Thief

by myshadowspirit

Naruto took things. He took your patience. He took your time. But most of all, he took hearts. He probably had a whole collection, stuffed somewhere in some basement, like a hoarder who wouldn't let go. Naruto never let go of your heart. And I mean never. He deserved my hatred. He deserved everything.

11. Chapter Eleven

I cracked open my eyes to see glowing red numbers.

3:07

I knew that it wasn't my clock. I stared at it longer, trying to decipher what time 3:07 actually was. I had assumed I was on a mission, because otherwise I'd be home. I probably was supposed to be waking up at an ungodly hour. It couldn't be 3:07 pm. It was so dark. Should I be awake now?

My stomach gave a lurch. Oh, was I sick. Why was I so sick? What happened?

Memories started to come back to me as I realized no, I wasn't on a mission and that this was supposed to be some sort of vacation. A vacation that went wrong as we never met up with Kakashi-sensei and we were now who knew where. I checked the floor to make sure Naruto and Sasuke-kun were indeed still there. Seeing their backs gave me some relief, but that eroded slightly noting their position. Sasuke-kun's body was spooning around Naruto's, arm over him like a blanket. I had never seen Sasuke-kun so tender and protective.

God, they were in love. It made me want to throw up even more.

I was pretty sure I molested Sasuke-kun earlier, and forced him to kiss me, several times. And who knew what embarrassing things I could have said? And how did Naruto feel? He had seen it all happen, hadn't he? That was why he went to the bathroom with that whorish waitress.

I was the worst friend ever. I kind of wanted Sasuke-kun to never ever have to look at me again. Naruto would forgive me. He always forgave me. But I definitely needed to somehow redeem myself to him. I didn't know how, and that didn't matter at the moment because I was five seconds from vomiting. I crawled out of the suffocating bed and did my best to tiptoe about the two bodies so as not to wake them.

Once in the bathroom I hastily turned on the light and threw open the lid of the toilet with a bang, for I nearly didn't make it.

I threw up with absolute misery for several lurches, hugging the ceramic bowl. If this was karma, I deserved it. When I thought it had subsided, I tried to stand. On the sink counter were the packs that Naruto and I had brought with us. I didn't remember bringing them to the room. Sasuke-kun must have been carrying them for us. With a sigh, I opened mine to look for my toothbrush.

My eyes were squinted from the bright light of the bathroom, and the room was still slightly spinning. A part of me wondered if I was still drunk. It was entirely possible. After rinsing my mouth some, I drank some water. As I brushed my teeth, I brought my other hand up to my head, using my chakra to try to relieve my pounding headache. I looked like shit in the mirror, so I let my eyes close until I was done brushing my teeth.

I turned off the light and was about to leave the bathroom when I almost ran into Sasuke-kun. I gave a startled shout. "Sasuke-kun!" I didn't really want to see him now. I was too embarrassed about what had happened last night. I didn't even know what to say. I should probably apologize. Yes, that was it, but it hurt to speak.

Sasuke-kun wasn't looking directly at me, though his body was preventing me from leaving the bathroom fully. A smirk graced his features. Whatever he was thinking about must have been amusing. His eyes turned to me. "So, are you always like that when you drink? Is that what Naruto meant?"

I turned red. I hoped that Sasuke-kun couldn't see it in the dim moonlight, but he was an elite Uchiha. He probably could see anything. "I'm sorry." Finally. I said it. "I was unaware of my actions." Sasuke-kun leaned to one side of the doorway. I took the opportunity to push passed him. "Excuse me." Sasuke-kun turned his body to follow my movements. "How's Naruto," I asked as I walked around the unconscious body to the bed.

"Not dead."

"I wouldn't think so. You can go back to taking care of him. I'm fine now."

"He's fine."

I caught Sasuke-kun's eyes. "I mean you can go back to sleep with him." The statement made it clear that I had seen Sasuke-kun's arm around Naruto. "You looked so cozy next to him a minute ago."

"I'm not one of Naruto's silly groupies. I was keeping him on his side so he wouldn't choke on his own vomit."

"Yeah, okay, then what are you, Sasuke-kun?" I asked having enough of his denial and getting straight to the point. "To Naruto, what are you?"

"What kind of question is that?"

"A pretty simple one! Are you just friends?"

"Naruto said so."

"Did he? Are you?"

Sasuke-kun stared at me for a long time before answering me. "You know how Naruto is. I can't control his emotions or actions."

"So, what are you saying?"

Sasuke-kun growled in frustration. "Obviously...!" He flung his arm in Naruto's direction.

"Obviously what!?"

"I don't even know, Sakura! I don't understand it! I didn't ask for any of this. The both of you. You two. I don't understand either of you, so I don't know. I don't know how to answer your questions. I'm not asking you questions so maybe you should just shut up."

I clenched my teeth. "Are you not asking questions because you're so polite and good all of a sudden? Because you've never been that, Sasuke!"

Sasuke-kun narrowed his eyes.

"You didn't ask, but I'm going to tell you anyway because being ignorant just makes everything worse. Naruto is attracted... like sexually attracted to the both of us." Sasuke-kun made a face and turned away from me like he didn't want to hear it, though I knew he had already known. "So, there's that issue. The second issue is that both Naruto and I want you, which I'm pretty sure has been quite clear to you for a while. And now, the third piece of information that needs to be addressed is that you want Naruto in return, so thinking about this problem logically, the right thing to do is allow the two of you to be together, since it's the only relationship that has mutual affection."

"Stop it with this ridiculous bullshit! I don't have the patience to deal with it a moment longer!" Sasuke-kun's voice was getting rather loud, which I wasn't used to so it kept me quiet. "What makes you think you have any possible idea about what I want? You don't know me at all." It was true. I didn't know Sasuke-kun. "Honestly, Naruto doesn't know a thing about me either. The both of you are idiots who are infatuated with me for no good reason! Like, what is it about me that you two keep throwing away anything you can think of, for me!? I've never done a single thing for either of you. In fact, I've tried to hurt you. I've tried to kill you, over and over again. I... Especially Naruto. I wanted him dead. I wanted him dead so badly."

He was getting too upset. The slight change of tone in his normal voice was something I seldom heard. He was good at sounding neutral. The only time I really heard it waiver was when he was angry and about to fight, so it put me on edge, just incase Sasuke-kun really did start to get violent again."Sasuke-kun," I said in a quiet steady voice. I wasn't sure how well I could console him. Consoling Sasuke-kun was Naruto's specialty. "We care about you. You're our friend."

"Why? How?"

"It just is. You just are! I don't know."

"I've been trying to give myself an explanation. Like with you, it was easier because you thought I was someone I wasn't. You only saw my face when we were kids. But now I don't understand. You're older than twelve. You've had to have met others who were attractive or had status or were good in ninjutsu. Now I'm just a ex-criminal with one arm and have nothing going for me."

"Sasuke-kun, you only having one arm doesn't make you less attractive. Do you really-"

"I didn't say that!" he snapped. "I'm saying it doesn't make sense, and that you must have really not grown up if you still think you're in love with me."

I stared at him with dead eyes. I had given up on the idea of Sasuke-kun ever loving me in return. But it hurt that he didn't have faith in my love. At this point I didn't have any more tears to cry though.

"And him." Sasuke-kun pointed at Naruto. "It makes even less sense. I'm not some damsel for him to save. I'm not his brother. I've never even really acted like his friend before. Why does he want...? I don't understand. The both of you must just be retarded. Neither of you actually care about me. You're just obsessed."

My eyes flashed angrily at him. "Maybe you're right about me, Sasuke-kun. I'm just a silly girl, right? But Naruto... How can for even a second you ever doubt him? Sasuke, your head was on several wanted lists. People wanted you dead. The Land of Lightning demanded that we give you up or they were going to declare war on us. And you know what? Konoha agreed, just like that." I snapped my fingers. "With hardly giving it a second thought. Everyone was ready to have you executed. Even me. Me, who was supposed to love you no matter what. But Naruto, Naruto wasn't going to hand you over. He let some kunoichi beat him black and blue for hours because he wouldn't give any information about you over. He begged the Rakage for your pardon, on his knees, in the snow with tears in his eyes! He had a panic attack when he heard you attacked the Kage, because he was scared he wasn't going to be able to get you out of it. He searched for you for three years! He cried over you a million times. He'd sit at home, depressed for days sometimes, not doing anything because he was starting to doubt himself, that he could ever get you home again, but then he pulled himself right back, tried again harder and harder! He trusted you with his life even though you flat out declared you intended to kill him. And then he helped convince the Five Nations to pass by your execution! Naruto was the only one who never gave up on you!"

"That's because Naruto's a fool," Sasuke-kun said, seemingly not at all impressed by Naruto's devotion for him.

"You're right, he's a fool. And because he's a fool, he's not good about knowing what love is or how to tell people his feelings with words. He does dumb things and makes mistakes. He flirts with every woman he knows and makes pervy comments and is generally stupid... But there's no doubt that he loves you more than anyone could love anything, and maybe he can only be that way because he is a fool." Sasuke-kun was staring at me without comment. "You're a fucked-up bastard, Sasuke, but I know you're trying to get better. That's why you surrendered to Konoha. You did it for Naruto. So... just be with him. Just let him... fix you. You know he'd do anything for you. You could trust him with everything."

"Naruto can't fix me, and I don't want to be with him in anyway."

"You're lying."

"I don't know what fantasy you've come up with in your silly little girl romance world, but there's no way I'd want to be romantically involved with Naruto."

"For fuck's sake-"

"Everything you've pointed out or seen, or think you've seen, has an actual logical explanation, or it's just Naruto acting dumb like always."

"Don't tell me you aren't at least attracted to him."

Sasuke-kun's eyes got dangerous. "Don't you even-"

"Naruto came to my window several months back," I said. The sentence seemed off topic, but I saw Sasuke-kun's expression change slightly. "He was pretty messed up. He had a broken arm and was beat up real good." Sasuke-kun shut his mouth and stared. "But the strangest thing was that he was covered in bite marks and the last thing he could remember was stumbling upon you."

"And what are you implying?"

I stood up from the bed and walked closer over to Sasuke-kun. "You were still pretty crazy during that time; you could have been capable of doing anything." I noticed Sasuke-kun's chest start to rise and fall a little faster than before.

"You don't know what happened."

"I don't," I admitted. "But I'm a medical ninja, so I have a pretty good idea."

Sasuke-kun clenched his teeth. "You weren't there! You wouldn't understand!"

"Understand what? What happened?"

"Nothing."

"Naruto doesn't remember any of it," I said. "But it's pretty obvious what happened to him, and even though he's an idiot, he's not that much of an idiot."

"Fuck," Sasuke-kun swore softly, bringing his arm up to rest his elbow against the wall, his hand covering his face.

"Sasuke-kun... did you... rape Naruto?"

Sasuke-kun spun around to me so fast, his arm raised and hand fisted. I covered my head and, in a panic, cowered. When no blow came, I peeked through my fingers. Sasuke-kun looked appalled by my reaction, realizing that I had fully believed that he was going to hit me. "Holy hell, Sakura," he muttered, before walking away from me and into the bathroom. "It's all fucked."

I followed him but kept some distance. I didn't enter the bathroom. I just stared at Sasuke-kun's back as he leaned on the counter of the sink. I couldn't see his reflection in the mirror. His hair was in the way.

"Naruto... wouldn't blame you. He doesn't blame you."

"I didn't rape Naruto," Sasuke-kun spat into the sink. "You weren't there, so you have no right to assume anything."

"Sasuke-kun... Naruto had a broken arm. His face was swelled up like a balloon-"

"He started it!"

Sasuke-kun saw my disapproving expression in the mirror.

"Listen. Naruto is an actual good person. I'm not trying to say he's bad, or make you think differently of him. He's actually one of the least selfish people I know, but he knows how to push my buttons and he does it on purpose to get the type of reaction he wants. He's manipulative. And I'm not saying I don't deserve it because I do it right back, but it's not... healthy. He wouldn't stop. I didn't know how to get him to stop."

"Stop what?"

"Get him off of me!"

"Wait, are you saying... Naruto attacked you? Did he force you?"

Sasuke-kun spun around to me, waving his arm. "We force each other! It's a constant battle of forcing the other person to do what we want. It's always been like that, Sakura, just Naruto is getting increasingly better at it because he doesn't care about throwing low blows anymore. Not after what I've already did to him. We just keep being worse to each other."

"I'm not... following anymore."

"He pretended to be you!"

"What?"

"Just forget it. It happened once. That night happened once. Just forget about it. It doesn't matter how we feel about the other. It's no good. It's not right. It's not the right thing to do. If anything is the right thing to do, it's for you to be with him. He loved you first."

I threw my head back and laughed. It startled Sasuke-kun. After the alarming sound ceased from my throat I said, "I've been emotionally abusing Naruto since the day I met him. And don't even get me started on the physical abuse. So, what if Naruto won't lay a hand on me? At least with you he has the balls to defend himself."

Sasuke-kun shook his head. "No, it's different. You've never... You've never attempted to kill him before. You're a medic. You're the complete opposite of me. You fix him. I blow his arm up," Sasuke-kun said humorlessly.

I bit my bottom lip. "I can't. I don't love him, and he knows it. It wouldn't work."

"Bullshit. I see the way you look at him, Sakura. It's the same way you used to look at me. And even now, the way you look at me isn't the same. It doesn't have the same intensity."

"I don't look at Naruto like anything!"

"He makes you laugh. You're comfortable around him. He makes you feel safe. You can have fun. It doesn't matter what you two are doing. You two are close. You two are way closer than you used to be."

"He's one of my best friends. Of course, we're close! I don't have feelings for him! He's the one that keeps hitting on me!"

"And you slept with him."

That shut me up for a moment. "H-how do you know that...?"

"Naruto told me."

"Dammit!" I stomped my foot and looked away, shaking my head a little. I had trusted Naruto not to tell anyone. Or I had just assumed he wouldn't. I felt slightly betrayed by this.

"He told me because he felt the need to apologize, if that makes you feel any better."

"No, not really."

"So why did you do it?"

"Excuse me?"

"Why'd you sleep with him?" Sasuke-kun repeated angrily. "It was because you were feeling weak and he was there, right? So what difference does it make if you're the one with Naruto or if it's me?"

"I didn't just do it because I was feeling weak. I did it because I felt sorry for him! See? That's so much more worse. Thinking that Naruto was so pathetic that he wasn't ever gonna get laid, holding him so lowly in my mind, that disrespect, that's the kind of thing that hurts Naruto. That hurts him so much more than being punched in the face. That's not kindness. Sure, weakness let me get seduced the second time, but the first time was entirely out of pity!"

"Second time? How many times did you sleep with him?!"

