AN: Had to write this while it was still in my head! I really enjoyed writing this story.
You sit on your bed with your feet up, bored and anxious. It was a waiting game now, 8 months pregnant and on bed rest until your baby decides to make an appearance. It had been a very difficult pregnancy; the father of the baby deciding to abandon you and the horrific morning sickness that had gone along with that! Not to mention the cravings... pickles, chocolate, olives and cheese! The only light in all of this had been your friends, especially Olivia's unwavering love and support from the moment she found out! You lay there in bed propped up on pillows as you think back to the day you found out and your whole life changed.
"Y/N is everything ok in there?" Olivia knocked on the bathroom stall as you finish vomiting for the 6th time this shift, it had been going on for a month or so on and off! A sickness bug surely... both you and your partner had been careful whenever you were intimate.
"Liv... I'm fine it's just a stomach bug. I'm ok... really!" You say hoarsely and throw up into the toilet again, resting your cheek against the seat and whimpering again. This felt awful, you'd never been this sick in your life and you know that Olivia is getting worried too; you hear her open the stall door that you hadn't locked and you feel her gentle hand rubbing your back. Immediately you feel safe and at ease; Olivia's here now and she'll know what to do! She always does.
"Honey... you've been sick for a month now and you've lost quite a bit of weight. Nick and Fin came to tell me that this is the 6th time or so that you've been in here today, I am so worried about you! Here, have some Gatorade... that'll get some electrolytes into you system, young lady!" She says soothingly and you can't help but grin from ear to ear; she was always there for you through everything and was the mom that you had always wanted and needed.
"Thanks Liv..." You take small sips of the drink and lean your head back against the stall wall, your body shaking through sheer exhaustion and you feel Olivia's hand stroke your hair and press a small kiss your head. You can tell that she's pondering over what to say to you next and you move closer to her, you're so close to her that you're almost in her lap.
"Y/N... I know you said that you think it's a stomach bug but I've never known a bug to last this long, is there anyway that you could be pregnant? I know that you and your partner have been seeing each other for a while now..." Olivia trailed off, providing so much love and support that you feel like you can tell her everything.
"I don't know Liv... I mean we've had sex... a lot!" You blush, absolutely mortified at discussing your sex life with her! It felt like your were telling your own Mama, however Olivia just smiled lovingly at you and wrapped a soothing arm around you.
"It's ok... you can tell me! You have nothing to be embarrassed about, I care about you and your well-being Y/N!" She said softly and you take a deep breath, getting the courage to continue with what you're saying.
"We use protection and I'm on the pill as well but I know it's not full proof... I'm really scared Liv!" You admit softly, biting your lip and sinking into her arms when she wraps you up in a hug. The both of you still sitting on the bathroom floor, Olivia whispering sweet nothings into your ear.
"Honey... the first step is getting you to do a pregnancy test. There's no point in worrying until that's done and if you are pregnant then I'll be right by your side no matter what you decide to do ok?" She soothed you and held you upright; you were so tired from being so ill and you vaguely remember her telling Elliot that he was in charge whilst you were both gone. She had taken you out to the car and had driven to a Walgreens, she had gone in with you and picked up a couple pregnancy tests. Olivia had wrapped an arm around you as you trembled slightly, whispering soothing words and empowering you in a way only Olivia could. It was after you had paid for them that the nerves had really kicked in, you ran out of the store and vomited all over the sidewalk. You were mortified by it until you felt Olivia rubbing your back and whispering to you, also protecting you from the judgemental gazes of other people crowding around.
"Shhh... I know. Get it all out, sweetheart! That's it, good girl... let's go back to mine and do the test. Remember I'm right by your side!" Olivia had cooed, lovingly taking you back to her car and opening the windows to let in some fresh air whilst she drove you both to her apartment. It had felt like hours until she pulled up, gently opening the passenger door and pulling you out as though you're a frightened child.
"Come on baby, you've got this! Let's find out for sure, come here Y/N!" She whispered and gently took your hand in hers, allowing you to cling to her as you walk up to the safety of her apartment. She locked the door behind her and took you to her bathroom, gently handing you a pregnancy test.
"You have to wait a few minutes for the results Y/N, would you like me to wait outside?" Olivia said gently and you firmly shake your head, you didn't want her to leave you!
