Fear the Dead, Fight the Living
A/N: Over a thousand views? Thank you, to everyone who favorites this story and follows it, it means a lot. I hope you are enjoying the story line I have for Phoebe and Daryl, now I know some people probably think this is not how Daryl would act but I like having him this way because I think he really would be like this deep down. BTW I think he really does need someone on the show, cause come on he's been through so much he deserves someone special in his life. Anyways please continue to read, like, review. Let me know if you want to see anything added or what not I always take suggestions and feedback.
As we walked up to the gates of Alexandria they opened a little and Aaron walked up with Eric helping him inside then stood there with us, we hear something rattle from next to us and Daryl let go of my hand and quickly shot it as the gates opened the rest of the way. He picked up the possum as we looked at another guy standing there, "We brought dinner." He tells him and I lightly chuckled
"It's okay." Aaron told the guy who just looked at us, "Come on in, guys." He says to us and we all walked in then the gates closed
"Before we take this any further, I need you all to turn over your weapons." The guy told us, "To stay, you hand them over."
"We don't know if we want to stay." Rick told him
"It's fine, Nicholas." Aaron said to him
"If we were gonna use them, we would have started already." Rick pointed out
"Let them talk to Deanna first." Aaron said to Nicholas
"Who's Deanna?" Abraham asked him
"She knows everything you'd want to know about this place. Rick, why don't you start?" Aaron says and Rick turned to face us, "Sasha." He told her and she looked out the gate as a walker was coming towards us and she shoots it, "It's a good thing we're here." Rick pointed out and we started walking
We stood outside the house Aaron walked us to and brought Rick inside, I stood there looking around the place. Houses, actual houses, it really did seem to good to be true. After a while Rick finally came out and Deanna wanted to talk to me, I looked at Daryl then headed inside.
"Hello Phoebe, I'm Deanna Monroe. Please have a seat." She told me and I looked around at the house then sat in a chair across from her, "Do you mind if I film this?"
"Sure, I guess"
"Rick told me you all have been out there since the beginning. Did you know each other before or-?" She asked
"I knew Rick and his son before the start, we were in the same sheriff's department together. Me and my mom met Glenn and Daryl after the start when we had another group. The others we met along the way." I told her, "What is this place?" I asked her
"This was a planned community with its own solar grid, cisterns, eco-based sewage filtration. Starting in the low 800,000s if there is such a thing. And they sold them all."
"What brought you here?" I asked
"Well like I told Rick, my family and I were trying to get back to Ohio so I could help my district manage the crisis. And the army stopped us on a back road and directed us here. They were supposed to come later. They didn't. But there were supplies here and we made the best of it."
"So then you put up the wall?" I ask
"Well, there was this huge shopping mall being built nearby. And my husband Reg is a professor of architecture. And who he was mattered quite a bit. He got the first plates up with our sons. And after a few weeks, more people arrived and we had help. We had a community." She told me and I nodded, "Do you want to be here Phoebe?"
I shrugged my shoulders, "I guess, I mean we've been out there for so long and...well to finally have a place, it's nice I suppose"
"And your husband?" She asked me and I looked at her confused, "Your ring" She indicated and I looked at it, "Which one is he?"
"Daryl, the guy holding the possum" I told her and she gave a light chuckle
"So you knew him after the start, how long after did you two get married?" She asked me and I had to think, how long has it been?
"I honestly don't even know what month it is" I pointed out
"It's May 18th"
I chuckled, "We were together for 4 or so months, married for a 1 year now."
"It so great to find someone in this world now" She says and I nodded, "Thank you Phoebe" She says and I walked out of the house up to Daryl and kissed him
"Happy 1 year" I told him and he looked at me confused, "She told me it's May 18th, we've been married 1 year" I said and he nodded his head then he got called into the house, "Play nice" I say and he nodded then headed inside
Daryl POV...
I walked around the chair it front of Deanna then walked over to a bowl full of rocks and picked at them while still holding the possum, "You're welcome to sit, Daryl. I won't bite." She told me
"Yeah, I'm all right."
"Daryl, do you want to be here?" She asked me
"The boy and the baby, my wife, they deserve a roof. I guess."
"I believe that both you and your wife deserve this" She told me and I nodded
Phoebe POV...
