A/N Please forgive any mistakes.

Life isn't so bad

You know it's weird when I returned back to school Friday I was oddly at peace maybe it was because of the talk me and Grimmjow had or maybe it was the overall experience I had with Grimmjow well needless to say it helped me a lot. At school I knew I was being talked about but that didn't matter to me. Shiro kept me company Gin kept me company when Rangiku wasn't hounding him and Neliel definitely kept me company talking me to death before each class. It was nice being at peace. I didn't care what people had to say about me anymore. I knew my truth and I am done being afraid. I went to the cafeteria that day with a pep in my step.

I didn't sit in the corner, I sat at the table Gin and Shiro used to sit at with all the athletes. It surprised the whole cafeteria. Honestly, everyone was looking at me. I didn't care. Shiro sat next to me with Neliel and Gin also at the table and Renji was joining us as well. Everyone conversed with Gin and Shiro as if they were always with them at the table. The football guys joined as well, giving us even more company. It was becoming cramped and we had to put tables together to fit everyone. Neliel smiled as Nnoitra, a tall lanky basketball player, started conversing with her. This was nice, everyone was still staring but I didn't care. I decided to get a chocolate pudding for dessert and told Shiro I'd be back. As I went to the mini pudding fridge, Kugo decided to block my path.

"Sorry, were you trying to get something from here?"

I took deep breaths and gave my best smile, "Yes I was please move."

"You know Ichigo you always surprise me. You get jumped, beat up and you still have a smile on your face hell I had you tongue deep in the cold-"

"She said you were in her way so move."

My eyes got kind of big. Grimmjow never appeared in the cafeteria like ever. So imagine my surprise that here he was threatening Kugo and defending me. Kugo stepped up to Grimmjow and I sort of backed up out of the way I wasn't getting in the middle of that.

"Jagerjaques you sure this is what you want to do?"

Grimmjow grinned that sexy grin that always did things to me, "Ginjo you sure this is what you want to do?"

I looked around and saw people moving to see what was going on. I was starting to feel a panic attack coming. Breathe Ichi please breathe. Fuck I'm hyperventilating and I was doing so good earlier. The tall Nnoitra guy ran and grabbed Grimmjow by the shoulder. For a second I thought he was going to fight Grimmjow but he didn't.

"Grimm this isn't worth it man come on bro."

Are they friends or something? Why didn't I know this? I watched as Grimmjow visibly calmed down and sighed as he gave Nnoitra an appreciated nod and then looked around. He walked past Kugo and got a chocolate pudding out of the fridge. He gave a small smile and pulled me by the waist and walked me back to the table. After that nothing went back to normal. The table was tense. Shiro and Gin were glaring daggers at Kugo but everyone in the cafeteria was looking at Grimmjow as if a rare species just entered the cafeteria.

Grimmjow conversed with the guys as if he knew every single one as if he had a special connection with each of them, a bond if you will. Grimmjow didn't leave me alone for a minute along with Shiro, Gin and Renji on the lookout. At that moment I was as safe as safe could be. I could feel everyone glaring at me and could feel the holes being drilled through me but for some reason I didn't care. With Grimmjow with me I felt free and relaxed.

After lunch Neliel and Grimmjow walked me to class, Shiro and Gin hot on my heels making sure no one tried a sneak attack. Once I was in class everyone said their goodbyes and went to their classes. In class the whispers continued but I just shrugged them off. After my last period I was hesitant to leave. I was still the last one to leave. Months of conditioning to move slow. I walked out only to see Grimmjow waiting outside the room for me. I smiled and walked alongside him as he asked me how class was.

"Oh you know, boring as hell and how were your classes?"

He smiled and shrugged, "Oh you know, annoying as hell."

I know I shouldn't be nosey but fuck it I had to ask why everyone in the cafeteria acted that way towards him. "So umm about the cafeteria, what was that?"

"Oh you see my spidey senses were tingling and I had a feeling that you needed help and," I cut him off by laughing. He looked at me and gave a small smile. "I'm just a cool guy I guess."

Nope not buying it but if he didn't want to tell me I wasn't going to pry. Grimmjow walked me to Shiro's car and waved goodbye. I don't know why I spoke and didn't just wave goodbye but my dumbass had to open my mouth.

"Wait, I was wondering if you wanted to hang tonight with Shiro and the guys plus me of course."

