30th January 1979
Regulus knew when he awoke on Lily's nineteenth birthday that the only goal he had for himself that day was to get rip roaring drunk. There weren't many people he could count on to start drinking as early as eleven thirty am aka two and a half hours after Regulus had woken up but he could always count on Barty and Evan.
"Fuck this is lovely is this Orions?" Barty asked smacking his lips together,
"Don't be ridiculous, you fucking imbecile." Regulus couldn't imagine he'd have any hands left if he touched their father's whiskey. Cursed off in an instant Regulus has no doubt about it. "This is Grandad Arcturus own brew. He makes it himself, and started selling it a few years ago in select wizarding stores. He gave me a crate of it when I took the mark, still haven't made my way through it all," They explained.
"Proud as punch then? Little Reggie all growing up and committing homicide," Evan snorted, shaking his blonde dreads out of his face.
"I mean technically speaking it's gen-," Barty interjected.
"Shut the fuck up Crouch," Regulus snapped. Regulus knocked back his glass in one big mouthful and poured a second one instantly. "Jesus when you said start drinking early you meant really fucking go for it early." Evan commented.
"Yeah, well it's tits' birthday, Reggie always gets all Egdar Allan Poe well since last year anyway,"
"Barty, shut the fuck up," Regulus huffed out in low monotone.
"Who the wanking hell is Egg Allan?" Evan screwed up his face,
"I don't know, I think he's mates with Severus," Barty replied, stroking Evan's cheek with his thumb and Regulus resisted the urge to slam their own head into a wall repeatedly. Instead they opted to start to sip at his whiskey. Felt like a life-time ago that this day would consist of birthday kisses and rusty freckled-face smiles. Regulus was only eighteen, yet he felt old and shrivelled and very much done with life.
He had something to do first though. Her safety is what mattered, if he couldn't be with her he'd make sure she was safe … he would make sure James was … fucking Potter and his pretty eyes and his cute dimples. He really knew how to push Regulus' buttons, meaning both that he knew how to make him come apart and that could make him lose his fucking temper. Hot like an iron as Lily would say.
Oh to be fifteen again. When neither of their hearts had ever been broken.. Well properly anyway but that would have been just round the corner waiting. James' love for Regulus was as strong as a lion, Regulus though was the kind of snake that could easily wrap itself around a lion and crush. Does James still think about the two of them back then? Does he think about Regulus?
If they met now they'd be strangers… Then again he thought that about Lily and well it didn't take him long to get reacquainted with her.. He feels her absence stronger than anything since she left that morning, scorching his heart all over again with the flames of her red hair. He caught glimpses of James during battles, he looked so effortless fighting side by side with Sirius. Sirius was meant to be Regulus' brother.. But he looks happier now with the one he picked out for himself.
By three pm Regulus found himself in Bethnal Green alone outside the cafe Marina worked in all too happy that he found her on her smoke break outside with a cigarette, he walked up to her with a goofy looking smile and swaying slightly.
"You Alright love?" she mused as she blew the smoke out, "You been having a bit too much fun too early eh? C'mon on the Reg darling after I finish this I'll take you in and fix you up something to eat alright my love," Marina said smiling with glee.
"No, darling, come drink with me please. I want to dance with you," Regulus slurred, grabbing her hand and twirling her about. She started laughing, "Reg love, I am on shift still! You daft mare," she broke free from him and put out her nearly finished cigarette.
"Please ma Crevette," Regulus rasped, taking her palm and kissing the middle of it before kissing up her wrist.
"Fucking hell," her breath hitched, "Alright then, fuck it." She opened the cafe door and shouted an excuse why she had to go. Regulus looked rather delighted with theirself and Marina turned round to him, taking his hand and pulling him away down the street. "What was that sexy thing you said, the fancy friend sounding thing, what did you call me?"
"My shrimp," Regulus hiccuped. Marina dissolved into laughter,
"What are you like eh?" She smiled. Regulus and Marina had grown rather fond of each other; they visited the cafe often when she was working and he had been on a total of three nights drinking out drinking with her, he supposed this makes four. She pointed out she could not go out drinking in her waitress uniform so he took her shopping and bought her a orange dress that tied at the neck and showed a lot of cleavage. It had pretty white flowers all over it.
