Chapter 11: let it happen naturally.
A/N: Merry Christmas! Happy kwanza! Happy Hanukkah! And anything else you celebrate! I appreciate you all and I pray you enjoy your holidays! Remember you are not alone even if you feel like it! I pray for you all every day! Free feel to reach out to me! I am always available to talk! One of my readers pointed out that Bella's major was psychology and in the former chapter I said it was plants. Therefore I am going to make it both! She is majoring in psychology and minoring in plants.
Bella laughed as Quil told her about Ayana putting his hair in pigtails.
He had just helped her into the truck and they were stuck on what to do next.
"it seems your sister really loves you," she told him.
Quil smiled as he started up the engine.
"yeah, I can tell she does too. It's nice to have a sibling. So, um I was thinking you care for a drive? I found this place outside of town. Would you like to come with me, or go home?"
Bella thought about what awaited her at home. Homework, she was almost done with, and her worry wart of an aunt. Or she could spend some time with Quil.
She chose the latter.
"That sounds nice. I haven't really gotten to go anywhere lately. I mean, I go to school, work, and therapy but I kind of stay inside."
"therapy?" Quil questioned.
Bella snorted.
"Q, I got married at 18, got pregnant, had a forced abortion, and decided to get pregnant again. I think that requires some therapy."
"yeah, I guess you're right. But don't we all need therapy at some point?"
Bella laughed.
"yes, that is true.
The duo drove in silence for a while, before Bella spoke.
"do you ever miss La Push?"
"no. not one bit," Quil said seriously. "maybe the beach, but I can find that anywhere. What about you? you, Miss Forks?"
Bella shook her head.
"no. I like it here though. The desert, the warmth. The sun is my favorite. I feel like I can breathe again."
"you know I felt the same way too when I got here. I felt free."
"being free is a great feeling," Bella told him.
Quil hummed in agreement.
After an hour of driving, the truck stopped. They were on a hill, overlooking the city. But Quil had other ideas. He was quick to put the truck in reverse and make sure the truck's end was facing the view.
There were sounds of a couple of bangs and clicks. As soon as Bella made it to the truck bed, she was met with a pleasant surprise.
Quil had covered the truck bed with thick blankets and a couple of small candles.
A body pillow was on the side.
"Quil…what….what is all this?"
Quil shrugged.
" When ajana and my dad, gave me this truck, they told me it was always smart to have a blanket and pillow in the bed of the truck in case of emergencies but..when I look at the dessert sky, sometimes I think it's just to pretty to not lay under. So.. I thought we could lay in the truckbed and just look at the stars. "
"come on." He told her with a smile and an extended hand.
Bella took his hand and felt a wave of electricity.
"woah…what..what was that?" she asked him.
"I have no clue.. but.. it felt good." He told her, as he helped her up.
He then pulled out another blanket and handed it to her.
"so you don't get cold."
"oh yeah, that's right. Wolves run at a nice 180 degrees don't they." She laughed.
Quil shrugged and the two of them laid back.
The New Mexico sky was alit with stars so bright, she would never understand it.
"wow! I've never seen the sky so bright."
"I know, you don't see this in Washington."
As they looked up at the stars, a soft song played on the radio that Quil had left on.
'I've been beaten down
I've been kicked around
But she takes it all for me
And I lost my faith
In my darkest days
But she makes me want to believe
They call her love, love, love, love, love
They call her love, love, love, love, love
Without a word, quil took Bella's hand. That same electric feeling ran down her arm.
With gentleness, he pulled her closer, laying her head on his chest. His other hand, spreading unto her belly.
"your hands feel so nice…" she admitted.
"so do yours.."
"Quil?" she questioned.
He turned to look at her, his once dark eyes now glowing yellow.
"Quil…" This time his name was a mere whisper on her lips. A plead If you will.
This time, Quil hovered over her, his body boxing her in. both hands clasped in hers.
" I need you to tell me what you want. what do you want out of this? between us? I can feel something but I don't know what this is or what to do. I am afraid to move too fast. Last time that happened I married a vampire.." she told him in desperation.
Something was happening between them they just had no clue what.
"Bella…" Quil began his face inches from hers.
Crack!
The duo broke apart as rain began to fall and drench them.
"oh crap! Let's get in the truck." He said over the roaring rain.
He helped her down and both of them jumped into the truck.
As Quil turned the heat on, their laughter filled the air.
"come on let's get you home."
…
" do you want to come in? no one's home." Bella told him.
"if you don't mind."