Oops. "What does it matter? I'm sorry, okay? I have no intention in sleeping with Naruto again, so you seriously don't need to see me as a threat."

"I'm just surprised. I thought you were so in love with me you wouldn't have even thought about it."

"Well, I guess my fake immature love for you just couldn't hold me back from Naruto's suave charms!" I was being super sarcastic, but it didn't seem Sasuke-kun was getting that.

"Maybe it does make sense. Since that's the kind of person you've turned into."

"What do you mean by that?!"

"You'd probably would do anyone. You'd certainly kiss anyone."

My cheeks and ears burned with anger. "If you're talking about Ino and I, that was supposed to be a joke!"

"The reason doesn't matter to you, does it? Pity, a mere joke, who cares why? Who else have you been with? Lee? God knows you'd pity him, at least you seemed to back at the Chūnin exams. But it's been a long five years, hasn't it? There could be so many new possibilities now. Like that pastey replacement of me. Or Kakashi."

"Hold up a minute! Where did Kakashi-sensei even come from? I mean, I could see why maybe you'd think that about Lee and Sai, as they are closer in age to me, and Lee obviously likes me, not that I have been with either of them in anyway, but Kakashi-sensei? He's our former teacher and current Hokage."

"You were holding him awfully close during the whole end battle with Kaguya!"

"Because I was keeping him from dying! I'm the medic! That's what I have to do. I have to tend to the wounded!"

"A lot of people get wounded in war."

"Wait a second... Sasuke-kun, why are you saying all of this? Are you jealous?"

There was a long pause. "No."

"Then what the hell? I can understand why you'd be upset about Naruto since the both of us... have had relations with him, but why the hell would you care who I was with?"

"Because it isn't classy," Sasuke-kun stated.

"I didn't give your boyfriend a STD is that's what you're worried about. I can't see what else it could be. I know you're not attracted to me. You're freaking gay."

Sasuke-kun threw his arm into the air. "I'm not gay, Sakura! I've been kissing you the entire night!"

I blinked. "You mean I've... been kissing you."

Sasuke-kun rolled his eyes. "Not really, but whatever."

"You liked kissing me?"

"You happen to be prettier than Naruto," Sasuke-kun stated like that was an explanation.

"But Sasuke-kun, you've never been attracted to girls before."

"I'm not attracted to boys either! Naruto's... I don't know... different... He somehow made it not weird, but it's not like Naruto was my first choice! It just somehow happened!"

"Then what are you saying?!"

"What do you mean, what am I saying?!"

"Like... you want to have sex with women? With me?! If that was true, why didn't you sleep in the bed with me. You'd rather be with Naruto!"

"Sakura, you were trashed! I'm not a great person, but I wouldn't stoop that low. Do you know how hard it was for me to pull away when you were... when you were like that?"

"Who else?" I asked in a trembling voice.

"What?"

"What other girls are you attracted to. Prove to me you're not gay!"

"Are you being serious right now?"

I had been so sure that Sasuke-kun had been gay. Now that I realized that he hadn't been all this time, he had five years of being attracted to anyone. They didn't have to be female either. Naruto wasn't. Anyone could be my competition. I was jealous of everyone. "That red-haired woman you were with. The healer. She was infatuated with you. She wouldn't stop talking about you when we held her prisoner. Who was she...? Was she your-"

"Don't talk about Karin," Sasuke-kun snapped.

"Your lover?" I asked anyway.

"No."

"Did you find her attractive?"

"Not really."

"Why?"

"I don't know."

"But me...? You think I'm...?"

"You're pretty, Sakura. Why are you acting so weird about this?"

I almost threw my head back and wept. He complimented me so rarely that even something as simple and mundane seemed extraordinary.

"Who else do you think is pretty?"

"What?"

"Do you think Ino's pretty?"

"What? I don't know. Not really." Sasuke-kun seemed confused by my rapid questions but I was sick and tired of never knowing what people were feeling and thinking.

"Would you have sex with her?"

"Of course not!"

"But you'd have sex with me? If I was sober."

"You made me think about it," Sasuke-kun stated, and it was probably the sexiest statement I had ever heard him say. "I'm not saying I would. Just that you made me think about it. There's a million and one reasons why it would be a bad idea."

I knew the first of those millions of reasons had everything to do with Naruto. It didn't really matter to me though. I was still ecstatic beyond belief. "Who have you... thought about doing it with? Naruto doesn't count," I said quickly.

"No one."

"You've never-?"

"No. You?" he asked, before adding, "Besides Naruto of course."

"No, just... just Naruto."

"Fine."

"What?"

"I'm fine with that."

I looked around the room shyly. "Sasuke-kun... I'm sober now..."

"Are you?" he asked, narrowing his eyes at me suspiciously. "How can I know that for sure? You're still acting kind of moronic."

"What?!"

Maybe I was still a little drunk, but I thought it was mostly hangover. Was I really so unaware of how I was behaving? I thought I was acting decently normal. Shocked, but who wouldn't be?

"Or maybe, you just don't want to have sex with me because you really are gay, but you're a closet gay and you're trying to cover it up!"

"This is what I mean about you still acting moronic."

"Sober Sakura wouldn't care if you had sex with drunk Sakura, because sober Sakura wouldn't think she would have been able to have sex with you at all!"

"You are still drunk."

I threw my arms up in the air. "Whatever! I'm hardly still drunk."

"Just go back to sleep. Hopefully... you'll forget this conversation."

I walked away from him and sat haughtily on the bed. "I can't go to sleep now, you realize."

"Just try."

I fell to my back with a loud groan. I stretched, arching my back before rolling my head to peer at Sasuke-kun.

"Stop that."

"Stop what?"

"Doing whatever you're doing." He walked towards me and for the briefest of moments, I thought it was to make all my dreams come true. Then he turned away from me and sank back to the floor with Naruto. His position was similar to how he had been, but there were now a few inches keeping their bodies separate.

"Fine," I grumbled. "Choose Naruto over me. It would make sense."

"I'm not choosing Naruto over you. I hate Naruto." Lies. "You be with Naruto."

"I hate Naruto too! I hate Naruto more! I hated Naruto first!"

Sasuke-kun shrugged his shoulders. "Good for you." I kicked his shoulder from the bed. He turned his head to frown at me. "Leave it alone. The fairest thing is if no one had anybody."

"Naruto already got to have me, and then you. What's not fair is that we never had a chance," I mumbled into the pillow.

"Because it wasn't meant to be."

"But why!?"

"I already talked to Naruto about this, Sakura." He turned back away from me. "Naruto said he would be okay if you chose me over him, but he was only trying to hide his true feelings, which we all know he's terrible at. Nothing is going to be fair. We've agreed that neither of us is going to seriously go after you."

"So, you two got to discuss this without me? I don't get a say? I'm not an object. I'm not the last piece of cake! It's one thing if you two were a couple. I'd back off then. But you're saying you're not, and that you're somewhat attracted to me. That's the closest I've ever been. I'm not gonna be able to just let this go!"

"You shouldn't even want me anymore, Sakura. The things I've done to you aren't forgivable."

"I don't want to have sex with you because I forgive you," I said nastily. Sasuke-kun shifted on the ground. "I want to have sex with you because, for some strange reason, you managed to stay attractive even though you've went through hell and back. I want to have sex with you because I'm seventeen and my body is still misfiring hormones. Misfiring hormones means I'm emotional and jealous and want to stake some sort of claim over you before some other girl gets a chance, and because Naruto's already had you. But for all the crap you did, all the times you broke my heart, made me cry, worry and made me believe you were gonna destroy the world, I don't forgive you for."

"Good. At least... that explanation makes sense."

Tears formed at the edges of my eyes. I stared at the red numbered clock, watching as the vision became blurry. "You left me unconscious on a bench in the middle of the night, after I poured my heart out for you. I could have saved you. If you had let me, we could have helped you before you got so bad." Before he hurt so many people. Before he killed. I had been so happy that Sasuke-kun returned to us. I was walking on air to learn that he wouldn't be executed, that he was released from prison. But now I was starting to wonder what type of life Sasuke-kun would have. I was still having trouble not thinking of Sasuke-kun as the crazy, mad, hopeless monster. He seemed okay now. He seemed to be himself, but there was no way his fragile mind could have just healed itself after several months in a dark prison. If anything, it should have made it worse. He couldn't be of sane mind now, but he would never let himself see psychological help. He wouldn't allow himself to be loved by Naruto or me. He was still difficult and stubborn. He was scorned by people everywhere. How was he ever going to be happy again? He never would be.

"I would have been miserable if I had stayed."

"At least you would have been safe!"

"Safe and unhappy. Then I just would have snapped inside the village."

I gave a frustrated cry. "Fine. Then it would have been best if you had just died." Because at least then he wouldn't be suffering all the time.

Sasuke-kun didn't answer right away and when he did it was barely audible. "... I know."

I hadn't meant to say that.

I turned my face into the pillow, a shuddering breath escaping me even though I was doing my best not to cry. I heard Sasuke-kun get up. "Do you want me to go?"

"What do you mean?" I mumbled, though I already knew what he meant.

"Disappear."

I pushed myself up from the bed, tear plastered face pointed at Sasuke-kun. "Really, Sasuke-kun? What about Naruto?"

"He'll get over it. With time, he'll get over it. Three years wasn't long enough, but five years, and being with you, he'll be fine."

"Sasuke-kun, why are you always leaving us?! Why!?"

"Because it's the only solution I know of!" Sasuke-kun shouted. "This wasn't supposed to happen. I never wanted you to get mixed up in my life. Nothing good ever comes from it. You and Naruto were supposed to stay in Konoha. You guys belong there. You're happy there. I had never planned on seeing you again. I thought Konoha was a fantastically morally good village as a kid and you guys would be alright there. When I realized that the entire world was fucked, I... I don't know... I didn't want you in it. I tried to kill you. Sakura, I tried to kill you." A chill went down my back as he kept repeating it like I was too stupid to know of what he had tried to do to me.

"Sasuke-kun..."

"What's the point of living this life if you're just so fucking miserable all the time? I make you fucking miserable! I deserve to suffer. That's why I haven't killed myself off yet. I need to atone for my sins. But you, you don't, and as long as I'm around you you're going to be miserable."

"You always leaving is precisely the reason why I'm always miserable, Sasuke-kun! You think if you leave, Naruto and I are just gonna get together and be happy without you? Naruto would be heartbroken yet again. He'll obsess over you, again. I can't just replace you! Naruto might be fond of me, but he'd put you first. When I asked him to forget you, he refused. You're the reason why Naruto and I never got together. And then I'll be alone, again. At least if you were here... I could watch over you, and make sure you're okay. I'm always scared... that you're just gonna be dead one day. There's so many ways... to have yourself killed. You say you're not going to because you deserve to be miserable but... eventually you're not going to be strong enough to endure it any longer. You're going to break."

"Then maybe I'm supposed to break."

"What the hell is wrong with you?! Why do you keep hurting us!? I hate you so much!" I rammed my fist on his chest, but there was no power behind it. His body was warm.

"I don't know," Sasuke-kun answered. "I don't know how to fix it."

"Then let us fix it."

"You can't," and that's when I heard Sasuke-kun's voice crack. I raised myself up to my knees, hands hovering over him, like I would have been healing him with my ninjutsu, but my hands bore no chakra. My fingertips rested on either side of his face, my eyes wide as I looked at him, noticing every little detail of his expression that I could see in the dark. His guard was down. I could see in him, the sad, lost boy that didn't know what he was doing. I blinked several times to clear my vision in the dim light.

"You don't know me very well, Sasuke-kun," I said, now pushing chakra through my fingertips, finding every small tense muscle in his head and forcing them to relax. A few of them spazzed under his skin, still defiant, but with a slight extra push, they too complied. "That's another thing I hate about you. You not knowing me." He shivered, before a long sigh escaped his lips. I savored the smell and feel of it on my face. I worked my hands down, fingers hovering over his neck and shoulders, but not touching. Only my chakra touched him. He made a small groan and rested his head against my shoulder. I smiled. "You have the tensest muscles I've ever come across." I found another knot. He hissed at me.

"Stop it."

"The problem isn't that I can't fix you. It's that you won't let me." He didn't answer. He just pressed his face deeper into my neck. His one arm encircled around me. I found satisfaction in Sasuke-kun leaning into me. Even though he was a dickhead and I hated him, right now he was mine.

"Sakura..."

"Hmm?"

"I... I'm not the right person for you." I realized Sasuke-kun was going to speak more words that would hurt me, more words that would twist and stab through my flesh with the sharpness of logic behind them. "I'm not able to love you." I put my concentration on the feeling of him in my arms, ignoring what he was saying. I was too engrossed with his back. "I most likely never will be able to." Ignore it, Sakura. You already knew that. "I don't want to ask you for this."

"Ask me what?"

He took in a breath. "I think I need... you to still care. Even though I can't give you anything in return. Even if it's not the same as it used to be or if you fall in love with someone else. I think I just need you to care about me, no matter what happens. Then I'll be okay."

My heart was beating so hard. What was he saying? "Sasuke-kun, you have love. You've always had love. Naruto loves you-"

"It can't be Naruto. Naruto's such a fool. It wouldn't matter what I did. He would always feel the same. He wouldn't have killed me. Even if that was the only option. Even if there was no saving me. He wouldn't be able to do it. But you, you don't ignore logic just because you don't like it. You're aware of it. You're the only person that I don't think is a fool. If you stopped caring about me, then I would know for sure that I was a lost cause."

I wanted to tell Sasuke-kun that I was the biggest of fools. I wanted to tell him that I had even attempted to stop caring about him and failed, just as a fool would do. It was all just chance, my inability to get over it, that kept me caring. If that was the only thing keeping Sasuke-kun together, I wondered if he knew how fragile that way of thinking actually was.

I pulled away to look at his face, hurt and need written all over it. Then I cupped his cheeks and kissed him, like a declaration that I would always love him. Sasuke-kun was eager. Sasuke-kun wanted it. I could tell by the way he was suddenly gripping my hair, almost painfully tight but sending me into chills regardless. I had been kissing Sasuke-kun all night but was too drunk to be able to record the feeling well. Now I noticed that his lips were slightly chapped, rough to the touch, that the skin on his jaw wasn't as soft and smooth as I imagined it. He participated in the kiss with me, but he didn't move around as frantically and as passionately as I did, in a hope that my sporadic, hasty movements would start up a hidden passion in Sasuke-kun that I had never seen before.

"Stop," I heard him say into my mouth, but stop what I wasn't quite sure. If it was to stop kissing him, he probably shouldn't be kissing me back. His grip squeezed in my hair. His breath hit my lips and I stopped moving. I stopped breathing. Only Sasuke-kun breathed. "We can't," he told me.

