By now, everyone else in the house was asleep. Not me, though. I couldn't sleep, despite having been up for most of the day. All I could do was lay in the spare bedroom that they had, which I soon claimed as mine. The only source of light was my phone that I had inches from my face, because I couldn't think of anything else to do. I was bored. Yet, I still had a few lingering thoughts on my mind that kept me from sleeping.

I turned off my phone and looked at myself in the reflection of the now black screen.

Garth: [to self]
Damn what does she see in me?

I said in a tone full of self-doubt. I just wanted to know why Chilli thought I was so "beautiful". She must've been lying; she just wanted me to feel better about myself. I could see through her lies. Or maybe it was just me who felt this way about myself. I could never have known. My thoughts towards myself were too strong, really. No matter how much anyone tried to tell me otherwise, I always thought the worst about me. Because, I knew myself more than anyone else could. I've seen the worst of me. Like, I've done shit that I could never forgive myself for. I could only see myself as a desperate, horny creep.

But I wanted to know. I wanted to know exactly what Chilli saw within me that she saw as desirable. Maybe then, and only then, could I have a somewhat confident view of myself.

I got out of bed and walked towards the bathroom. I didn't know exactly was I was gonna do, but I had an "idea". I just hoped that they had a big enough mirror.

And it turns out those wealthy-ass Heelers did, because it only took a few glances around the bathroom and I found my reflection looking back at me.

I stepped in front of the mirror, which put basically my entire body on display for myself.

The first thing I decided to analyze was my face. I looked too cute, and I never thought about myself as "cute". None of the things I ever did were "cute". Jerking off by your lonesome isn't really a "cute" thing to do. I also looked too innocent. I knew all the horny thoughts behind those large, "adorable" eyes.

My appearance consisted of two colors: either pure, blinding white, such as my fur, or jet black, like my hair, or my nose or lips. I thought it always made me look generic, but I didn't really mind. I never really wanted to stand out anyways, so it was better not to, for me at least.

I parted my lips so I could see my teeth. No matter how many times I've neglected to care for them, my teeth were still white as the rest of me. Compared to my peers, they were also quite sharp. I never knew why, I just accepted it.

Still focused on the mirror, I brought my paws up so I could see them better. Again, they were white, covered with soft fur. I kinda liked how soft they were because whenever I masturbated, it would add to the feeling. I turned my paws around, now looking at their charcoal black pads. I also looked at my long, back claws, which I rarely cared to trim.

Seemingly lost in my own thoughts, I looked lower towards the torso which I possessed. Because I never ate but one meal a day, I was rather skinny in the abdomen. Yet, because I ate nothing but junk food, those extra calories and fat had to go somewhere, and somehow my body decided that the hips were where they belonged.

I didn't wanna look lower. I already knew how wide they were, I already knew how feminine they were. I didn't wanna accept that as a truth. It wasn't what I wanted to be. But it was also funny, because if they weren't MY hips, I'd definitely be getting off to them.

Reluctantly, I placed my paws on my hips. A shiver shot up my spine from the touch, and my tail twitched in response.

Garth: Fuck this is so gay.

I was embarrassing myself, but I didn't care. I wanted to see what Chilli saw whenever she thought about me. So, I slowly slid down my boxers, which were the only thing I had on whenever I was in bed. So yeah, I was now nude, staring at my nude body in the reflection.

Garth: This is so embarrassing why am I doing this?

I knew the answer. It was because, deep down, I was into this. It was the ugly truth that I didn't ever wanna face.

I could feel my face getting all pink again. I knew what I wanted; it was right in front of me. Myself.

Garth: Fuck

Slowly, I turned halfway around, and leaned on one of the counters in the bathroom. The first thing I noticed was how much my back arched. I wasn't even trying to purposefully do it; It just naturally arched like that. Then I focused on my tail and how it was now slightly waving around, indicating some sort of excitement building up within me. My tail was a little bushy, and if I wanted to, I could move it in very sensual ways.

Then, of course, there was my ass.

That part of me was pretty big, and now that I was without clothing, I could see just how big it was. I got back up and turned around a bit more in order to fully take it in. I've definitely seen bigger asses, but damn, mine definitely wasn't flat.

I could feel myself now blushing even more, with a few "thoughts" now forming in my head.

Garth: God damn fuck hahah why the fuck is my ass so big?

I focused intensely on my rear. I had a lot of fur back there, more than I did almost any other part of me. It was so fluffy and soft-looking.

I really wanted to just grab myself. So, I did.

With my heartbeat steadily increasing, I took my paw and laid it on one of my ass cheeks. Upon the feeling, I blushed only harder, and I could feel my dick throb with arousal, too. And damn, it was pretty fluffy, like I was groping a big, fluffy, thick pillow, or something.

Garth: Hah hah damn fuck hehe

It was pretty fun and stimulating. Never before had my butt been so appealing to me. I had always just seen it as a nuisance, but I guess right now I didn't really care. My breathing grew heavier; I couldn't believe I was feeling all of this just from looking at myself in a mirror. Was it a bit narcissistic? Maybe, although wanting to pound and lick and fuck your own ass is a little weirder than narcissism.

Then there came the exact moment when I knew I was feeling myself a bit too much. I just just standing in the bathroom, rubbing my greedy paws all over my own ass. At the time, nothing else existed.

Until the bathroom door opened, and I realized that I didn't ever lock it. And in the reflection, I could see Chilli right behind me, making a very audible gasp.

Chilli: Woah Garth