sabina21: so this takes place during the part where Mamoru has been attacked on the plane by Galaxia so he's in that ether of being technically dead and is coming to her in spirit form. As for Seiya accepting things, until he sees how happy the couple are he might not ever be able to accept it.

kera69love: no this takes place after Galaxia attacked the plane Mamoru was on so he's technically dead…he's in spirit form here.

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Midnight visits with a spirit

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Mamoru POV

I stare at Usagi as she gets ready for bed. Her newest study session with that Seiya guy had ended again. I hate that I hate him. Yes he's a good guy, yes he treats her well, and yes he cares for her that's obvious…but…he's not me. I'm supposed to be there. Not him. This is supposed to be us together. Yet here she was with another guy in her room. Granted nothing happened. Seiya was a gentleman and she was her usual self.

Still, it pissed me off that he was here and NOT me. I was stuck here in the Cauldron. Waiting to be saved. Waiting for her to find out the truth of what happened. Yet the enemy hasn't really helped her figure it out. She still thinks I'm in America which makes it all the more heartbreaking for us both. She's in the unknown and it's going to make the reveal that much worse for us both.

I have to face the fact that I'm stuck here till she finds a way to save me. She always does. My Usako is incredibly talented, gifted, smart…in more ways than one. She puts her heart and soul into things. She'd give her life as she has before to protect those she cares for. I've never loved anyone as much as I love her. Yet here I stand, stuck in here while she's out there, working on the last of her homework.

Her feet shifting behind her back and forth, gently prodding away as they bounce up and down in this sexy little motion that makes me want to caress her tiny petite toes. I recall once that I washed them as she was bathing and gave the toes a gentle kiss that she found endearing as she blushed. I'd gladly bow at her feet if it meant I could even touch one other part of her. To feel her again as I once had.

I can hear her writing to me again. She tended to talk out loud. Getting her words out. As if she was trying to have a conversation with me even though I wasn't there. It was saddening to say the lease. I wanted to be there with her, to enjoy the conversation she was having. To add on, to watch her face light up at seeing me there. To see her become animated at whatever she thought was funny that I said.

I never thought of myself as funny, but she made me laugh, she made me realize it was okay to cry, to accept help…to love. She's brought so much into my life. I watched her as I craved to be near her. To feel her in my arms. To hold her close. I reached out yet I couldn't feel her, I could only view her and for the past couple of months since my death at Galaxia's hands, since that Senshi bitch caught me off guard…this is all I have to keep me going.

I had never before met a Senshi who had let evil get to her but Galaxia had. At least that was my interpretation of it. A Senshi's duty, much like my own, is to protect the innocent, and yet she hunts the innocent and craves the power that comes from other Senshi. I meant it when I told her that the Senshi of earth would stop her. However I really meant one. The girls would help run interference for sure.

Working together to give Usagi the means she needed or the motivation she needed, but in the end…I knew in my heart, in my Usagi would be the one to save us all in here. The ones taken by Galaxia before it was their time. Galaxia really had no idea who she was messing with when it came to my girl. She's already been through so much. This will be one of her toughest battles yet.

I watch as Usagi sets down the letter. Another one to be sent to me. One that promises to keep writing. One that tells the tale of Chibi Chibi since our daughter is back in the future. It seems the little red headed child takes to Usagi very easily. She helps Usagi in her own little way. Gives her strength in many forms. I know Usagi would do anything to protect her.

However this child was not ours. I could sense it even here. Chibi Chibi was someone meant to help Usagi in a different way, to ease her loneliness and to allow her to be herself even when no one was around. Yet here she is alone with her thoughts as the child sleeps soundly in Chibi Usa's old room.

I watch as Usagi sits back on the bed and debates things once more. She looks over to a picture of us both and holds it in her hands as she turns to her side. Tears begin to leak out but she's not full on sobbing.

"Mamo…I miss you so much. I know your busy but please…please write back to me."

Her pleas make me feel worse about my situation. I hate that I'm stuck here. That I'm trapped in this world unable to give her comfort. I hate that I can't go to her and give her peace. Even if only for a little while. I want to give her hope for what's going on.

It's going to be a tough journey coming up for her. One that will test her limits and make her wish for more strength. So when I see the guardian of the cauldron come up, her form shrouded in a cloak, unable to see her face, only that she has long hair and is a few inches shorter than me I tell her once more, "I need to see her, please grant me this."