I swallowed. "We've already been kissing. One more kiss wouldn't make a difference." Even almost before I was finished speaking, Sasuke-kun was already pushing his mouth back against mine.

Throughout my young life with being in love with Sasuke-kun, I constantly revolved around foolish naïveté, and trying to become a better, stronger person. I was a fool, but I was aware I was a fool. I identified my flaws and treated them before such weaknesses affected my performance as a shinobi. Or at least I sincerely tried to. Though I had all these dreams and fantasies that one day, Sasuke-kun would become my prince and give me the love I had always wanted, I came to terms that it would never happen. Sometimes, thinking this way, I let myself imagine the perfect life with him. It didn't matter how unlikely it was. It wasn't going to happen anyway. It was alright for me to picture a kind, romantic Sasuke-kun, because I was aware that I was only doing such a thing to make myself feel good. I knew the difference between reality and imagination at this point. This was also the same train of thought that led me to thinking of giving up on the real Sasuke-kun. I would always love my memory of him, my sweet adaptation, but I was ready to accept that destroying the real Sasuke-kun was the right thing to do. That was my version of me being a stronger person, as weak and silly as it was.

Me being the fool was when I was trying to consider the real Sasuke-kun. His rudeness and cruelty towards me were over analyzed until I could convince myself that maybe Sasuke-kun felt for me too. He was rude because he couldn't handle his feelings toward me. He was cruel only in order to protect me from something he thought was crueler, which was of course, himself. This type of Sasuke-kun that I had imagined was based off of real parts of him. He was the one that I was afraid of, but desired anyway, the one that made me feel hot. I romanticized thinking about the fragile way he handled himself, how it was so easy for him to break. I was thrilled with the idea that his protecting me from himself could slip into something violent and terrible. He knew he was dark and dangerous, and any tiny mistake could make him lose control and consume me. I wanted to be consumed. I wanted to be forced, taken in such a violent way that it would end me. Maybe because I thought my existence would end after, and then my misery of being in love with him would stop. Maybe because I was in love with the beauty of that pain. Or maybe it was only because this is what I thought Sasuke-kun was, and I would be in love with him no matter what he was.

The real Sasuke-kun wasn't nearly as rough as I had imagined him to be. He wasn't in any way inpatient to claim me as his. He had made me wait for him for years. Of course, he could wait longer. He did keep a tight grip on my hair. He still held me down the way I thought he would, because Sasuke-kun had to be in control. He always had to be in control. Maybe he was moving so slowly just to prove to me that he could.

I whimpered against him. His kisses were dry, warm, and soft. I wasn't used to this. I was used to Naruto, who took any chance he could to slobber against me. I thought all men were like that, like they needed their spit inside women, thinking it would make females more attracted to them. Sasuke-kun did not slobber. If anything, I was the messy one, trying to get Sasuke-kun to open up for me, to let me inside. His mouth seemed to move expertly to evade me. Even though his movements were so slow, I couldn't keep up. Eventually I tasted just the slight bit inside Sasuke-kun's lip. Sasuke-kun made a small growl, his face scrunching up in what could appear as distaste, but I think he was only noting my impatience. He shouldn't be surprised. He wasn't.

He let go of my hair, hand trailing down to my shoulder, and up my arm, most likely to try to dislodge the death grip I had on the back of his shirt. I took the opportunity to take advantage of him having only one arm and with my weight I pulled him closer to me. He had to let go in order to catch his fall on the mattress, not wanting to put his body on me. I wanted it on me though, no matter how heavy he was. I could take it. I could take all of him. I was strong enough.

Sasuke-kun looked me in the eyes. Whatever he saw caused him to swallow and something wild inside me made me tear the shirt in my hands. I tilted my head to catch his mouth, biting his lip like he had done to me at the restaurant. His breath quickened. I wasn't sure if I was breathing at all. He pushed into me, because it was the only way to keep me still. He kissed me so hard that my head was pushed into the sheets, and I couldn't move. I tried to open my mouth anyway, and it was like Sasuke-kun just fell into it. He shoved my tongue over with his, grazing it as he moved it sensually and deep. I groaned into his kiss, losing all the air in my lungs but I didn't need it anymore. My hips rolled up to meet his, and he pressed back down on me like he was accepting my invitation. I almost cried out in pure need because oh, how I could feel him. The buzzing in my head was only out done by the electricity shooting from every nerve that touched him, every taste and smell of him. My core burned as he pressed harder into me, so hot that it ached to almost numbness. With a twitch of my own hips, the numbness seared into pleasure, and I did cry out. My legs wrapped around him, and my arms clutched him. I wanted Sasuke-kun to tear into me.

I felt something brush against my knee but in my ecstasy, I didn't take much notice of it. Sasuke-kun suddenly became heavier, and a gush of air escaped his mouth. Are eyes locked at the sudden weight, his wide, and a bead of color threatened to pool around his iris.

"What are you doing to Sakura-chan, Sasuke?" The voice made my racing heart stop.

Naruto's head was right beside Sasuke-kun's, his body draped over Sasuke-kun's back. Naruto still smelled strongly of alcohol and though his glazed eyes were on me, I wasn't sure if he was actually seeing me.

There had been a quiet stillness in the night, but once Naruto was awake there was a sudden energy that had roared to life. It was familiar yet I found myself fearful of it.

"You're dreaming, Naruto," Sasuke-kun said, regaining himself. "Go back to sleep."

Naruto lifted his head up but kept his weight on Sasuke-kun. I wasn't sure if that had been an attempt to get off or not. "If this is a dream..." he started, before head falling back on Sasuke-kun's shoulder and whispering, "why am I not in the middle...?"

Sasuke-kun didn't know how to respond to that question.

"No. This isn't a dream. It's a god fucking damn nightmare." He pushed himself off of Sasuke-kun then, stumbling backwards until he collided with a wall. "It's okay though. I knew this would happen. I'll just... I'll just leave. You guys deserve the privacy. Sasuke needs to revive his clan, right? So go ahead and get to work. Make a bunch of little Uchiha babies."

"Naruto, where the hell are you gonna go!?" I cried out.

"I'll just sleep... in the hallway..."

With a growl, Sasuke-kun got off of me and the bed. He walked over to Naruto who was still trying to make out where the door was. He grabbed Naruto's sleeve.

"Let go bastard!"

"We weren't going to do anything more," Sasuke-kun said. "I was about to stop it." I swallowed. Was he? Were we?

Naruto hit Sasuke-kun across the face so hard that I saw some blood fly from the impact. I gave a short scream, hands coming up to my mouth, too bewildered to think straight.

"Don't fucking lie to me! I'm not stupid!"

Sasuke-kun straightened his head, turning it slowly back to Naruto's direction but did nothing more.

"Get the hell out of my way!" Naruto pushed Sasuke-kun, and Sasuke-kun let him, stumbling backward, but once Naruto took another step toward the door, Sasuke-kun grabbed him again and yanked him away. Naruto used the momentum to spin around and punch Sasuke-kun in the jaw. Sasuke-kun's back hit the wall and Naruto continued to hit him, Sasuke-kun's arm falling to his side in submission. "You were gonna fuck her! You were gonna fuck her while I was out cold on the damn floor right next to you! At least have the decency to do it when I'm not right fucking there!"

"Naruto!" I shouted, pushing my weak legs to the ground. "Stop it!"

Naruto turned to me and winced so severely he had to turn away. And then he ignored me as he hit Sasuke-kun again. "You guys cock-block me but get to fuck each other, right?"

"Naruto!" But before I could interfere anymore Sasuke-kun blocked Naruto's next attack, lifting both their arms. The sound of their hands moving against skin rushed through the air. There was a smack of flesh as Sasuke-kun brought down his blow to alter Naruto's movement, grabbing higher on the bicep and pulling him to switch their positions. Naruto was so surprised that he didn't see Sasuke-kun go to grab for his throat next, lifting him up off his feet and against the wall. Naruto tried to swing but his arm wasn't quite long enough, and it soon redirected itself to clutch at Sasuke-kun's wrist.

"You're not leaving," Sasuke-kun stated. "Sakura and I didn't have sex. We didn't do anything you didn't do in the bathroom with that woman. Get over it."

Naruto kicked out, unable to speak. Sasuke-kun continued to hold Naruto in the death grip, Naruto's face turning a dark shade of purple.

"Sasuke-kun! What are you doing?! He can't breathe!" Sasuke-kun had been so gentle when kissing me earlier, and now he was holding Naruto in such an unforgiving way.

Naruto's eyes cracked open to glower at Sasuke-kun, defiance written in their making. He lifted both his legs, catching them around Sasuke-kun's middle and finding some stability so he was no longer choking from his own weight. Yet, this did nothing to loosen Sasuke-kun's grip. What it did do was make a rather erotic picture, their hips in contact and Naruto gasping for breath. Naruto shifting his weight was too much for Sasuke-kun, and he slipped to the floor, dragging Sasuke-kun with him.

The two supposedly elite ninja then began to roll around on the ground, trying to be the one on top. "You're both being stupid!" I hissed. Naruto got to his feet only to be sent to the ground again, landing on the back of his head when his missing arm failed to break his fall. I saw him hit the floor with his stump in frustration before resuming his attack. Someone hit the bed stand. The clock fell. I walked around them, not able to tell who was who anymore. I even kicked out at them. "Stop it you two! You're going to damage the room!"

Their ignoring Sakura skills were on par tonight. Oh, how it made me mad.

"You said you didn't even want her!" Naruto was now crying out since his throat had been able to get free. "You don't even care about her like I do!"

"You said you wanted me to be with her!"

"I lied! I have feelings! You can't lie! You don't have feelings! There's no need to lie!"

"Stop ignoring me!" I punched, aimed at the mass of stupidity, but wound up missing in the dark and hitting the bed stand instead which of course splintered. "Shit!"

Suddenly the entire room filled with smoke. At first, I wasn't sure who's doing it was. Neither Sasuke-kun or Naruto should be able to weave signs, but I must have missed Naruto borrowing Sasuke-kun's finger to complete the jutsu, because the room was filled with shadow clones. He didn't stick with just a few either. Most likely knowing it was the only chance he had to make any, the entire room was filled to the brim, making it almost impossible to even move.

I fell against one, my wild flailing and kicking poof-ing it away. Sasuke-kun twisted in a complicated movement, his legs landing on the shoulders of another shadow clone. With a crack, the neck broke and that clone too poof-ed away. Sasuke-kun maneuvered around several more Narutos with the grace I've only ever seen him use, but even he would be overrun soon in such a tiny room. At least if we wanted to keep the room intact. I grabbed the closest Naruto and pulled him away from the fray, hitting him into a poof.

"Naruto, stop being unreasonable right now!" POOF! I destroyed another clone. "The both of us are willing to talk about this!" At least I was, and even if Sasuke-kun wasn't willing I was going to force him.

I grabbed a Naruto, slammed him against the wall and proceeded to punch him out of existence, but instead of the poof of smoke I was expecting, I was met with a splatter of blood. "Shit! You're the real one!" I exclaimed, half horrified since I hadn't actually intended to hurt Naruto that much. The punch had sent Naruto to the ground, and I was dragged with him from my grip on the front of his shirt. I reached up to heal the damage I had caused to Naruto's face. He was sniffling, from blood or crying I wasn't sure, but the movement made it hard to heal the broken nose.

"Naruto," I said quietly. "I'm sorry. We're sorry, okay? We didn't mean to hurt you. Let's talk about this, alright? Let me be part of the conversation this time around." Naruto made a noise that I could only assume was his agreement. "But in order to do this, you need to call off your shadow clones."

Naruto shook his head. "I can't. I can't. You'll disappear."

"Naruto, what are you talking about?"

He stared up at me as I healed his face, eyes reflecting the green light of my chakra. He gazed up at me like I was the most amazing thing he had ever seen. "You're not real."

He reached up his hand to touch my face, but I took it with my other hand to bring it back down. "Yes, I am."

"No, you're just one of my shadow clones..."

"Naruto, if I was one of your shadow clones, how could I be using my ninjutsu to heal your face?!"

"I've gotten... really good at it. Fuck, I'm getting too good at it. You seem so real. You even feel real to me."

I hit him lightly in the stomach. "You're still intoxicated!" I didn't want to think about why Naruto would be making shadow clones of me in the first place.

"I'm sorry Fake-Sakura-chan. I'm sorry." Naruto raised his hand again to my head, but I didn't bother to bring it down this time. "I saw you... and him... kissing. For real, you were actually kissing, and I can't... Not if it's for real. I'm too afraid. I'm too scared." Naruto continued to ramble. "You know, Fake-Sakura-Chan, I met this cute girl at the restaurant. She was a waitress there. I knew I could make her like me, and she really was cute. I was so hard, watching that bastard and you; it made me so horny, but when I was with her... I couldn't do it..."

"Naruto..."

"The real Sakura-chan came to save me. For a moment I thought her and I were gonna do it in the bathroom..." His mouth twitched up into a grin. "... but nah... not real Sakura-chan." He moved his fingertips over the skin of my cheek. "Man, I made you so soft."

"Naruto, you didn't make me! I'm not a shadow clone!"

I watched Naruto's wide wet eyes. It made me less annoyed with him. His face, so hopeless and desperate, made me drag him to my chest. Naruto let out a sob. It was wrong. It wasn't mercy. But it felt good to hold Naruto, to make him happy for that one moment before my cruelty ultimately destroyed him. I pulled away. "We'll talk, okay? With Sasuke-kun."

His arm wrapped around my neck. "With the bastard..." He agreed, grip tightening.

I heard Sasuke-kun curse and turned my head to see him tackled down by three Narutos. It seemed he had dispatched the other ones. One had his arm, one laid on his legs, and the third sat on his chest, arm raised up to strike. "Naruto..." The real Naruto was leaning into me, softly crying. I watched the clone Naruto bring his arm down only to miss Sasuke-kun's face, hitting the floor besides Sasuke-kun's head. The shadow clone was crying too. All the shadow clones were.

"Get off of me!" Sasuke-kun growled, but the clone Naruto just lowered his face to Sasuke-kun's, wiping his tears on him as Sasuke-kun tried to crane his head away.

"Seriously Naruto, you need to get a hold of yourself. Release your clones."

Naruto lifted his head only so much to press his wet eyes to my throat. "Not yet. Let me pretend just a little longer. Then I won't ever do this to myself again. I promise."

I threw Naruto off of me, pushing his shoulders until his head clunked against the wall that we sat at the foot of. "Naruto, for the last time. I'm real. See?" I bit my thumb, letting my teeth tear the callous that had developed from so much abuse. A drop of blood formed. "If I was a clone I would have vanished from the slightest bit of damage."