She didn't need makeup, she was gorgeous, but he insisted on calling in and getting some eyeliner and 'lippy' as she called it. He refused to buy her the foundation though as she said something about it covering her freckles he threatened to fight the bottle and to have it imprisoned, she huffed out a laugh and guided him to the till to pay for the metallic eyeshadow and black eyeliner.
At quarter past five in the afternoon after both Regulus and Marina indulged in a lot of drinks.+, he found theirself grinding on her ass in a muggle pub. There were a lot of older men sitting round the bar drinking, some eyes gawking at Marina. 'Time of the season' was playing on the muggle device. He actually did know this song. she threw her head back on Regulus' shoulder while they grinded on her from behind. Regulus took the opportunity to kiss up her neck.
"What's your name? Who's your daddy? Is he rich like me?" He took the liberty of whispering the lyrics into her ear before sucking her earlobe. She gasped, pushing her ass as far up against them as it would go. Regulus' fisted her hair now half-hard she let out a soft gasp and he crashed his mouth against hers as the lyrics said 'It's the time of the season for loving'
An hour later they were in a cubicle in the mens toilet and she was sinking down on his cock as he grunted hands grabbing her hips as she moved up and down his erection.
"Merlin, I love your cunt," he choked out as bucked up trying to meet her half way. She chuckled softly through her moans "You are so weird," she turned round to capture his lips, her tongue sliding with theirs in an unsteady rhythm as he continued to buck up into her frantically practically whining. She pulled her lips away and nuzzled them with her nose and Regulus let off a desperately filthy noise.
"You are a needy little thing aren't you," she teased before moaning into his mouth and searching for their tongue again. "I'm gonna fill your sweet little pussy with my cum ok?" he moaned, pecking her lips lightly, "hmm yeah alright," she groaned, quickening her movements. "Do whatever you want to me, daddy," she laughed as they groped her breasts a little too tight. She made sounds of satisfaction though so, they started squeezing as hard as he wanted. making a strangled noise as she brought him to his orgasm.
"Fuck that was amazing, on your knees and lick me clean ma cherie," he growled after he finished empting inside her. She snogged him, her walls felt amazing around their still half hard cock as she eased herself out of them he groaned and requested to see the 'mess' he made inside her she leaned up against the cubicle door and bent over and showed her.
"Je pourrais te dévorer tout cru." he huffed out looking at it eagerly before she turned around and sank to her knees.
A few hours later he walked her home and then made his way round to Pandora's he let himself in the back and stumbled nearly falling over.
"Salazar's tits Reggie, it isn't even nine o'clock yet. Ok I'll get you some water," Pandora sighed walking towards the sink.
"I shagged someone," Regulus called out in a strangled voice looking at Pandora with a broken look on his face. "My first time shagging someone who isn't .. Lily.. since we broke up," he ran his fingers through his hair and grimaced.
"Right, I'll get the wine then," she nodded. He leaned up against her counter and started sobbing. "You are ok my starlight," she called over in a gentle tone as she poured them both a glass of red wine. She brought it to them straight away, "You'll stay with me tonight ok? You can sleep between me and Xen right? I got you. You are ok," she assured him gently. His cheeks as they reached out to take the glass from Pandora.
"That's your first er shag in what two years then?" Pandora blurted out,
"Incorrect, I shagged Lily on my birthday," Regulus groaned.
"Oh fuck," Pandora's mouth fell open. "I thought she was still with,"
"She is," he sobbed, taking a sip, "Don't tell please, keep it between us alright? Please. I want to fix her life, make her safe. Not fuck everything up for her" he begged, "I am going to leave her alone alright? She's better off him. I am fucked though, fucking hell I have intercourse and get sucked off by pretty girl then go down on her and Lily is still the only fucking girl for me - Like I can't be with anyone like that not properly like was with James - then was with her - I'd have never moved on from that gormless git if it weren't for her and that is only because it was always her too - it was never one or the other it's them - them or no one,"
"Ok, you need to make better decisions, love," she kissed their forehead as they sobbed drinking more, "I mean there's only so much wine in the world," she joked and he huffed out a laugh as Pandora took a sip.
