Survive
Sev fell asleep. Lauren Tracked him down to make sure he was sleeping, she gently eased out from under him to avoid waking him and headed inside the house with her Lumos while she continued to Track him. She didn't lose him the whole time, he didn't wake up.
She went up to the bedroom, put their clothes, the bottle of wine and the glasses in her backpack, and extinguished the candles that had been left burning. She went downstairs again, picked up the two blankets that had been left there the week before and four furs, and returned to Sev with the Lumos in her mouth.
She made the bed next to him, already fast asleep, and lifted him off the ground onto the furs, not waking. She took the alarm clock out of her backpack. We have already slept six hours, another almost five will be enough. She set it on at half past five and lay down next to him again, placing him back on her lap, he held her close and snuggled against her, not quite waking up. It filled her with tenderness. He feels me in dreams.
She tried bonding while he slept and found that she could. He was not dreaming, he was in the phase of sleep in which one does not dream. What a pity, I would have liked to see if he dreams of me, and then show it to him in my mind.
It took her a while to fall asleep, she wasn't used to sleeping in that position. She slept like Lily, also hugging her pillow, imagining that it was him since she was little. But she got it, because she felt in complete peace. She finally had him for herself, after so many years, and she had reconciled with herself accepting what she felt for him and allowing herself to show it even though she still couldn't have everything she wanted from him. She didn't care anymore, because he had been right when he told her that they could love each other completely without going to the end, and he had just proved it to her.
. . . . . . . . .
Sev woke up hugging Lauren asleep, it was daylight. Whoa… she didn't wake me up and set up the fur bed. She must have lifted me off the ground, how strong she is too, we are perfect for each other. I'm sure she brought the alarm clock too. He sat up to see if it was so. He saw it on the grass, on her side. Five o'clock. I've slept another four and a half hours, enough, but maybe she had a hard time sleeping, thinking about everything we talked about.
She has set it at half past five, I'm going to turn it off, we still have plenty of time. Let her wake herself up, or I'll wake her up when we have to leave. He did, turning off the alarm clock and going to use the outhouse while he Tracked her to make sure she was still asleep, he didn't miss her. Wow… at this distance and without testing it so far. Of course, our Bond is very powerful.
He came back and stayed close to her, caressing her very lightly under the covers, enjoying the touch of her perfect skin. He tried to bond with her and succeeded. Wow… we can bond in our sleep, and she is dreaming that she is walking with me through the Forest, how beautiful. When she wakes up I'll show her in my mind, she's going to love it.
She woke up about half an hour later, the dream was suddenly interrupted. He spoke to her in his mind as he looked up at her, still stroking her.
"Good morning, gorgeous, how did you sleep?"
She opened her eyes and looked at him. "Like a saint."
"Do you remember what you were dreaming?"
"I don't."
"I do, I have bonded with you and I can show you," Sev said.
She smiled excitedly, he smiled back. "How wonderful, I did it too when you fell asleep, but you weren't dreaming anything."
"Oh, what a shame. Thanks for setting up the bed and letting me sleep."
She turned to look at the alarm clock, he also got up to do it, it was half past five.
"Of course, Severus, you're exhausted, it was better if you slept through it. Have you been awake for a long time?"
"Just over half an hour."
"Have you slept enough?"
"Yeah, I'm fresh. And you? Did you sleep late?" he asked.
"Yes, it took me a while, but not because I was eating my head, don't worry about that, but because of the posture. Besides, I don't need sleep as much as you do, you have Time-Turner almost every day."
"In what position do you usually sleep?"
"Hugging the pillow, thinking it's you, since I was little..." she confessed shyly.
"Wow... how nice," excited. "Lily also sleeps like this."
"Yes, she already told me."
"What secrets you have, you don't tell me anything," Sev said.
"I'm telling you now."
"Sure, you are right. Do you know that I have tried to Track you and I have not lost you despite going to the other side of the house?"
"Yes, I did it too last night, when I left you asleep on the grass, and I didn't lose you despite going up to the bedroom," Lauren said.
"Wow… our Bond is very powerful."
"Of course it is. You already saw the shield that we managed to form between the two of us."
"We have to consult it in the book, if it has something to do with it," he suggested.
"I'm sure it has to do with it."