"They're still your guns. You can check them out whenever you go beyond the wall. But inside here, we store them for safety." Deanna told us as we all put our guns on the cart. I reluctantly put mine on there looking at Rick. My mom walked over and struggled to get the gun over her shoulders off due to her bad shoulder, I walked over and helped her then she set it in on the cart then the lady, Olivia, pulled the cart away
"Should have brought another bin." She says and I gave a small smile
I stood in the bedroom of one of the houses they gave us and I walked over to the closet looking at the clothes in there, most of them were my kind of clothes and some, well not. I grabbed one that would fit me most then headed into the bathroom, I turned on the shower and felt something I didn't feel for a long time, hot water. I got in and once the water hit my skin I didn't want to get out. I washed and scrubbed getting all the dirt off me then grabbed a shaver and shaved my legs and under my arms. After I was done I got out then got dressed looking at myself in the mirror and grabbed a tooth brush, I felt like someone needed to pinch me.
I headed downstairs and saw Rick out on the porch holding Judith and followed Carl out, "You can look. Just be quick" Rick told Carl and I looked at him in shock as Carl and my mom walked away and went to the other house then Rick looked at me, "What?"
"I almost forgot what your face looked like" I said with a smile and he chuckled
"Shut up"
I walked over to Daryl who was sitting on the steps skinning the possum, I put my hand on his shoulder and he looked at me, "You clean up nice"
"You should give it a shot" I tell him and he grumbled, I shook my head then walked away to look at the rest of this place.
"How long was I in there for?" Michonne asked walking into the living room of the one house where we were gonna all sleep tonight
"20 minutes." Rick told her
"God, I could not stop brushing."
"I know how you feel" I told her and she smiled then looked at Rick
"Huh. I've never- I've never seen your face like that."
"That's what I felt before and after." He says and I sit down in between Daryl's legs on the window bed and he wrapped his arms around me, he was still dirty but right now it didn't matter.
There was a knock at the door and Rick answered it, "Rick, I- Wow. I didn't know what was under there." Deanna says and I chuckled, "Listen, I don't mean to interrupt. I just wanted to stop by and see how you were all settling." She says walking in and looked around at all of us, "Oh, my. Staying together. Smart."
"No one said we couldn't." Rick told her
"You said you're a family. That's what you said. Absolutely amazing to me how people with completely different backgrounds and nothing in common can become that. Don't you think?"
"Everybody said you gave them jobs." Rick mentioned and I looked at them confused, I didn't get one.
"Mm-hmm. Yeah. Part of this place. Looks like the communists won after all."
"Well, you didn't give me one." Rick pointed out
"I have. I just haven't told you yet. Same with Michonne. I'm closing in on something for Sasha. And I'm just trying to figure Mr. Dixon out, but I will."
"Good luck trying" I said to her and Daryl scoffed behind me, I looked at him and smiled then looked back at Deanna
"Something has been found for you Phoebe, I'll discuss it with you later." She told me and I looked at her as she looked at Rick, "You look good." She tells Rick and left
I walked out on the porch seeing Daryl sitting there fussing with his crossbow, I walked over to him and handed him some water, "Thanks" He said still looking at the crossbow so I set it on the railing behind him
"You know I'm starting to think you love that thing more then me"
He looked up at me, "Stop. You know I won't ever love anything more then you"
"Oh I don't know, you might find some other pretty girl here who will catch your eye and you'll get bored with me" I said jokingly and he pulled me to him
"Only one girl has ever caught my eye, and I married her" He says and I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him.
"Time to punch the clock and make the casseroles." We hear my mom say and we broke apart then looked at her. I look at her in shock
"What?" Daryl asked her
"Make dinner for the older people-moms who need a break, people who can't cook. Get to meet a lot of the neighbors that way."
"All right." He scoffed
"Have you taken a shower yet?" She asked him
"Mm-hmm." He says and I shook my head no at her
"Take a shower. I'm gonna wash that vest. We need to keep up appearances, even you." She told him walking down the stairs
"Hey, I ain't starting now."
"I'm gonna hose you down in your sleep." She says starting to walk away
"You look ridiculous." He told her and I smacked his arm
"You obey my orders out there." Me and Daryl hear someone tell Glenn as we walked over
"Then we're just as screwed as your last run crew."
