Thief

by myshadowspirit

Naruto took things. He took your patience. He took your time. But most of all, he took hearts. He probably had a whole collection, stuffed somewhere in some basement, like a hoarder who wouldn't let go. Naruto never let go of your heart. And I mean never. He deserved my hatred. He deserved everything.

4. Chapter Four

During Pain's attack, Tsunade-sama used up so much chakra that she was in a coma for nearly a month. There was talk that Danzo Shimura would be appointed Hokage. I hated that man. I didn't really know why except for that I knew Tsunade-sama hated him. With the dislike the two had for each other, it would be clear that Danzo would have very different ideas than Tsunade-sama in how to lead the village.

I sat by her a lot during her coma, looking for any signs that she might wake up. I needed her now, more than ever. I didn't like talking about my romantic life with anyone, and I knew Tsunade-sama would not hold back to be kind to me, but I needed some sort of answer. I could only avoid Naruto for so long.

I spent some time in her office, alone, organizing her things before Danzo could get in here and start meddling. It surprisingly survived the attack from Pain in almost one piece. The windows had shattered, causing rubble to get in. I made sure to recover every single piece of paper and put it in a safe place so that everything would still be around when Tsunade-sama did wake up. The windows had since been replaced, and most of the rumble removed, but I was discovering Tsunade-sama was not a very organized person, office trashed or not. It took some time. Even after it became late and I finished, I realized I didn't want to go home. I hadn't been getting a lot of sleep lately and if I was lucky, I was busy, but it was supposed to be my night off from the newly makeshift hospital. I had already been there for a few weeks straight now. They told me I wasn't welcome until I got some rest.

It was around this time that I discovered Tsunade-sama's hidden compartment under her desk. Being a ninja, I was trained to be a snoop so of course I had to open it and find out what she was hiding. Besides, I needed to rescue it before Danzo could stumble upon it.

In the secret compartment were two bottles of sake and a glass. I sighed. Of course, there were.

There was a knock on the office door. I panicked, ramming my head on the underside of Tsunade-sama's desk. I hadn't locked the door, and I was most likely not supposed to be in here, depending on who you asked. Of course, it was obvious someone was in the office, as I had the lights on, and they could be clearly seen from the street outside. I blushed red that I was caught snooping, praying it wasn't someone who was a Danzo supporter.

I pushed myself up using the desk, but when I saw who was at the doorway, my sweaty palms betrayed me. Slipping, I fell back down again.

"No one told me that you were appointed as the next Hokage, Sakura-chan!" Of all the people, Naruto was worse than Danzo right now. Yet, the pep in Naruto's voice made it hard to be awkward around him. He was always so good at that. But it was a trick. It was a trick to make me comfortable to trust him again and then he would want to talk about... that thing that happened between us.

Nothing good could happen talking about that thing.

"Whatcha doing, Sakura-chan?"

"N-nothing!" I tried to quickly shut the compartment that I had found but was having difficulty. My panicked brain couldn't remember how I had opened it.

"You haven't been home."

"I've been busy."

"I couldn't find you at the hospital either. I was beginning to think you skipped town like Sasuke," Naruto laughed nervously. My stomach tightened. "Good thing I saw the light on in here or I would have left the village to go look for you."

I glared at him from over the desk. "And where the hell did you think I'd go?"

"I don't know," Naruto said, hands on his hips, staring out the dark windows. "Probably to wherever the fuck Sasuke is."

I could hear the hurt in his words. Of course. Because I had sobbed out Sasuke-kun's name as I gave Naruto my virginity. Yep, this conversation was going to be horrible. What was wrong with me!? Why did I do that!? I should have just gone over to Hinata's and convinced her to go to Naruto's apartment instead. Hinata actually deserved Naruto, as proven with the awful way I continued to treat him.

I struggled with the contraption under the desk in my frustration.

"Wadda ya doing under there anyway?" Naruto leapt over the desk and squatted at my side. "What is that?" Naruto gasped. "Is that Grandma Tsunade's secret sake stash!?"

I sighed. "Yeah, I found it by accident. I can't seem to get it to close though. This is just what Tsunade-sama needs," I said sarcastically, "for Danzo to come sit at her desk and find her sake stash underneath! As if her reputation isn't already hanging in the balance."

"There's only one thing we can do then," Naruto stated, voice getting lower as he was about to announce his idea. His ideas were often stupid, but the way he made his voice so deep beforehand like that, always made me forget they would be. "We just have to drink it ourselves."

"You can't be serious! First of all, we're too young to be drinking. Second of all, Tsunade-sama would totally kill us if she ever found out we drank all of her sake!"

"We'll just buy her some more when she wakes up and is Hokage again. No big deal."