Both of them were drenched in their shoes. And Quil couldn't help but adjust himself as Bella's clothes stuck to her body.
He could see everything. her hips had widened and her boobs were huge. It didn't help that her scent was overpowering.
A groan escaped his lips.
"you okay?" Bella questioned as ushered him and turned on a few lights.
"uh yeah, just that wet feeling."
"let me get you a change of clothes and a towel."
She quickly came back with a change of clothes and pointed him to the nearest bathroom.
Quil was quick to get away from her and splash some cold water on his face.
"down boy.." he told his erection.
He didn't know what was going on between him and Bella but it was something important. Anytime they touched he felt a buzzing between them. Like electricity.
And it wasn't just because of the babies.
Quil sighed.
He didn't know what to do but one thing he did know for sure.
He wanted Bella swan. In every way.
…..
Bella heated the pie and milk nervously as she waited for Quil to return.
Something was going on between them.
When she looked into eyes as he hovered over her, she felt…desperation. She wanted to be close to him. She truly did.
But what was this? Her hormones? Her Insecure emotions? Or did she genuinely have feelings for Quil?
Maybe she already did and just didn't realize it
Flashback: 2 years ago
Bella fell flat onto her butt as she caught the ball.
"hey yo! Bells caught the ball!" Jacob cheered.
"I didn't think she would be able to do it." embry laughed.
"Well, she is clumsy." Jacob joked as the two teenagers approached her.
" I am not that clumsy." Bella joked as they helped her up.
"Sure you, not bells. Hey, how about a pizza?" Jacob asked.
"Sure!" she and embry agreed.
The three friends, headed back to Jacobs as they ordered their pizza.
Just as they were about to sit down, the back door opened. It was Quil.
"yeelloow!" he greeted.
He was quick to fist-bump the guys and stopped when he got to Bella.
His arms opened for a hug.
"hey bells… care for a hug!" he asked.
Bella smiled up at Quil as he smiled at her.
"of course Q!"
He then bent down and engulfed her in a giant bear hug.
Bella received it with gratefulness. Ever since she started dating Edward her friends haven't been as physical as they used to be. But not Quil.
Quil treated her just the same.
Something like electricity hit her when their skin touched.
Before she could say anything her phone rang. It was Edward.
"oh.. hey looks like I have to go guys."
Jacob growled.
"of course you do. Just do what you do best. Go run to your bloodsucker. Let him sink his fangs into you once again."
Bella stepped back from Quil as she looked between Embry and Jacob. Disappointment and anger in their eyes.
"I'll just go. bye, guys."
…..
Bella wiped tears away from her eyes as she lay in bed.
Not only had Jacob given her crap for seeing Edward
But Edward had given her crap for seeing jaocb and it was just all too much.
She wasn't normally a cryer but things had been piling up in her life and she didn't know how to take it.
A light tap on her window had Bella sit up.
When she opened it, there was Quil.
"Q? What are you doing here?"
Quil smiled at her. a sort of sadness in his eyes.
"Hey…" he said softly. " I just…wanted to check on you. Jake said some pretty cruel stuff to you today."
"no, it's ok. we both how sensitive Jake can be."
Quil's eyebrows furrowed.
"don't make excuses for Jake being a jerk bell. Anyway, I just wanted to check on you."
"you're a really good friend Quil."
"you too bells."
End flashback.
The memory hit Bella like a flood.
Even back then there had been electricity between them.
"hey, bells can I put my clothes in the dryer? I would have put that shirt but it was too small."
Bella turned to see Quil, holding his wet clothes. His hair was wet and he had no shirt.
"I can try to find another one for you. um, here let me get you a towel."
She grabbed one and approached him as she began to wipe his hair.
Warm hands gripped her hips as wet clothes fell at her feet.
"Bells…what are we doing?" he questioned softly, as she patted his hair.
"I don't know Q, I really don't. but I know whatever this is has been brewing for a long time hasn't it?" she questioned.
"it has ..since the day we met." Quil Confirmed. " I want to be with you Bella. In every way."
"I'm scared Q, aren't we rushing things?"
" girl we've been circling each other for years. Jake thought he wanted you. then the leech thought he wanted you. but Bella… pregnant or not with our pups I have always wanted you. I have always wanted to be by your side. But I wanted you to live your life and choose who you wanted to be with. But now with them out of the way, I gotta take a shot. Will you be with me Bella?"
Instead of answering him, Bella did the one thing she always wanted to do.
She went in for a kiss.