"Say that again." The guy told him
"No, back off, Aiden." Tara says to him and he pushed Glenn
"Come on. Come on, man. Just take a step back." Noah told Aiden
"Come on, tough guy."
"No one's impressed, man. Walk away." Glenn warned him
"Aiden! What is going on?" Deanna asked walking over
"This guy's got a problem with the way we do things." He says then looked at her, "Why did you let these people in?"
"Because we actually know what we're doing out there." Glenn told him and he swung around attempting to hit Glenn who ducked then punched him
"Aiden, no! That's enough!" Deanna yelled at him and I see Nicholas try to run over but Daryl tackled him to the ground
"Daryl!" I yelled as Rick and Carl came running in from outside the gate
"I said that is enough!" Deanna yelled again and Rick went over to Daryl
"Whoa, whoa! Hey, hey, hey! Let's not do this now." Rick says to him and Michonne stepped in front of Aiden who was gonna go for Glenn again
"You want to end up on your ass again?" She asked him and Rick pulled Daryl off moving him back I put my hand on his arm
"Daryl, calm down" I tell him as he paced but Rick kept blocking him, "Daryl." I said one more time and stepped in front of him, he stopped pacing and looked at me, I knew he would never hurt me, he nodded his head and I grabbed his hand
"I want everyone to hear me, okay? Rick and his people are part of this community now in all ways as equals. Understood?" Deanna shouted then looked at Aiden
"Understood."
"All of you, turn in your weapons. Then you two come talk to me." She told Aiden and Nicholas then looked at Rick, "I told you I had a job for you. I'd like you to be our constable. That's what you were. That's what you are. And you too." She says to Michonne, "Will you accept?" She asked
"Okay." Rick says
"Yeah, I'm in." Michonne agreed, Daryl scoffed then walked away and I followed him
"Hey" I said to Daryl walking out onto the porch where he was smoking
"Hi" I leaned on the railing next to him, "I'm sorry"
"Don't be, you were helping Glenn" I told him and he grabbed my hand then kissed it as Rick walked out wearing a uniform
"We good?" Rick asked him
"Yeah. You a cop again?" Daryl asked him as my mom walked out
"I'm trying it on for size."
"So we're staying?" She asked him
"I think we can start sleeping in our own homes. Settle in."
"If we get comfortable here, we let our guard down- this place is gonna make us weak." She pointed out
"Carl said that. But it's not gonna happen. We won't get weak. That's not in us anymore. We'll make it work. And if they can't make it... then we'll just take this place."
The next morning everyone was already up and headed out of the house, I saw Daryl sitting on the porch railing again and I walked up to him, "Day 2" I said and he looked at me confused, "It's been two days and you haven't taken advantage of the warm water" I smirked and he scoffed, I wrapped my arms around his neck and he put his hands on my waist, "What if I made it worth your while?" I asked him and he looked at me, I kissed him then as I pulled away I bit his bottom lip. That got him moving because he grabbed my hand and we headed inside and up to the bathroom.
After he got undressed I followed then barely had any reaction time because he pulled me into the shower and started to kiss me, I put my hand on his chest and moved him under the water and ran my fingers through his hair then the dirt washed off his face and body, "There you are" I told him and he put his hands on my face pulling me under the water and began to kiss me again then turned me around so my back was against the shower wall, that's the one thing I like about showers that don't double as a tub, there's more room. He lifted my legs up and I wrapped them around his waist as he kissed my neck, I laid my head back giving him more access. Then he set my one leg down and moved my other one over his arm then pushed into me, I laid my head back again as he continued to pump into me and I bit my lip, his other hand reached up and his fingers went into my hair and his mouth back on my neck, "Oh god Daryl" I moaned and he moved faster and harder, I was filled with so much pleasure right now that I didn't notice he put my leg down then turned me around lifting my leg up onto the small bench that was in the shower bending me slightly and re-entered me holding one hand on my hip and the other gripped my other hand and he pounded into me, "Oh fuck" I moaned and his grip tightened on my hip
"Pheebs" He moaned and took his hand away from mine moving it to my front squeezing my breast then moved his hand down and started to rub my nub, I jerked but his hand held me there as he continued to rub it
"Daryl!" I moaned and he moved faster, "Ohhh!" I moaned again and finally let go then after a few more grunts and pushes Daryl finished as well. He grabbed my hips and helped me stand and I face him, "You are gonna be the death of me Mr. Dixon" I tell him wrapping my arms around his neck and he kissed me
"I have a sexy wife, I can't help it"
"Well I have a sexy as hell husband who I can't seem to keep my hands off" I tell him and he kissed me then pushed me against the shower wall again, "And as much as I would love another round with you we have to go meet Rick."
