Quiet
Seven years to the day had passed since the day Kara lost her sister. That day changed her life, she had come to accept the changes, it was a different life and after all the sorrow and the difficulties she had to go through she could say she was happy now. She had a beautiful wife she loved, the most amazing family and friends.
She was in front of her sister's grave leaving her favorite flowers sunflowers; she always said they reminded her of Kara. She was crying, it still hurt, she missed her sister every day. Lena, her wife was standing just by her side, holding her hand. They would come here every year on this day. She had prayed for her sister and was ready to go. She squeezed her wife's hand and turning to leave.
Kara now needed to use a wheelchair after that accident that killed her sister, but she had adapt, although her distaste for cars became much stronger after that, and so she avoided driving, only doing it if there was no other option, so today Lena was driving. Kara seated on the passenger seat and Lena put her wheelchair on the trunk.
"Kar, do you want to go home? I have to go to the office, I have a meeting in half an hour." Lena said as sat on the driver's seat.
"No, actually can you leave me at the gym on your way? I kind of need to let it all out today." Kara said as she looked at the floor, she was still a little affected by this day and Lena new that her way of coping was to work herself to her limit; at least it was a healthy way of coping.
"Sure, if you need a ride home just call me after okay?" Lena didn't want to leave Kara alone today.
"There is no need honey, I can take an uber, but thank you." Kara gave Lena a peck on her cheek.
Lena left Kara at the gym, before going to work. The gym was close to their home and usually Kara wouldn't even get an uber, she would just stroll home.
Xxx
Today Kara needed to let out the rage she had built up inside her, she usually was a pretty happy and bubbly person, but her traumas were guarded deep within her. She had had therapy after the accident, but after a while she decided that had been enough, she wanted to go on with her life, she wanted to be happy talking about that all the time wouldn't let her forget it. No that she could ever, she was in a wheelchair, her legs didn't work anymore. That didn't stop her though, she would work out every day, she didn't let herself go.
She loved to eat and having such a disadvantage now would make it harder to be healthy so she decided that she wouldn't let it happen, and she didn't.
She had the same six pack she had before, maybe even better ones. Her arms were huge since she had to compensate for her legs, she was the definition of fit.
She was well known at her gym, she made friends with everyone, that's just the kind of person Kara is. Nia was her best friend there, and she worked with James at CatCo. She had a crush on Brainy, he worked for Lena at L-Corp, and they've dating for a while now.
When Kara arrived at the gym today Nia was already there, and Nia went with Kara to the lockers to chat a little.
"Hey Kara, how are you today?" Nia knew what today was, and so she was a little worried for her friend.
"I'm fine Nia, are you just getting here or are you leaving already?" Kara didn't want to talk about that anymore today, so she changed subjects very fast. Nia realized Kara didn't want to talk about it so she dropped the subject.
"I'm just getting here too. Do you want me to spot for you?" Kara and Nia were work out buddies and always helped one another at the gym.
"Sure, just let me get changed, I'll meet you outside." Kara wheeled to the changing both to put on her work out clothes.
Kara and Nia worked out for about two and a half hours, after that Nia had to leave, but Kara didn't. She decided to swim a little, which always helped her relax.
After swimming Kara left the gym and went home, but she didn't get an uber. She preferred taking her chance on the street, even if were harder for her. Sidewalks sometimes were not wheelchair friendly, but she had learned to bypass those difficulties.
Kara got home; she and Lena had an apartment together. It was a big one, there were five bedrooms and each one them had an office, Kara worked from home and Lena liked to tinker a little when she was home. The whole apartment was accessible to Kara. Lena had made sure to have bigger door, large hallways, the bathroom were big enough for Kara's wheelchair and easy for her to use. Lena was a billionaire and she used it to help her wife. Kara didn't really ask for all of that, but she loved that her wife thought of everything. She had made it much easier for Kara. In the beginning it was very hard and even the small things, like the doorknob not being round helped a lot.
Kara went straight to the shower in their bedroom. It was a luxurious bathroom, maybe more than Kara was comfortable with, but she did like the wide bathtub, it would help her muscles with the cramps she always got. She had episodes huge amounts of pain, chronic pain left from the accident, and one of the few things that helped was the warm water, so she was grateful Lena went to such lengths for her.
Kara filled the tub with warm water and bath salts to relax. She then put her wheelchair beside the bathtub and pulled her legs first then she put herself inside the warm water. She relaxed for the first time in the day. She was so relaxed that fell asleep in the tub.