Naruto paled. I had never seen him go so white like that. Only once. When I saw him dead. He stared at me with such wide eyes I thought they were going to fall out of his head. He took a deep breath. "Oh, fuck. Don't kill me," he said as he pressed into the wall, trying to get as far away as he could.

"Oh, I'm going to kill you," I said.

Then there was a change in his demeanor. "Okay. Go ahead. Punish me." The sobbing that Naruto had been doing vanished when he realized he was with a real person. It was like he hadn't been crying at all, though I could still see the evidence on his eyelashes.

I made a face. "I know you're not sober, so I'm going to forgive you for bringing that waitress into the bathroom, and I'm going to forgive you for hitting Sasuke-kun, but only if you release your shadow clones."

"You were drinking too," Naruto said immaturely back, walls placed over his emotions. I wasn't used to him doing that to me. He usually only saved that attitude for Sasuke-kun. "So, I'm gonna forgive you for seducing Sasuke better than me. And because you're hot."

I scoffed. "Naruto," I said warningly.

"I also forgive you for cock-blocking me, even though you won't have sex with me again either. I know you don't want me, but I guess you don't want me to be with anyone else as well. Is that it? I forgive you for that, if that's it. I forgive you for not wanting me to be with Sasuke..." His shoulders started to slump as he let go of his anger, relaxing with every sentence he gave. "You deserve to be upset with me." Then his shoulders tightened as he became angry yet again, his blue eyes burning and distant. "But I don't forgive Sasuke. He never lies. He never lies and he lied."

"That's why we need to all talk about this as friends, all three of us!"

Naruto refocused his eyes on me, not at all paying attention to what I was saying. "Why'd you cock-block me Sakura-chan?"

"You already said you didn't really want her anyway!"

"But why you care so much?"

"Because!"

"Are you jealous?"

"For the love of-!" I was interrupted by a muffled cry and turned my head to see the clone Naruto's mouth on Sasuke-kun's. Sasuke-kun was still trying to turn away, but the clone held his face in place. "Naruto, stop it!"

"Doesn't feel good, does it?" I didn't turn to look at Naruto as he spoke. I just kept watching Sasuke-kun being held down against his will, but after a moment, I wasn't sure if Sasuke-kun was struggling anymore. Maybe he had simply given up. I couldn't tell if he was liking it or not.

"How does it make you feel? I'm honestly just curious. I mean, I think I know how you feel..."

How did it make me feel? I was trying so desperately to not let myself find out.

The clone rolled his hips into Sasuke-kun, and Sasuke-kun made a noise that was almost like a whimper, but it was hard for me to tell with the clone so attached to his mouth. I watched Sasuke-kun's jaw shift as the clone savagely moved lips, teeth and tongue against his. My heart was beating hard, lower muscles felt tight. I felt... awkward? No that wasn't it. Uncomfortable?

"Does it turn you on at all, to watch two guys making out?" Naruto growled into my ear. I was going to say that Sasuke-kun was hardly participating, but that was before I saw the clone move his head to reposition it and Sasuke-kun moving his to keep the contact. They moved so well together. The both of them were beautiful. I wasn't one to not watch beautiful men if I had the chance, but... this was Sasuke-kun, the real Sasuke-kun. I had emotional feelings for him.

And Naruto... maybe I had emotional feelings for him too. And that's what made me uncomfortable.

Them kissing each other was much like any other battle Naruto and Sasuke-kun had, muscles moving, skin gleaming. With a yelp from the clone, he suddenly vanished, catching too much damage from Sasuke-kun's teeth.

Naruto hissed against my ear as the memories of the clone returned to him. "Sasuke..." he murmured with venom into my neck. And then he said to me, "I can taste you on him..."

Sasuke-kun seemed surprised when the clone vanished, and his eyes swept over to me and the real Naruto. I looked back in shock, unaware of how much Naruto was leaning into me. I was appalled with myself. I was just sitting here, watching, not at all trying to fix the situation like I should be doing. Sasuke-kun glared, before suddenly flinging one of the other Narutos from his arm. He kicked out too, but that Naruto stubbornly hung on.

Sasuke-kun's shirt had already been torn by me earlier. It was ripped even more from his fight with Naruto. A sheen of sweat had made his skin shine in the moonlight, each muscle within his chest glistening in its perfection.

He ripped the Naruto off his legs, kneeing him in the gut. The real Naruto beside me groaned, arm wrapping around my waist, breath hot against my ear. I felt myself start to sweat and goose bump at the same time. I didn't notice Naruto's hand on my thigh, not until it moved, his fingertips boldly grazing my crotch. The feeling of shock made me unknowingly shudder. I was slow to react to it. Instead, I felt my head go back to rest over Naruto's shoulder.

"Tell me how you feel."

"I hate you."

"I know you hate me," Naruto said. "Your dreams were about to come true, and I fucked it all up for you."

He did. Naruto got in the middle of it. He always did that. Even back when we were kids.

"You've always known how I felt about Sasuke-kun."

"Are we really still fighting over him? I offered to share." His thumb moved in slow circles through the fabric of my shorts.

"Hand off, Naruto! "

"Make me. Prove to me that you really hate me, because my dumb brain keeps thinking the opposite."

I turned my head, hiding my face in Naruto's thick blond hair. My mouth at his ear I growled, "You're about to lose your only hand." I gripped his arm, chakra holding a bit too tight. "I will rip it right out of the socket."

"Sasuke took my other one. You can have this one Sakura-chan," There was no trace of fear in the statement, and it wasn't because he thought I wouldn't carry out my threat. He was wholeheartedly ready to lose it.

Naruto's movements were slow, but he easily found his way through my shorts and underwear, like he had memorized it from last time. I did nothing to stop him. In fact I leaned back into his body, allowing him better access.

He exhaled a breath. "You were so wet for him..."

I cried out when his fingers entered me, raising myself to my knees like I could escape, but Naruto just moved with me. It was involuntary when my hips decided to strike back down.

The cry I made alerted Sasuke-kun. He had managed to get to his feet during this time, spinning around and trying to destroy the last remaining Naruto who was clinging to his ripped clothes and evading attacks. I had a glimpse of Sasuke-kun's marvelous backside, as his pants were slipping from the clone's constant grip on them. Sasuke-kun's head turned toward me for only an instant. Then he lost his balance and landed hard on his back.

Naruto's fingers moved slowly back and forth inside me, and I moved to feed the friction, not caring anymore if Sasuke-kun saw what was happening. Just fuck everything. Everything was already so messed up there wasn't any way things could get any worse. One of my hands flew up to clutch at Naruto's hair, gripping it tight to either punish him for all of this or keep him there, I wasn't sure.

The clone Naruto ripped off Sasuke-kun's pants then, and Sasuke-kun took his eyes off of me to try to fight him off. My eyes widened as my attention went back to Sasuke-kun, watching as his erection was set free, slapping against his hard stomach from Naruto's vicious seizing of his pants. I stared, trying to understand what I was seeing, until the clone covered it all up with his mouth. Sasuke-kun let out a shout, his body convulsing.

The muscles of my walls tightened around Naruto's fingers, and he murmured. I forced my eyes to stay open, wanting to see everything of Sasuke-kun's, even if he wasn't mine, even if he was Naruto's.

Sasuke-kun's hand first landed on Naruto's head, grazing it like he wasn't sure if he should try to push it away or grab onto it. Then his hand went to his own face, covering it, before biting his fist, the whole time Naruto pumping Sasuke-kun in and out of his mouth.

My breath was coming in and out as gasps, my hips moving vigorously against Naruto's hand in time of the clone's movements.

"Sakura-chan," Naruto said, voice heavy with lust.

I groaned. "If Sasuke-kun doesn't kill you first, I-" I stopped talking because Naruto suddenly pulled his hand away from me. I didn't think I could get any madder, but how dare he stop touching me? "What are you-?!"

Naruto moved his arm across me to reach his mouth, putting the fingers that were inside me between his lips and inhaling. My face started to heat up. "That's what... that's like?" he breathed.

Before I could answer, he removed his arm from me and scooted a little ways so he could gently push me down.

"I want to see something, Sakura-chan." He started to tug down my shorts. "Besides, I'm not being fair... I want to treat you equally."

The hell he was being fair. I don't know why I didn't know where he was going with this. I attempted to get up from when he pushed me down. He pulled my shorts and underwear all the way off. I closed my legs when I felt the open air after my bottoms were removed, but since I was too busy trying to get up, Naruto easily wormed his one arm and head in between my thighs. I was watching his hand, which landed on my knee. If he thought I was just going to let him have sex with me, I was going to kick him in the balls, but his pants were still on, so I hesitated. I had been watching him intently, but I still didn't see where his mouth was going until his head ducked down between my thighs.

Warm.

And wet.

I squealed.

I didn't know if the sound alerted Sasuke-kun because I was too busy screaming. My entire body tightened up as my brain tried to decipher what was going on. Naruto wasn't... oh my god he was... I could feel his tongue... moving against my...

"Sakura-chan... relax..." Naruto gave my leg a short squeeze. I had just about flattened Naruto's head in between my thighs. I was surprised he could speak. He pushed me a little more apart before that devious tongue was on me again. I tried to calm my breathing. I was gasping too fast. I didn't know what to do with my hands. Was this what Sasuke-kun felt like?

I turned my head to glance in his direction. Sasuke-kun currently had his hand fisted in Naruto's hair, thrusting forcefully into Naruto's throat. The clone had his hand and what was left of his missing arm against the floor, doing all it could to not be choked and suffocated. Sasuke-kun's face was drawn in furious concentration, eyebrows furrowed as he searched desperately for satisfaction.

I quivered. Naruto moaned as he felt it, and then he inserted his tongue inside me. I tried to scream out, but I was breathing so fast that I had no more air. I clawed the floor around me but there was nothing to hold onto. I felt his tongue move in and out, reaching as far as it could go. It still wasn't enough. I pressed myself against Naruto's face, like it would reach deeper into me. "Please," I mouthed without breath. Naruto couldn't hear it, but it didn't matter because I wasn't quite sure what I was begging for.

He pulled his tongue out, but before I could protest, he replaced it with his fingers, his mouth returning to my core. His tongue flicked over me with the speed that he could only have ever gained from his characteristic of talking nonstop. My body spazzed from such intensity, thrusting against his fingers until I was crying out. My hands finally found purchase in his hair. I screamed with every stroke he gave, stars obscuring my vision. I could sense nothing else now. My pleasure climbed and climbed until it was on top of the mountain, and then I leapt off the peak to fly. My hips lifted into the air as I came, whole body shaking from me holding myself together so tightly, and then I landed back on the ground with a hard thump. Naruto followed with me, lapping at me leisurely as I was still shuddering with every breath.

I pushed myself up on my elbows, locking eyes with Naruto as he lifted his head to look at me. It was then I realized how dangerous this situation was. I had never felt anything like that before, and it was Naruto that had supplied such pleasure. It was Naruto who had complete control of everything. And Naruto knew it. I could tell as Naruto gazed at me still licking his lips. This was what Sasuke-kun had meant.

Both Sasuke-kun and I were stubborn people. And we didn't like that.

I gathered myself, Naruto's eyes following every movement I made. He was breathing hard, trembling even, like it was him that had just came into someone else's mouth. He seemed to flinch when my hands landed on him, still half expecting me to carry out all the threats I had made to him. Instead, I was tugging on his shirt as I rose to my feet.

He let out a breath when he realized what I was doing and let the piece of fabric slip free from his head and arm. I stepped out of my shorts and underwear that were piled at my feet, almost tripping before I grabbed at Naruto again, hauling him to a stand. I needed him to be naked. Completely naked. It was his turn to be shamed.

My legs were still weak, and I felt my knees threaten to buckle, but we weren't too far away from the bed, and I caught the edge of the mattress, sitting as I attempted to undo the fly of Naruto's pants with shaking hands. Naruto tried to help, but I swatted his unhelpful one hand away. I pulled open the button, the zipper splitting. Yanking the pants down, Naruto's underwear still clung to his hips, caught on something that was rather hard and stiff. The small delay in what I was doing made me pause for a moment. I almost had a complete thought, but then I felt Naruto try to touch my head. I smacked his hand away yet again, glaring at his heated face and open mouth. His questioning eyes sparkled in the dim light, and it made me mad, so I smacked him across the face.

"Sakura-chan, w-w-what-"

"What? I thought you liked that. You let Sasuke-kun hit you."

"Fuck that's hot. Fuck, you're so hot." I attacked him before he could say anything more, sinking my teeth into his right pectoral. He groaned. I clawed at his skin, not caring when my nails went over a nipple and Naruto yelped. Naruto couldn't be in control. He was a moron. I was in control. It gave me the courage to finally pull on the waistband of his underwear and drag them down.

The scent of it was strong with arousal. Naruto had acquired a sheen of sweat from his fight with Sasuke-kun. He was thick and big, but maybe I could manage just the tip of it in my mouth and use my hand for the rest of it. I remembered Naruto shoving all of Sasuke-kun in his throat without fear, like he had done it before. I didn't want to be outdone by him. I never wanted to be outdone by anybody ever again.

I stared at the obstacle, one fist around its base. Naruto stared at me, arm slightly raised and at the ready. Maybe he was thinking that I might rip it off. Instead, I ran my tongue up the length.

"Oh, shit!" His arm flung to me, grabbing onto the back of my shirt. I closed my mouth around the head, tasting the slit where a bead of precum had been produced. It was slightly bitter, but it was gone before I could hate the taste of it.

Naruto had cried out when I put him in my mouth, but I ignored him. Instead, I heard a strange sound of escaping air, and opened my eyes to peer around Naruto's body. I saw the dissipating of smoke. Sasuke-kun laid on his back alone, looking shocked and surprised at the disappearing of the clone. That hadn't been Sasuke-kun's doing. Naruto had simply lost his concentration.

Naruto's knees were buckling. He let go of my shirt to catch himself on the bed. Him falling had him pulled out of my mouth. Naruto was breathing hard. I didn't know why my simple movement had affected him so much. Naruto had just been giving both Sasuke-kun and I head himself a few moments ago.

"Sakura-chan," he whined. My head was getting crushed by his weight so I reached around to grab him by the hips, pulling him onto the bed so he couldn't fall to the floor. His knees managed to the mattress, his body pushing me over and he somehow squirmed in between my legs. I gave up on continuing to blow him as we were becoming a tangle of limbs. His weight was heavy against me as he used his arm to push up my shirt, hot, large tongue running up my left breast before his mouth landed on mine. I could taste myself on him but there was nothing I could do to escape that kiss.

