Marina could tell she was definitely drunk at this point. The bartender slipped a water in front of her when she asked for another drink. She smiled brightly, "Thank you. What is your name by the way?" She tried to act as sober as she could, but she had to rest her arm on the bar to keep herself from swaying off of the high stool she was sitting on.

"Call me Tuck. What's yours?"

"You cannn, call me Mar."

"So is it Marissa or Maria?"

She shrugged, smiling at him, resting her head on her hand. "It's a mystery I guess. So how old are you Tuck?" She asked, changing the subject.

"27. You?"

"How old do you think I am?" She sat up straight, making a serious face.

He chuckled before he squinted his eyes, "You look young, so I'm going to go with 23."

"Wow. You're good." She nodded slowly.

"Years of bartending." He smirked at her, winking.

"You ever give your number out in your years of bartending Tuck?"

"Couple times." He smirked.

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

"Nope."

"Good." She grabbed a napkin, "May I borrow a pen sir?"

He pulled one out of the box and handed it to her, "Here is my number. Give me a call sometime if you wanna have some fun. Thanks for the drinks by the way!" She sloppily wrote her number down. She stared at it a bit to make sure it was correct.

"Anytime." Tuck grinned as Marina stood up.

"I better pee!" She told him loudly before she walked toward the bathrooms.

Marina walked out of the bathroom and into the hallway that led back to the main room of the bar. Somebody came from behind her, turned her and pushed her back against the wall.

She was about to knee them in the balls before she looked up and saw it was Kenny.

He had his hands on her shoulders and he was leaning down to be face to face with her.

"Are you really going to fuck the bartender?"

"Why are you even talking to me Kenny? You have been a straight asshole to me tonight." She pointed her finger and poked his chest, "You're supposed to be my best friend. You wouldn't even buy me a drink. I might fuck the bartender, or one of the new 3 cute guy friends I met tonight. What does it matter to you?!" She could hear the slur in her own voice, it was making her mad that she couldn't make her point properly with him.

"How drunk are you?"

"Not drunk enough to not realize that you came up to MY friend and hit on her in front of my face. For sure, on purpose. Treated me like I was shit in front of everyone in earshot of us three. And then took her somewhere to screw her. And now you are trying to control me and my body! This is why... this is what I didn't want Kenny! You say you have these feelings for me or whatever and want more than just to bang each other. Yet here you are all over my friend right in front of me. Making out and shit. Get your hands off of me. Why are you even here? Did you follow me so that you could ruin my night? If I wanted you here I would have invited you! Go buy drinks and fuck other girls with your catfishing ID.. I'm gonna go and have fun because that is what I came to do!"

"I didn't know you would be here. And I did not fuck her!" Kenny frustratingly replied.

"Oh yeah? Is that the actual truth? Because I'll find out later when I talk to Gina. Again, get your hands off of me before someone comes back here and they think I'm not single or some shit." Marina shoved his chest, "I don't want you hogging me here like you have been doing at the parties we go to with our friends." She sighed.

"I do not hog you!" Kenny let go of her and stood up straight, she swayed slightly. He started to reach forward and she shoved his hands away, "Kenny stop. I'm fine! Don't start being nice to me now." She walked around the corner and toward the table she was with earlier.

"Heyyy! She's back!" They cheered.

She cheered back and grabbed a random drink off of the table, "The bartender probably won't give me any more to drink."

"I got you, what do you want?" Vic asked.

"But we should be buying you drinks!" Marina laughed.

"True." He nodded.

"I got both of you, what do you guys want?" Nick told them.

"Vodka soda. With ice!"

"Me too." Vic agreed.

Marina shoved Vic against the bathroom stall, their lips colliding passionately. She didn't really remember how they had gotten to this point, but she knew it was happening. They moved through the open stall door. Vic reached down and lifted Marina up, her legs wrapped around his waist as he used her body to shut the door. He reached down and locked it before putting his hand on her butt. She felt herself going in and out. She felt like she kept falling asleep.

"Am I falling asleep?"

Vic laughed, "No! Why?"

"I don't know." She breathed before planting her lips back onto his.

His fingers dug into her waist as he thrust his hips forward. Usually she would enjoy this, but Kenny entered her mind before she could stop it. She opened her eyes to assure herself that it was not Kenny in front of her. Vic moved his lips from her mouth over her jaw line until his mouth was against her ear, he breathed out and her eyes closed on their own, her head tipping back. She let out a shaky breath.

"What do you like?" She could have sworn she heard Kenny say that into her ear.

She jerked her head away from him and looked over. Again, it was Victor.

"I'm not too picky." She forced a smile on her face.

He let her down before he bent forward, his lips planting a kiss in the middle of her chest before he began lowering himself slowly to the floor. His hands on her hips, they were smaller than Kenny's. She internally screamed at herself for comparing yet again. The thought of Kenny doing this to Gina popped up in her head and tears instantly stung her eyes.

The image of the face he made when she turned him down seeped into her mind as well. She had never seen that look in his eyes before. She had been trying to ignore the thought of those hurt looks. But all of the times she had seen it since, were now flashing through her brain and before she could control herself, tears were falling down her cheeks. She sniffed, trying to get herself to stop before Vic saw. She tried to take a breath and a soft sob slipped out. "Damn it." She cried.

Vic stood up quickly, "Oh my God, are you okay? I'm so sorry."

"It's not you. You're just fine. I'm just dealing with a lot lately. I'm really sorry. I am going to start heading home. Can you tell your friends it was nice to meet them?"