"You could always open a vineyard," Regulus suggested with a sarcastic smile,
"And between you my brother and darling Bartemius, I reckon the place would be drained in a fortnight?" she arched an eyebrow and pushed her long blonde dreadlocks out of her face.
"Half than," Regulus smiled. "With those two arseholes,"
"They are a handful alright, that's why you have me to .. attempt to keep you sane," she grinned knocking back some of the wine.
"Who is more foolish? The fool or the fool who follows him?" Regulus smiled.
"Dunno but at least they have each other," Pandora smiled back. When it all boiled down to it she was his only real friend these days as well as that she was the only friend he needed. Sometimes you can find your soulmate in a friendship.
September 16th 1972
Alice was walking down the corridor with Frank when he was bombarded by a series of 'Looking good longbottom' by three mischievous second years wearing fiendish grins. Frank chuckled and waved and said good morning to them. Alice laughed and shook her head. James, Remus and Sirius marvelled at Frank like he was a celebrity.
He thought it was sweet and that it was due to the fact he'd been made Qudditch Captain this year. Alice just nodded her head but she knew it was fuck all to do with Qudditch, she could tell an awakening when she saw it but it wasn't her place to out anyone so she kept her thoughts to herself.
She excused herself telling him she wasn't feeling up for breakfast this morning. He told her about making sure she ate before Practise that it was at half 10 which was too early for lunch to be served, he listed the benefits of eating before flying. She ruffled his hair and told him to piss off and that she'd see him on the field and not to be with her on a Saturday. He just shook his head grinning as she ran down the hall calling him "llorón"
She all but threw herself into the broom closet. Where a very attractive blonde was standing waiting with an arched brow. Alice smiled and wrapped her arms around her waist. Naricssa turned her head and Alice started kissing her cheek. Narcissa just pushed her away by her forehead.
"Mi vida, mi vida, por favor," Alice groaned pathetically trying to get her lips back on Narcissa's cheek.
"Your late," Narcissa snapped,
"No more than five minutes, mi vida," Alice scoffed and Narcissa gave her a stern look, "I am sorry princesa. I am a troll and worthless troll and you are the beautiful fairy princess with whom I am enchanted by. Let me come out from under my bridge and into the castle for a while ok? Mi cielo, por favor," Alice pouted and Narcissa kissed her pout which instantly turned it to a smile and Narcissa leaned in and kissed her gently.
"Nothing to forgive ma armortte," Narcissa cooed pulling Alice into a open mouthed kiss Alice sighing with relief when she felt Narcissa's tongue. Narcissa smiled into the kiss. Which made Alice smile too, pulling her closer and sighing into her mouth. Alice was going to soak up every minute of this year with Narcissa for Narcissa would graduate this June.
Alice hated the thought of returning the following September without Narcissa though she would only have one year left then. She wanted to be with Narcissa always, in any way she could. She reckoned people would go to war to be with the kind of beauty like Narcissa was. Alice would likely find herself in war either way, one building up and raging the last three years that's all the adults talked about.
It would only get worse once he gained more power, he had been doing so steadily. Alice thought Voldemort was a right bully and she couldn't stand that sort of thing. Hearing her uncle Florean talk about what was going on and why she decided to become an auror then and there, Florean pictured a world where there were no great bullies like Voldemort. He would just thrive quietly and run an ice-cream shop, Alice was going to make sure that happened. Play her part at least.
The way can wait five minutes can't it though? She can be a sixteen year old girl in a closet with her 'closted' girlfriend for another while right? Bad joke Fortescue, she mentally scolded herself as Narcissa's fingertips stroked Alice's upper arm gently. Embarrassingly Alice tensed her muscles, but fuck it because Narcissa was now squeezing Alice's upperarms. Let's stay like this please? For five minutes - if not forever..