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Lena decided to go home early, she did everything she needed at work and left. She wanted to be with her wife today. She knew Kara wouldn't say it, but it was a hard day for her, and Lena wanted to be there for her. On her way home she decided to buy some Chinese food, her wife's favorite. A carton of potsticker just for her.
Lena arrived home, and set the table for her and Kara and placing the food in serving plates.
"Darling, are you home? I brought food for us." Lena yelled from the kitchen. Sometimes Kara would be writing in her office without even realizing the hours go by.
After 5 minutes Lena tried again. "Kara, are you here?"
Lena decided to go look for Kara. She went to the blonde's office, but she weren't there. She then decided to look for her on their room. She wasn't there either but workout clothes were scattered at the floor, so she must be home.
Lena entered her bathroom and came across her blonde goddess of a wife's naked body lying in the tub sleeping. It was certainly a stunning view, and not the first time Lena had gotten home and Kara was sleeping in the tub. The bathtub really relaxed Kara, her muscles were usually sore, and she had cramps most of the time, so she used the tub regularly to help her, and Lena loved to see her like that.
Unfortunately she needed to wake her wife. Kara must've been there a while now. So Lena sat on the bathtub edge and kissed Kara's lips, slowly waking her up, trying not to startle her.
"Darling, wake up." Kara started opening her eyes and gave Lena a smirk.
"Don't you dare Kara Danvers" Lena knew how Kara thought, she was going to pull her inside, so Lena quickly backed away.
"You're no fun Lee. C'mon, real quick." Kara said with a groggy voice.
"No, darling, and I think it's time for you to get out. Your fingers are already wrinkly. See?" Lena took Kara's hand and lifted it up to show Kara.
"Okay, fine. Just get me towel please." Kara asked, she had forgotten to leave a towel near the tub.
"Here, take it. Do you want some help?" Lena always offered, but Kara not always liked to be helped, even if sometimes a little help would make things easier.
"Yeah, can you get the chair closer?" Kara was already lifting herself up on the border of the tub, and started to dry her body. Her legs hanged limp over the edge of the tub.
"Sure." Lena put the chair right by Kara's side.
"Thanks honey." Kara transferred herself to her chair and they both left the bathroom.
"So I bought chinese for us, put on some clothes and meet me in the kitchen. Want some wine?" Lena was already leaving the room to heat up the food.
"Hum, you always know what I need, how do you do that? And sure, white for me please." Kara rolled into the bedroom right behind Lena.
"It's a secret darling. Now go change, I'm starving." Lena laughed as left the bedroom.
Kara went to her closet; Lena had one for herself right beside Kara's. Kara's was a bit different, although they were both big Kara's had less clothes and more space for her to move. Her shelves were low hanging and the higher ones left for storage only. So she could get anything she wanted without anyone's help.
She got a loose white shirt and a small blue short, comfy clothes to stay at home with her wife. She changed into her clothes, brushed her hair and went to the kitchen, she too was starving.
"It's ready honey, let's eat?" Lena had prepared everything and was just waiting for Kara.
"This looks so good. Thank you my love." Kara stopped right beside Lena's chair and gave her a passionate kiss. She loved her wife so much sometimes she couldn't contain, she would love to kiss her all day.
"And what it is this for?" Lena wasn't complaining, she loved being kissed by her wife, she just wanted to know why the sudden kiss.
"Do I need to have a reason? I love you, I love your beautiful lips, I always want to kiss you." Kara said as she want to her place on the table.
"Of course not, just wanted to know if it had one." Lena lifted an eyebrow, questioning Kara's statement. She could never really ignore Lena's eyebrow, it was her secret weapon.
"Well, I love you, isn't that reason enough?" Kara answered smirking at Lena's eyebrow, Lena knew she couldn't resist her eyebrow raise. But it was that simple, Kara loved her and she was grateful to have her, she would thank every day she was alive to get to have Lena by her side. She knew life could end in the blink of an eye.
"Okay, let's just eat." Lena started plating her food.
Kara was starving and as always her plate looked like a mountain of potstickers. They ended their dinner and went to the couch to watch a movie and cuddle together.
It was Kara's day of choosing the movie, and she chose "Singing In The Rain", she loved musicals, especially the classic ones. Lena wasn't too fond of musicals, but with Kara by her side she would enjoy anything.
They were both seating at the couch, but halfway through the movie Lena fell asleep on Kara's arms. The blonde noticed it, but left her there. After the movie ended she would wake her up so they could go to the bedroom.