Naruto's kiss was everything that Sasuke-kun's wasn't, impatient, messy, sloppy and disgustingly satisfying. The both of us were sweating on the other. The tips of his hair felt cool, with drying perspiration against my heated skin. I could feel the length of him against my drenched insides. With a slow roll of his hips, the tip of him pressed against the opening. He slid into me without effort. The both of us groaned from the gratification it gave us.

It had been too long. Too long since he had been inside me. Over a year. Why had we waited so long? Why was this wrong?

Hot, wet, waves of pleasure consumed us with Naruto's heavy rocking. It felt so right, so good, that I forgot that Sasuke-kun had been laying cold on the floor.

He wasn't there for long.

Naruto was ripped away from my mouth, being held above me from his hair, throat exposed and his one arm reaching out to me like I could save him from the terror that was our beloved Sasuke-kun.

Sasuke-kun's fingers were dug so deeply, and his grip was so tight that Naruto was completely immobilized. His neck strained like Sasuke-kun threatened to tear his head right off. "I will make you regret-!" Sasuke-kun started, too furious to finish his sentence. Naruto huffed in either fear or excitement before him. Sasuke-kun's eyes shifted for half an instant to me before he continued his death glare at the side of Naruto's head. His eyes showed his bloodline in his fury, violent rage ready to punish the man he had in his grip. He seemed to calm down when he noticed me staring up at him, and he released Naruto's hair to slap his hand over Naruto's face instead. Naruto made a startled yelp, Sasuke-kun's index and middle finger landing inside his open, gasping mouth. "Is this what you want?" Sasuke-kun growled, like it was a demeaning insult.

Naruto whined, closing his mouth around Sasuke-kun's fingers and sucking. My eyes widened as I watched Naruto completely submitting to Sasuke-kun, something I never thought he would do. With Naruto's head thrown back, one hand clutching at open air, I felt another surge of jealousy at the provocative image. Sasuke-kun wasn't going to take Naruto from me, not right after Naruto had already taken Sasuke-kun from me. Naruto was still in me, and I lifted my hips, feet planted on the mattress and rammed myself against him. He made a noise that sounded like a sob.

Sasuke-kun gave another quick glance at me after I had re-announced my presence. He pushed Naruto forward, Naruto scrambling to catch himself with his arm. I clutched his head, reclaiming what was mine with kisses. Naruto responded back but was interrupted with a yelp.

"S-Sas- Wait-" And then he screamed. I ignored the sound and the reason why as I covered his mouth, devouring it, holding his head closely. Naruto ripped his mouth away from me. "Sasuke, you bastard! You call that prepar-" Sasuke-kun rammed into Naruto, driving him more into me. Another rather high-pitched scream came from Naruto.

I caught Sasuke-kun staring at me. His eyes locked with mine as he gave another hard, unforgiving thrust. Naruto sobbed and I gasped, the entire bed moving a few inches. The next move Sasuke-kun made, I rose to meet him, us slamming against Naruto from either side. Sasuke-kun's hand landed on the back of Naruto's neck to stabilize himself. Naruto's elbow was dug into the mattress, his fingers entangled with the ends of my hair. His face was nuzzled into the crook of my neck, whimpering and crying into my skin. Sasuke-kun never took his gaze off of me.

I matched Sasuke-kun's pace perfectly, feeling myself falling over the edge again. I dug my nails hard into Naruto's back, drawing blood. Sasuke-kun closed his eyes for a moment, his lips brushing the abused skin, before he lapped the blood up. That murderous look of his kekkei genkai was still in his eyes. A part of me wondered if this whole thing was a genjutsu that Sasuke-kun had cast, though why, didn't really make sense and I found myself not really caring. I came again. I let out a cry, riding out my pleasure against Naruto.

It became even more surreal as Sasuke-kun leaned past Naruto's shoulder to kiss me once.

I didn't care if this was real, a dream, or genjutsu, I guiltily admitted to myself that this was the best night of my life.

"Fuck..." Naruto gasped, Sasuke-kun still pounding into him, and me more lazily rocking him with my hips. "I love... I love you..."

Both Sasuke-kun and I froze. It only lasted for a second, as Sasuke-kun quickly came to the decision to ignore it and try to distract Naruto by moving in him faster and harder. Sasuke-kun's frustration could be tasted in the air, but Naruto continued to ramble.

"I love you! I love you so much!"

Shut up, shut up, shut up!

I grabbed Naruto's head and kissed him, not knowing why I hadn't thought of doing it when he first started speaking. Sasuke-kun didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear it.

Naruto kissed me back with purpose, seemingly more aware and more energized than he had been a few moments earlier, like his confession gave him a newfound power. Naruto slammed into me, Sasuke-kun forced to be still to not conflict with Naruto's movements of rocking himself against the both of us.

I screamed out, overly sensitive and near another orgasm already.

"Dammit," Sasuke-kun hissed, hand lightly resting on Naruto to allow for the movement. "Finish already." He jerked a couple times against Naruto.

Naruto answered unintelligibly as I lost myself underneath him. I wasn't sure how much I could take. My heart was beating so fast. I needed a rest.

Sasuke-kun seized Naruto's hair again, yanking his head around to face him. At first, I thought it was to kiss him, but Sasuke-kun initiating a kiss with Naruto was just a little too outrageous even for this genjutsu. Instead, Sasuke-kun pressed his forehead against Naruto's, Sharingan spinning.

"Oh, shit, Sasuke..." Naruto grumbled before his blue eyes lost focus. Sasuke-kun shoved Naruto back over me, Naruto's hips jerking unevenly into mine with what sounded like a distressed cry. I felt him, hot shoots of burning fluid, emptying into me until there was nothing left. I came with him, almost painfully, as I accepted all of Naruto like dead weight, Sasuke-kun grunting on top of him.

I heard Sasuke-kun trying to catch his breath over the sound of mine. I closed my mouth and listened harder when I couldn't hear Naruto.

Sasuke-kun pulled Naruto off of me and shoved him off the bed and onto the ground. Then he got off the bed himself, leaving.

"Wha-what happened?! Is he okay?!"

"He's fine. He just passed out."

I slid off the bed and onto the floor, checking to confirm that Naruto was actually alright. He was breathing deeply, eyes closed and seemingly asleep. I looked up to see where Sasuke-kun went and discovered he went to the bathroom. I followed.

"What did you do to him?"

"Nothing. I didn't expect him to pass out. He's still wasted." I heard Sasuke-kun turn on the shower.

I had wobbled at my first step and had to slow down before I reached the door of the bathroom. Sasuke-kun hadn't shut it all the way so I walked in. Blinking in the bright light, I found his tattered shirt on the floor, feeling sort of guilty that I had torn it first.

I could see his silhouette behind the thin shower curtain. I had yet to see the full picture of him, of Sasuke-kun completely naked, but I wasn't just about to slide over the shower curtain now. That would be rather rude of me.

I should have left, but I hadn't peed at all the entire night, and now that I didn't have anything to distract me from this fact, I felt myself barely holding my bladder. Also, the remnants of what Naruto left behind were trailing down my legs.

"Sas-Sasuke-kun? Can I use the toilet?"

I saw Sasuke-kun pause in his washing of himself before saying, "I don't care."

Right, such a silly question. My shirt was still hanging around my neck and I removed the article of clothing before glancing at myself in the mirror. My face was flushed, and hair was but a rat's nest. I sat on the toilet. I flinched from a burn that happened once I started urinating. I didn't remember Naruto being rough, but perhaps I had been too aggressive. I sighed as I peed longer, not realizing how uncomfortable my bladder had been until it started shrinking.

I took a wad of toilet paper, trying to clean my legs as I sat on the toilet but even after I wiped them, it left behind a stickiness that wouldn't go away.

My eyes nervously went over to the shadow of Sasuke-kun. "I'll wait to flush after you're done," I said. "Just in case... you know, it changes the temperature or something." Sasuke-kun didn't respond. "Um... how long are you going to be in there?"

"Why?! I'll flush the toilet!"

"Sorry! I just meant, because I kinda need a shower-"

"Then get in."

I held my breath for a heartbeat before I got up, closing the lid of the toilet and pushing aside the shower curtain. Sasuke-kun was facing away from me when I stepped in. "It's freezing!" I nearly slipped in my shock. It wasn't that I needed it hot. I had found myself having to bathe in some pretty cold lakes and streams before, but this was a real shower. We didn't have to be shivering our asses off, not that Sasuke-kun was shivering.

"Then go wait your turn!" Sasuke-kun snapped.

"No, this is fine. It's... refreshing..." I said between clattering teeth. I hugged my breasts more to keep warm than to be modest as Sasuke-kun was set on not looking at me anyway. I glanced at his butt since he couldn't see me. God, he was gorgeous. I stepped under the shower head to avoid the spray of cold water as best I could, looking around for soap or shampoo.

I found some and started lathering my hair up in a hurry. This wasn't the sexy shower I had first imagined so it would be best to get it over as fast as possible. Sasuke-kun was slowly rubbing a washcloth over his shoulder. He hadn't moved on to a different area in a while. The silence was making me think.

"Naruto said-"

"I know."

"We just left him over there-"

"He's fine."

"Sasuke-kun..." I stared at the back of his head, his wet black hair plastered down from the water. "Naruto confessed his-"

"He didn't know what he was saying, Sakura. He's been drinking all night."

"Even so, Naruto always means what he says! Maybe he wouldn't have said it... if the stuff that happened tonight didn't happen, but that doesn't mean he doesn't mean it!"

"So what!?"

"What do you mean, so what!? Do you have any idea how hard that is?! To confess your feelings? And then to be ignored like that... Like what you said didn't really mean anything..." I felt my face grow hot despite the cold water.

Sasuke-kun turned his head to me, expression still unforgiving. "I don't... I don't know. What the hell do you want me to do about it?"

"I... I don't know."

"If you don't want to be like me, then just go be with Naruto. Tell him you love him back. He'd be ecstatic." Sasuke-kun turned away from me again, washing the same shoulder.

"That's not going to do any good!" I shouted back to him.

"Why not?"

"Because I already told him, and he didn't believe me!"

Sasuke-kun became still. "So, you do love him..."

I didn't want to talk about this, about that time, or how hurt I felt that Naruto completely ignored my confession, just like Sasuke-kun did. I didn't want to remember those feelings.

"There's your mutual affection. That's why it was so easy for you to fuck him again."

"Hardly. Naruto loves you more than he loves me. And you fucked him too!"

Sasuke-kun continued to ignore the fact of his own participation. "He just confessed to you."

"He confessed to you!"

"You're being ridiculous!"

I thought for a moment, realizing that it hadn't been clear who Naruto had been talking to.

"He was looking at you when he said it."

"No, he wasn't. His eyes were closed. And he said it when you were..." My voice died in my throat at the glare he suddenly gave me. "We both had sex with Naruto," I stated. "He wants both of us. He loves both of us."

"Now do you understand how this is all stupid and Naruto doesn't know what the hell he says or does? He's drunk, Sakura. He probably won't even remember tonight. It's like it never happened."

"Are you going to make Naruto forget again? Are you going to make me forget too?"

Sasuke-kun paused as he thought about it. "I don't know. It didn't really make me feel better last time. There isn't much of a point."

"Thank you," I said. Sasuke-kun flinched at that. I sighed, staring at his back. "You shouldn't have gotten those bandages wet," I said looking at the stump of his missing arm.

"If I take them off, I can't put them back on."

"Then someone else can put them on for you," I said, like of course he shouldn't have to be doing it himself. "Here," I started to undo the bandage. "These need to be changed anyway. They're starting to smell bad." After I had gathered them up, I placed them on the corner where the tub met the wall.

I hadn't seen Sasuke-kun's healing process as much as Naruto's, and I didn't expect myself to be surprised that it wasn't as seamless as the jinchūriki's. There was still quite a bit of scar tissue that wasn't healed yet.

"Has this been hurting you, Sasuke-kun?"

Sasuke-kun grunted, which meant probably. I activated my chakra. "You don't have to keep doing that for me," he said. "It's not going to fix me."

I frowned, leaning my weight against him as I used my chakra. "I don't want you perfect. You beat up a little is kind of distinguished, you know?" I tried to joke as I concentrated on nerve endings, dead flesh and chakra points. Sasuke-kun flinched at something I touched. I thought it best to try to take his mind off what I was doing, so I asked curiously, "What... did you do to him? To Naruto."

"What do you mean?"

"Just now, a few moments ago. You made him black out."

He sighed. "It was a genjutsu."

"Why?"

I heard Sasuke-kun grit his teeth. "He's a freak. He could have gone on all night. I didn't think you'd appreciate that."

"I mean... I think I could have gained a second wind," I said blushing, somewhat embarrassed. A part of me didn't really want it to stop, though the pain in my groin begged to differ.

"What?" Sasuke-kun snapped.

"I'm just saying it seemed a bit extreme to... knock him out."

"I didn't knock him out. It's a genjutsu. I said that already."

"What kind of genjutsu...?"

"It makes time slow down for the person. You take your opponent's consciousness to a secluded part of their mind where you have complete control of that place's universe. It's usually used as slow torture when you only have a short manner of time. I'm not very good at it. Itachi was better at using it. I don't use it very often because I've never been a fan of... well of torture..."

"So, you're torturing Naruto?"

"No! It doesn't have to be used as torture. Naruto relived a different kind of memory. And he's not under it now. Like I said, I didn't expect him to black out."

"What did you show him?"

"That's none of your business," Sasuke-kun snapped.

"But you did it... to make him..." I curled my toes. Sasuke-kun's genjutsu had been quite efficient in getting the means to the end. It was frightening and exciting to think of the possibilities. I was curious to know about Sasuke-kun's imagination, because he was an enigma to me. He kept everything so secretive, that I was always sort of amazed when he added any sort of art or style to his movements, fighting or casual. Sasuke-kun couldn't be as boring as he liked to pretend to be. What was he thinking about? What did he show Naruto? Whatever it was, it made Naruto come within an instant, not that I thought that was hard. Sasuke-kun seemed to think Naruto had unbelievable stamina. I had seen Naruto melt too many times to really believe that, but what did I know? I wasn't in their relationship. "Is that... Is that something you could do with anyone?"

"What?" The way that Sasuke-kun kept shooting that word out of his mouth was starting to give me anxiety, like all my questions were stupid. "Probably not with you. I told you that I wasn't very good at it, and you can see through genjutsu easily."

"But I mean, even if I could see through it, I would... you know, let you..." I would give Sasuke-kun my trust.

Sasuke-kun didn't say anything. I took the washcloth from his hand and started to wash his back with it. He immediately stiffened. "What are you doing?"

"You've been washing the same shoulder for like ten minutes. I was doubting you knew what you were doing."

"I know how to-"

"Shut up and you can do me next." I wondered when touching Sasuke-kun would stop being such a novelty for me. Probably never, as I doubted he would let such things become routine. I didn't want to think about how things would be for all three of us once we returned home.