"How are we going to buy sake when we're only sixteen? No one's going to sell it to us!"

"We'll give someone older money to buy it."

"Who?!"

"I don't know. Iruka-sensei?"

"Iruka-sensei would also kill you if he found out you drank!"

"Kakashi-sensei!"

"Kaka-" I stopped myself, pressing my knuckles into my mouth. "Maybe." He didn't seem to be the type of guy that was too concerned about laws but, "I don't know. Kakashi-sensei seems to enjoy watching us squirm when we're in trouble."

"Come on Sakura-chan! Have you ever tasted sake before? Aren't you a little curious? Besides, the two of us are practically adults now. Am I right?" He nudged me with his elbow. I had never known Naruto to be subtle before, but he was doing a marvelous job of tormenting me about... that thing.

"Fine! Take it!" I grabbed one of the sake bottles and shoved it into his hands. "If I give this to you, will you leave me alone?"

Naruto got up and walked around the desk. "I told you Sakura-chan, I'm never leaving you all alone." I couldn't help notice he took the sake bottle regardless, my teeth grating as I glared at him. "Besides, there's something super important I need to talk to you about." He fiddled with the neck of the sake bottle nervously. "I... the other day..."

I stood up, ready to brace myself.

"Did you... need...? We didn't use any protection and I-"

I tried to suppress a giggle as my hand flew to my mouth. It wasn't funny. I don't know why I was laughing. Maybe it was from relief. Was this what Naruto wanted to talk about? I could talk about this.

Naruto's feelings on the other hand... that was a different story.

My body tried to laugh again, because of course Naruto would be worried about impregnating me. I hadn't said anything about it.

"What? What's so funny?" Naruto asked, eyes wide.

"Nothing. I'm on the pill. Don't worry about it."

Naruto gave a sigh of relief that could be visibly seen throughout his whole body. Mine was still convulsing from my chuckling.

"Damn! I've been looking for you everywhere for the last couple of days! Why didn't you just tell me?! Shit! You women are all messed up."

We were. It was true. "Now if that's all, can you please leave? I have a lot of work to do here," I lied. Well, maybe I could work on that other sake bottle. Alone, where it was safe.

"No that's not all," Naruto growled. My heart started to pound. I didn't reply. Naruto didn't seem to know how to continue either. "You..."

I pulled out the second bottle and cup, pouring a glass.

"What was that?"

I downed the glass quickly, rather than trying to sip at it. It probably wasn't the best idea. Of course Tsunade-sama's sake would be strong. "I don't know," I answered.

"Well I know!" Naruto huffed. I turned to face him. "That was like... the worst sex in the history of the world!"

I shouldn't have been surprised. Of course I knew it must have been bad. I obviously didn't have my heart into it. I guess I just thought that Naruto, being a guy, would like it anyway. "I'm sorry-"

"I was the worst partner ever!"

Wait, what? "Naruto-" I started. What did he mean? It wasn't like Naruto could do anything. I hadn't let him. Hell, I practically raped him.

"You didn't finish. I lasted for ten seconds, and you cried! I don't even think you were ready. It was like, the worst ever. All the bad things that could happen happened. If Ero-sensei were alive right now, he'd be kicking my ass. I'm pretty sure he's crying in his grave. I know, I tended to ignore him when he was trying to teach me his sexy ways, but man, even I know I screwed that one up. Regardless, if it was my first time or not! There was no romance, no class, I didn't even offer you fucking tea!"

"Naruto, it doesn't matter. It wasn't meant to be romantic! It was just to get it out of the way. Like a first kiss. Our virginities are gone so we don't have to worry about losing them anymore!" I took another drink.

Naruto narrowed his eyes toward me. "Give me that!" He took the glass out of my hand, and opened his own sake bottle to pour into it instead of just using mine. Great, now they were both open. We were going to have to finish both bottles. "Who said you could just decide that for me?"

I wanted to throw up. "You didn't... You didn't want that?" Shit. I just assumed that was what all boys wanted.

"I mean, of course I did! And if I had to pick any girl, of course I'd want it to be with you. Fucking damn!" Naruto swallowed his drink. "But, I didn't want it to be bad."

"I'm sorry." I stared at the window. "I-"

"You love Sasuke, I know but, what if, you start thinking sex is always terrible just because that one time you did it with me was so awful. You'll never have sex again and it's my fault."

"What?" I snorted. "Naruto. I raped you. You couldn't even do anything. How is any of that your fault?"

"Nope. Guys can't get raped."

"Yes, they can."

"Not by girls. It's impossible."

"I'm pretty sure they can."

"No!" Naruto covered his ears.

"I forgot to yell 'surprise'," I said jokingly now.