The movie ended half an hour later, but Kara didn't want to wake up Lena. She would've carried her to the bedroom without waking her up, but it wasn't an option anymore. She couldn't carry Lena on her lap and push the chair at the same time, so she decided to put a blanket on Lena so she could sleep on the couch, deciding not to wake her up.
Kara then slept on the other couch, she wouldn't let Lena sleep alone on the living room. Although she knew that for her the consequences would be much worse. Her back would hurt in the morning and she probably would be in pain the whole day tomorrow. Maybe she should've just woken Lena up. This wasn't the first time this had happened. It was almost a weekly occurrence in the Danver-Luthor's household.
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Lena woke up in the middle of the night and noticed that she wasn't in her bedroom. She had slept on the couch and Kara had put a blanket on her. She looked around and found Kara sleeping on the couch in front of her. They've had this discussion hundreds of times, Kara knew she should've just woken Lena up, it would be better than what would happen tomorrow.
Lena knew this was sore spot for Kara, she loved to carry Lena to their bed and she couldn't anymore. But Kara was stubborn and she preferred to endure the back pain she would get than to just wake her up so they could go sleep on their bed. Lena understood why, she didn't want to leave her alone, but she should also cherish her well being.
It killed her to see Kara in pain, and Kara wouldn't go to sleep alone in the bedroom, so there was not much what Lena could do. Maybe next movie nights they would spend on their bedroom, this way this was not going to happen anymore. They never remembered though.
So Lena decided to carry Kara to their bed, at least she hoped this would help her. She looked so peaceful sleeping that Lena didn't want to disturb. But she needed to help her, so she took Kara to their bed. Kara was very heavy, she had a lot of muscles, but Lena was strong too. She had to be, she had to carry Kara a lot on the beginning, other than help with all sort of stuff that needed strength so she decided she would get stronger for Kara, so now she could do this in her sleep.
She adjusted Kara in her arms, Kara grumbled a bit and nestled her head on Lena's neck. Lena loved this sight, it warmed her heart to see her wife in her arms. She took a mental picture and quickly took her way to their bedroom.
She slowly put Kara in their bed and the blonde stirred a bit, but didn't wake up. She adjusted her legs with a pillow and put a blanket over her. Lena realized she still had her work clothes so she went to change and then laid beside Kara and put an arm over her wife's abs, she loved her abs and closed her eyes, sleep took her within a few minutes.
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Kara woke up with a terrible pain shooting through her body. It wasn't the first time this happened, it was actually quite common, more than she liked it to be. But she then remembered the night before and it made sense. She really shouldn't have slept on the couch.
She grumbled in pain and Lena woke up beside her. Kara had tears running down her cheeks she hadn't even realized it yet.
When Lena opened her eyes and saw Kara agonizing in pain beside her she got up immediately and went to the medicine cabinet. Kara's side was full of different medications she had to take, but Lena was looking for the pain killers. She found them on the top shelf and opened them, took two and closed the bottle. She hurried to Kara's side, put the pills in her mouth and took the glass of water that sat on the bedside table and helped Kara swallow it down.
Kara complied with everything Lena did. They had developed a system by now, Kara took the pain killers and Lena would put her in the hot water so subside the pain. After half an hour she would take Kara out and lay her down on her side on the bed. Kara needed the ice after the boiling water. She would do this as many times as it took to lessen the pain.
She took Kara's clothes off and carried her to the bathtub, she had already filled it with scalding water. She delicately laid Kara inside the warm water, while her wife barely seemed to be aware what was going on around her. Lena pulled a chair and sat beside the bathtub holding her wife's hand. She wouldn't leave her side, not until she felt better.
"Why do you do this to yourself Kara?" Lena said under her breath. She couldn't understand why she would insist in doing the things she did if she knew how that would affect her. But this was the last time Lena told to herself, she wouldn't allow Kara to go through this again for a perfectly avoidable reason.
Seeing the love of her life struggle like this made her heart grow tight with worry. Kara had suffered enough in her life she didn't deserve any more pain, but it seemed she couldn't get away from it, it was becoming a weekly occurrence now, but Lena would put a stop to it.
"Mmm Lee…don't cry." Kara murmured while she opened her eyes and saw her wife crying beside her.
"Hey it's okay, just relax okay? The pills will kick in anytime now." Lena said as she tried to reassure her wife, she didn't want Kara worrying about her now.
After almost an hour inside the warm water Lena took Kara to bed to get started on the ice pack.
She put some warm clothes on her wife, she was shivering, and laid Kara on her side. She wasn't much more aware now, still in the haze of the pain. This could go on for the whole day, it once had lasted for about four days straight, Lena had to take Kara to the hospital, it had been on the beginning, they didn't know what worked for her yet, and until they found it Kara suffered through the pain.
