Chapter 2: My Origin (Part II)

On the very next day after my yesterday's reflected thoughts alone, I couldn't help, but wonder why...

Why must my life be in total danger and everything I knew... was soon going to fall apart through a transcend in time?

'Why do I get the feeling that something will corrupt, and the devastation will soon come to pass?' I bitterly thought in depth, shutting my eyes into the black.

I was lying in bed, thinking deadly in my mind. For some reason, I couldn't sleep well overnight after seeing one glance... at my Hikari. I hissed as I felt a side burn through my head... It was a complete unknown mystery as to why I sensed it along with whispers that I wished not to listen.

'Honesty, the case of sensing something in the future telling me that there are rude people profanity me for two years could be such a pain to me. Why this though that I sense bad trouble lurking within as my life gets darker and even... I was not the same I used to be like back in my youth like years?' I sighed, placing my face buried with the pillows. 'I couldn't help, but wonder who the voices are, according to the time frame era. Why do I get the feeling it's going to be disturbing with... something with children? Are children... really are decent... after all? I felt like it's a lie though about children sometimes that they could be innocent at young age and should be good in school... I know I taught kids in school in my later times after graduating as a mix specialist teacher and principal for Board of Education and work in service in need, but this... What I sense later in time doesn't fit well as to what I'm going to expect in the next time I teach for schooling. Why do I get the feeling that there's... a consequence in price?'

I rolled within the sheets, burying myself more into the covers. I couldn't prevent myself from tossing and turning for two hours straight as I thought in anger. After one hour later, I scowled in irritation as I stared upward upon the rotation of my ceiling fan, growling the fact at what was heard in my ears about... my unwellness... at least, what was heard from afar through my Millennium Eye over my forehead.

'It makes me wonder why am I going through this alone? Why am I going through a hell like life and the worse fear in my forewarning is getting closer to the edge? I know in my beginnings was unclear and sense small known, but... What am I that I tried to prevent it from occurring... at least, something with a block... and empty feeling in... my heart? Will I... ever be... the same... even more... or is it... goodbye? Sadly, I wish not to say goodbye to my feelings of my heart that used to feel sense well with life and friendship, but what is it with the fact of a shadow that's square and my heart holed inside? Could in time that something horrible worst happened to me because of... that case?'

I closed my eyes softly and started drift off to rewind to the unknown time when I was at birth... and when I first met them as well.

Before the time I was going to first live in Domino City, Japan, it was a lost long time ago that I was only born young adult too soon... within a black unknown realm. The realm was unknown in the mystery of time and slowly puzzled as 'The Shadow Realm'. According to the case of my journal in origin, the mystery of my birth is actually a key and gives information about the historic tale of my life. From the beginning, the mystery of life only flashed with a quick hyper-speed lines with a twenty second fold time in max drive. The time was on fast approach and since then, the lost of the start of the gateway was sealed away until solved further. It was missing for vital years until... I wasn't assured as to when it occurs. Since the dawn of era, there was no fact or a trace within to find the missing link that knows and was the last to remember anything in history alone. It was said they can't find a way to see their puzzle solved, but only one person could and was among them as well. There was no doubt that they could not find a trace... until such time will tell further.

I immediately... awoke from my slumber, seeing the blank orange like aurora in glow of the sun.

I realized it was dawn less... and I slept without no food to assumption at all.

I must have dreamt too much in thought of my memories... than I thought I would. I guess... it was sad... after all.

'What could this be... that I know better... about myself alone?' I thought in bitterness and sadly in tears in the dark as the sun set to dusk by the rising of the sun. 'Why don't they realize it was not easy to say alone? I can't hide as I...'

I paused from my trailed thoughts and was interrupted by a sound of a door that creaked within... my room alone.

I blinked. What could this be and why... did I hear such a case?

I shifted my body position to sit up as to who it was:

It was a man in shorts and said, "Sweetheart, you okay? What's wrong... and you... returned... You alright?"

I muted in silence. I realized... my heart was beating in happiness. "Hey, how are you? You alright?"

"Why? What's wrong? You okay alone...? Look, help me... What's wrong... when you returned... alone... without I? You worry me too much... You okay?!" He gave a... sad tone when I cried about a sad typing unknown as he asked why about this as I figured... he would.

What am I alone... as well?

Does he love me... no matter what, he says?

He cares, but why... alone... since our birth together?

As stood there less in motion, he was sad to see I was unwell about time itself, and I couldn't help, but asked sadly as to who he would say who alone. The who, apparently, was the timeline and know it was lost in source. I couldn't believe he believed me, I briefly worded in time ago as I cried more to the setting sun. He whispered later and left to take a drink of milk alone. He wanted to return to say he will check me within an hour after that. He simple worded out he needed to find a small brown and wonder where to eat it from... another time later. I raised an eyebrow and spoke if it was asking about a coffee in a bottle, but I refused to answer why so and where I know that in years time of today. I sobbed as he... fall apart about this news from past to my future time... by just sadly taking him in a hug... although... something was unwell about I.

As the sun shifted to dusk to black night, throughout five to eight hours later after, there was several unknown parts that I couldn't explained further on, a sad case that didn't sound well that sounded offlines and... tragic profanity within. I couldn't help, but sighed in irritation after some minutes of giving the explanation to the people that was bustled within... my residence. I couldn't say why it was that after all, but apparently, I was... rather more in muteness as I got unwell in frustration and horrified at what the life done to me from it straight on phenomenon from what the stream has done by my typing.

'To what is this... that my typing in time would cause an effect to straight line towards an unknown future, giving a sense of clues in scrambles? Deep down, I'm so depressed about this all that the journal's curse and its bindings really inflicted me in danger and it's ruining my life worse than before. Why must it be this for my life forevermore? How could I go through this from its spell bindings for eternity? If only there was out of the curse of its phenomenon and echoes that crashed my lifetime since my start. Why this though that I had to go through this alone and know... the situation at hand and its sad logic? If only I... could save and spare myself in life.'

For the rest of the nighttime, I was told to keep awake and to not see the fact in bed if there was something unknown in my thoughts... and they were in suspicion about my behavior. As I explained in a struggle, they were rather in disappointment that I was not in talk as I conversate in my case of my bad mysterious attitude and my fight in argument. I was rather underneath in thought pissed off about it when they continued to prod further of my actions. I was furious, steamed, and had enough of it all that they enforced to get me at speak. I tried to attempt my giving explanation towards them that I was not pleased about what they want alone. When each wanted to know why with this, I couldn't say more, due to the direction of the journal's unknown sudden directions. I quick fast my pace afterwards, more came in to ask about my conditions and questions were rising throughout the buzz like of my home.

They were small about me and later left after one in A.M time in give up and surrender.

I groaned yet pleased that I was alone again in silence.

I sighed heavily through the dark.

'Finally, at freedom and peace... since they were gone. Gee, all because of the journal's cause of its curse and the echoes the went straight phenomenon to a clear mind link. In honesty, I wish there was a way to free from the curse itself and its binds. I can't deny it was not easy to survive my way through life with it at all. But then again, it was a mystery in question as to why I didn't know the source why... but... I cannot deny that the life was closing in and tearing my life apart in misery and woes. I'm falling apart and my life is at stake. How could I survive and breathe with this all?'

"I need to sleep though... and face the next day. Hopefully, things will get well," I stated tiredly.

I rolled myself underneath the covers of my bed.

It's been a long day... and maybe, after sleeping, I'll get well to a better fresh start of the day.

I yawned and closed my heavy-lidded eyes.

Good night now and see you next time.

[To be continued...]