"No." Naruto grabbed me by the shoulders. For a moment, I thought he might kiss me. Good thing he didn't or I would have hit him all the way into tomorrow. Instead he gave me a light push and I landed onto the Hokage's chair. Naruto leaned back onto the desk, eyeing me as he took another drink. "We're awkward now," he stated the obvious.

I stared out the window. "How has that been any sort of change," I replied, thinking about how Naruto always 'liked' me. I wondered how long he liked me for. I couldn't remember when I first met Naruto. Naruto not liking me would have made my life a whole lot easier. Without the temptation, I wouldn't have screwed Hinata over. I would have still stayed true to Sasuke-kun. But then again, I would have been a whole lot lonelier.

"I don't know what you mean." I watched Naruto down another glass.

"You think you're going a little fast there?" I said, nodding my chin in the direction of the sake bottle.

"You're not supposed to be counting. Here. Stop being jealous." He poured me a cup as if it was the solution. I didn't think there were any solutions for my jealousy problem. "We're friends. Us fucking is not going to ruin our friendship." After he handed the glass to me, he shook his head fiercely. "Nope. No siree!"

"How?"

Naruto locked eyes with me. "We do it again. Better."

"No," I said darkly, murder written on my face.

"You got it!" Naruto quickly agreed, changing his mind, not wanting me to beat him up, most likely. I knew he would try again later. He always would try again later.

"Doing it again won't solve our problem! If anything, it will make it more awkward!"

"Then I guess we will forget about it!" Naruto exclaimed, knuckles digging into his hips, brow lowered and him leaning over me determinedly. I was beginning to think the alcohol was starting to affect him. "We'll just... we'll just act like how we always do and things will go back to normal."

I pursed my lips in skepticism.

"Let's talk about Sasuke. That always makes us feel better."

I felt my insides tug. "I don't know if I want to talk about Sasuke-kun," I admitted. "I'm beginning to think that always talking about him to you isn't good."

"Wha!? What does that mean!?"

"Everyone thinks I'm too obsessive over him. They think it's unhealthy."

Naruto blew air out of his lips and threw his arms up into the air. "Who cares what the village thinks!?" He fell onto his back over the desk. "People say the same shit to me too, but I've never listened because they don't know anything! They've never known shit!"

Maybe Naruto also had an alarming interest in Sasuke-kun. "I don't know. I think you're an enabler for an unhealthy addiction of mine. I know you're just trying to help make me feel better but..." I rubbed my thumb over the sides of the glass. "Why? Why do you care so much?"

Naruto flung himself upright. "Because! He's our friend! He's our comrade! Never leave your comrades behind!"

"We didn't leave him behind. He left us behind."

"Whatever. Doesn't matter. I'm bringing him back. I promised you!"

"Why do you want to talk about Sasuke-kun all the time?"

"Because! He's Sasuke!" Naruto brought his hands to the side of his head, like he couldn't believe I was asking such ridiculous questions. It made me wonder. I knew his personality was like that. Naruto always cared too much. Naruto was always too emotional. That's why he cared this much about bringing back Sasuke-kun. Maybe it was all just because no one else thought he could pull it off. Of course, usually I thought it was for me. To get me to like him.

"But don't you think...?" The edge of my vision was getting fuzzy, and the electrical light seemed to be too bright now. "I mean, of course I want Sasuke-kun back, but for you, you promised you would bring him back for me, but wouldn't you not want him around? I mean, if he wasn't around, maybe... If I hadn't ever met Sasuke-kun... I might want to be with you."

Naruto narrowed his eyes at me as his smile widened. "Sakura-chan, are you drunk?"

"No! You're drunk!"

"You're more drunk!"

"You drank more than I did."

"I'm a man. I weigh more than you do."

"Psh, you're hardly a man."

"Whoa, what? Hold up! You saw it! You know I'm a man!"

I felt my face heat up as I rolled my eyes. "I didn't exactly look at it. I averted my gaze."

Naruto laughed. "What? Why? Were you shy or something?"

"We're not talking about this anymore!"

Naruto threw his head back. "Right! Because it makes us awkward. Fuck." He took the glass from me to fill it up again. I noticed he spilled some. I'd clean it up later. If I remembered. "Okay. But listen. Here me out. What if I said, I could make it up to you?"

"Make what up to me?"

"The bad sex."

"Naruto, we're not talking about this anymore!"

"Sakura-chan!" Naruto groaned and slid to the floor against the desk.

"No," I said, shaking my head and crossing my arms. I briefly wondered if Naruto thought this all out ahead of time, getting me drunk and then trying to seduce me. But Naruto wouldn't have known that I was up here with Tsunade-sama's sake. Besides, I was pretty confident in myself to keep him off me. Of course, this thought was made when I was already tipsy.

