I didn't want Chilli to see me like this. Not like I was right now, or like I had been for the last 20 minutes or so. I silently, but quickly got up and I put my boxers back on. All I wanted to do was just leave, and go back to bed, and hopefully we could never talk about what happened that night ever again, as if it were just a little glitch in the system or something.

Nothing could get past Chilli though. She saw the look in my face and she knew that I thought I had fucked up. She took a few seconds to collect herself after the rampant, unfiltered sex we just had. She took a towel and wiped my cum from off her neck and chest.

Putting her robe back on, she approached me.

Chilli: Garth what what happened?

I didn't wanna turn around. I didn't want to face her at all. I felt so bad. It was like post-nut clarity, but a thousand fucking times worse. I didn't even know that regret this strong could even happen. I only felt more tears come down, making my already sweaty fur even more damp.

Garth:
I'm sorry

I don't think that was the answer she was intending for. She softly gasped and probably only felt more bad for my sorry ass.

Chilli: Sorry? Sorry for what?

I sighed, and slowly I turned my head to meet her gaze. Already, my eyes were a bit red, and although I was crying I was doing it without making a sound; a feat that I've gotten very used to in life, because I never wanted anyone to hear my wailing.

Garth: I I didn't I didn't wanna I didn't want to I I just I I'm so fucking awful I I'm sorry I fuck

She was now visibly concerned, maybe even a little scared.

Chilli: Garth, mate what are you talking about?

I tried my hardest not to break down further, but it required me to look away again from Chilli.

Garth: I I don't [sniffle] I don't know what what got into me I I didn't want that that to happen I

She walked closer and put a paw on my shoulder in an attempt to comfort me.

Chilli: Well that was a little rough, mate but it wasn't as bad as you're making it out to be, y'know?

A few more tears came out, but then I had the courage to glance back at Chilli again. I was confused as to how she could even think of enjoying the possession of her body that I committed. Although I could somewhat understand it, if I didn't feel good about it, then it didn't matter. It just wasn't enjoyable.

Garth: Well for you m-maybe, but I I dunno I I can't really I can't live with myself, like for doing that it felt too controlling I I'm really sorry

Looking back at her again, I could tell that she was curious why I felt so bad about whatever the fuck we just had; I didn't even wanna call it "sex" because it didn't even feel like it was me making love to her. There was no love involved in that thing that we did.

She tilted her head slightly while still rubbing my shoulder, some form of pity in her voice.

Chilli: I I think I understand, but why do you feel so bad?

Although I had stopped silently crying, I was still shivering a bit, and damn, I felt terrible on the inside. I didn't ever wanna make Chilli feel like this, nor did I ever want her to see me like this. I felt like I truly failed.

Garth: I it I didn't want it to go like that

She must've felt really bad for me. And I thought I couldn't get more fucking self-loathing than I usually was.

Chilli: So you wanted it to be more gentle? Is that what you're saying, mate?

I guess that was what I wanted. It was one of the many things I had regretted, it's just that I've never regretted something so much in a while.

I slowly nodded.

Garth: I guess so yeah.

She patted my shoulder again, attempting to reassure me that it was in fact okay.

Chilli:Garth you're a good person you shouldn't have to feel this bad.

I knew that was a lie. I could never be a good person. But, I wanted to make Chilli a bit happier, so I slightly nodded.

Garth: I guess but I just that was... too aggressive it it wasn't me that's not like what I want you to, I dunno remember me as.

She smiled slightly, in agreeance. She was rubbing my shoulder, and I guess that might've calmed me down momentarily.

Chilli: Of course it doesn't have to be what I remember you as y'know 'cause I'll always remember you as the cute, sweet, and sexy boy I met at the airport, hehe.

For the first time that night, I smiled. It was very slight, and barely visible, but I did in fact smile. However, I also felt like I didn't deserve the compliment. It was a little embarrassing, too.

Garth: Yeah uhh I guess we could always just leave this moment in the past and we we could, like go go on from from there

She softly chuckled, and reassured me again.

Chilli: Of course. It was definitely, well a learning experience, wasn't it?

I looked away again, feeling more ashamed of that moment. She was right, but damn, I did NOT want that to be my first time. It knew it was so pathetic how I felt about it, but I just couldn't help but feel bad for Chilli. I just wanted to love her (well, mostly her body), but more in an "amazed" way, not a violent way.

Garth: I guess it was but

I slightly sniffled again, because I was and will always be a bitch with sensitive feelings, no matter how hard I try to act emotionless.

Garth: But I promise N-NEVER I I won't I won't do anything like that like it's it's it wasn't what I wanted to do not like I don't know what got into me, I swear

The longer I kept talking, the less I made sense. Chilli knew this, because she kinda cut me off after I was yapping for too long.