"We can also bond in classes."
"Of course," she agreed.
"And try to Track each other through the castle."
"Of course, I'm sure that from here to the end of the term we will achieve it in all of it."
"How wonderful, we will no longer need the Map to know where the other is at all times," Sev said.
"Of course not."
"We'll try it today when we get back home, and also when I'm at home and you're at the Library."
"Sure. And we can also try it when one of us goes to the Forest," Lauren suggested.
"Of course. Do you have to go to the bathroom?"
"Yeah."
"Then go and come back immediately," he ordered emphatically.
"Of course…"
She jumped up and strode off, while he watched her from behind. She's already turned on, just with that, and me too, from looking at her. How she moves, she is magnificent, slender and elegant as a feline, her Patronus reflects her perfectly. It would be wonderful to both of us become Animagi too, I'll teach her if she wants.
He saw her appear again after a few minutes, she came with the Red Magic book in her hand, in a hurry. He tried to bond at that distance. "Come slowly, I want to see you."
She slowed down, waddling.
(She heard me, our Bond is very powerful.) He glanced at her as he pleased as she approached. (Whoa… This one is going to be very short, I'll get her really horny first. I know how, with my hand, I'm sure she hasn't tried that either.) He pulled the covers back from himself so she could see him too. When she was a few feet away he said to her, "Look how you've made me, just looking at you. Lie down," he ordered.
She did it next to him, looking at him expectantly. He turned to her, leaning on his elbow. (She expects surprises, great.) "Are you horny yet?"
"Of course…"
(She also gets very easy, with nothing. We are perfect for each other in that aspect. Well, I'm going to insert only my finger, I don't do anything else for the moment, so that it lasts too. I insert two. She's not a virgin, there's no fear of breaking her, that turns me on too.) He touched her briefly. (She's soaked, she's ready.) "I'm going there."
He insert his right forefinger and middle finger, she screamed. (She's very wide, I could fit three, we'll save that for another day. She already likes it that way.) He continued to thrust his fingers into her roughly, she screamed.
"It's liking you… huh? You like roughly. Tell me the truth, did you like how the malefics did it to you?"
"Of course, otherwise I wouldn't have done it…"
"Well, I'm very malefic for this."
"I see, you drive me crazy…"
(Jack doesn't do these things to her at all, he's soft, too sensitive. I'm sensitive too, I cry at nothing, but I also know how to be mean and the Slys love it.) "The day I give it to you, you will feel as if I break you again."
"Don't tell me that, I want it right now…"
"Better, so you're making yourself want, it won't be that long until you get it. I want to know if it hurt you when you were broken," Sev asked.
"Yeah…"
"And did you like it?"
"Yeah…"
"How it turns me on, I wish it had been me," he said.
"You don't know how I regret not having waited for you…"
"Fuck you, for not telling me what you felt. You would have been my first."
He curled his fingers inside her to stimulate the key point, roughly. She screamed louder.
"What are you doing to me…?" she asked.
"I also have my tricks."
"Wow… this is really driving me crazy…"
"You've never tried it, have you?" Sev asked.
"Not…"
"Fuck you, for letting them put it in you and that's it."
"I'm liking it much more than doing it…" said Lauren.
"Of course."
"You're a god of sex... I think I'm going to come like this…"
(Amazing, no clitoral stimulation,) he thought. "Well, come."
"And you?"
"There is time for another."
"I'm going to end up exhausted…" she said.
"It's what I intend, so you'll already be served for a whole week."
(And leave Jack, you enjoy me a lot more. I'm going to make her finish quickly, so she doesn't get too tired.) He stroked the button in circles with his thumb. She came twenty seconds later.
"I'm coming…"
She was screaming. He put his left palm outstretched, just the way Lily liked it, pressing hard on her, and plunged back into her with both fingers until she finished.
"Wow… I thought that last night was impossible to improve… You are an artist…" she said.
He pulled out of her and hugged her, she snuggled against his chest. He said to her very sweetly, as he kissed her head, "Is it enough for you what I give you?"
"Of course. Too bad I didn't try my Patronus yesterday, because I think it's changed again."
"Try both memories, maybe you'll get both."
They stayed for a while in mental silence, holding each other. (She's thinking about whether to continue with Jack, at least until the end of the term, well… The days after the exams I plan to blow her up, so she'll be well served for the whole summer.)