It's a message I beg of her every chance I get. Sometimes she gives in, waves her hand and I'm suddenly in my body, able to be with my Usako, able to show her my love. Show her how much I love her. Other times, most times, she walks away and ignores my request. No words are ever spoken from her to me. Just me begging to be joined with my love. I look at her, her face covered by the swirling colors and shadowy darkness of this place.

"Please let me go to her. Let me be with her."

I see the exasperated expression in her eyes change. They are a darker blue that I swear looks like Usagi's yet I know that can't be the case as Usagi wouldn't be here in any life. This isn't her duty. The desperation must be seen enough as she turns from me. I sigh and feel my heart crack a bit more, that is until I feel the swoosh of her hand allowing me the temporary freedom.

I'm back in my body, yes but I also know my time is very limited. Usagi is on her bed, tears rolling down her cheeks as she silently begs for my return. Wearing a thin loose white top and bottoms I crawl onto the bed. She senses this and out of instinct alone, her years of training she grabs a knife from Makoto and holds it up in a threatening 'don't even try it' motion. It sits against my throat for all of two to three seconds.

Long enough for it to register to her WHO is in her room. It's then she lowers down the blade from my neck, placing down on the comforter and looks into my eyes.

"Mamo…how?"

I love that she knows it's me. Not even a clone of me could throw her off at this rate she knows me so well.

"Later, right now I want to feel you…to be with you."

Who knows how long I will be with her this time. It's not exactly as if I have a clock on me to tell me how long I've been given. The time always varies and I cannot get enough time to do as I want. To tell her the truth or to make love to her and I want to be with her. Besides…even I know I can't tell her the truth. She must find out another way. That is the way things have to go. Out of all that I've seen while in the cauldron this is one of the things I know I can't change.

I have to let it become its own course of action. It hurts that she's with Seiya now, or rather allowing him to be a part of her heart as she has been. She's a good soul. She is a wonderful woman and I hate that she's being courted by another man and I can't do anything to stop it right now.

My anger and sadness must be present on my face as she assures me, "If you saw Seiya leaving here it was just for homework."

I try to joke with her, "You sure you haven't replaced me with a cool boyfriend yet?" A bad joke considering I said something like that before she defeated Beryl. We all died that day and Usagi's final wish on her crystal brought us all back to life. She's quick to tell me no.

"Of course not. No one could replace you." She leans in to give me a kiss. One of desperation, one of love.

"You're the coolest boyfriend," she tells me.

I caress her face, "I'm a lot of things but coolest…" I pretend to think about it before she kisses me again. Her lips are so soft, like flower petals. I touch them before sucking on the bottom lip.

"I love you Usako." I tell her, gathering her hair into my hands and holding her close to me. I need her so badly. "I love you so much."

I'm practically trembling with my love for her. She sees this and mistakes it for me needing to be warmed up by her. She doesn't know I'm already technically gone from this world…and the only reason that I think the guardian lets me see her when she does is because she knows I won't breathe a word about it. She knows I can't and she knows I have to let the rules be in place for a good reason. It doesn't stop me from hating it though.

So as I lower Usagi back down to the bed, as I pull on her loose clothing and press myself against her, feeling her body respond to mine yet again, I'm reminded of how lucky I am to be one of the few souls that gets to love her even if I get pulled back into the Cauldron. Usagi will save me…she will save us all when the time is right. When she's at that point of self discovery about all of it.

"Mamo…" she calls out. Her voice low and sultry as she pulls on my clothes, pushing them off of me as I shove them and hers off of her. We can't get each other naked fast enough as I plunge a digit inside of her. The sheer amount of pleasure I see her in from how I'm making her feel is making me grin in anticipation of what else I can make her feel. I pull her closer to me, enjoying the feeling of her luscious body.

It's not long before she has my cock in her hands, stroking him, making the fires burning within me higher and higher. I can't stop myself from covering her breasts with my mouth. Loving them with my saliva, nibbling on her nipples, sucking on them till she whimpers for more. I want her so badly that when she encourages me to go between her legs I don't hesitate. I push her legs up, apart and hold them open as I find her sweet opening and push in.