"Of course! Would it be insensitive for me to ask for your number?"

"No. It's fine." She nodded through her tears, taking his phone from his hand and entering her phone number.

"Thank you for a fun night!"

"You had fun?" She asked, feeling embarrassed that she couldn't pull herself together.

"Of course! It's okay that you're dealing with some stuff right now. Next time you are here, you're welcome to come and hang with us, okay?"

Marina nodded before she opened the door and headed out of the bathroom quickly.

As she passed their table Haley stepped in front of her, "Did Victor hurt you?!" She asked angrily.

"No it's me. I'm dealing with some dumb shit right now. I'll see you guys some time!" Marina felt like she needed to get out of there before she drew more attention to herself. She was trying to find the girls she came with.

She looked out in the smoking area, and then back inside.

Marina decided to go out to the parking lot and see if they were still parked in the spot they came in. Once she reached the spot she realized they left her.

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" Marina yelled, pulling her phone out.

She tried to call Wendy first, but she didn't answer. Marina looked at the time on her phone, it was 1:43am. She tried Bebe next. No answer. She even tried Nichole and Kyle, but neither of them answered. She got a hold of Cartman, but he refused to leave Heidi.

She really didn't want to talk to Kenny, but it looked like it was going to be that way.

Marina walked back into the bar, she tried to see if he was still there but it looked like he had left. She pulled him up on her phone and it went straight to voicemail. She sighed before pulling a text up.

Me

They left me here...

Kenny

Srry..

Me

Will you please come get me?

Kenny

Ask ur fav bartender to give u a ride..

Me

I'll just walk I guess.

Kenny

R u serious?

Marina?

You arent being funny.. answer me.. R u really walking?

Im turning around okay? Wait on me. Please..

Marina was sitting on the sidewalk outside of the bar with her head buried in her knees as she cried. She didn't want to like Kenny like that. Not yet. She wasn't ready for that. She also couldn't believe the girls left her there all alone. She didn't know how long she had been sitting there crying before she heard someone running and then felt a hand on her back.

She quickly moved her head up to see if it was a stranger. Kenny knelt down in front of her, "Come on. Let's get you home." He helped her stand.

He offered to help her walk but she started walking to his car on her own.

"Those bitches left me!" She groaned as she got into the car.

Kenny shut the door to the drivers side, "No they left with 3 guys. They were all extremely drunk. You shouldn't have left with them anyway."

"Are you drunk?"

"No, I have been sober for a while now." His voice was soft.

She nodded, looking out of the window and remembering how the night had gone. Her eyes filled with tears again. She kept repeating to be strong in her head. But it seemed to make her more upset.

Marina let herself just cry instead of fighting it this time. It was only Kenny.

"Did someone hurt you?" He asked.

"I just need to cry." She shook her head.

"Okay." He nodded.

She hated herself. She felt awful. She needed real answers from him.

"Did I hurt you?" She asked through her tears.

Kenny sighed, it was about a minute before he replied with a, "No."

"Promise?"

She watched him look up and then back at the road ahead of him. They were out of the city already and the road was dark and empty with the Colorado desert.

He shook his head.

Marina couldn't control her tears at all now, "I'm so sorry." She sobbed, "I didn't mean to lead you on. Can we please go back to being best friends again? I miss being normal with you."

Kenny was staring out at the road, she couldn't tell if he was thinking or just ignoring her.

"I miss being normal too." He whispered.

They were quiet for a bit before Kenny finally talked again, "So did you have fun with any of your new guys tonight?"

Marina let out a single laugh, wiping her tears. "I don't want to amuse you."

"Stop. It's just us in here. Nobody will know how I feel about it but you.."

"I was in the stall and making out with this Vic guy and I started crying."

"What made you start crying?"

"Because I am a hot fucking mess anymore. I hate it." She sobbed.

"Hey.." Kenny reached over and placed his hand on her leg. She tensed up but he didn't remove it. "It's all going to be okay. We are going to be okay. Everything is going to be okay. It will all get better. Just might take some getting used to."

"Kenny.. Please stop talking." Her voice broke as her tears started flowing even harder, "I'm not ready yet."

"What are you talking about?" She could hear the instant frustration in his voice.

"I'm not..." She winced, "..I'm not ready to love you yet."

"I'm not asking you to love me Rina." He let out an incredulous laugh.

Marina lifted his hand off of her leg, "You're saying the right things. And touching me in a comforting way. I can't handle that right now. Just..." She ran her hands over her face, "You're being too nice."

"Okay.. now you're starting to make me mad... You tell me I'm being too mean. And then you tell me I'm being too nice. I don't know that the hell you want Marina!" His voice gradually got louder and angrier, "You are confusing the shit out of me! I am trying to be here for you! I am trying to be your best damn friend but I don't know what the hell you want from me!" He turned toward the road again.
"We should have never had sex again!" Marina cried out, running her hands through her hair.
"You're damn right we shouldn't have. We really fucked up doing that shit." He sighed.
"I feel like we can't even be normal anymore."
"That's why I don't fuck my friends."
"Then why did we?"
"I dunno Marina!" Kenny groaned frustratedly, "Because I am weak. You were finally available again and completely willing and fucking dammit you're hot as hell! I had a hard enough time turning you down when you were shit faced. We got high and made out and I was about to screw you on the floor of my bedroom. I am so mad at you right now and I still want nothing more than to pull this fucking car over and bang you again."
"I'm sorry." She sighed.
"No, I am sorry. It wasn't all you."