"But I read things," Naruto said, head tilted upward, and his eyes closed. "From Ero-sensei's books."

I snorted before taking another drink. "Reading and doing are two completely different things. Example: the way Sai acts."

"I know! That's why I gotta practice! It's just practice so it's okay!"

"I'm not falling for that one again, Naruto."

"Why? Why are you saying no? I know you want to."

"If I wanted to, I wouldn't be saying no! Besides, it should be obvious! There are a million reasons why we can't ever, ever do it again!"

"Yeah? Name one!"

"I don't... I don't feel for you like that!" That got Naruto to shut up. Maybe all this time, the remedy to my Naruto problem wasn't about being nicer to him. Maybe I had to be crueler. Maybe I had to crush any sort of hope that the fool had of us ever being together. I couldn't show any mercy at all.

Naruto finally blinked at me after several moments. "So?" he answered.

"So? What do you mean 'so'?! I don't want to keep hurting your feelings!"

"My feelings?" Naruto grabbed the front of his jacket. "This isn't about my feelings! This is about you having a mind-blowing orgasm from a man! You obviously need it. I'm not the one throwing myself onto people!"

I threw my head into my hands with a groan, completely embarrassed. The movement made me slightly dizzy, so I kept my head there.

"Hey. Hey." Naruto crawled closer to me on the floor, a hand going to my bare knee. I flinched slightly from the skin-to-skin contact, but my head was too heavy to do much about it. "Is this about Sasuke? Or is it about me?" He pushed himself up, using my knees for support. "Hey. Look at me." I parted my fingers to peer out with one eye. "If it's Sasuke, we don't have to have sex. Okay? I mean, it's kinda already fucked but, if you don't want to do it again because of Sasuke... There are other ways I could get you off."

I gasped. "No, Naruto!"

"So, it's me then? Right? You're not attracted to me and that's the problem!"

"Naruto-"

"No, it's okay! We can get around it! We're fucking ninja! I could be anyone! Who do you want me to be?"

"Naruto, what are you talking about?"

Naruto stood back, feet apart before making a hand sign and the office filled up with smoke. I coughed, trying to bat the smoke away from my annoyed face. I was briefly concerned on how we were going to get all this smoke out of the office before I remembered that it would dissipate on its own.

When my vision cleared, I slammed back against the chair. Sasuke-kun was standing before me, wearing the garb that we had last seen him in, leaning against the desk coolly with his arms crossed. His eyebrows were drawn quizzically, eyes dark upon me, his splendid lips halfway between a smirk and a grimace. It would have been an odd expression had it been on anyone other than Sasuke-kun. And yet, it was the closest thing I could imagine Sasuke-kun showing of want, or desire. Everything about Sasuke-kun was already sexy, but he wasn't one to come on to anyone. I felt in between my legs grow warm, just from seeing his face look at me like that.

It took me three seconds to realize it wasn't really him. "No. Stop. I don't like this." How did Naruto get him so pat down? His stance, his expression, nothing about it held any of Naruto's character.

"Why not?" and Naruto even used Sasuke-kun's voice. My hands flew to my ears, and I squeezed my eyes shut.

"No!"

Another puff of smoke and Naruto was back to normal. "I'm so stupid!" he exclaimed. "Of course, that's not a good idea! You'd get too emotional! You're already crying!"

I sniffled and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand, not realizing it was happening until Naruto pointed it out.

"I'm dumb. I'm sorry. I'm always dumb. Who else then? There's gotta be somebody else then."

"What?" I blinked at him eyelashes heavy with tears.

"There's gotta be someone else who you find attractive. Bushy Brow?"

"No, don't turn into Lee!" I shouted, holding my arms up to stop him. "I've never been attracted to Lee!"

"Really?" Naruto asked, like it was a statement he found hard to believe. I didn't know why. Sure, Naruto and I respected and liked Lee, but he was not an attractive person. Thinking about him was making me forget about Sasuke-kun though. Rock Lee was so funny looking, his voice held so much passion that it was border-line ridiculous. It made me smile.

"No," I shook my head. "Never."

"He has an impressive six-pack, if you hadn't noticed."

"No! No! No! And don't show me. I'd be scarred for life."

"What about Sai then?" I paused, the alcohol letting me think about it. "He reminds you of Sasuke," Naruto stated. I didn't answer. I just set the sake cup on the desk. "You like Sai!" Naruto said, amazed when I hadn't responded. "Gross! He's all pale looking! And he's weird, Sakura-chan. I don't get it."

"He's not that bad!"

"So, you like him!"

"No, I don't like Sai, like that."

"Shikamaru?"

"What? Why him?"