After a quarter of an hour he asked her, "Have you recovered?"
"Yeah."
(Okay, so I'm not going to let her keep eating his head, not now that she's with me, we still have a lot of things to do.) "Shall we check the Bond?"
"Okay."
(Good…)
They turned face down, she took the book and looked in the index for the Bond as Clanship and then the page in the book. He, meanwhile, was massaging her behind.(So she'll be ready as soon as we're done.)
"How it turns me on how you touch me," she told him.
"Because I do it with desire, I'm already like a motorcycle again."
"Don't tell me that, we're starting over."
"No, no, let's read. Rest a little more."
They read the titles of the sections, stopped at 'Power of the Bond'.
"Look, this is it."
"Yes, let's read it in its entirety."
They read in silence.
(The Bond is more powerful the greater the trust that one person places in the other, in the mutual capacity to accept and be accepted by the other. Like the taste of berries, more intense the greater the acceptance arising from the knowledge,) Sev thought. (Of course, this magic has to do with that, with true love, not with sexual pleasure or dependency. That is why it is possible to be Bonded as a Clanship even if there is no physical relationship, it is enough to create strong ties of mutual trust.)
"Have you finished?"
"Yeah."
They looked at each other.
"What do you think?" he asked her.
"It's like the berries. knowledge and acceptance."
"Of course, and we, last night, made a lot of progress in that."
"Of course," Lauren agreed.
"It was not because we did it, it has nothing to do with it, it was because of what we talked about."
"Sure…"
"Think carefully about Jack, don't waste time or energy with him if he doesn't accept you, you have me," Sev said.
"If we go back to the mirror, I'll see if I'm still seeing him after this."
"Of course we'll go back. We are going to read another section that we have skipped and I found it interesting."
He searched for 'The Bond between more than two people' and pointed it out to her.
"Oh…"
"Let's read it."
They read. (Three or more people can be bonded at a time, their thoughts continue to function as one.)
"It is wonderful. We can do it with Lily," she said.
(Well… she doesn't think about Jack.) "And with Deborah."
"Sure. Wow, Severus… I'm looking forward to it."
"Me too. And besides, I'm thinking that it will be enormously useful for the Army, because if an entire squad is bonded, they will all be in communication through their thoughts, it is not necessary to give word orders."
"Of course!"
"To fly in formation with the shield in skirmishes," he said.
"Wow yes!"
(Which is why in the mirror we saw such perfect timing of the formation. Can't wait to show it to Lauren, I'll do it on Saturday if Deborah lets me.)
"I'm surprised the old man hasn't told me anything about this," Sev said.
"Because he reserves the information to give it to you little by little. That is why it is to our advantage that the books remain in our possession until we have studied them thoroughly."
"Well, yes, the truth. How are you aroused?"
"I am."
"You're a machine, Lauren, it's only been twenty minutes."
"It's just that I really want to end up bonded at the same time, we haven't tried that yet."
"Well, let's get to it, I'm ready."
"It's my turn on you," she said.
"Great, that way you rule."
Lauren put the book down on the grass, Sev lay on his back and she straddled him sitting up, he put his arms behind his head. "Start, let's see what you can do by yourself," he said.
"I've never done it like that."
"Let yourself be carried away by instinct and by what you like. I'm going to like it for sure, whatever you do."
She began to ride him slowly, both panting heavily.
"You're so wet, Lauren, you drive me crazy."
"And you me, so hard."
"Do you want me to touch your breasts?"
"No need, enjoy looking at me. I am going to touch you," she said.
"Okay, whatever you want, now you're in charge."
She caressed his torso and scratched it.
"Wow… Lauren, how turns me on that you scratch me. I'm going to tell you something if you promise that it won't hurt you."
"I promise you. tell me."
"The day of the Potions little scene, when you scratched my neck, you made me horny."
"I already noticed," she said.
"You're so bad. Do it harder, make me bleed."
She did it, she dug her nails into him, she marked him.
"Now I'm yours, Lauren, you've marked me."
"How it turns me on that you like it."
"And me you like it. Go on, I want you to destroy me."
She continued, they both went into a frenzy. She picked up the pace.