She feels me enter her as always and arches her back in response to my full length filling her up, reaching down to grab my rear and pulling me in closer to her. I push in on another downward stroke and feel her walls sucking me in for all their worth. I see her face respond to my member inside of her wet tight heat. I feel her walls caressing me with their warmth.

"You feel so good," I hear her breath out.

"You fill me up so…," she moans at this as I push into her gently, over and over again as I give a nice push and pull of my cock inside of her. I pull all the way out, till just the tip is in before I push in again. She cries out from the stimulation of my actions. As slow as things are, I am building them up to a nice crescendo. I can feel her walls beginning to react to me and I want to keep her on the edge for a little while longer.

I remove my hands from her ankles, bringing them down and letting her slip back towards her bed. That's when she does something new. Pulling on her one leg she pushes it back till it's behind her head and pushes upwards with her hips, forcing my cock deeper into her on the next stroke. Her other leg is released but still upwards and with each thrust of me inside of her, hitting her own leg.

I throw it over my shoulder and pull her towards me. Wanting more from this too, I shift us around so that her right leg is thrown over my left shoulder and her left leg is under my right leg. The angle pushes us deeper together and I press her down as I feel her pushing herself further down on me. Our bodies connect as only we can, as one. As if we were the only two people in the world.

It's when I see her getting over excited that I watch as she shifts positions again, climbing half on top of me as she straddles me in the current position and rides me harder while using my own legs as leverage for herself. Soon enough, I grab her hips and ram her down as she rams herself into me. Boosting herself with the rhythm were in the middle of as I started jerking myself off to being with her.

I watch as her breasts jiggle back and forth, jumping up and down, swaying as they memorize me. I press myself into her, unable to stop the heat rising up with me as I hear her moans and words of encouragement. As if she's afraid the moment we stop she'll lose me. If only she knew the truth, she'd cling to me forever. I want to do that as it is. So I do. Before she can even breathe right I shift angles again and pin her down to the bed.

I need to feel her. I need to be with her. I hook my arms up under her shoulders and begin to power drive her into oblivion. Her leg still looped over my shoulders as I press my cock into her, faster, more powerful than before. My sounds, my grunts and her whimpers are all that can be heard from either of us. My cock presses down, over and over again. My hips unable to stop and her hips countering each move made.

The love making becomes fierce as we start to drive towards that goal. Our breathing becomes arduous. Our hips slapping together, my hard length is buried so deeply inside of her that I can't fathom going in any deeper yet we keep managing to. before I can even think straight her walls clamp down around me. I feel the surge hit before I can stop it. She cries out, her orgasm hitting her hard as I feel it.

It consumes her, me…just as mine consumes myself and her. Hers triggering mine as I pump her full of myself. Coating her walls with all of me. I keep pumping till she's so full of me I swear it's leaking out of her. Our breathing begins to return to normal, my cock while still at half mast is starting to recede. Though it would much rather stay inside of her. Yet I feel that pull happening once again.

The one from the guardian telling me I've got very little time left with my beloved. I cradle her head close to me.

"I love you Usako…your not just my princess, not just my future wife…your my best friend…my love…my soulmate…my other half."

I wanted to get these words out to her, so that she understands the emotions behind them. So that she has them to focus on when things get really dark. Soon they will and soon it will be between her and that dark Senshi.

I trust Usagi to save us all, but I know she needs to have a way to do so for herself that doesn't include sacrifice unless it was her own life. I need her to feel the emotions so she can remember them when things get tough, to reflect on them to help her out so she can rise above the pain when it hits and do what needs to be done.

"Mamo…I love you."

I see the tears pooling in her eyes as the rest of her words are being choked on by her emotions. She needs not to say them though. I know she feels the same way. I also know I have to leave soon, like very soon. I caress her face, I hold her close as I give her a sweet loving kiss. One that I hope she understands is full of devotion and promise.

"I will always be yours," I promise to her as I hug her tightly once more before the pull takes me away again and once more I'm back with the guardian.

She takes one glance at me and for the first time since I've been in here she says, "I know you want to tell her…I get it…but you must reign in your desires…things are going as they need to, this is how it's to be done."

I don't respond at all to her words as her voice sounds so familiar that it throws me off as she walks away. For a brief moment I think she sounds like Usako only maybe older but that can't be right…can it?