"No, stay Liv please!" You whimper and she takes a hold of your hand, giving you privacy whilst you complete the test. These few minutes feel like hours and you look down, your breath catching in your throat and your eyes filling with tears.
"Liv it's positive... I'm pregnant!"
You come around from the memory and blink back tears as you remember that moment. How you had cried on Olivia's lap, how she had rubbed your tummy even though it was still obviously flat and the way she had kissed your cheeks and told you that everything would be alright, that you were in control of the situation. It had taken a few days to make your mind up that you were keeping this baby no matter what and when you told Olivia she was ecstatic, she picked you up and gently hugged you.
"I am so damn proud of you!" She had cooed in your ear, lovingly whispering words of encouragement as you sunk into that feeling of being comforted by your close friend, the woman who was more of a mother to you than your own. It was when you had told your partner about the pregnancy two months later that it had gone wrong. Huge tears slide down your cheeks as you remember the absolute mess it had caused.
He had come to the Precinct after you had texted him to meet you here. You were a nervous wreck when you saw him, gently leading him into the soft interview room. You could see Olivia keeping an eye on you from a distance but this was something that you had to do on your own. You shut the door behind you and you gesture for him to take a seat, he seems so unbothered that you begin to feel sick.
"So, why am I here? I have other things to do!" He says loudly and your lip begins to shake slightly, you feel your phone buzz and you look down slightly and see a text from Olivia.
"Is everything ok in there? I am on the verge of coming in and slapping him x" You read her text and look up, nodding your head slightly to indicate that you were ok... for now at least.
"I... I... I'm three months pregnant!" You say quickly, determined to just rip the band aid off. He goes silent and then the rage comes; he leaps forward and you stumble backwards, your arms resting over your small bump.
"Get rid of it! Do you hear me? Get fucking rid!" He snarled and you burst into tears; he'd always been a bit selfish but never like this! You just want Olivia... that's all that goes through your mind in this moment, you just want her!
"Livvvvvvvvv!" You scream at the top of your voice, running to her when she comes storming into the room. She cradled you in a huge hug whilst your heart breaks, you just lay your head on her chest and close your eyes. You just try not to sob as you feel her heartbeat against your face.
"Shhh... Shhh..." Olivia cooed before turning her anger onto your boyfriend who was scaring you half to death. You feel Olivia's fingers stroke your hair and you also hear Elliot screaming at him; clearly Olivia had told him that you were pregnant which was ok and you didn't mind, he was like a surrogate father to you.
"Get this piece of shit out before I break his jaw!" Olivia yells and gently rubs soothing circles on your tummy, not just trying to soothe you but also the baby growing in your stomach. You cry out in anguish, you loved this man and you thought that he'd always be here for you! So to find out all of this was devastating... you just hide your face in Olivia's chest and maybe it's the hormones or the fact that she's making you feel so safe but you utter a word that you never thought you would.
"Mommy..." You wail and you feel her arms tighten around you and Elliot's gasp as he's dragging your now ex boyfriend out of the room. Immediately you're mortified and you hiccup, just wanting the ground to swallow you whole! You only begin to relax when you hear her speak again, one arm around you and the other gently rubbing your tummy.
"Y/N... oh honey. It's ok, it's alright now... you're safe! Mommy's here... Mommy's got you!" She cooed and rocked you back and forth until your heart rate slowed down and you slumped against her, absolutely exhausted.
"You're not alone, sweetheart! You've got me, Elliot, Amanda, Nick, Fin and Alex! So many people love you and will love that baby, everything's going to be ok Y/N!" Olivia cooed and you completely believe her.
You smile softly as you think back to that, you had started calling Olivia Mama or Mommy depending on the situation or how you were feeling and she had been your rock; coming with you to every appointment, getting every single craving you had, holding your hair back when the morning sickness had hit and being there when you had felt like giving up.
As you lay there you hear a popping noise and feel fluid gush from between your legs as well as some cramping in your back and tummy. You begin to freak out, you're not ready yet! It felt too soon... you needed a few weeks yet! You reach for your cellphone and dial Olivia's number, she picks up almost immediately.
"Y/N honey... is everything alright?" She spoke calmly and you can hear her in the background putting on shoes and fumbling for her car keys.