"I'm almost there, Lauren. Can you come like this, don't you need to lie on me?"
"No, of course not, I can come whenever I want."
"Wonderful. When I'm about to come, I'll move you, will you let me?"
"Of course."
For another minute, he gripped her hips and moved her frantically. They came together, screaming.
"Wooow… it's been spectacular, the best I've ever had with someone. Lauren, we are perfect for each other. Lie on me and rest. Now I don't know what the memory of my Patronus is either, if it was last night or this."
"I'm going to have to try all three."
(Whoa! Three in one night, and with Jack they come out incorporeal, even though he sticks it up.)
"Booaaah... I have destroyed you," she said. "Does it hurt?"
"Of course it hurts, but I love it. Don't worry about it, lie down and rest."
She dropped onto him, burying herself in his neck. He hugged her and ran down her back caressing her, she shuddered.
"Are you comfortable?" he asked her.
"So much so that I would go back to sleep."
He looked at the alarm clock. "Sleep for a while if you want, it's not half past six yet, there's time."
"No, we have to go home before eight o'clock and we still have to try the Patronuses and go back to the mirror."
"But that is a moment, with half an hour it's enough. I'm going to tell you about the dream you had, if you go back to sleep I'll wake you up. Do you want?"
"Okay, come on."
He showed her in his mind, in great detail, the dream she had had, the walk through the Forest together. When he finished, she told him, "How wonderful, Severus." When can we do it again?"
"On Saturday we have a good walk together."
"But it is by roads, it is not so pretty."
"Well, the next time we meet, we're going to the Forest of the Room, we haven't been there together yet," Sev proposed.
"Okay."
"And we'll fight a little too, if you want."
"Of course I want to," Lauren agreed.
"Naked, that way we get on and we do it on the grass, it's very fluffy."
"Wow great. What time is it?"
"Seven o'clock, in the end you haven't slept, and a long day awaits you," he said.
"It doesn't matter, if I'm tired I'll go to bed right after dinner. I am very sorry that we have less than an hour left, I would never separate from you."
"Neither do I, Lauren, I'm already beginning to miss you. See you on Saturday, save energy, we will have a day of twenty-nine hours and a walk of more than three."
"Of course."
(She's not going to meet Jack again until Saturday.) "Shall we get going?" he asked. "Better if we don't rush home, maybe the old man will wake up early and he can see us on his Map."
"Sure, let's go."
They rose.
"First of all we are going to do our Patronuses, right here," Sev proposed.
They tried at the same time the last happy memory, when they had come together, and it came out. The panthers played.
"Wow, Severus... I'm so excited."
"Have you noticed that they are not exactly twins? Mine has changed since Tuesday, it is a male."
"It's true."
"Lauren, we're going to become Animagi, you and me too, I'll teach you. We will go for a run through the woods."
"It would be fantastic."
Lauren checked her two other happy memories with Sev, and he the other with her, they came out incorporeal.
"Well, it would be too much to have several happier memories with the same person, I'm glad that the best one was the one we have in common," he said. "Wonderful. Do you want to try any other of yours?"
"I don't. Show me your wolf."
(She already knows that Jack's are not going to work out.)
Sev brought up his memory with Deborah. They dressed and packed up, leaving the blankets and furs inside the house. They chatted.
"Wow… Severus, that's fantastic. Three different Patronuses and the three powerful and highly symbolic animals. Wolves are fabulous, they have a whole social structure."
"Oh really? Tell me."
"The packs are grouped around a couple, called alpha, for the first letter of the Greek alphabet. Only that pair breeds, but all the adults contribute to the rearing of the cubs."
"Wow, they have their own Moon Magic," he commented.
"Yeah. And also lions are social. In this case the group is made up of a single male and several females. They are the ones who hunt, also collaborating, and the male dedicates himself to protecting them, them and their cubs, from other males, since they would kill the cubs to make them come into heat."
"Well, a male and several females, like me with you all, and I must protect you from inappropriate males. Take note."
"Yeah."
"And the panthers?" Sev asked.
"They are solitary. They only coincide during the mating season and the females raise the cubs alone."
"Well, that's what I like the least."
"Almost all mammals are like that," Lauren explained.
"How ignorant I am, Lauren. I have a serious deficit, I don't know anything about the Muggle world. The other night a third-year girl had to explain to me that Rome is in Italy."
