sabina21: being that Karlie is based on someone I know, she's the type to be persistent and even somewhat 'thirsty' in what she wants. Manipulative to so yes she will press. There is still to come from this little mini saga. 😉

kera69love: yeah and that's a good case of it here. He's not really getting why the neighbor would push for things with someone that's taken and risk so much, but he will. You'll see.

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Reflections of life

Drabble 422

Mamoru POV

Getting back to the complex after we narrowly avoided getting caught having sex in the parking lot of the movie theater, we decided to go ahead and order food in. After making the order I went to take the trash out. That's when I spotted the despondent looking boyfriend from earlier tonight. He looks like he's been put through the mental and emotional ringer.

It bothered me greatly that this happened and I have to know why. After seeing the confrontation go down something in me needs to know why as I can't fathom a good enough reason to betray someone you love.

Going up to him he sees me. His eyes are red rimmed and he's obviously been crying. If he's this bad I can only imagine the state of his girlfriend.

"Hey Mamoru," he says, his voice saddened as he tossed out some garbage too.

I toss my bag as well as respond, "Hey…"

I look around making sure we're alone, not wanting to air out the dirty laundry as I ask, "Listen I gotta know…w - "

He cuts me off, "Why?"

I nod as he looks at me bitterly. Not for asking but seemingly for what he did, his own actions.

"I didn't want to admit to a thing at first," he begins as I can tell he's chewing on his emotions tonight. "It started out as dog walks. We got along, she was nice, we talked a LOT about the dogs. I love animals and so does she. We exchanged numbers purely based on being neighbors you know like emergencies or something and our mutual love of dogs. When my girlfriend called me once when we were walking them and she was at work she commented on the walk."

I nod as he almost chuckles as if looking back on it and seeing where things went wrong...where he went wrong in the process.

"I could tell she was distrustful so I told her 'it's fine she's married', my girl said 'doesn't matter to some married people.' She had a point but still I trusted the neighbor. Big effing mistake man."

I nod, "So what…"

He huffed, cutting me off again, "We did hang out from time to time when my girl wasn't at home. Talked late at night even when my girl was there since she's a night owl as she put it. I even admitted to my girl that I believed her to be right."

I raised my brow at that one.

"Oh?" I asked as he sniffled, "Yeah…I finally realized the jealousy this woman had over my girlfriend when three nights in a row that my girl was over after her second job, she was working two jobs at the time, primary and extra one."

I nod.

"My girl and I even had a laugh over it as she told me 'I told you she wanted you'. I thought she was being jealous of it herself. That's when she told me 'don't get me wrong, I trust you, I just don't trust her'."

He looks away from me, like his guilt was consuming him once more.

"So what caused it?" I asked as he breathed in.

"I was going through a rough time and asked for some space from my girl. She didn't want to give it but respected my wishes and kept checking in on me. A full month had passed and things were feeling better but I needed the space for myself. That's when I messed up. That last weekend. Drank myself into such a stupor that I would have made a drunkard look at me like I was bat crap crazy for the level I drank at."

I widened my eyes when I heard that.

"Why didn't you call your girlfriend?" From what I remember she seemed to be incredibly upset which only told me that she deeply cared for him. Loved him.

"Our lovely neighbor was already there. She wanted to check on me when I didn't respond to her messages," He muttered and rolled his eyes at the 'lovely' part. "Looking back on it 'checking in' was an excuse to come over."

I can see how much he hates what he did. Yet he can't undo it and he hates himself for it.

"We sat on the couch, talked…things happened…"

He looked to be in deep regret over his actions, but at the same point he could also be wanting to get sympathy as he had been the one in the wrong on this and may not have been wanting to accept ownership. I did want to believe he was in regret over his actions but it didn't mean that this 'confession' wasn't out of a plight for sympathy.

"I really messed up badly…,"

I breathe in myself, as I can nearly feel his own anxiety as if it were mine. Second hand anxiety at its best,

"Were you going to tell your girlfriend?" I asked him wondering if he was planning to keep it a secret. "Yeah...after the movie. I was already churning with guilt and couldn't even kiss her properly. But when I saw her I gripped her so hard with a hug that night as she did with me."

Fresh tears hit him hard. I almost felt awkward standing there with him but he needed to get this out and frankly I didn't mind being the sounding board, not as long as it got me the information I needed to know what how and why.

"My girlfriend deserves better than me and she knows it."

That's when I heard a shuffle in the hallway and we both looked over to see his girlfriend standing there. Her eyes were red rimmed too.

The hurt was so easily sketched onto her face she looked to still be crying. She held herself as if there was no one else to hold her. Hell, I wanted to hold her. I felt for her…yet I knew that one, it wasn't my place to, and secondly…she seemed like she didn't want anyone to touch her. She looked fragile and frail. Yet she was clearly trying to be strong so that even she could get the details from him.

Seeing these two suddenly makes me realize that despite the ups and downs of my relationship with Usagi, she's always remained faithful to me…and I to her. Usagi trusts me implicitly as I do with her. It would sicken me to no end if either of us did this to each other. To be frank right now, IF Usagi were to ever cheat on me, I'd be a hollow empty shell. A former version of myself that would debate on staying with a severed trust line.