Sasuke-kun was so solid... His shoulders were thinner than Naruto's were, perhaps from being inactive for several months, but there wasn't an ounce of fat anywhere on his body. Naruto didn't have much fat on him either, but the flesh in between his muscles were still pliable. I could still dig my fingers into certain parts of him. Sasuke-kun was as hard as a statue. Maybe it was because he was always so tense all the time. Of course, I don't think Naruto's abs were quite as developed as Sasuke-kun's, which I only had the quickest peek at as his body was still firmly pointed away from me.

"Why are you poking?"

"Oh, sorry... thought there was something... on you..." My whole body blushed but I continued to rub the cloth in circles down Sasuke-kun's back. I went lower to the small of his back and then to his...

"This is an excuse to feel me up, isn't it?"

I paused, squeezing Sasuke-kun's perfect derrière. It was firm but my fingers were able to sink into about a centimeter of flesh. I had just been curious!

"Of course it is, Sasuke-kun! I'm naked in the shower with you!"

"You climbed in yourself."

"You said I could."

"Because I didn't want to be rushed." He turned to me to take back the washcloth. "I... I still feel dirty." It suddenly occurred to me that maybe that's why Sasuke-kun had the water so cold. To clear his head, perhaps? Too bad it wasn't working on me. I watched Sasuke-kun put more soap onto his washcloth.

"Alright," I said, stepping back, trying to avoid the water and failing. "I'll give you your space." I continued to rinse my hair in the water. It was like ice... I missed Sasuke-kun's body heat already. "Is the reason why you feel dirty...? I mean, obviously you feel dirty because, well you know..." Sasuke-kun's death glares weren't halting my rambling as I was now turned away from him. "Is it... because... Naruto's a boy?" Of course, maybe I didn't need to be looking at Sasuke-kun. I could feel his irritation regardless. Sasuke-kun didn't seem to speak for a whole minute.

"It doesn't make much of a difference. I've done much worse. I can't really damn myself any further."

"Sasuke-kun, you know one's sexual orientation doesn't-"

"We won't tell anyone about this. You too. It's not the best of reputations if people knew you were involved with two men like that."

"Of course! We shouldn't talk about this with anyone. It's a... a secret," my voice died a little when I suddenly remembered that I had told Ino that I suspected Sasuke-kun and Naruto together. Would she tell anyone? I wasn't sure. Fuck.

"Good. You also understand that this will not continue."

I frowned. "Not continue with me involved or at all?"

"At all," Sasuke-kun growled. "If you need it that badly, Naruto is more than willing, but at least make it official for the both of you. The last thing you need is for you to become pregnant based off of a meaningless fucking." My eyes narrowed at 'meaningless fucking' since it wasn't like that for me at all. Sasuke-kun's eyes widened slightly. "Could you be pregnant now?"

"No. I'm on birth control."

Sasuke-kun let out a sigh of relief though I don't really know why. It wouldn't have been his baby or his problem.

"It wasn't meaningless to me. Or Naruto. Was it to you?"

"Everything is meaningless to me."

Sasuke-kun caught a glimpse of my heartbroken face before rolling his eyes.

"If it makes you feel better, for the record, you two are the only people... alive, that I give a damn about." There was an awkward silence, like Sasuke-kun was trying to ignore the look of fondness I was giving him. "And maybe Kakashi, but not really. He pisses me off too much. Like he planned this shit or something. I don't know."

I smiled at him. Sasuke-kun cared about us. Maybe I had always believed deep down that he did.

"I just need it to be clear that you understand that what happened tonight isn't going to lead anywhere."

"Who cares?" I asked. Sasuke-kun looked at me in surprise. "Who cares if it doesn't lead into anything. What's important is the now, right? And right now, I'm so happy that you're with us again. And Naruto's happy. He really is. And you, are you happy that you're with us, Sasuke-kun?"

Sasuke-kun stared at me, body still somewhat twisted away. I stepped forward, letting the cold-water spray hit my shoulder as I laid a hand on Sasuke-kun. With a gentle push I turned him to fully face me, taking in his entire image like I would never see him again. I could feel Sasuke-kun's eyes on me as well, and I fought with myself to keep my arms from covering my body. Instead, I took the washcloth from Sasuke-kun's hand so I could place his palm on one of my breasts. The callouses Sasuke-kun had were so rough that they were almost sharp, and with the water being cold, my nipples were already erect. It made me gasp softly, biting my lip to try to conceal it. I moved Sasuke-kun's hand to my other breast, pressing it and then moving it down to my stomach. I peered at him through my eyelashes. Sasuke-kun's face looked like he was about to bolt, uncomfortable and nervous. As I guided his hand lower, he gave a small tug, forgetting that I had superhuman strength.

"I-I don't... I'm not as good as Naruto... with that sort of stuff..." The faintest of blushes colored Sasuke-kun's cheeks as he glared at nothing in particular. It made me pause for a second.

"Sasuke-kun..." I almost didn't stop my laugh in time. "Naruto doesn't have as much experience as he always pretends he does. You know how he's always been over confident. Of course... maybe I'm not as experienced as Naruto is either..."

Sasuke-kun still refused to look at me. "You're a woman," he stated. I held back my sarcastic reply. "I don't want to... damage you."

I let out a rather appalled, angry sort of sound. "I'm not so delicate, Sasuke-kun." I smacked the washcloth against his stomach and he flinched. I started washing him a little too forcefully. "I know... our relationship will never be like yours and Naruto's... with all the dumb boy violence, and fighting and stupidity...

"That's not what I meant," Sasuke-kun's voice was deeper than normal, and a little more broken sounding.

I looked at Sasuke-kun's face once before concentrating on washing him. "Oh." I covered his body in suds, rubbing in circles over his stomach and hips. "Let's get clean. I don't want you to feel dirty anymore." I scrubbed at the dark hair, noticing Sasuke-kun's chest rising and falling more quickly with the longer I washed him. I ducked the washcloth under and in between his legs, his hand flying to my shoulder. "Y-you haven't washed here yet, have you?" I was trying to be sly and sexy, but my voice quivering was ruining it.

Sasuke-kun didn't answer. I was surprised he hadn't flung me away or reprimanded me. I stared at his groin. It twitched and Sasuke-kun looked horrified at himself.

When he did nothing else, I gained the confidence to run the washcloth up and down his shaft, holding it in my hand. It started to harden again, Sasuke-kun's breaths growing heavier.

I started to think about Naruto. Naruto had him in his mouth. He was inside Naruto. Naruto had been that person for him. I wasn't sure how many times. I didn't know what happened the night Sasuke-kun made Naruto forget, but even erased memories didn't erase their obvious chemistry. I wasn't sure if I could ever compare.

Sasuke-kun's grip on my shoulder was bruising but I could heal it later. He treated Naruto so much rougher than he treated me, and I found myself resenting that. I didn't want him to think I was lesser, that I couldn't handle it, so I didn't voice the pain his grip made. "How does Naruto do it?" I asked in a whisper.

"What?" Sasuke-kun asked breathlessly. I didn't elaborate and Sasuke-kun didn't question it more. I wanted to wash Naruto off of his skin. Was it selfish of me? Thinking about Sasuke-kun and Naruto, alone, without me, was starting to upset me. I continued to lather Sasuke-kun, paying attention to every crevice, amazed at the sudden trust Sasuke-kun was giving me. As I continued to wash it, I watched it grow. Seeing, feeling it get bigger was fascinating to me, but now I was wondering how on earth Naruto had ever managed to get this all down his throat. I couldn't remember who was bigger, but I saw Naruto's in the dark, and it was rather bright in the bathroom, making Sasuke-kun look like it might be him.

Naruto did have a big mouth. It was probably easy for him. Him being a quick learner and having the Nine-Tails chakra, it seemed like most things were easy for him.

At least all things that I found impossible to do myself.

I took a step to the side to allow the water to hit Sasuke-kun's body and rinse away all the soap. He grunted once the cold water hit him. Sasuke-kun's eyes were glazed, his lips were parted, and erect as he was, he was simply too beautiful.

Fuck it.

I went to my knees and took him into my mouth. Sasuke-kun let out a startled shout. I hardly was able to even taste him before he had his hand under my arm and was hauling me back up. He pushed me to the wall. I would have slipped if his arm didn't hold me so strongly.

I stared back at him startled, not knowing what I had done wrong. He let Naruto do it to him. He was letting me touch him just moments ago, or wash him or whatever, but he was obviously enjoying it.

"Don't..." he huffed. "I don't want you ever... on your knees for me. I don't deserve it." And then he was suddenly on his knees himself. There was maybe just an instant of hesitation, his Sharingan and Rinnegan flickering on before he opened his mouth and placed it in between my legs. I moaned in surprise and need, hands resting on his wet head. While Naruto had been intense, Sasuke-kun lapped at me lazily. In truth, I was still a little sore from Naruto and the soft licking was soothing. I cooed, my legs starting to feel like spaghetti. Sasuke-kun stabilized me with a hand to the back of my thigh.

"Oh, Sasuke-kun..."

I let out a startled scream as somehow, my legs were thrown over his shoulders and I was suddenly shooting upward. My view went over the shower curtain rod. Through the open door, I could see Naruto still sleeping on the floor. I felt Sasuke-kun's tongue move inside me, my head rolling back and brushing the ceiling. "Sasuke-kun..." I cried. "Please, please I want you."

My arousal from before returned to me in full force. I had forgotten what this was like. It was amazing and fulfilling and wonderful, and this time... this was Sasuke-kun.

My toes curled. I wished to see him. Even though what he was doing felt phenomenal, I wanted to be able to see him, as proof that this was really him.

"I need you inside me! Just once, or I'll always regret it. Just please."

I gave another shout as I was falling, Sasuke-kun shouldering off my legs and catching me around the middle. I had shut my eyes, wincing in fear that he would drop me, but he clung tightly, our wet skin adhering somewhat together.

"I know..." I whimpered. "That you might think it's trashy of me, since I was just with Naruto less than an hour ago, but Sasuke-kun, I've wanted you for so long... I don't know-"

"Sakura."

He looked me in the eyes, and I swore I fell in love with him all over again. I had never seen him look at me like that, like he wanted me and cared for me. With the water plastering his hair back, I could see his face more clearly, with nothing more to hide.

I felt the tip of him pressing into me.

"Sakura..." Maybe Sasuke-kun would never love me like I loved him, but dammit, this may be enough. His eyebrows drew together as he sunk into me so slowly. Tears collected at the corners of my eyes but not from physical pain, I just loved him too much. I loved him too much.

I wanted to say so, the confession was on the tip of my tongue, but I didn't want to be as foolish as Naruto. As I looked at Sasuke-kun's sincere face, him still inching so slowly and deeper into me, I couldn't help but long to be with him forever. I wanted to marry him. I wanted to have his children. I wanted to make him dinner, wash his clothes and heal his wounds. I wanted to be the reason he smiled. I wanted to be his home. I wanted to give him everything and anything he could possibly want.

Deeper, and deeper he pushed, even after I thought he could go no further.

I gasped when he fit just right, Sasuke-kun's mouth open and hovering over mine like he could consume the sound. I groaned as he pulled out a little only to drive deep. His movements were minimum but sufficient, with the softest of rocking sending butterflies of pleasure to my lower stomach. A tear escaped and rolled down my cheek. Sasuke-kun caught it with his lips, before burying his head into my neck. I heard his breathing in my ear, strong and soothing. I held onto him for he was my everything. "Sasuke-kun, I'm sorry..." he kissed my throat. "I'm sorry, but I'm in love-" he kissed me on the mouth, devouring my soul.

Then there was a loud bang as the toilet seat cover was thrown open. That was soon accompanied with the sound of liquid hitting water and a long sigh. "Man, how much can a person pee in one night?"

Sasuke-kun clutched at me tightly, my eyes snapping wide.

"Fuck, this is the longest piss in history! Where is this coming from?"

Sasuke-kun and I didn't respond. I hoped maybe Naruto didn't know of our presence and was perhaps only talking to himself, but with the shower running, he must have known at least one of us was here. If Naruto had any decency, he wouldn't pull the curtain. I thought maybe he was more likely to give me more privacy than Sasuke-kun, you know, because I was a girl. I thought of voicing my existence and making it sound like that Sasuke-kun had only stepped out of the room for a moment, but he most likely had already heard me speaking... and I had uttered Sasuke-kun's name.

Eventually the sound tinkled to a stop. "Yo, guys, you mind if I hop in there?" My heart started to pound. He knew we were both in here. He'd know what we were doing. "I had like, seventeen years of pent-up emo angst shot up into my asshole." A low growl came from Sasuke-kun.

The next moment the curtain was slung back. Sasuke-kun's back was facing Naruto but I could see Naruto's face fall blank at the sight of us before an unreadable smile took its place. "You animals," he tsked, before shaking his head and climbing in. "What the fuck?! Why is the water so cold?!" He immediately changed the temperature of the water to scolding hot. Neither Sasuke-kun nor I moved, letting the water turn both of our skin pink.

Naruto continued his business like everything was completely normal. After getting his hair wet, he shook his head, spraying water. Then he stood with his back to the spray, hand on his ass, spreading his cheeks. He winced. "Ow... maybe I made it too hot. Yo, where's the soap?"

Sasuke-kun was so still that I wondered if he had somehow died standing and holding me up. I shifted my grip on him, still somewhat shocked as I pointed to where the soap sat.

"Thanks Sakura-chan." Naruto started rubbing it under his arm. "Dude, washing your pits with one arm feels weird, like I'm a monkey or something. That's one of those things that I'm still getting used to." The next thing he started to wash was his groin, and still facing me I couldn't stop from staring. Naruto noticed and grinned. "Yo Sasuke, what the hell are you even doing over there?"

Sasuke-kun gave no response.

"Don't drop Sakura-chan. She won't ever forgive you."

"Sasuke-kun," I murmured into his ear. "You can let me down." He was still inside me, but I had felt him grow soft with Naruto's disturbance. Sasuke-kun made no move to let me go.

"Don't let your one arm get too tired, Teme." I didn't have any fear of Sasuke-kun dropping me. My legs and arms were firmly wrapped around him. The only chance of me falling was if Sasuke-kun's knees buckled, which I was sort of wondering about at this rate.

I felt Sasuke-kun's voice wake from deep within his chest. "Naruto... if you so much as breathe on me..."

"Don't worry, I'm not gonna stop you two again. I'm sorry, okay? You guys wanna fuck you guys can fuck. I'll just watch." Naruto was still washing his groin, which didn't look like simply washing with how erect he was.

Sasuke-kun said nothing and I didn't know what to say either. I just continued to stare at Naruto, noticing how rather glorious he was in the light, tanned skin, muscled and blue eyes.