"Oh… but it's not your fault, Severus."
"Yes, yes it is. I was able to take Muggle Studies as an elective."
"By then you were still very young and you hung out with the malefics, it's understandable that you didn't."
"I regret it a lot," he said.
"Come on, don't worry, you'll solve it."
"Did you know that my name was the name of a Roman emperor?"
"Yes of course," she replied.
"The other day Maida told me. I've always hated my name, and I've liked it ever since."
She smiled at him.
"Do you know the story of that emperor?" he asked her.
"No, but I will inform myself and I will tell you."
"Brilliant. Did you blow out the candles?"
"Of course," Lauren replied.
"There was nothing left in the bedroom?"
"No, I brought everything, to save time."
"Great, Lauren. In the end we only drank half a bottle."
"So we have it for the next one."
"I am very hungry. Aren't you?"
"Me too, we spent a lot of energy," she said.
"We have to bring more food."
"Well yes."
"We left the dictionary in the living room. Will we take it?" Sev asked.
"No. What for? Let's leave it here."
They left the refuge and returned to the door of the Room at a good pace. Lauren pulled out the Map, there was no one on the seventh floor outside their house.
"Okay, we're not going out together," Sev said. "Go out first and you get
Disillusioned, then I'll go out, demand the storeroom and go in, then you go in, so you spend less time exposed."
"Okay."
They did so and quickly went to the mirror. "Look at yourself first," he told her.
Lauren looked at herself.
"What do you see?"
"Lots of people, Severus," laughing. "Some I don't know, and others I hardly know."
"That big family you dreamed of."
"Yeah. All adults and with children, a lot of them."
"Where are you located?" he asked.
"In the center, with you."
"The heart of the team. Do we have children?"
"Yes, a couple, they are like us," she replied. "We hold them in our arms, you the girl, older, and I the boy."
"Who else do you see that we both know?"
"Lily and Deborah, of course."
"Does Lily have children?" Sev asked.
"A red-haired girl with black eyes, they are next to you."
"My daughter too. And Deborah?"
"She has two, a girl who looks like you and another who doesn't," Lauren answered.
"Is Paul with her?"
"He has the girl in his arms, who is older, and she has the boy."
"He takes care of my daughter, and the other must be his," he deduced.
"Sure…"
"Who else do you see?"
"Ariel and Shelley, also with two children, smaller than the others," she replied.
"Of course, because they are younger. Who else?"
"All the Gryffs. Cecile, Remus, Alice and Frank."
"Wonderful. Do they have children too?" Sev asked.
"Yes, Alice and Frank have two of the same age, one of them looks like Frank, but the other doesn't look like either of them. And they are quite old, about nine years old."
"Oh... that means they're going to have it very young. And that the one who doesn't look like them is not their son."
"Do you know who he looks like?" Lauren asked.
"Tell me."
"He's just like Potter, like him, in small."
"And Potter doesn't appear on the scene?" he inquired.
"No."
"And Cecile and Remus have children?"
"A small one, a baby," she answered.
"Of course, they will take longer. Remus wants to study a Muggle career after graduating here."
"Oh…"
"Who else do you see?" Sev asked again.
"Anthony and Heather."
"Wonderful, Deborah's plan. Do they have children too?"
"Yes, one, of the age of ours," Lauren replied.
"How old are we?"
"A little less than thirty."
"And our oldest child?" he asked.
"About six."
"So we will have her at twenty-two or twenty-three years old. We'll be done with Voldemort by then. It's a very short time," excited.
"Well Severus, this is just a wish."
"Trust, Lauren, it's more than a wish, there are coincidences with data you didn't know. Who else do you see?"
"Valerie, Andrew, George and his girlfriend, sixth-grader."
"Yes, George has participated in the lynching."
"They're with Deborah and Paul," she said.
"A possible squad of six. Do they have children too?"
"Yes, of the age of ours."
"Lauren, we are going to finish off Voldemort," he said. "All warriors will have children at the same time. Do you realize?"
"Yes, Severus."
They were both getting more and more expectant.
"Don't you see Jack?" Sev asked.
"Yes, I also see him, by my side, with a dark-haired girl, like me."