"I don't know. I just feel like he'd know what to do in this type of situation."

"He wouldn't be in this situation to begin with! This is all too wrong! I can't believe you even considered it."

"Kakashi-sensei!"

I blushed, turning my head away as I gasped a breath of air. "No..."

"Your face got red! You'd totally do Kakashi-sensei!"

"Only because I'm curious to see what's underneath it all!"

"Underneath it all, huh?" Naruto asked, a teasing smirk on his face.

"Shut up!"

"I'm not judging you. Kakashi-sensei's hot!"

"You're not Kakashi-sensei though! You can't even transform into him! You've never seen him underneath his mask so you wouldn't know what he looked like!"

"Damn you're right!" Naruto threw a hand to his head at the realization. "Fuck man! I would have done a great Kakashi-sensei too!"

"Regardless, this whole thing is super wrong anyway."

"How is it wrong? We're not hurting anyone. No one would have to know! We'll turn out the lights! No one will see!"

"First of all, it's disrespectful towards you, don't you think?"

Naruto took a step toward me, tripping a little and landing both his hands on the backrest of my chair. "Sakura-chan," he whined. "You worry about me too much. I don't care."

"You don't care right now because you're horny and drunk," I stated.

"You're horny and drunk," Naruto replied, lowering himself back down onto the floor again at my feet.

"And yet look how well I'm behaving myself. That says something doesn't it?" I was enjoying myself. I wanted Naruto to keep talking to me like this. I wanted him to keep his attention on me. I wanted him to keep trying.

His forehead fell to my left knee. "Why'd you come to my apartment?" Naruto mumbled.

"Because," I said, Naruto's hair tickling my skin. "You deserve love."

Naruto laughed. He almost slipped off my lap but wrapped his arms around my legs to keep from falling. "But you didn't give me love. You gave me sex."

I flinched. I should know the difference at this age by now, shouldn't I?"

"Thanks though. That was really nice of you anyway," Naruto murmured. "It was nice. But... It's okay. You don't have to do it for me again. I'm really good at... helping myself..."

I was sort of thinking of pushing Naruto off me now. I didn't need to know that.

"You ever?"

"What!?" I snapped, shoving at his head. He rolled back onto his butt, his eyes locked on mine, hungry for my answer.

"Help yourself," he supplied again.

"I'm not telling you that!"

He pushed himself closer. "Do you even know how?" he asked in a deep voice.

"Of course, I know how!"

"Prove it," Naruto dared.

Instead, I reached around his head for the sake and took a drink.

Naruto laughed at me. "I'm just teasing you Sakura-chan. You're such a good sport." He gave my knees a squeeze with his arms. "Thank you for the company. Thank you for being my friend."

The both of us drained a whole bottle and almost the second. I leaned back on the chair, drinking straight from the bottle now. What was the point of continually pouring it into the tiny glass? We were just going to spill it. Naruto was already too far gone, sprouting nonsense. I was having a hard time keeping up with what he was saying.

"Look at you, Sakura-chan. You're the Hokage-sama!" I wasn't sure if he was commenting on me drinking like Tsunade-sama, or that I was sitting in her chair. This was probably super disrespectful to her, but I was too drunk to care. "You look so hot right now," Naruto's breath hit the inside of my thighs. "You're tearing me apart, ya know?"

"I thought you told me not to worry about your feelings."

"Don't worry about them." Naruto was too close to me. I shouldn't have felt this relaxed, but my legs just seemed to open on their own. Naruto's hot mouth moved against the inside of my thigh when he spoke. "I'll do all the worrying for you, Hokage-sama. I'm a ninja of the Hidden Leaf."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah," he grinned. He tried to push himself up, but the chair I was on had wheels, and it rolled back into the window behind us. The both of us laughed. Naruto took the bottle from me to drink, as if the two of us weren't sloshed enough.

"Your eyes are pretty," I said.

Naruto blinked. "I'm not pretty. Sasuke's pretty. You like Sasuke. Sasuke's so pretty!" Man, you try to give a boy a compliment, I thought. Naruto never failed to turn a conversation about himself back to Sasuke-kun.

"True, but you still have nice eyes. Just because Sasuke-kun is gorgeous doesn't mean no one else can be."

Naruto shook his head. "No. No, I'm not pretty. Your eyes are pretty. You're the only one with eyes."

"We all have eyes, Naruto."

"No. Not like yours. What color are they?"

"They're green."

"No. Leaves are green. Grass is green. Your eyes are prettier than those things. Here." He lifted my hand and took my index finger. "Your nail polish matches your eyes. I've never seen this color before, but on you. What the fuck color is this!?"

I laughed. "The bottle said it was mint green." I shrugged. "Still green."