17th september 1972
Lily and Regulus were running around the room of requirement collecting colourful eggs they'd just painted while toy chicks that Lily enchanted to move, waddled around their feet. Lily was laughing, in a red and white striped top and blue denim flares with her tied up in a high ponytail. Regulus was taking the game very seriously as they strode about in a waist coat and tailored trousers.
"Mrs Heliophile - I do say it seems we have an emergency on our hands!" Regulus did an over dramatic gasp,
"Oh no Mx Heliophile! What ever could it be?" Lily gasped dramatically bringing her hands to her face.
"It seems my sweet Mrs Heliophile," They said holding up a blood red egg, "That something is the matter with our dear chickens!" Regulus said theatrically.
"Oh no! Whatever shall we do!" Lily cried out trying to hold in her giggles.
"We ought to run a diagnostic test to solve the mystery of which of our dear chickens have fallen ill on us!" Regulus stated
"Yes, of course Mx Heliophile you are so very clever,"
"Quite right Mrs Heliophile," Regulus nodded. Lily walked over with them to the motionless large stuffed chickens while the toy chicks continued to waddle around the room. Regulus used the toy wand which was a large silver wand with a star on top that he had gotten rather excited about when he saw it. Both of their real wands were laying on the table not very far from them. After making believe they done the diagnosis spell with the toy wand Regulus cried out
"I regret to inform you dear wife that it is 'Big Bertha' who has taken ill!" Regulus told Lily gently.
"Not Bertha my love!" Lily feigned sobbing,
"Hush now my dear sweet wife, we shall take 'Big Bertha' to the animal healers! They'll fix her right up! Regulus promised. Lily and Regulus ran with the big chicken to the area with the vial station. They were empty of course; it seemed the room could produce everything but food and liquid. However they were using their imaginations so it wasn't a big deal.
"Hello, I am healer Bigbottom," Lily shook Regulus hand,
"And what a wondrous big bottom it is," Regulus smiled, wiping his hand with a tissue where she had touched them.
"Regulus don't be gross!" Lily scolded, lightly screwing up her face. Regulus gave her a warning look cause she broke character she only returned the stern look. He rolled their eyes,
"My dearest darling wife and I were hoping you could save our chicken!" Regulus pointed to an empty space where Lily once stood as the other character.
"I can do that no bother at all, tell me Sir, what seems to be the matter with your chicken?"
"The eggs she is laying, they are blood red! Something is terribly wrong!" Regulus cried out.
"Oh deary me! Well let me run a more advanced diagnostic spell than you a mere farmer could achieve," Lily said with a smug smile and Regulus flipped her off. She giggled and took the toy wand and pretended to do the spell. "Oh goodness!" Lily gasped.
"What is it?" Regulus demanded eyes pleading as he fisted her t-shirt dramatically, "Tell me what is wrong with my beloved 'Big Bertha' I say," they cried out trying not to laugh.
"It seems your that the old chicken is needing more cuddles, it seems your a terribly frigid and stern owner and don't give her much cuddles, - I recommend two vials of pick-me-up potion a day a several cuddles,"
"Does it say anything about my wife being a bossy little busybody who tries to poke and prod me every chance she gets?" Regulus scowled and Lily started tickling them. "Stop that," he demanded in between low chuckles, "Stop this nonsense," but Lily was relentless. He had to retrain her hands behind her back, "Off to Azkaban with you Dr Bigbottom,"
"What are my crimes?" Lily demanded pretending to struggle,
"Hold still you criminal, your crimes are your continued botheration of me," Regulus huffed.
"But who will save 'Big Bertha' if I am to go to Azkaban?" Lily giggled,
"Apparently my cuddles you bothersome little girl," Regulus retorted.
"Reggie's cuddles save lives!" Lily laughed as Regulus marched her to the sofa for a time out in 'Azkaban' Sunday's proved to be rather enjoyable, time to just be kids together - while they can.
February 3rd 1979
Lily collapsed into the sofa when she got in through the door just after having taken a port key back from Amsterdam where they had been for her nineteenth birthday several days ago. James walked over and through himself on top of her and she groaned as he rolled over behind her. He nudged her cheek with his nose.