"Your daughter too. You're going to have three children, Lauren. Two with me and one with Jack. And I have four, two with you, one with Lily and one with Deborah. Are there more adults than children?"
"There are," Lauren replied.
"Well, it shouldn't be the other way around. And when we raise them, we will still have time to have more, we are very young."
"Well, it's enough for me with three," laughing.
"Yeah, but maybe for Lily it won't be with one. How old is hers?" he asked again.
"Like our eldest and Deborah's girl."
"You will have them at the same time, so that they grow up together, like sisters. Great. Anything more interesting?"
"I also see the Rave commanders," she answered.
"Genevre and Lorenz?"
"Yes, and with them, a very handsome boy who looks a lot like her, with a fourth-year girl from home."
"It's her brother," Sev deduced, excited. "With Audrey, I'm matching them, you didn't know that. Is there anyone else with them?"
"Yeah. Another girl and boy I only know by sight from school, I think she's Rave and he's Gryff."
"Julia and Robert," very excited. "The commanders of sixth grade, I have also matched them. This is a premonition, Lauren, you didn't know about all this. Have you ever drunk water from a spring in the Forest?"
"Yes of course."
"You have the gift of Clairvoyance, Lauren, the Druid Magic. And I must have it too, for I have done it too."
"It's true…" deeply astonished.
"Do they have children?"
"Yes, all of them," she replied.
"What age?"
"The same."
"We are going to finish off Voldemort," he was overjoyed. "There will be overpopulation at Hogwarts in the nineties. Who else do you see?"
"My brother with Dawn."
"Wonderful. Do they have children?"
"Yes, a baby," Lauren answered.
"Because they are younger. Who else?"
They began to speak out loud, "Lucius and Narcissa!"
"Good! Why didn't you start there?" Sev asked.
"To surprise you," laughing.
"Do they have children?"
"Yes, one, blond like them, very handsome, the same age as Alice and Frank or a little older," she explained.
"Ugh... what a danger, before we finish with Voldemort."
"Yeah. But it means that they're going to do well, it would be suspicious if they didn't have children. They are with another older couple, they must be their sister Andromeda and her husband. They also have a daughter, older still, she looks like a Metamorphmagus, she has pink hair."
"Wow… how interesting. It also means that they will be rid of Azkaban," he deduced.
"Of course, Lucius will use his influence in the Ministry, and otherwise, he will have us to answer for him."
"Of course. How old is Andromeda's daughter?"
"About fifteen," Lauren replied.
"So she has already been born, if we are under thirty," very excited. "You have to find out if Andromeda has a Metamorphmagus daughter, ask your parents when you write to them. We will know if your wish will come true. How about?"
"Wonderful, Severus," very excited too. "Look at yourself, come on, we're getting late."
"Sure."
Lauren stepped away and Sev faced the mirror.
"What do you see?" she asked him.
"The same as you, except that Jack is not with you, he has another partner and two children who look alike."
"Oh…"
"I'm sorry, Lauren, I don't think he's good for you. I also see him with another couple whom I don't know, older. He looks like him, he must be his uncle the Auror. And also that with you I only have one daughter, you carry her in your arms, and with Lily two, I carry the redheaded girl and she carries a smaller dark-haired boy with green eyes. That could be yours or hers, I don't know, who he looks like the most is me."
"Well, if he looks like you it doesn't matter whose he is."
"Thank you Lauren. I also see Minerva and Albus, together and alone. How glad I am to see Lucius and Narcissa, I had already forgotten what they are like, it is what makes me most excited. And you're right, their son is very handsome and seems very mature for his age, a very serious look, that's why he seems older than Alice and Frank's, but I think they are from the same year, they will be classmates at Hogwarts. And it's true, the second of the Longbottoms is just like Potter. Do you know what I suspect?"
"What?"
"That he is his son adopted by them," Sev continued. "Neither Potter nor his partner will survive, nor Black, otherwise he would have taken care of him. And that the Longbottoms have taken care of him because they have a child the same age, and that's why they haven't had more."
"How awful…"
"Also, he has a very strange scar on his forehead, in the shape of lightning."
"Yeah…"
"Narcissa's niece is also beautiful. Write to your parents today, if that girl exists, it means that this wish will come true. And most important of all, we are going to survive the war, almost all of us."