"Mint green," Naruto whispered. "Mint doesn't look like this!"

"Mint ice cream does."

And then Naruto put the finger into his mouth. My eyes widened, but I didn't do much else. I didn't know what else to do. Normally I would be disgusted to feel something slimy on my finger like that, but all I felt was warmth. And then with a small suck, I felt something tug, up my arm, down my chest and straight into my loins.

My finger was cold when Naruto took it out of his mouth. "Doesn't taste like mint."

Of course not. It was nail polish!

"It's better," he rasped. My already heated cheeks grew more so. He pressed my hand to my lower stomach. "Show me," he whispered. "Show me how you do it."

"Do what?" I whispered back even though I knew what he meant. I should stop him from doing whatever he was thinking. But I wanted him to continue anyway. Maybe if I pretended I didn't know, it would be okay. I felt both of our hands slip into the rim of my skirt. What a bold move for Naruto, but I was still feeling too comfortable. Both of our hands cupped me over my underwear. It felt wonderfully wrong. Everything was so warm and wrong. I stared at Naruto's pretty eyes. "Tsunade-sama told me something."

"Yeah?" Naruto guided my hand beneath my underwear. Alarms should have been going off in my head, but I did nothing.

"She warned me," I groaned as I felt my own hand touching myself, "that I should tell you how I feel about you before it's too late."

"Oh yeah? How do you feel about me?"

I felt Naruto's fingers curl, thereby making my own fingers curl and then go underneath me. "I... hate you," I said, eyes narrowing. "Who said you could have your hand there?"

"I don't remember."

"Because nobody said so!"

"Make me stop then," he dared, yet despite his statement, Naruto was already pulling his hand out of my underwear anyway. Instead, I grabbed it before it was completely free.

Naruto took in a breath and locked eyes with me.

I pressed my tongue to my teeth as I guided his fingers in between my wet folds. I could see Naruto's breathing visibly grow harder, as if I was touching him rather than the other way around. His face was notably redder than it was moments before. "Do you even know how?" I asked wryly.

"Teach me. Make sure I do it right."

I tilted my hips to a better reach for him. Locating his index finger, I slowly inserted it inside of me. Naruto licked his lips, his eyes fogging up with lust. Naruto's finger was larger than mine, and rougher and deliciously more wonderful. I wondered if Sasuke-kun would have been the same, if his fingers would be just as long, just as calloused. It didn't matter. They were both hands of a man, and I had at least one of them. Naruto experimentally curled his finger up, and I let out a low mew, my free hand flying up to grasp the flesh between Naruto's shoulder and neck. The muscle was the perfect size for my hand to squeeze on.

Naruto leaned over my own shoulder, whispering in my ear, "Sakura-chan, you're so beautiful."

I shook my head as I rocked my hips against his hand. No. I wasn't beautiful. I was wretched.

My hand that had guided Naruto's finger traveled up his wrist, clutching at it. His arm was so steady and strong. I bit my lip, pressing my face to Naruto's shoulder in shame.

"You don't have to look at me. If that helps," Naruto said quietly.

I shook my head. "No." I looked up. "If I had to choose someone other than Sasuke-kun, I would choose you, Naruto. Not anyone else in the village. You."

Naruto grinned. "Because I have pretty eyes?"

"Yes," I murmured as I thrusted against his hand. No that wasn't why, but I couldn't think enough to list all the reasons why.

"Thank you, Sakura-chan." I found myself squeezing my eyes shut again, even though I had promised myself to be brave enough to look at him. Why was Naruto thanking me for putting him in second? Naruto didn't deserve second. He deserved first.

Hinata would have put him first. She already had. She let him go, believing that Naruto would be happier without her. How could he be happy with second when he could have had first?

Naruto added a second finger. "Am I doing this right?" I had made a loud noise which made Naruto pause, but I nodded my head to continue. "Tell me how you do it. Give me details," Naruto said into my ear.

"What?"

"Tell me what makes you decide to touch yourself. What do you think about?"

"No." I shook my head. "I'm not telling you that."

"It'll turn me on." And of course, I wanted to turn Naruto on too. I wanted to be the reason he felt like this, even if I didn't give him anything in return. I was so despicable. "If you're thinking about Sasuke, it won't matter to me. Just whatever that turns you on, Sakura-chan."

"I think of Sasuke-kun," I admitted.

"What about 'im?"

"Of him coming home." Naruto nodded his head. I felt it against my own. Naruto thought of Sasuke-kun coming home too. If I were more sober, maybe I would have found all this strange, but I wasn't.

"And what else?"