I'd want to kill the other guy but Usagi…I shake my head. Not wanting to go down that rabbit hole. She wouldn't do it. I know I have her love and trust. We have a secure bond and I know to the depths of my soul that I can trust her as she does with me. I couldn't fathom doing to her what he's done to his girlfriend. I've gotten drunk before, badly drunk too, but I've never accepted getting so bad that I could make that error and even if I did…I swallowed my own dry saliva and felt a burning in my gut at the thought.

The very thought of hurting her like that makes me sick to my stomach. I suddenly feel an urgent need to get to her. To be with her. Before I can go through and excuse myself the boyfriend grabs me, "Whatever that neighbor tries to do, don't let her in…" He's clearly warning me right now as he seems desperate. "She seems so sweet. Being extra kind, so nice…talks about how big of a dog lover she is, she gets your guard down man…"

He almost sounds like he's a bit unhinged right now but I supposed he has reason to be…a bit.

"She even talks to your girlfriend to weasel more information about you from her. Tries to find cracks in the foundation to sink her claws in at. I didn't listen to my girl, not at first. Then when SHE made it clear what she wanted, I set up those boundaries man, I did."

He sounded desperate now, like he was trying to convince me he did it. I did believe the man but at the same time I also saw the situation for what it was. A man's mistake that became his undoing.

"She said she'd respect them…my girl…she trusted me…she didn't trust her but she trusted me…," his voice lowers down as if repeating what he'd already gone over with his girlfriend. I looked down the hall and saw his girlfriend. She could hear her boyfriend clear as day.

The anguish in her face, her eyes, her body language was clear as day. She teared up but didn't say a word. Either not wanting to interrupt him in case he said something more to me than he did to her or because she couldn't say anything without breaking down, or both. Either way there was pain on both ends here.

"I fucked up…don't be like me man…" he looks down the hallway to see his girl.

"I'll be lucky if my girl and I manage to work this out…," he looks back at her again as he sings her praises. "She's such a kind and loving soul…" He turns back to me. "I even told her she deserved better than me, which she does and she STILL stayed…what kind of woman stays with a man who messes up like me and what kind of woman sleeps with another man while being married?"

I had no words for him though. Nothing at all that would help the situation. He has to deal with his own folly now. Besides I had no answers for him. If his girlfriend forgives him, she's either seen as a very understanding woman or a weak push over. Just depends on the circumstances and the people involved. As for the married woman, she knew better and regardless of whatever relationship status hers is in, to do this is unacceptable and to know she seeks men out for this is worse.

I had half a mind to find out who the husband is to tell him but without proof its hearsay. As for this guy, he truly did mess up and is reaping in the negatives of his wrongdoing. They're both so stressed over this that it would truly take a strong person to make the right choice for themselves in this.

"And why, why did I have to mess up…why did I have to get so blind with alcohol to give in, why did I do that…? Why didn't I turn her away…?"

I can tell he's asking himself this, wanting to know why he did it even to himself. He then looks to me, more warning in him than before, "Don't let that woman in man, don't let her guise fool you. She's a lot of wrong…and I'm a lot of an ass and much more than that to be so stupid."

I nod before telling him, "I couldn't fathom hurting my girlfriend like that." I'm both telling this as not only a fact but as a way of telling him 'yeah you fucked up'.

"You can think that all you'd like but the truth is, we're all susceptible to messing up like that." I barely resisted the urge to defend myself as I didn't want to sound defensive. "It's the choices that we make that define us as who we are…I can only hope that my girl and I can come back from this."

It's at this point that he leaves me in the hallway as his girlfriend goes back inside their place. That's when I spotted the snake in the grass headed my way with a sickly-sweet smile on her face as she approached me. Cutting her off before she can talk, I say, "Don't bother, I'm not interested nor will I ever be interested. If you dare to talk to my girlfriend or I for anything that's not a 'building burning to the ground' emergency then we don't need to have contact."

Her eyes go from sweet to rolling at me in seconds flat. "I bet your girl wouldn't know what to do with you anyways," she huffs.

"She does and is everything that I've ever dreamed of, and your snake in the grass actions won't affect me. Go figure out your own marriage instead of trying to make other people feel as miserable as you apparently are."

I bypass her shocked face and go to my place, slamming the door behind me and locking it as if that alone would make her go away.

It's Usagi's sweet voice that fills up my heart as she jokes, "What took you so long, was ready to send out a search party."

I feel so overcome by the emotional turmoil that I just went through just watching and listening to the boyfriend play out that I need to feel my girlfriend in my arms. Kicking off my house shoes I scoop her up into my arms and hold her more urgently against me as I kiss her with a passion that stuns her initially.

She takes a few moments to adjust to the suddenness of my lips on hers but after a few brief seconds she joins in with as much heated passion as I am delivering. Not one to argue or ask why she grabs me back with the same passion as I hold her with and pulls me in closer. Any thoughts of food delivery gone now we take our passions to the couch as I don't want to move anywhere but wherever she is.