"You want me to go..." Naruto's despairing expression said more than the tone of his voice. "Just give me two minutes and then I'll be out of your way and off to bed... or the floor."

"Naruto," Sasuke-kun started.

I watched Naruto's face light up with hope. "I can watch?!"

"No."

"Can I listen?"

"Naruto, stop asking! I will always say no!"

Naruto's face shifted as if in understanding. "Ah, I see. So do you want me to leave?" he asked, waiting for Sasuke-kun's usual 'no' in answer.

Sasuke-kun didn't answer that time and Naruto pushed his mouth together, annoyed that his clever plan hadn't exactly worked.

"You don't want me to... help...?"

Silence.

I was getting tired of being held up to the wall. My muscles were getting stiff from the lack of movement. I raised an arm, fed up, and placed it on Naruto's cheek in invitation. If Sasuke-kun wasn't going to do or say anything I might as well. Naruto nearly purred. He stepped closer, reminding me of a stalking animal. I felt Sasuke-kun's fingers under my butt tighten as Naruto walked behind him.

"Sasuke," Naruto leaned over, his fist with the soap coming to the wall next to my head as he murmured into Sasuke-kun's ear. "Why'd you show me that memory? The one you had me forget." Sasuke-kun's face shifted against my neck. Naruto huffed when he still refused to respond. "Alright. But at least don't keep Sakura-chan waiting. She's been waiting over five years for you." Naruto removed his fist from the wall, placing the bar of soap on Sasuke-kun's left hip. The shiver Sasuke-kun gave jolted me as well. "You wouldn't disappoint her, would you?"

Sasuke-kun lifted his head from my shoulder, Sharingan and Rinnigan clearly exposed. I clutched at Sasuke-kun tighter, half expecting him to fling me at Naruto as if I were a weapon. Naruto's hand disappeared behind Sasuke-kun's leg. Sasuke-kun twitched, and then I felt Naruto's fingers with the soap graze me, right where we were connected. Naruto groaned, eyes unfocused. The soap left me and went through Sasuke-kun's legs again. Sasuke-kun was trembling. I watched him bite his lip, and I could feel him getting harder again inside me.

I looked over at Naruto who had his gaze on Sasuke-kun, his lips brushing the shell of his ear. "It's so slick down here..." I hadn't seen where Naruto's hand disappeared to, but I had a guess. "Did Sakura-chan wash you?" Sasuke-kun's eyes narrowed. "Did she wash you everywhere? Did she wash you here?"

Before Sasuke-kun could explode, I kissed him, quelling the anger and need for dominance. Sasuke-kun seemed to take his frustration out on me, a sudden thrust that sent a shout out of me. The air was hard to breathe with the steam the hot water was now giving. I felt like I could bite into the tension that came from Sasuke-kun and Naruto. I was in the midst of what made up their peculiar bond, angry and needy.

"Are you gonna be like that time, Sasuke? Or not in front of Sakura-chan?" Naruto heaved. Sasuke-kun grunted at something Naruto did to him. Naruto grinned, canines seeming to be sharper as he suddenly sunk them into Sasuke-kun's shoulder.

"Sasuke-kun..." I murmured, licking the water droplets off his chin. Sasuke-kun held his head back, letting us both attack at him with our mouths. I glanced at Naruto, giving him a look that I was begrudgingly letting him share Sasuke-kun with me. He gave me a grin that felt like a dare before he started chewing on Sasuke-kun's ear.

I allowed it. I wasn't sure if I would allow anyone else though. I didn't think I would have allowed Ino. I would definitely not have allowed the red-haired Karin. Naruto would be the only exception if I could help it. "Sasuke's ours, Sakura-chan," Naruto whispered to me, like he had known what I was thinking. I started to reminisce about the five years Naruto and I searched and cried for Sasuke-kun. After all that suffering, he was finally with us again. He was ours. We deserved him. Naruto was right.

Naruto's actions had left red and purple marks on Sasuke-kun's shoulder and neck. It was strangely pleasing to see on Sasuke-kun's flawless skin. Naruto lapped over them with his large tongue. His eyes caught mine before giving me a quick kiss. Then he was gone, sinking behind Sasuke-kun's shoulder. I turned my attention to Sasuke-kun then, biting his lips. He was still not moving too much, only a few involuntary shudders. He almost seemed to stumble, pushing me against the wall as we slid a few inches down. I realized it was because Naruto had pulled Sasuke-kun's legs more apart. I didn't care, and neither did Sasuke-kun seem to, as he concentrated on kissing me. I yelped when I felt Naruto's hand again, groping around where he shouldn't be. I squirmed in Sasuke-kun's grasp, feeling what I suspected was Naruto's breath. Sasuke-kun's breath hitched. He let out a moan that turned into a hissing, "Stop!" Alarmed, I looked down Sasuke-kun's shoulder to see where Naruto had disappeared to. I saw the top of his blond head, his one hand clutching at Sasuke-kun's left butt cheek, holding it a little away so that he could slide his tongue right up the crack. When his blue eyes rolled up to meet mine I nearly fainted.

I was jerked to a panic though as Sasuke-kun dug his fingers bruising into my flesh, roaring murderously at Naruto. "You will never eat ramen again!"

"It tastes like soap."

"I don't fucking care what it tastes like. Stop it right now! I will-" Sasuke-kun clenched his teeth when Naruto suddenly sank his teeth into his ass. "Kusanagi is going to go so far..."

Naruto stood up. "Okay Sasuke, I stopped." Sasuke-kun was heaving heavily, Naruto smirking at him. "Unless you don't want me to stop?"

"Stop teasing, Naruto," I demanded.

Naruto dropped his taunting expression. "Yes, ma'am." He took a step closer so that he was flushed against Sasuke-kun and in between my knees. I felt Sasuke-kun calm down somewhat in my arms. I petted his head.

After a moment of nothing happening though, Sasuke-kun growled again. "Naruto!"

"I'm waiting for consent."

"Are you serious?! The fact that I'm allowing you to continue breathing should be consent enough!"

Naruto's silly grin turned serious. He chewed on his lip as he wordlessly started preparing Sasuke-kun. I continued to caress Sasuke-kun's head and kiss him when he allowed me to. I was thinking of myself as a distraction for Sasuke-kun, but Naruto was the one that cried out when he sunk into him. The only sounds Sasuke-kun made were his breathing, his eyes focusing and then un-focusing as Naruto moved.

I gasped in the humid air as Naruto rocked us both. Naruto grumbled something I couldn't understand. Sasuke-kun's breaths were quick and quiet. Naruto's eyes were closed as he nuzzled his face against Sasuke-kun's bruised neck, digging his fingers into his wet hair. He left a trail of kisses over the abused skin. Sasuke-kun made an expression of mild annoyance before I kissed him on the mouth again.

Everything was gentle and soft for a time, until Naruto slowly began to build up the momentum. His hand slapped under my butt cheek, the opposite one that Sasuke-kun held, pulling me closer and against Sasuke-kun. I clutched at Sasuke-kun more frantically, being pulled from the wall and fearing we would all lose our balance. Naruto and Sasuke-kun's hands moved together, slamming me against Sasuke-kun with every thrust Naruto made. It was sending me gasping.

Naruto's fingers were wandering rather deep into my ass crack which I found myself not appreciating. I was trying to find my voice to form an actual sentence even before I felt his little finger on the hole.

"N-Naruto!" I grabbed onto a chunk of his hair and pulled. He winced but otherwise did nothing else. I felt myself slip slightly in Sasuke-kun's grip from letting go of him. He moved his head underneath my chin like the more contact we had the less likely I was to fall away from him.

This whole situation was rather dangerous in a slippery bathtub.

Before I could tell Naruto to remove his hand, he sunk his teeth into my neck. The fucking moron made me just moan instead.

"Don't make me do all the work, bastard," Naruto said into my neck.

Sasuke-kun clenched his teeth, his fingers digging even deeper into my flesh. He flipped his head up to press a kiss that I graciously accepted, forgetting about my annoyances with Naruto. Peering through my eyelashes I caught Sasuke-kun's eye, and like he knew that I would glimpse him, his Sharingan started spinning. I opened my eyes wider, entranced in wonder, watching the tomoe revolving.

Then I was thrown back on the bed that was in the room, the bathroom gone. Naruto was huffing over me and my oversensitive body tightened around him, screaming as he came into me, my body igniting on fire.

The next instant I was back in the bathroom again, breathing hard as my body was still shuddering against Sasuke-kun. What was that?

"Dammit," Sasuke-kun muttered.

"What did you just do to her?" I heard Naruto's voice, but my foggy brain made him sound faraway.

I caught Sasuke-kun's eye again, only this time I was on the floor, Naruto's head between my thighs and feeling the high I had experienced earlier in the night. I felt myself convulse.

Then I was back in the bathroom.

"Are you making her cum with genjutsu?! That's totally cheating, Sasuke!" Oh, if Naruto only knew Sasuke-kun was using memories of him, Naruto would never let it down.

"You keep making me mess up!"

I felt myself sigh in bliss, totally content with the high the memories had given me. I wasn't really sure what Sasuke-kun meant by messing up, because it seemed to be working to me. With a glare he pulled me under again.

"Tell me how you do it. Give me details." I was in the ruined office of the Hokage.

"What?" I heard myself ask without control.

"Tell me what makes you decide to touch yourself. What do you think about?"

I was on the Hokage's chair, Naruto's hand down my underwear. I wondered if Sasuke-kun could see what I was seeing. I looked around and didn't see him. My cheeks were burning. I didn't want Sasuke-kun to see this. The other two times were different. Sasuke-kun had been there so it didn't really matter if he had seen or not.

"No. I'm not telling you that."

"It'll turn me on. Even if you're thinking about Sasuke, it won't matter to me. Just whatever that turns you on, Sakura-chan."

"I think of Sasuke-kun." My breath hitched, Naruto's fingers pressing into me. Did it feel like this when it had happened? Everything seemed so much more intense.

"What about him?"

"About him coming home..." Oh no. Stop. Sasuke-kun couldn't see this. This was too embarrassing. "What... he looks like... naked... How his hands might feel like."

I screamed out from another orgasm, lungs having trouble breathing from the humid air. My blurry eyes caught Sasuke-kun staring at me, smirking arrogantly.

My mouth dry I heard him say. "That was a lot of Naruto." Of course there were a lot of memories of Naruto. He hadn't left me. Hearing his name, Naruto clutched at us possessively but I knew he didn't know what Sasuke-kun was talking about.

My heated face was no longer from desire but from shame, with every memory Sasuke-kun pulled out of my brain.

Another one of Naruto and me on the Hokage's office floor. Again, I came.

"I'm sorry, Sasuke-kun!" I sobbed out, my body convulsing in the aftershocks of pleasure without my permission.

"Sasuke, if you make Sakura-chan cum too much she'll die," Naruto mumbled against Sasuke-kun's neck, unaware of what Sasuke-kun was showing me. "Can you die from something like that? Sakura-chan should know."

"Heh, Sakura's got more stamina than you, Dobe."

"As if!"

"Right Sakura?" Sasuke-kun asked me in a low, terribly sexy voice. "Where's that second wind?" My shame was forgotten for a second. Was Sasuke-kun teasing me?

Naruto, Sasuke-kun and the bathroom vanished, the sound of the shower turning into the sound of rain hitting the glass of the window of my old bedroom. I was laying on my bed, in the dark, a picture of Sasuke-kun in my hands. I waited until I heard both my parents go to bed before I let my hand slide across my thigh and under my skirt.

"Sasuke-kun," I whispered to the picture.

No, no, no! This was all too embarrassing. Was this the first time I...?

I felt my fingers disappear under my panties. Closing my eyes, I imagined Sasuke-kun coming to my window soaking wet...

"Kai! Stop it!" We were back in the shower. Sasuke-kun was... chuckling? Which I never heard him do without blood lust and I could feel the reaction vibrate and jerk inside me as I clutched his wet body and tried to hide my face from him.

"What's so funny, Teme? Just because you got Sakura-chan to cum three times by cheating-"

"It's nothing," Sasuke-kun dismissed.

"Please, Sasuke-kun, no more. I don't want you to see anymore," I said, beyond embarrassed.

"You saw me and Naruto. This is payback."

"Wait, what?" Naruto asked.

"Hardly! You guys were just hugging!" Though Sasuke-kun was such a drama queen perhaps for him, hugging Naruto was the worst scandal that could have ever happened to him. Or he pretended it to be. I almost laughed. I should know better.

"Fine," And then Sasuke-kun forced me to look at him again, suddenly putting all of his memories of that one night before Naruto came to my window into my head. They were in the woods, outside the village. It wasn't just visual, I could feel everything Sasuke-kun had felt, anger, frustration and lust on top of my own feelings of embarrassment and jealousy. It was hard to tell what was Sasuke-kun's and what was mine as I fought with Naruto, as I yelled at Naruto, as I punched Naruto, as I fucked Naruto. And then I was in tears as Naruto turned around and loved me right back. I felt Sasuke-kun hate Naruto just like I always did. I felt him just as confused as I had always been. But the way Naruto touched Sasuke-kun felt good and I didn't judge Sasuke-kun for succumbing to such a temptation. The both of us knew how Naruto could be.

The whole incident must have lasted forty-five minutes, but hardly a second had passsed before I was back in the bathroom. I breathed in the humid air, shocked at being warm when I had felt the cold air of being naked in the woods so recently. I had come again on Sasuke-kun another two times from experiencing the feelings that Sasuke-kun had remembered, my sweaty skin slipping on his body.

He hoisted me up. "There, now everyone knows everything."

"Knows what?" It was as if Naruto had to prove the sentence wrong. Naruto would always be too dumb to know everything.

"Naruto, I thought you were gonna fuck me. I've just performed five genjutsu like you weren't even back there."

Naruto growled. "I am! You're not going to be able to walk straight tomorrow."

"If I can keep Sakura so busy, you're not doing your job."

I gave a yelp as Naruto plowed into Sasuke-kun, but Sasuke-kun soon caught me with his eye again. He went through my brain like a library, every night I had ever spent thinking about him and touched myself to, which was an appalling number of times. He read every little stupid, innocent and dirty fantasy I've ever had of him, daydream or musing when I should have been either sleeping or doing something far more important. Five years' worth, and Sasuke-kun found them all, playing them out and having me experience them as if they were real. Some of them were rather ridiculous, others on the kinkier side and all of them shameful. This was most likely giving off the impression that I was a slutty, trashy nympho. I should have been too embarrassed to enjoy any of them, but Sasuke-kun was entirely too sexy and he added to the dreams, inserting himself, adding enough extra detail just to keep me on my toes so I wasn't exactly sure what would happen in each one.