"Of him... staring at me," I breathed. Naruto's hand started moving faster. "What... he looks like... naked. How his hands might feel." And I felt Naruto's other hand slip up my shirt. The rough pads of his fingers and palm traveled across my ribs to my back. He undid my bra, surprisingly without much trouble. Then that same hand caressed my right breast, a thumb rubbing over the nipple. My back arched and I bucked into his hand.

"Then what?"

"He hates me. Sasuke-kun hates me."

Naruto almost paused in his movements. "Why?" he asked in a growl.

This was my fantasy after all. "Because. He doesn't know how else to feel. He wants me but doesn't want to. He's frustrated, so he hates me. So he takes me."

"How?"

"Hard. Violently. He forces me down. But I want him to. I want him so badly." I heard Naruto groan into my neck. His grip on my breast tightened, his hand moving inside me faster, hitting the spot I so desperately wanted him to reach, with just the right angle of my hips. I almost couldn't speak anymore. I was moaning too much. "He... It hurts, but... it feels... I'm going to..." Naruto sunk his teeth into the pulse point of my neck. I cried out, waves of pleasure tightening my body from my orgasm. I almost shouted Sasuke-kun's name, but I didn't. I was with Naruto.

I tried to catch my breath. I felt Naruto start to slowly pull out of me. The hand I had around his wrist quickly grabbed the back of his head, afraid he'd disappear now that the task had been finished. I didn't think when I pulled him closer to me to kiss him. I didn't care that his mouth was wet or that he tasted like sake.

"I need to touch something," I gasped. I let go of his head to yank down the zipper of his jacket.

"I'm something," he said, his voice close to begging. Of course he was something! He was what I had meant.

With both hands, I got rid of his jacket. I tried to push up his shirt, but my arms weren't obeying me, and sitting on the chair, I couldn't reach over his head. He took it off himself. Then he pulled me off the chair since him coming closer just made its wheels push me farther away. The both of us were on our knees. I felt his bare skin with my hands trying to get them to go past the rim of his pants. They were numb so I fumbled trying to do so. Naruto pulled my shirt over my head. I was finally able to undo the button of his pants. It felt ridiculously good just to have something in my hands like this. I fondled him, not at all shy. Naruto heaved, his weight leaning into me. I couldn't support him, so I rolled onto my butt, my legs coming from underneath me, Naruto falling into my lap.

"I want..." What was it that I wanted? I pulled Naruto closer as I fell to my back. "Please. I want to."

"Are you sure, Sakura-chan? I think... we drank too much of that sake."

"No! Please! I'm so lonely all the time. Please. I'm sorry. I'm so fucked up. I'm sorry I'm doing this to you. I love Sasuke-kun but I'm fucked up. I'm so lonely and fucked up!" I rambled, almost sobbing.

Naruto shushed me with a kiss to my lips, his hands supporting his weight on either side of my head. "I know how you feel. I'm lonely, too. I know exactly how you feel! It's okay, Sakura-chan. I'm also fucked up. I'm so fucked up." He laughed. "Like you don't even know the half of it."

I stared at his blue eyes. "What don't I know?" We were the closest of friends. I knew everything about Naruto. What else could I not know?

Naruto grinned at me. "You're really pretty." Normally I would have not fallen for such a clumsy, obvious attempt to change the subject, but Naruto was thumbing my forehead. I didn't want him staring at it like that.

"No, I'm not. Sasuke-kun doesn't- If I was, he wouldn't have left!"

"Sasuke's just dumb." Naruto lifted my legs to pull down my panties. He did it slowly, and as I stared at him, listening to his words, I didn't even notice him removing the article of clothing. "He acts all smart to try and cover it up, but I think he knows he's dumb. That's why he gets so angry all the time. That's why he would want to ravish you." Naruto looked down at me, quite animalistic.

"Maybe only in my fantasies."

"You and I know Sasuke better than anyone else does." Naruto came closer to me, my legs around his hips. How was it that Naruto and I were always talking about Sasuke-kun, even as we ourselves were about to screw each other? What was wrong with us? "If Sasuke saw us right now, how'd you think he'd react? You think he'd just sit and watch?" I felt Naruto press his tip against me. "Or do you think he'd do something about it? He'd beat the living daylights outta me, right? And after that, he'd come after you next. What do you think he'd do to you?"

My heart was thumping so hard, I felt my whole body shudder at each beat.

"He'd hold you down, like this, maybe?" Naruto brought both his hands under my knees, bringing my legs up to my face, restraining me. I couldn't move. "And then, how did you put it before, he'd take you?"

Naruto slammed into me. He entered me with no resistance, for I was thoroughly soaked with need. Every thrust went straight to my core. The first contorted my face, my mouth moving into a silent O. The second ripped a scream from my throat. The third I was clawing at Naruto, for anything, desperate to hold something. I grabbed onto his hair, the nails on my other hand biting into the skin of his shoulder. This feeling was almost too much for me to handle. Tears stuck to the corners of my eyes.