"Mood killer" He says in my ear and lightly bit it causing me to lightly moan.
"Later tonight, you, me and the bedroom I picked out for us"
"Deal" He said and we finally got out and dressed then headed to the woods to meet with Rick and my mom
"I don't see it, but it's close. There's just one of 'em." Daryl told us as we stand by a house outside of the walls hearing a walker
"We won't be here long. So what do you think?" Rick asked
"We can go in when it's empty." My mom told him talking about the weapons storage
"How is that? It's locked up at night." I told her
"The window. There's just a latch. I can leave it open."
"A latch?" Rick asked
"Yeah."
"What if one of those pricks shuts it?" Daryl asked her
"Wait a couple of days, leave it open again."
We hear the walker snarl, "It's getting closer." Daryl pointed out
"We need to do it sooner than later. Right now, they're not watching us. Not worrying about meetings like this. We may need the guns, we may not." Rick says
"We will whatever way it goes." My mom told him
"They're the luckiest damn people I ever met. And they just keep getting luckier."
"How's that?" Daryl asked him
"We're here now."
"They've got a couple of footlockers just full of 9 millimeter autos, Rugers, Kel-Tecs. Just tossed in there. They don't use them. They're never gonna know they're gone." My mom added
"Someone's got one now, right?" Daryl asked indicating to the old blender Rick hid a gun in
"Mmm. Listen, the others, we want them to try." Rick tells us
"You, too." my mom said to Daryl
"So we keep it quiet. Just us." Rick mentioned
"Here it comes." Daryl indicated to the walker, "I got him."
"Hey, wait." My mom says and walked over with a gun and shot at it hitting everywhere but the head then finally killed it, "We said we were taking me out shooting. I couldn't go back with a full mag." She pointed out
"Lucky he came by." Daryl says
"We should get back. You'll pull the latch, we'll pick our moment. Us, we don't need to be lucky." Rick tells my mom as we walk past the dead walker and Daryl stopped
"What the hell's that? Is that a W?" He asked and we looked at the walkers forehead seeing a W carved into it
"I'll be back later, gonna hunt" He told me as Rick and my mom walked ahead
"Want company?" I asked him running my hand up his chest and he grabbed it
"If you came with I wouldn't get much hunting done."
"You say that like I'm a distraction" I tell me with a smirk
"You are, especially when you wear stuff like this" He indicated to my low cut shirt, "No one else better look at you like that, I'll take their eyes"
"Mmm my jealous husband" I said wrapping my arms around his neck and he put his hands on my waist
"You're my girl, and only mine."
I kissed him and he pushed his tongue into my mouth, I quietly moaned then pulled away, "Talk about distractions" I said and he kissed me again
"I love you"
"I love you too." I tell him and headed back to the gates.
Later on that day Daryl got back and I saw Aaron with him, "Not going to the party?" Daryl asked me and I shook my head
"Not really feeling into it, I know we're suppose to try but get togethers have never been my thing." I told him and he reached out his hand to me
"We'll go for a walk then" He says and I smiled at him then we headed down the street
"Daryl, Phoebe. Hey." We hear Aaron say to us from his porch,
"Thought you were going to that party over there." Daryl mentioned to him
"Oh, I was never going to go 'cause of Eric's ankle, thank God."
"Why the hell did you tell me to go, then?" Daryl asked him
"I said try. You did. For her." Aaron indicated to me and I smiled at him then Daryl, "It's a thought that counts thing."
"All right."
"Hey, come in. Have some dinner. Come on, it's some pretty serious spaghetti." Aaron told us and I looked at Daryl
"What could it hurt" I told him and he nodded then we headed in
"Thanks." Daryl tells Aaron and Eric after he slurped some spaghetti.
