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Dear journal,
Today marks the one month anniversary since I appeared in Star Command without warning.
Time just seemed to blow by yet here I am, It still feels like all of this happened yesterday.
Still if someone had told me a month ago that I would suddenly end up in the world of my favorite movie, get separated from my surrogate aunt, get new cybernetic limbs to replace the real ones that I lost months ago, and then out of the blue be asked if I wanted to join the Ranger academy by the Commander himself? I probably would have asked them if they had just dreamed all of that from something bad they ate and politely turned them to the hospital, either that or call them a fanfic fanatic who read too many stories.
And yes I'm not kidding about that last part, after telling the Commander, Warp and Buzz about many of my stories and feats accomplished during my time in school when I was an elite rhythmic gymnast, and with the chance to get back into it again with the new cybernetics, the Commander himself asked me if I wanted to join the Space Rangers, to which I was left very speechless.
He said that I had potential and it would be a great way to apply my rhythmic gymnastics skills in a way that would truly help people, My will to help others despite my own problems that I was facing was the kind of thing he was looking for in a rookie Space Ranger.
Plus if I joined, I might be able to help in the search for Nana, even spot certain things that only I would notice that others couldn't.
And even offered permanent residency at Star Command along with Nana who could work as a caretaker and nurse, given her history and how much she cared for me during my time after the accident. And the fact that she's more than capable of fighting off any two-bit criminals that tried to assault or kill her would be bonus points for her, maybe even become a part-time Ranger herself with enough training.
I know right? Never thought I would end up getting involved in something like this, it's every space related cartoon/anime fanatics dream come true.
Who was I to say no?
I would be giving the all clear to get started on training once I was perfectly capable of using my prosthetics without issues, and as you can imagine physical therapy with the new robotic limbs was not easy, I mean sure I could easily move them well enough (like moving my left wrist and gripping my hand and getting my footing and moving my ankles), it's just using them for practical use was a challenge, Even walking was an absolute torture (Its worse than my intensive training when I was 10 at gymnastics camp, long story short the teacher was extremely strict and I almost broke my ankle 10 different times).
But I wasn't a quiter. I was determined to no longer be confined to the bed or wheelchair anymore. To literally stand on my own feet again. Be able to use both of my hands and arms from the most simple of things to the biggest once more. Etc.
No matter how much pain or strain or easily overwhelming exhaustion I felt through the sessions, I refuse to be a liability (Even when the others have told me that I wasn't).
And I had others giving me their support. Actively encouraging me to keep going and Even offered me a few tips on how to make things easier from a few who went through something similar to me (Even Ty Parsec!! He was sympathetic to my case, he was even kind to me despite how he usually is from what I saw in the few episodes he was in (Granted it was understandable given that he was always in Buzz's shadow because of everyone's constant praise and such, nonetheless he is a selfless and a hard-working Ranger). Fun fact: It turns out he's only about eight years older than I am. So by that rough estimate that means that Buzz really was in his mid-thirties, give or take).
And not just Commander Nebula, Buzz, Warp, and the LGMs, but other rangers too who I gotten to know, though slowly and surely given the fact that I had practically cut myself off from everybody for the most part for several months because of everything back home, It was going to take me time to get out of my reclusiveness.
I'm trying not to hide in my shell, And the others can tell that I've forced myself to be more interactive with others sometimes, To which they have told me that it's okay to take my time as forcing myself would only hurt more.
I even got to meet Booster! One of my favorite lovable sweethearts! Still a janitor just like in the movie and will someday become a Ranger once the events of the movie happen.
It was because of this that I was able to connect with him more readily than most others (aside from Ty, Buzz, the LGM's and the Commander, Warp? So-so), He even took the time to read to me the rules in the Space Ranger mission manual during his break times so I would know all the regulations and laws (And believe me there are a ton, I'm going to need to keep a copy of the book on myself so I won't forget), told me a handful of stories about Buzz's pass endeavors, and He came to support and cheer me on during my sessions, which really warmed my heart.
I always saw him as a big brother figure, and not just because he is already huge, I never had any siblings so I never knew what it was like to have an older or younger brother or sister.
I'm not brave enough to share this with him, As I've said I still have things I need to work on, although thankfully I am doing fine with my therapy sessions. And thankfully Dr. Odellson V.U. McClain was able to pick up where my last therapist left off because of you-know-what.
I am making progress with my PR sessions, I still have much I need to work on, and I still have a long way to go, but I'm making progress nonetheless.
Thankfully it's more in terms of walking as, so far, I'm at 72% capacity in using my left arm with confidence.
And yes like Commander Nebula had said, his friend was able to apply a few bells and whistles to my new limbs at my request.