"What do you want?" she asked sternly. He looked over at her with doe eyes. "Already?" she smirked. He nodded and disgarded her jeans with the flick of her wand. James pulled up her top grinning, "So happy you've become less strict about wearing the boob prisons," he smiled before taking her nipple in his mouth. She let out a small sigh running her hand through his hair. "Don't be shy with your fingers, and suck as hard as you like," she stiffled a moan as he sucked her nipples harder and levelled himself up to reach his hand down her red laced underwear.
"Fucking hell I've just walked in on Prongs having his breakfast," Sirius laughed, "Cover your eyes Wormy, you are much too innocent to see such vulgar,"
"Fuck off," Peter scoffed as James took his mouth off Lily's breast and pulled her top down to cover her.
"As much as I am always glad to see you mate, I thought you lot were heading home after we got back to England wasn't that the plan,"
"Originally yes prongsie old pal, I'm hanging as fuck and to be honest wanted to just get into one of my Gwenny jumpers and sleep for about six years but here we are at your flat Prongs," Remus shrugged, "Lily." he nodded and she nodded back.
"It seems we have news actually," Sirius began,
"Merlin, what is it mate? Is it someone in the order?" James asked, sitting up.
"Oh no, it's no one we know - on a personal level at least. Literally went round the shop across from your flat building and found out Sid Vicious was found dead yesterday in New York," Sirius said solemnly.
"Oh fucking hell," James scratched his head. Lily was suddenly transported to the night James became her boyfriend- Which was Sex Pistols concert one of their last the January of the year previous.
"We like noise, it's our choice if that's what we want to do. we don't care about long hair, I don't wear flares," James sang loudly pushing the door open to the roof while he and Lily stumbled out in a desperate attempt to cool down both their hairs sticking to their faces and Lily's pale freckled face almost as red as her hair.
"Well that is a lie Potter, you are in fact wearing flares right now," she scoffed,
"Evans. It's the song we just listened to, the one they just played, your ears not working lady red?" he grinned.
"You could actually understand that?" she screwed up her face.
"You didn't like it?" James' jaw dropped. They had all got a portkey from Hogsmeade to San francisco to attend this gig without getting permission from Dumbledore - Lily should not have encouraged it nor should James with being Head boy and girl. Though how could she regret it she saw Marlene jumping around like crazy having a blast while Dorcas looked like she was seeing her for the very first time.
"I mean they are rubbish," Lily giggled covering her mouth.
"Oh you've done it now Evans! Sirius will have you banished!"
"Banished from where? Winterland? San Francisco? Hogwarts? The land?" she asked, sipping the cheap beer. She flung her long red locks back revealing her low cut stringy orange top that she paired with a white skirt with multi colored daisies scattered around it and paired with white chunky heeled boots.
"From our presence, I suppose," he chuckled,
"Oh no, however will I live?" she pouted, "Ugh, I should have got a cigarette off Marls," she sighed downing her cheap beer.
"Nasty habit that," James commented,
"Oh do me a favour and fuck off Potter," she retorted but there was no bite to her tone,
"You wound me Evans! And we've been getting along so swimmingly as of late," James grinned. She smiled shyly back, "You cold?" he asked after clearing his throat,
"Jamie we came out of here to cool down," she reminded him with a half smile, "Right yes, sorry I just - I was being stupid,"
"How about instead of enticing me to cuddle I just suck you off instead," she let her eyes travel down to his area which instantly hardened.
"What right here on the roof of the sex pistols concert?" James' eyes widened. Lily shrugged and nodded, "I love you," he choked out. She grinned and walked over to him and pulled him down for a kiss. Tongues tangled instantly as each of them battled for dominance. His large hands found her bum and he squeezed desperately while strangled noises fell from him as she lip down on his lips. He huffed out a breath before making his way down to kiss her neck and leave way too many love bites clearly wanting to made a statement with them. He looked at her possessively as she sank to her knees and unbuttoned his jeans before running her hands over his exposed stomach abs as James was wearing a cropped 'Sex Pistols top'
When she was finished with what she had intended to do after a hard swallow she looked into his eyes and told him she loved him too. He fixed his trousers up and collapsed to the floor,
"Yeah?" he choked out? She nodded.