"Mommy... the baby's coming! My waters have broke and my back hurts... also my tummy too!" You burst into tears and you hear Olivia rushing out of the house and getting into her car.
"It's ok, sweetheart. Mommy's coming, you're doing great! It's ok..." Olivia soothed and you can hear her speeding through traffic to get to you, even finding yourself giggling when you hear her scream at another driver.
"Get the fuck out of my way, my baby is going into labour! Move!" You let out a whimper as the contraction hit, this was so uncomfortable!
"I'm almost there, sweetheart! Just hang on in there!" Olivia cooed down the phone, speeding into the parking lot and pulling in. She rushes to the front door, luckily you're on the ground floor so there's no steps to try and get down. You can hear her and waddle to the front door and open it, tears falling down your face.
"Mama!" You cry out and she hugs you tight, very quickly looking for your bag that you've had ready for the last couple of days. She takes it in one hand and you in the other, helping you get to the car gently and whispering words of encouragement.
"You're doing so well Y/N... Mama's here now, it's ok! Soon we're going to meet that beautiful little girl or boy..." she said softly, putting you in the car and quickly getting in herself. She put on her sirens and sped to the hospital, getting there in record time.
"It's ok!" She soothed, grabbing a wheelchair from outside the entrance and putting you into it. You just whimper and sob; you just want the baby out! You want the baby to be healthy and safe! Olivia wheels you into the hospital and up to the front desk.
"Hi Jess my baby is in labour! The contractions are 5 minutes apart..." Olivia said, quickly checking her watch. The receptionist smiled indulgently; she knew Olivia and yourself very well due to you always being here whether it be on cases or for your appointments. She thought the family dynamic that the whole of SVU had was cute.
"Wheel Y/N into that room there! I'll send a midwife in urgently!" She said calmly and Olivia smiled her thanks, wheeling you quickly into the room and helping you gently onto the bed. She made sure you were comfortable and safe, she held onto your hand and kissed your head.
"You can do this... you can do this darling!" She whispered soothingly.
It was 4 hours of pushing, screaming and swearing when you finally hear both the midwife and Olivia scream 'I can see the head!' That spurs you on all the more, even though your exhausted. You squeeze onto Olivia's hand tightly, if you're hurting her than she doesn't say anything and she just keeps grinning at you.
"Mommy... I'm so tired!" You whimper and push hard, feeling safe when she kisses your forehead.
"I know baby, Mommy's here. You're being so brave... you're so nearly there!" Olivia coos and you push again, gasping when you hear a loud scream and Olivia's tears as well; she was so overcome with emotion seeing that little baby come out.
"Oh Y/N... you've got the most beautiful little girl!" The midwife exclaimed, bundling the newborn up and placing her on your chest. You just burst into tears, seeing her tiny blue eyes open and lock onto yours! She was worth all the pain and all the sickness that you'd had to endure.
"Hello, sweet girl! I'm your Mommy!" You coo down at her, pressing a kiss to her tiny head. You'd never seen anything so beautiful in your whole life and you move the little one closer to Olivia so that she can see her too.
"What do you think?" You say proudly, cuddling your gorgeous daughter close to your chest while Olivia tears up, she's so in love with the little baby on your chest.
"She's gorgeous!" Olivia whispered, gently stroking her head. You hold the little one for a few hours, nursing her and winding her whilst Olivia watches on... she was so in awe.
"I think she wants a cuddle with her Grandma!" You say with a smile and hand her over to Olivia who bursts into tears all over again. If anyone deserves that title then it's her! You watch fondly as Olivia cradles her, you can relax now! You know that your baby is safe.
"Mama... I think I've got a name for her!" You say somewhat hesitantly because you don't know how she's going to react. She just smiles at you, waiting for you to speak and pressing a kiss to the newborn's head.
"Olivia Rose... I really like that name. What do you think?" Your smile growing as Olivia grins so much that you know she doesn't mind. She cradles baby Olivia in one arm and strokes your cheek with the other.
"Oh Y/N I'd be so honoured... Thank you! This is the best gift anyone has given me! Wow, my first grand baby..." Olivia smiles down at her littlest one, so much love overcoming her. You smile again from ear to ear; you know that your baby is going to have the best life! With so many people to love and protect her! She wasn't going to grow up the way you had to, she was going to be loved.