"Daryl" I whispered to him and he looked at me and I smiled shaking my head
"Mmm, when you're out there, if you happen to be in a store or something, Mrs. Neudermyer is really looking for a pasta maker." Eric says to Daryl, "And we're all really trying to get her to shut up about it. I mean, we have crates of dried pasta in here, but she wants to make her own or something. I really think she just wants something to talk about, so... if you see one out on your travels, it would go a long way to..." He stopped and I looked at him confused as he looked at Aaron, "I thought it was done. You didn't ask him already?"
"Ask me what?" Daryl asked the Aaron gestured for Daryl to follow him, I looked at Daryl and they walked out.
"More wine?" Eric asked me and I nodded then he poured more into my glass, "So you two were married after all this?" Eric asked me and I smiled
"Yeah, well we knew each other after we all met up with some other people we stayed at a quarry with back in Atlanta, Daryl really only talked to me which I thought was weird at first but it gave me a chance to know the real him. We just kept getting closer after that then when we were at the CDC I was drunk and told him how I felt about him, he kissed me then we didn't talk about it until..." I stopped and sighed
"Until what? If you don't mind me asking"
"Until my little sister went missing" I said and looked down
"What happened?"
I looked back at him, "We were on a highway where we ran into a traffic snarl after the CDC blew up" I told him and he looked at me confused, "Long story. We were just looking through cars for supplies when a herd of walkers started walking towards us, we all hid and I kept my eye on my little sister. After it was done and we thought we were safe a walker tried grabbing her from under the car, she ran down into the woods and I followed her, told her to hide while I led them away but when I got back she was...she was gone." I tell him and he came and sat by me, "We searched and searched, Daryl almost died when he found her doll, a member of our group, Shane, wanted to give up but I made a promise to my mom that we would find her. Well we did, but she was a walker and I was the one that killed her" I told him and my heart sank, I haven't really talked about Sophia in a long time except when Carl asked me about my best memory with her.
"I'm so sorry" Eric told me and grabbed my hand, I gave him a sad smile
"It's ok, I still miss her so much everyday and...sometimes," I try to hold tears back, "Sometimes it hurts, but other times I think to myself that I'm actually glad she's not here and I know that sounds horrible but at least she didn't have to go through the stuff we went through. I see how this is changing Carl and I wouldn't have wanted that for her, I wouldn't want this..this life for her. So I guess in a way she's safe now, she doesn't have to watch who our mom became and she doesn't have to see me kill people to protect us." I finished and Eric reached over and hugged me, I tensed at first because it caught me off guard then hugged him back
"So I um..." He says sitting back in his chair, "Aaron has a job for Daryl, I also have one for you." He says and I looked at him confused, "Aaron doesn't want me out there anymore so I've decided to help out with the people here who have kids, watching them while their parents do other things or just need sometime. I saw how you are with Rick's children and I think they would like you." He told me and I sighed
"Yeah, I guess I can do that"
"Great" He said and smiled, "That's great."
I looked at him and smiled, "Daryl and I tried for a while to have kids but I don't know, we didn't have any luck."
"Oh, well Pete our doctor could take a look, if you want" He suggested and I was about to say something when Daryl and Aaron walked in
"Ready?" Daryl asked me and I nodded my head
"Thank you both for dinner, and the talk" I said looking at Eric who smiled and we walked out the door.
"So that's what Eric was talking about." I pointed out as we got ready for bed and Daryl looked at me
"You okay with it?"
I sighed and walked over to him, "Not really, I mean you could be gone for days or weeks and I wouldn't know if anything happened to you, but I know how hard it is for you being in here and I don't want you feeling trapped. I want you to be happy and if that means going outside the walls to find people then, then I want that for you" I told him and he pulled me to him
"Thank you" He says and I kissed him
"Besides, Eric offered me a job." I said to him
"Oh yeah? What's that?"
"Well he offered to watch the children of people here and offered me to help him because he knows how I am with Judith and Carl" I point out
"Sounds like something you would enjoy."
"I thought so too so I said yes, it'll be an attempt to keep my mind occupied while you're out there." I tell him and he kissed me
"Hopefully we can have one too," I looked down and moved away from him, "What is it?"
"I didn't really want to say anything because I didn't want to lose hope but I'm starting to think I can't get pregnant" I confessed to him and he looked at me, "I mean think about it, after we brought those people back from Woodbury we tried for months, nothing. Every time we were at the farm or out in the woods not really caring, nothing."