I have a mini computer and scanner just like that of the equipment that's on a Space Ranger suit on the left arm, so yes it also has a communicator (mine even comes with a camera/camcorder built into it, Even a little pen in a hidden compartment I can use for tiny work on it or to use as an unexpected tool in an emergency), I could turn my metal hand into a claw at will if I need to use an offensive weapon in battle And desperate situations (My claw is so strong it can cut through steel doors), And in my legs I can produce wheels for rolling around, change the soles of my feet into any kinds for any kind of terrain I may be traversing on and I can even fly (Although it was unspoken that those new parts for my legs would have to wait until I was able to walk by myself again).
... And It indeed had occurred to me after getting the new limbs that I'm basically a human version of that cyborg rabbit from the Sonic comics, Bunny was it? It's been a long time since I've read the comics but I'm pretty sure that's her name, She's one of my favorite characters back when I was an avid reader (This was back before my high school years)...
All in all, everything was great.
Except for 4 things.
First and foremost, we still don't know where Nana is, but as the others have promised they're not giving up on finding her, despite a month having gone by since I appeared in this world.
Second, I have to be careful with what I say or do a round Warp, If I give any indication that I know that something is going to happen soon, there's no question he'll tell his boss about me and I'll end up getting kidnapped, it wouldn't be hard to think of a scenario on how that could be done (I've been hiding my journal so that nobody, especially not him, could find it. And I have it in a pretty good spot that nobody would think to look, nor even dare to. Long story short I got the idea from watching Case Closed/Detective Conan).
Third, speaking of his boss. It doesn't take a genius to figure out how he could use my knowledge to benefit him and finally take over the universe once and for all. He'll torture me until either I squeal or until I die. He could use me as a bargaining chip. Or use me as bait for ensnaring or capturing the other Rangers. The list just goes on (if Zurg somehow found Nana and harmed her, I'd never be able to live with myself).
And four, What may or may not change now that I am here.
That's another subject by itself, but one that can be spoken about later as if I went into it I would be droning all day.
Not to mention that it's not just Warp I have to be careful of, I have to make sure nobody else knows what I know, Even if they are on the side of good I don't want any one of them to jump to a plan without careful thinking. Or to do something hasty to expedite a worse outcome. As the old saying goes too much information can be a dangerous thing, so can too little information but that depends on the case.
I will, however, leave an anonymous tip to the Commander about Warps betrayal, but only after his "Death", and as well give him a tip about what happens to the Unimind and of Zurg's plan so that, if The HQ does still get hit by the ray, If not all then at least a few rangers will be out of Zurg's mind control and give Buzz and the others more firepower to back them up when they go to Planet Z to stop him.
I have, in the meantime, been keeping my eye on Warp without him noticing, I even came across, by chance, him attempting to send information to Zurg several times. Thankfully, thanks to my middle school principal's hobby for mimicking voices and him teaching me (He's a good friend of Nana's), I was able to make my voice sound like Nebula and any of the higher ranking Rangers to make him go attend to a (very real) situation that is in need of his attention ASAP. Thankfully it always makes him stop and leave, which would allow me to gather evidence and sabotage him so Zurg wouldn't get anything other then a big cup of disappointment with creamy anger to spoil his day, doing so in a way that not even Warp would realize what happened until it was too late (Nana always loved spy, detective and espionage movies and shows so Not only have I watched a few with her, but she often taught me a few things that could be applied to real life if I had the right tools to work with, real tools or improvised ones, which as you can tell had really paid off).
Still, to make certain that nobody would suspect that I was involved in any way, I always made sure to have the perfect alibi That was so air tight not even a bullet could shatter it. Even having people confirm my alibi earnestly. Because I know that even with my condition and seemingly harmlessness to everyone, It's a True fact that even those who have apparent disabilities could become culprits themselves in some way or another.
I even temporarily disabled the cameras to make sure that Warp wouldn't be able to find out that it was me from there.
The less anyone knows the better.
Still what bugs me is that I have no clue or any indication of when the events of the movie are going to happen, they may even happen while I'm still unable to walk properly (There ain't no way I'm going to end up as a slave to Zurg, because that's also a sure fire way of him finding out about the future).
Which is why I need to hurry and get back into walking shape, or at least as close to 100% as possible so that when it does happen I'll be ready.
After all the others have done for me I want to do everything I can to help them.
For now though, I'll keep working hard, and try not to have a heart attack just thinking about the weight of the universe literally being on my shoulders with the truth I possess.
No pressure old girl.
Until next time,
Lucero Cariadus
Done!!
Sorry if this seems short and a little rushed, like before I have more ideas brimming at the edges of my mind with what I want to add to one of my other stories, and I don't want to forget about them While they're still there.
That and I need to recharge my space cartoon inspiration, In other words, I really do need to get down to watching the whole show properly.
Nonetheless I hope you are enjoying the story so far.
Tell me what you think in the reviews and I hope all of you are having a good day or night wherever you are, until next time, TTFN!!