It felt like each one was more intense than the last. I lost count on how many times I was pulled away from reality. I was sobbing. It hurt, the pain dissolving with each orgasm only to return in the seconds in between them. I began to understand why this genjutsu was meant for torture. This was too much.

But I didn't want it to stop. This was suffering. This was suffering with Sasuke-kun and my sick mind never wanted to be parted from such glorious beautiful pain.

I knew time wasn't moving as fast as I thought it was because of the genjutsu. It felt like hours. It ended when I heard Sasuke-kun crying out, a sound that shook my hazy brain. At first I didn't even know what I was hearing, but it was beautiful if foreign. I saw Sasuke-kun's flushed face for only an instant. I was vaguely aware of Naruto biting down on Sasuke-kun's shoulder, like a predator dragging my precious Sasuke-kun away from me. Or perhaps more like a bartender who had said I had had enough. I was drunk on feeling. With my vision spinning, I had no sense that we were falling in the bathtub, just that the scenery was changing.

Sasuke-kun's knees bent, catching me before I fell all the way from him. My arms were limp and could no longer hold onto him. The only reason why my head didn't clink against the wall was because Naruto caught it, moving with us so that when all three of us fell to the floor, damage was kept to a minimum.

"Shit! Teme, you fucking killed her!"

Sasuke-kun made a murmuring sound, arm wrapped around my middle as he nuzzled his face into my neck. With the water beating down around us, I closed my eyes. It was over. It was time to sleep now. Once I caught my breath that was. I couldn't breathe even after it was over. It was too hot. It was too humid.

"Guys, you can't sleep in the shower. You gotta get up."

"I... I can't... breathe."

"Fuck," Naruto swore as he turned off the shower. "You okay?"

"Sleep... time..." I said. Sasuke-kun might have already been unconscious.

"No sleep time, Sakura-chan. Help me get the bastard off of you."

"No..." I wrapped my arms around Sasuke-kun's exquisite limp body. With the shower now off, I was beginning to feel the cold air on my drying skin, and the heaviness of him was the only thing keeping me warm.

"You're gonna catch a cold. Fine." Naruto turned the water back on but closed the drain so that the tub began to fill with it. "We'll get you cleaned up first, then to bed. Make sure Sasuke doesn't drown."

I groaned with how nice it felt as the water started lapping my legs. Actually, anything rubbing my skin felt nice, though Sasuke-kun's breath was tickling my neck. If I had the strength I would have covered up his mouth with my own to quell the little discomfort. Naruto moved over to one end of the tub. I was noticing how small the space was with all three of us sitting at the bottom of it. Naruto pulled Sasuke-kun off of me, propping him up against the opposite wall of the tub. Sasuke-kun made a mild groan but didn't open his eyes.

Naruto then dragged me over to him with the help of the weightless water and settled me on his lap. "What did the bastard do to poor Sakura-chan," he said, rubbing at my thigh. I whimpered and turned in his lap, my arms going around his neck and his hand going to my sore back. I moaned with how amazing it felt to have his fingers prodding at the muscles. I concentrated on gathering my breath back, feeling my stored chakra slowly trickling to accommodate my weak body. Naruto moved his soapy hand over my skin, though he concentrated on my back, making it more of a massage than a cleaning. I wasn't complaining.

"Sasuke thinks he's so cool... Fucking cheater is what he is."

"He was mean..." I finally heard myself saying.

"He's always been mean."

"He was..." I started, remembering all the embarrassing things he found in my brain, "... a bastard...!"

"That's what I've always said!"

"I have... I have to get him back. I have to make him feel... at my mercy but, oh I can't. I can't keep up with him. He's too sexy!" My throat hurt to speak. I tried swallowing to wet it but that hurt too.

Naruto chuckled at me. "Sakura-chan. It's so easy to get Sasuke off. He's like a minute man or something."

I gasped. "No, he's not!" I exclaimed, smacking the water. "We've been in here for like an hour."

"It's been less than five minutes since I've gotten here!"

"No! Look at my fingers! Look how pruney they are!" I lifted my hand, but that proved to be too tiring and it splashed back down into the water.

"I mean, I don't know how long you guys were in here before I came in, but by the sound of your talking, it didn't seem like you were getting it on until shortly before I arrived."

"You were listening to us!?"

"You left the door open." I opened my mouth to say my angry retort but Naruto interrupted me, showing me his own hand. "See my fingers?" I turned my head to look. "Not a single wrinkle on them." I blinked as I looked at his hand, taking a hold of it to inspect it better.

"Your finger was in my asshole."

Naruto laughed.

"I didn't like it."

"Oh," Naruto said in between his laughter. "Sorry. I just... I like how it feels. With Sasuke making you cum so much, man, it kept-"

"Stop it!" I slapped his face, causing the water to splash up. "I hate both of you!"

"Ah, Sakura-chan! I'm sorry." He nuzzled his face into my wet head. "I'll make it up to you. I promise."

"No... No more sex... I think I'll die."

"That's not what I meant, Sakura-chan." Naruto's knees were already bent because Sasuke-kun was in the way of him stretching them out fully, but he bent them further to cradle me deeper into his lap. "I'm going to make sure you're always happy. That you're always safe. That you're never lonely." I felt Naruto's words wrap around me, almost crush me. His word was always an oath, always a curse. It was like the lines one recited to a beloved one during their wedding ceremony, the exact opposite of what Sasuke-kun had said. This was not meaningless to Naruto, and he would never pretend that it was. "We belong to each other now," he said. "And that will never, ever change."

There was still a slight sickness in my stomach, that I knew deep down that Naruto was wrong. We would all fall apart. This could never work, but the calm humid air, Naruto's warm body and low grumbling voice, convinced me otherwise. I was calmed by his promises.

I still felt the need to voice the most probable problem to Naruto's fantasy. "Sasuke-kun-"

"Don't worry about Sasuke." He nudged the other man with his leg. Sasuke-kun's head rolled over, now facing us, but head still pointed down so that his wet bangs fell into his face.

"He's asleep," I whispered in awe.

"Yeah. It's peaceful, isn't it? We must have really worn him out."

I giggled, thinking about how much trouble both Naruto and I had caused him tonight. "Poor Sasuke-kun," I murmured. I studied him a moment longer, watching water droplets collect at the ends of his hair before dripping into the bath. "I wish... I could make him feel like you do, Naruto."

"Whadda ya mean?"

"He's always so closed up. You're so good at... at doing certain things, and I..." I felt Naruto's cheeks bunch up against my head as he grinned insanely.

"What are you saying, Sakura-chan?" Naruto breathed heavily.

Images of Sasuke-kun's expressions flashed in my mind, so raw, and only when Naruto was doing something to him. One particular one was when Sasuke-kun was thrusting into Naruto's throat with such reckless abandon, not at all the careful control he normally had, was burned into my brain. "You... I mean, you seem more experienced-"

Naruto interrupted me with a loud laugh. Sasuke-kun's eyebrows twitched at the sound. "I really am not all that... Well, I don't know. No. It's not really. Maybe I just have a knack for it? I don't know. What are you talking about?"

My eyebrows drew together. "Naruto, what are you talking about?"

"What are you talking about? I asked first!"

"You can get Sasuke-kun off so much better than I can!" I blurted out. I didn't know why I even brought this up. The fact would most likely never change, just like how I would never be as powerful as the two of them.

"You're asking for my advice?"

My face was still burning.

"You're thinking about it too hard. Like I said, Sasuke is quick. I gave him like eight thrusts and he was creaming inside of you."

I bit my lip. "I don't have a dick," I said. Sasuke-kun probably did prefer Naruto over me. Judging by that memory he had shared with me, it was impossible to not be consumed by the violent passion the boys gave each other. What did I do? Nothing. And moaned a lot.

"You don't need a dick. Anything you do to him would get him hot and bothered in no time. He tries to hide it, but he really is such a mess," Naruto laughed. "It's because he doesn't masturbate. It's all pent up in there. He needs so much sex. It's the only way to fix him."

"He doesn't... Oh god... " I started to think about how Sasuke-kun had gone through every one of my fantasies that I had touched myself to. "And he knows I do... He knows everything! He saw it. He knows I'm a disgusting sex addict." I buried my face into my hands.

"If Sasuke thinks masturbation is a sin, I wonder what he thinks of acts of homosexuality, or using genjutsu to make orgasms. He must really want to go to hell."

I shook my head.

"Sakura-chan," Naruto tried to comfort me. "Sasuke wanted you so bad... the damn motherfucker. When I stopped you guys from fucking he took it out on my ass. And then I found you two in here. He just couldn't wait to have you. I don't know what you're worried about."

"I..." I tried to speak through my embarrassment. "I tried to give him head and he stopped me."

"Psh, fucking bastard!"

"I think it's because I'm bad at it."

"Sakura-chan!" Naruto clutched me with his arm, his breath getting notably harder as he talked. "That's impossible. Gosh, when you were... fuck I couldn't even think."

"I can't do it like you can."

"Oh, man. You didn't even have to." Naruto shook his head.

I scoffed. "Maybe because you're easy." Naruto made a sound of indifference. "How do you do it like that? It's so big!"

Naruto chuckled. "I don't know. Practicing probably helps..." I tried to look at Naruto's face but he was hiding it behind my head. "The first thing though is not to be afraid of it."

"I think I'm afraid of it."

"Ha, maybe. It's not like you have one of your own, right Sakura-chan?" I pinched him. "Ow!" he whined. "But really Sakura-chan, remember when you chugged that beer?"

"Yeah," I pouted.

"It's kinda like that, but it stays in your throat, and you gotta get used to it I guess."

"But what about gagging?"

"Just suppress it."

I let out a frustrated groan.

"You could practice on me!" And then, "I'm kidding! Please don't hit me too hard." Naruto quickly said after, but I didn't hit him. I sat there and thought about it.

"Okay."

"Really?!"

"But not now. I'm too tired." I laid back against him. My hand accidentally brushed against his hard member under the water. He made a suppressed murmuring sound. "This conversation got you hard?"

"I've been hard, Sakura-chan! I never finished. Sasuke came too soon and then everyone was falling and shit."

"Oh." Right. Naruto said it only had been a few minutes. I rubbed Naruto's cock with my fist without thinking, just because it was something there.

"Haaa... Sakura-chan... you said you were too tired."

"I am. I probably won't be able to get you off," I said sleepily.

"Sakura-chan, why you always teasing me all the time...? It's been ten years of teasing me. I'm trying so hard to show restraint."

I turned around to press my mouth against his. I didn't know why I did this to Naruto. Something about him. Like wanting to put footprints on new snow or knocking down a stack of blocks. I wanted to stick my hands into Naruto's soul because the reaction would be satisfying. I didn't know. I didn't know how to explain it.

I started to stroke him more firmly. I played with the idea of actually going down on him now, practice, as Naruto had suggested. But everything was already under the bath water. I wasn't going to attempt to go under.

Naruto groaned. "I think..." he heaved. "I don't know what it is, Sakura-chan, but when you... do things like this to me... tease me, hit me, it's torture but... I love it anyway."

My hand slowly stopped moving. Naruto winced when I stopped but kissed my head anyway.

"I think you might be evil," he whispered into my head, but I could still feel that his mouth was holding its grin.

Sasuke-kun suddenly jerked himself awake. His arm flinging about splashed water out of the tub and his eye flashed his Sharingan.

"Sorry, Teme. We let you fall asleep."

Sasuke-kun glared at Naruto for a moment before he looked at the water he was sitting in. "What the fuck is this?" He turned the water off. The level had been dangerously close to overflowing. Then he pushed himself up to climb out.

Naruto's gaze followed Sasuke-kun hopelessly. He shot up into a standing position, somehow able to cradle me and keep me firmly pressed to him with just his one arm.

Sasuke-kun was busy drying himself with a towel as Naruto carefully stepped out of the tub with me. "Sasuke! Dry Sakura-chan too!"

Sasuke-kun had just finished fastening the towel to his hips. He scowled at Naruto for a moment before he pulled the towel off and flung it over me. I grasped it, holding it close to me. I could smell Sasuke-kun on it.

"You can put me down, Naruto." He did so, slowly. Even when my feet had touched the floor, he still had his arm wrapped tightly around my midriff, bicep pushing up on my boobs. I was a little annoyed by this, but a quick look at Naruto's face showed that he wasn't paying attention to what he was doing. He was too busy staring at Sasuke-kun's ass. There was a giant bite mark on Sasuke-kun's left butt cheek.

I stared at it too, Sasuke-kun drying his hair with a new towel. As he wrapped the new towel around himself, obscuring our vision, he turned his head toward us.

The both of us looked away sharply. I fell back against Naruto because he had let go of me, though his arm quickly prevented me from falling. Sasuke-kun pulled the towel I had out of my grip somewhat violently before rubbing it forcefully over my head. "You're going to get sick," he grumbled. After he finished roughly drying me, he did Naruto. I saw Naruto's smile in the mirror, his face rosy with a blush as Sasuke-kun tended to him as well. Sasuke-kun whipped the towel at him once Naruto was dry, the end of it wrapping around and smacking him. Naruto gave a short, surprised yelp.

Sasuke-kun stomped back over to the tub. "Is no one going to pull the drain? Why am I doing everything?" Both Naruto and I watched Sasuke-kun bend over to pull the drain, neither of us having any words to say. He stood up, turned around and glared at us. "Stop standing there like idiots!"

He bullied us out of the bathroom. Naruto pulled back the blankets of the bed, silently announcing that no one was sleeping on the floor. He threw the wet towel onto the ground. Sasuke-kun glowered at him as he picked it up to drape on the back of a chair. As Sasuke-kun did the same with his own towel, Naruto pulled me into the bed.

"Come on, Sasuke!" Part of me didn't think Sasuke-kun would get in the bed with us, but I shouldn't have doubted Naruto.

Sasuke-kun got in next to me, but immediately turned to his side to face away from us. I was okay with that, placing both my hands on his bare back, and letting my lips press in between his shoulder blades. His skin shivered under my breath, so I pressed closer to him to keep him warm, one of my legs nudging in between his. Naruto was already spooned behind me, hips digging into my butt as he nuzzled my hair. He reached over to encircle his arm around the both of us. Sasuke-kun sighed, annoyed, but did nothing to move away from us.

In between the two bodies was so warm.

I began to wonder, if this was what it was all leading us to. This was the end of the journey, the end of the story. What if this was my happy ending?

I put my arms around Sasuke-kun too, sandwiching one arm underneath Naruto's. It was. It was the only way all three of us could be happy. Sasuke-kun was trying to fight it off, but I felt him relax in front of me. Even with his denial, I realized this was the answer.

Happily, ever after.