"It could still happen." He pointed out
"I know," I said walking up to him, "I know it could, it took my mom a while to get pregnant with me. I'm just thinking maybe I could go to the doctor here and get checked out just to be sure" I brought up and he looked at me
"You sure?"
"I want to make sure we can do this because we both want it." I tell him and he nodded
"Okay" He says and I kissed him
"Take your pick." My mom told us the next day holding a bag of hand guns up
"Look, I've been thinking. Do we really need these?" Daryl asked Rick, "I mean, things go bad, yeah, sure. We do what we gotta do, but it's like you said. We don't need these for that."
"Right now we don't." My mom says
"You wanted me to try, right?" He asked, "I'm good."
My mom looked at me, "I'm with him on this. Do I feel safer with my gun? Yes, but we have to try" I added and Rick turned to my mom and grabbed one
"Hi there, Phoebe right?" Pete asked me and I shook his hand
"Yeah. This is Daryl, my husband" I told him but Daryl just stood there
"Well let's take a look" He gestured to one of the beds and I walked over sitting down and Daryl stood next to me, "Now how long have you tried to concieve?"
"About a 3 months back at the place we used to be"
"And nothing?" He asked and I shook my head, "Well since our testing equipment is limited these days I'll take an ultra sound of your uterus and see what we find out." I nodded my head and laid down then Daryl stood by me and grabbed my hand as Pete brought out the machine and I lifted my shirt, I felt Daryl tense his hand and I looked at him giving him a nod. He is never going to be okay with men touching me that we don't know. He relaxed and Pete put the wand on my stomach, my heart was racing, I really hoped everything was okay, and if it was I didn't want it to be something with Daryl, "Okay, from what I see everything looks good no damage or anything." He says and put the wand down handing me a towel to wipe the goo up, "So my best guess is since you guys were out there for so long even when you were at the place you were at you probably have ovulation problems, now that's nothing to be concerned about I surprisingly enough have an ovulation stimulator," He says standing up and walked over to the medicine cupboard and I sat up, "It's called Clomiphene, it will help induce ovulation. Take one a day for 5 days starting at the 5th day of your cycle. Now it can cause blurred vision so I suggest not driving or operating machinery" He told me with a smile and I gave a small one as he handed me the bottle, "Now if you have any serious symptoms such as stomach pain, double vision or abnormal bleeding come back and see me."
"Thank you" I told him and got off the bed
"Hope it helps" He added and I nodded then me and Daryl walked out
"You okay?" Daryl asked me and I gave him a small smile
"Least it's nothing bad" I said and he kissed my hand as we walked back to our house.
The next day I laid with Daryl in bed as he held me, it was his first day to go out with Aaron and I didn't want to let him go, "Plan on letting me leave?" He asked and I smiled at him
"No, I actually thought about just tying you to the bed so you can't go" I tell him and he shifted us so he was on top of me
"Now that's just a turn on" He growled and kissed me then lifted my leg up and before I could react he pushed into me
"Oh god" I moaned
I kissed Daryl goodbye as he sat at the gate on the bike he worked on with Aaron in the car behind him and they drove off. I stood there for a few more minutes then headed to Eric's place to start my job.
After the day was done and I said goodbye to Eric I headed home, as I walked up the steps someone stopped me, "Hey there Phoebe" I turned and saw Pete walking up the steps
"Evening Pete, what can I do for you?"
"Just seeing how things are going, with your medication." He says and stood in front of me leaning on the railing, I could smell the beer on him
"Haven't started them yet, um cycle hasn't started yet"
He moved a little closer and I slowly backed up, "You know if you ever need anything else, anything at all. I would be happy to help" He tells me putting his hand on my arm. I backed away and headed to the door
"Goodnight Pete" I said shutting it then I locked it leaning against the door and started to cry.
"Phoebe?" I heard and I jumped turning to see my mom standing there, "What is it?"
"Did you grab my gun when you got the other ones?" I asked her and she walked up to me then went into her pantry cupboard grabbing out my gun and handed it to me
"What happened?"
"He hit on me, Pete, normally I would brush it off but I felt a vibe from him, the only other person I felt that vibe from was...Ed" I told her and she looked at me with anger and concern, "I need to safe."