I speak the only words I can think of as I nearly growl them out, "I've never been more grateful in my entire life that I have you as my one true love."

She looks at me with such love, devotion and compassion that I can feel tears brimming behind my own eyes. Tears of love, tears of joy that I have her and if I'm being honest the smallest hints of fear that what I just witnessed is possible even to us.

I need her now. I pull at her clothes, nearly ripping them off her in my haste as I feel her skin beneath my own. Her smooth skin that I lick and nibble at as I strive to taste more of her. I yank her bra off, nearly ripping it from the back as she hisses in response. Soothing her skin I kiss the areas where I ripped it from and nibble further as I envelope one breath into my mouth then another...sucking and nipping at the flesh till it's nearly raw and sore.

I do this repeatedly, enjoying her breasts in my mouth, sucking and teething her nearly to the point of pain before I loved it soothingly. She bit her lip in response as her breasts became tender. I pulled at the rest of her clothing as she shucked items off as I pushed down my own pants, boxers, all of it. She straddled me at first and I went with it as I had an amazing view of her swaying breasts.

Pushing down she grazed her lower lips against my member and made me groan in response right before she aligned herself and plunged herself on me. I sat up fast feeling her muscles wrapped around me so suddenly. The perfect pleasure of having her encompass me. I looked up at her pleasure bound face and found myself entrapped in a willing need of endless ecstasy that she was proving me with.

I grab her hips and pull her up and down on top of me, feeling her muscles gliding over me again and again. Her now slightly reddened breasts from my actions swayed before me, tempting me even further to her. I grab her once more, wrapping my arms around her body and pull her towards me, till I capture her breast again. Sucking on it as I jam her down onto me, her cries heat me up as I jerk myself up inside of her.

My member was engorged and not wanting this to end as I continued to jerk myself off up inside of her. The couch we were on is now moving from our efforts. I can hear it scrapping on the floor as our motions make it continue to move. Our pace begins to speed up but I want to keep it low for now, I want to savor this more. I purposely slow us down as she whines for a bit more.

"Usa…," I growl just a bit. Holding her close to me, not wanting to let up. I give her hard jerking thrusts that are slow and steady but demanding as she gasps on each massive thrust that I hit her with.

"Mamo..." she calls out, her voice cracking as I begin to turn the jerking thrusts into slamming ones, hitting her harder on the inside. My needs are getting stronger for her. The need to implant myself, to make her mine over and over again is growing so strong that I can't stop my next movements, not for anything out there.

Stopping, I haul her up into my arms, full of all the emotions I turn us around, crouch with her back to the couch, pushing her legs up over my shoulders and nearly turn her into a pretzel as I grip onto her rear end and start pounding away. The cushion behind her gives her some give as I don't let up on my thrusts. I feel her muscles trying to take me in, trying to suck my seed from me and believe me she will get it.

I have such a strong need right now that I can only hear her voice calling out my name and the sound of the blood pumping in my ears as my hormones and desires are racing through me. My hips rut her faster, taking her harder. The couch feels like it's ready to fall over from the impact intensity. My knees for sure have some type of redden burn on them from the angle but I can't feel any of it.

I can only feel her body touching mine. Her skin on mine. Her muscles wrapped so tightly around mine that the thought of being away from her is nearly physically painful. I lose control over myself and start to pound into her so hard the couch begins to tip over. She encourages it...me as I keep pushing in. Over and over again. Her cries grow louder, her screams of pleasure are all over the place.

My name on her lips are like an incantation. A spell I would happily be wrapped up in for life as she comes to life through her orgasm. It hits her suddenly. Catches her by surprise as she goes into a near seizure-like state and clamps down around me with intent. Her muscles steal my breath away. Steal the last shred of my control as I cum inside of her. Hard. Fast like a gushing rapid of a river.

I cry out. Feeling myself pouring into her, unable to stop...not wanting to stop. Not caring to stop. I can feel her own juices, coating me. Covering me. I don't stop thrusting till I've emptied myself into her. Even then I can't bear the thought of pulling out just yet. It's only when a few minutes go by that I finally roll over and pull out.

Usagi curls up into me before asking, "Not that I didn't thoroughly enjoy that but, that seemed...sudden."

Instead of keeping what I learned from her I tell her everything I just heard.

"It's a dilemma for sure," she shifts and sits up. "But Mamo – chan...Mamoru...they aren't us. Even IF you were in his place I don't just trust you, I know you. You've rejected women at parties before when you were drunk out of your skull. You aren't him and he's not you."

I counter her without thinking, "But he was so far gone with the drinking that he let it happen."

"You want to know what I think?"

I nod.

"I think that there are many different perspectives. Yes he should have shut her down, and yes he's fully at fault for his actions...however, she also went to him when he was deep into his own feelings and way beyond drunk. She hit him at a weak point and got in but she also should have NOT tried for it as she's in a marriage. They're both in the wrong."

I nod knowing she's right.

"We are strong, and we can get through anything...you're NOT him."

I nod again, agreeing with her as I kiss her with renewed passion.