Chilli: It's alright, Garth and, well, if it makes you feel any better

I looked back, maybe a little bit on confusion on my face.

Chilli: I kind of enjoyed it.

That only made me more confused. How the FUCK could anyone ever enjoy getting destroyed by some amateur of whom it was their first time ever?

Garth: ? H? WWhy?

I don't know if she was trying to be a little more seductive, or if it was just more "reassuring", but hearing her talk about it made me a little uncomfortable.

Chilli: Oh, it's just you were so aggressive so controlling it was definitely surprising, but I I couldn't help but feel powerless, and I liked it

I'm pretty sure I was blushing. I was feeling a rather big mix of emotions, and I didn't know how to feel about Chilli's statement. She liked it? But, well, I hated it? But at the same time, there had to be SOMETHING to release that horny demon from within me, I just didn't know how or even why I lose myself.

Garth: I well I but still I feel bad I I should've treated you better

She nodded in understanding.

Chilli: Well we don't ever have to do something like that again if you don't wanna.

I nodded too.

Garth: Yeah

I felt the need to add on, and kind of explain/compliment Chilli. While I was doing this, I looked down. I probably made Chilli feel like she was talking to one of her kids, but I didn't care. I was basically still a kid after all.

Garth: I, just you're so nice and kind and well like I feel like I maybe took advantage of it and I something in me wanted to take advantage of your kind and open personality

She did another one of those chuckles that lightened my mood and made me feel a little tingly inside (maybe it was me being horny in a wholesome way).

Chilli: Oh, Garth I can tell you're so, so much kinder than me, mate. You're so considerate and selfless you're a very good boy.

As if it were some instinct, my tail kind of shot up whenever she called me a good boy. Of course, I acted like that pretty much whenever I got a compliment, to I was used to it.

Garth: Oh you're too kind I I'm not, well I just I just try hah

She chuckled again, and since her arm was still around me, she pulled me in a bit closer.

Chilli: Whatever you're doing, it's working pretty damn well, and I'm just speaking the facts. You may not show it, but I know that you're probably one of the most caring and kind people I've ever met, Garth.

I was genuinely blushing now. For now, my mind pushed away all the self-hatred, and in its place was this warm, awkward, embarrassing, but enjoyable feeling of me melting away by Chilli's compliments.

Garth: Wow um o-okay

Her paw was now sliding along the length of my shoulder. If her goal was to make me feel good, I guess it worked; right now, even if it wasn't gonna last, I was cherishing every moment of this emotion that I was feeling.

Chilli: God, you're so cute, Garth. I can't believe I got the chance to meet you, haha. You're so adorable, you're so hot, you're so kind, and smart

My tail was wagging very fast. I couldn't help but feel whatever Chilli wanted me to feel, but it also felt good knowing that I was making her happy.

Garth: Oh, stop [playfully]

Then, Chilli leaned in to my blushing face and briefly kissed me on the lips, which caused me to feel like I was on fire. She then pulled away and looked at me with those seductive eyes again.

Chilli: I would continue but I feel like we've done enough for tonight, haven't we?

Embarrassed again, I looked away and nodded.

Garth: Yeah. We should get going, uh to sleep, hah

We were finally about to leave that damn bathroom. Chilli went first because she was closer to the door, which seemed hella convienient, because as she opened the door, Bingo was there in front of her.

The 4-year-old Heeler pup looked tired, sleepy, but pretty scared.

Bingo: Mum I had a bad dream

A look of surprise crossed Chilli's face for a second or two, then she instantly switched to the motherly tone again, much like when she was comforting me. Comforting people was something she excelled at, really.

Chilli: A bad dream, huh?

And thus, Chilli walked to the children's bedroom with Bingo in her arms, leaving me alone in the bathroom.

As she was busy with one of her kids, I looked around the cursed bathroom, and at that damn mirror. My eyes started looking down towards my ass again, and I only blushed more than I previously did upon staring at it.

Garth: Hehe

I decided, since at the moment, nobody was around, that I could mess around a bit. So, I leaned against one of the bathroom counters, my eyes still fixated on my rear, and I gave my hips and ass a little wiggle.

Garth: Hehe fuck shit damn

I was surprised by how fucking hot it was. I was starting to get obsessed with my own ass again. I mean, damn, even through my boxers, that shit was jiggling.

While I was still bent over, I could hear, in the distance, Chilli close the door to the kids' bedroom, and take a little peak in the bathroom. Of course, she most likely saw me slowly waving my hips around, and knowing that caused my face to turn pink again.

I turned my head to look at her, with a guilty smile on my face. She raised an eyebrow, giggled, and gave me a "supportive" thumbs up, before walking to her own bedroom, where Bandit was probably fast asleep and snoring like a lawnmower or something.