That had been it really they had been girlfriend and boyfriend since that night he whispered for confirmation when they were snuggled up underneath the sheets in the hotel room that night while Peter, Amelia and Emmeline - foolishly they'd agreed for the five of them to share as friends because Lily and James had been kidding themselves at that point.
Of course she had been kidding herself she was still sore over Regulus and the other traumas she had been through not long before she wasn't healed, she realised that night she never would be - not fully at least and maybe that was just something she had to live with so why shouldn't she let herself give James a chance? She was glad she did as she looked at him as he chatted animatedly with Sirius while Remus flicked through her and James' record collection for a Sex Pistols record.
"Do you've any beer, Lils?" Peter asked with a yawn.
"I think we've got a few cans in there. It's not gonna be enough if we are continuing on properly,"
"Should you and I go grab some more then?" Peter asked shyly.
"Yes alright, just let me throw on some trousers Pete ok? And a bra," She yawned.
"NO! NO JAIL FOR THE GIRLS," James called to her as she got up. She shook her head and as she and Peter shared a look before rolling their eyes. She got her trousers on, gave James a quick kiss as he handed her money and pulled on a pair of docs and apperated with Peter just outside the closest off licence. She was eyeing up a nice Merlot when two girls giggling by the chardonnays were giggling overly loud. That isn't what struck a nerve though it was what they were saying.
"You need to hurry up and shag that posho that keeps hanging round your work, he's well fit him, actually never seen eyes that grey they are like ice aren't they,"
"Who Reg?" a pretty dark skinned asked with a smirk.
"Yes! Who else?" the white blonde girl elbowed her friend,
"About that, I bagged him a few nights ago. Walked me home after and everything. He's a precious little thing. Dead odd he is though talking about Merlin and that when we were you know - but he's lovely bless him. He bought me lunch on my break the next day knew I'd be suffering a nasty hangover,"
"Sorry, I don't mean to interrupt, I just want to say I love your PJs!" Lily said with a false smile to the pretty girl who had clearly shagged Regulus. Peter looked dumbfounded
"You what?" The pretty girl looked confused but her tone wasn't harsh. Her pale friend scoffed though and looked Lily up and down. "Piss off would you? Daft tart," the blonde screwed up her face, Lily didn't think twice she punched the blonde friend who instantly dropped the floor.
"Fucking hell," Peter gasped. The pretty girl bent down to help her friend up the man working in the off-license was shouting at Lily who just ran out and hoped Peter would just pick up the alcohol for them and she ran as fast as she could round the corner to an alley. And let off a scream. She didn't care she had 'no right' to feel jealous at all but she did because she was a human she was a human with emotions - she was in love with Regulus so deeply in love with him and fuck everyone she was going to allow herself to feel her emotions. She wasn't a robot who could just shut off how she felt for him.
No matter how much she loved James or made love with him it didn't take away even a fraction of what she felt for Regulus - the man she loved with all her heart and the man she also hated with all her being - he told her he never wanted anyone else since her was it all a lie to bed her? She screamed again letting hot tears fall had she been sweet talked into betraying James like that?
She knew what she had done to James was on her, she was just frustrated if she'd been into it with someone who had false intentions and tricked her with sweet words and lies. She was angry at herself and angry at Regulus and irrationally angry at the girl who got to have him in that way. Lily is a kind girl, she is caring to her friends and would help any of them at any point no hesitation.
The way she had acted in the off-licence was not kind though. Doesn't mean that at her core she wasn't a kind person, one act doesn't take that away because despite what is expected of her she isn't perfect and she feels no one should pressurised into having to is and was many things Head girl - she got good grades - gifted at magic - talented - kind - loving - she's a good girlfriend or at least she tries her best to be - but she's not perfect and making mistakes is human, she fucks up sometimes like everyone else. So no, she's not perfect, she thinks as looks straight ahead and she doesn't want to be either - she apparates back to the flat with a crack.