"Darling, I'll be right back okay? I'm not leaving I'm just getting the ice. Stay still." Lena was always afraid of Kara falling of the bed when she was in this state. It had happened a couple of times, she would try to move while disoriented and ended up on the floor, so Lena usually didn't leave Kara for too long.
Lena didn't take long to get the ice, only a few minutes. Kara was still in the same place, her face filled with pain, Lena could barely take the sight of it.
"Hey I'm here, I'm going to put it on your back now, if it's too much just squeeze my hand okay?" Lena put the ice pack on Kara's back and held her hand.
Kara could only nod, but seemed relieved with the cold. It looked like it had helped with the pain and Lena felt relief for the first time that day.
Lena took advantage of the little bit of calm to text Jess a message saying that today was one of those days and she would work from home. Jess already knew what to do when this happened and Lena was relieved she could count on Jess, she felt safe knowing Jess had everything taken care for her, she trusted her.
Lena went through the routine three more times until Kara's pain seemed to lessen. Lena gave her two more pain killers and tucked in bed, so she could try to sleep and rest a little. While she looked after Kara sitting beside her on their bed she worked on her laptop as quietly as possible to not disturb Kara.
Lena had made food for them, but Kara hadn't even been awake long enough to be hungry so Lena ate a little and saved the rest for later.
It was in the middle of the afternoon when Kara began to move beside Lena. She opened her eyes and squinted, the bright lights bothering her. She grumbled a little which caught Lena's attention, she put her laptop on the nightstand and snuggled closer to Kara.
'Hey." Kara murmured as she turned in Lena's direction.
"Hi." Lena smiled to her wife, giving her a little smile with the corner of her mouth.
"Hold me." Kara asked as she extended her arms in her direction, asking for a hug. Lena snuggled to her wife, giving into her solid yet soft arms.
They stayed cuddled together until Kara let go. It was just how it always went. Lena wouldn't let go before her wife, she knew Kara needed the contact and she loved how loving she was.
Xxx
After cuddling with Lena Kara felt better, and she was starving. She started to get up from the bed when Lena woke up.
"Hey where are going?" Lena put a hand to Kara's forearm to stop her.
"To get some food, I'm starving." Kara gave Lena a kiss on the lips while Lena stood up from the bed.
"I heat up the lunch I made for you. And we need to have a talk Kara." Lena said as she left the room.
"Okay."
Kara knew what was coming; they've had this discussion many times before. It wasn't like she wanted to feel pain, but she didn't like to sleep without Lena either.
Her head was throbbing and her body was still sore, her movements were slow and calculated. She transferred to the chair that sat by her bed and went to the kitchen.
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Lena heated up the food she had prepared earlier for Kara and set the table.
She didn't want to upset her wife anymore today, but this behavior had to stop.
Kara got to the kitchen and gave her wife a smile that could light up the room, Lena didn't know how Kara could be smiling after the day she had, but that was Kara, her Kara.
"Thank you honey, this looks good." Kara started eating the pasta Lena had prepared earlier, it was one of her specialties, and Kara loved it.
"Thanks." Lena sat beside Kara and just watched as her wife ate. She adored her, Kara was so beautiful, her tan, smooth skin, her defined muscles and the face of an angel.
"I love you Kar." Lena said loving to her wife, who jerked her head up from the food and smiled at her.
"I love you too Lee, so much. Thank you for taking care of me." Kara said with still a bit of food in her mouth, it should be annoying, but Lena found it endearing.
"You don't have to thank me, you know that. I will always take care of you, you're my wife, the love of my life. I just wish you wouldn't do this anymore. It hurts you so much Kara, why can't you just wake me up and we can sleep together in the bed?" Lena had to insist, having to watch Kara in agonizing pain hurt her heart.
"I know Lee. It's just… I don't like to wake you up, you need to rest you work too much. And I can't leave you sleeping there alone. But I know you're right, and I promise next time I'll wake you." Kara took Lena's hand and squeezed it hard, she was being sincere, she would really try, because she really didn't like going through of all this, and make Lena go through it too.
"I really hope so Kara. I don't mind you waking me up; I really don't and prefer it than all of the consequences you have to go so I can sleep without being disturbed. Come here." Lena pulled Kara closer and gave her a passionate kiss.
After finishing dinner they went back to bed, Kara was still weak. They decided to watch a series in their bed today. They fell asleep cuddle up together, having barely watched what they'd selected.