PHOSPHENE AND PHOSPHORUS
Introduction
She had several faces: one for her brother, one for her family, one for her friends, one for her fans. A darling little girl with a sweet smile to charm and a kind voice to whisper niceties she never meant.
She showed him none of that façade: she bared herself as a monster before him, letting him listen to the sounds of her mind—every thought and urge, every taunt and cry, every worry and delusion. And so, it goes: when he witnessed it all in full, no other form of love could even be called love anymore, without him feeling ashamed.
"Yours," he moaned in her mouth, "I'm all yours."
This is what he likes to think is the pinnacle of affection, a true love; mad, terrible, and beautiful—tearing through them both, like a parasite that gnawed ugly circles through flesh and bone, or a plague that spared not a single citizen in a nation. The hunger feeds, and feeds, and feeds; leaving them in nothing but the nakedness of their own sin.
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[Kira!Dawn]
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hello! Welcome to the fic. This is actually an AU of an AU: it's a fanfic of my main Death Note fanfic, God is not a puppeteer. If you're interested, you can go check that one out. Note that this fic in particular is dependent on it, although you don't really have to read it in its entirety to understand what's going on here. Still, it would be nice to hear any thoughts you might have about either of them ((:
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One thing to remember: I had the idea for this fic at a time of post-nut clarity (but that's not the point). I just really wanted to have an excuse to write Teru, because he's so babygirl. I know a lot of people have conflicted feelings about this man, but personally, I am so down to get dirty with him.
He's prime whump material—THIS IS JUST ME BEING HELLA SELF-INDULGENT WITH HIS CHARACTER AAAAAAA
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This takes place after the LABB arc—roughly around the same time Dawn/María returns from the States [oof, small spoiler]. She's fourteen at the beginning of this fic (November 2001), and fifteen when the Kira killings start (October 2002).
As of today (25 March, 2024), LABB hasn't been posted in the main story. So, there are things in here that have yet to make sense :P
But I couldn't stop myself from writing this, so. Here I am.
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Now, about our protagonist. One, she has the Death Note. Two, it's still María in control.
Obviously, there's a bunch of things that've changed in here, like the timeline of the 'main' shinigami coming to the human world; but other details (such as Sachiko and Sayu's deaths, Masao and Kamiko's presences, et cetera) are still the same.
Moreover, I'm writing this so there aren't much spoilers for Puppeteer—but that doesn't necessarily mean it won't be free of them. However, when there are certain events from the main AU being referenced in this fic, they would be vague. This is very dependent on Puppeteer, especially with backstory. Again…read at your own irritation, I suppose.
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Lastly, and this is very important: this fic contains dead dove. There'll be a warning at the beginning of each chapter so as to signal readers who might not want to see that, but I just wanted to put that label out there. So, er, yes. That's it. If you don't wish to read, then don't. I'm not judging ((: