detail. It took at least a few days. It was terrifying but, he got through it. Janis was by his side the whole entire time. With in a week or two, he was released from the hospital. Janis was there when he was wheeled out. He was relieved to be back at home. He rested mostly, as he was ordered by everyone around him as waited for his suspension to end.