"I want you to do it again," Naruto demanded. "I want you to cum. Think about Sasuke and do it again."

I answered with a wordless cry. Would Sasuke-kun be angry? Would he be jealous? All this time I just figured Sasuke-kun wouldn't care. He had never cared about me. But I had forgotten. I did know Sasuke-kun. He only pretended to not care. He was all an act. I knew him. He would be upset. Of course, he would be. Sasuke-kun was always upset.

I remembered Sasuke-kun losing his temper, knocking a plate of apples right out of my hand, without thinking. He did things without thinking when he was really furious. So unlike his usual self. Like Naruto. The both of them were so passionate when they were feeling that much.

Naruto. He felt too much. I could feel it emitting out of him. Love, hate. Sasuke-kun, Naruto. It was the same feeling. They were the same.

I came.

Naruto swore as my body clenched around him. I felt him move within me a few more times before pulling out. "We're gonna stop," he huffed.

"Why?" I was ashamed how desperate my voice sounded.

"Because I don't want us to make a huge mess!" Naruto smiled at me. "Come on now. It's alright. I'm not going anywhere! This was about you, remember? Just settling the score." If we were really just settling the score, maybe he shouldn't have given me two orgasms. He reached behind him for his jacket. Pulling me up slightly he wrapped the jacket around my shoulders and tugged me closer to him. I rested against his chest.

"You're so warm."

"Yeah?" His arms slipped under the jacket to embrace me. "You're so soft." He leaned against the desk. I felt myself fall asleep from my drunkenness, exertion and all that sweet heat.

---

I heard two rapid knocks. I opened my eyes. "Is someone in there?"

I held back a shriek as I pulled away from Naruto. He hadn't woken from the noise, but I started to shake him as I addressed Shizune's voice from across the closed door. "Oh yes!" I called, jumping up before realizing I was wearing nothing but Naruto's jacket and my ruffled-up skirt. "I was just organizing Tsunade-sama's things." I rounded the desk, turning back to Naruto in a panic who had sluggishly pulled himself upright. Naruto threw my clothes at me over the desk. "But don't come in! I left a mess in front of the door, and I don't want you to trip! I'll be right there!" I tried to put on my bra, but I was panicking too much and still sluggish from my drinking. I tossed the jacket, bra and panties back to Naruto and just put on the shirt.

"Um, okay. What are you organizing in there?"

I pointed at my chest, mouthing to Naruto 'Is it noticeable?'

Naruto started shaking his head, but it morphed into nodding. I sighed irritably, deeming it was only noticeable that I wasn't wearing a bra to Naruto because he was looking. I motioned him to hide under the desk before grabbing Tsunade-sama's papers and answering the door. "These!" I said once Shizune was in sight. "I didn't want Danzo going through anything and finding something that he could hold over Tsunade-same to prevent her from retaking the position of Hokage when she wakes up," I said all in one breath.

"Oh. I noticed the light was on, so I came to turn it off. It's five in the morning. Have you been here all night?"

"Yes," I said, running a hand through my hair and trying to keep my distance away from Shizune. I didn't want her to smell the sex and sake on me. "Tsunade-sama had everything just everywhere and it took me some time."

"I could have done that, you know? I know Tsunade-sama's wacked up organization a little bit better. You look terrible."

"Well, it's been done anyway. Here, I'll entrust this to you then? If you don't mind, I'm going to go home and take a much-needed shower."

"Yes, of course." Shizune took a step back so I could exit the office. I shut off the light and closed the door securely behind me, concealing Naruto.

Shizune and I left the building together. She didn't comment on my appearance again, but I couldn't help noticing her giving me a second look every once in a while.

Naruto and I never talked about what happened either. I thought he would try. I thought he would want to push it, and try to make it happen more, so that it would be harder for me to say no to a relationship with him. But he did not, knowing full well that I had only wanted it to be a onetime thing. I was mildly disappointed actually. I even thought, maybe, Naruto had decided to go after Hinata now that he got screwing me out of the way, but he made no effort to pursue Hinata either. It was wrong for me to think that of Naruto. He wasn't disrespecting me. No, I was the one always disrespecting him. He kept my reputation intact. He did not harass me about it again. It was a secret that we did not speak of. We would forget it ever happened.

I assumed Naruto forgot all about it. So much had happened afterwards, and with the much more pressing concern of Sasuke-kun's life being in danger, that was all Naruto thought about. After all, Sasuke-kun was the most important thing to the both of us.

I could admit that sometimes, for me, the memory of that night passed through my thoughts. I never did get my underwear back from Naruto.

That little thief.