Shiro gave me a confused look and I just glared. He frowned but looked at Grimmjow with a blank face.

"Yeah bro going to get some friends over and hang you down tonight?"

Grimmjow gave a blank stare as well. What was up with men and blank stares? It's annoying as hell. I frowned, just say no if you don't want to hangout it's not that hard.

"Actually I'm pretty busy tonight."

This fucker actually said no what the heck. I looked away trying to hide my disappointment. I gave a brief smile and waved goodbye. Shiro zoomed off and gave me a weird look. I ignored it. I can't believe I just got rejected. Well I mean it wasn't really rejection I mean it was technically I think. Shiro dropped me off at home. He was going to hangout with Gin and go over some new wrestling moves and I was not invited. I rolled my eyes.

That was the only thing they never let me hangout and watch their new wrestling moves. A little bit of my yaoi fangirlness thinks they're totally screwing but the rational side knows they're geeking out watching cartoons and nerd movies along with playing video games. I know because I followed them one time and snuck up a tree and saw them playing games and rating girls boob sizes. They were such guys. I decided to take a long shower, wash my hair and read a book. It was around five in the evening that I got a text from an unknown number.

'Yooo what's your favorite movie?'

Who in the hell is this? I don't do unknown numbers so I happily ignored it until my phone vibrated again.

'Answer the question Ichigo, what's your favorite movie.'

Oh my gosh they knew my name…was it Kugo? No couldn't be right? It vibrated again. I checked it and my face immediately went red.

'How did you not figure out this was Grimmjow geez. I'm asking about your favorite movie because I know you wanted to hang out with me so I'm coming over now. What is your favorite movie?.'

My face was hot. If it got any hotter I would pass out. I started to panic. I didn't have a favorite movie. I just watched cheesy romances…wait I had an idea.

'Well I guess my favorite movie would have to be the twilight saga.'

I didn't get a reply back after that so I disappointedly just continued reading my book. Around six-thirty there was a knock on my door. My heart started beating loudly. No one ever came to the house unless Shiro brought them or he was home. I took a deep breath thinking it was probably Rukia or Shinji trying to ambush me. I walked to the door and opened it ready for the worst and got the absolute best. Standing at my door was Grimmjow, six foot whatever wearing a pair of black jeans and a black jacket. He was carrying bags in his hand and had that sexy grin he always wore.

"So I've never heard of these fucking movies but Neliel had the whole collection in her room so I borrowed them. I bought you some cakes and chocolate as well since I know you like sweets and some juice."

Umm what was happening right now was Grimmjow actually wanting to hangout with me? I thought he was joking when he texted me. I let him in without saying a word and walked him to my room. Thank goodness I cleaned early that day and took a shower. I blushed hard when he took his jacket off revealing his muscles. I never realized how fit and muscular he was. Was I drooling? No couldn't be…maybe. I took his jacket and laid it on the side and grabbed the movies.

So I should have talked but I was so tongue tied and I didn't know what to say. All I had was a full size bed too but it was against the wall so we just leaned against the wall and put the snacks on my orange night stand. While I was thinking, Grimmjow removed his shoes and sat down on the bed waiting for me to put the movie on. My mouth sometimes didn't know when not to speak.

"What is this? You say you're busy and then text me saying you knew I wanted to hangout with you which was a lie btw." Yes I said btw I am so lame. "Oh and another thing, how did you get my number exactly?"

Grimmjow chuckled and I swear my heart leaped a little in my chest.

"Well I was busy getting these goodies for you and I had to get some stuff done at my place. And cut the bullshit Ichigo you know I know you wanted to hangout with me I know I'm awesome. And as for your number I sort of took Nels phone and added you to my contact list."

I gulped, my face was red, it was burning, I was on fire. "Why do all this? Is it because you feel sorry for me?"

He scowled at me, still sexy but it hurt my feelings, "No I don't Ichigo look I like you and I want to be friends with you at the very least I want to get to know you."

My face couldn't get any redder. He gave me his devilish smile and I left it at that and put the movie on. I ate some cake and it was surprisingly good. I honestly wasn't paying attention to the movie. I was stuck on what Grimmjow said. So did he like me or LIKE me? Did he want to be friends or more than friends? Ugh men are so hard to read. After we finished the first movie he gave me a weird look.

"This is the shit you and my sister fangirl over seriously I fucking refuse to watch the other movies."

I laughed. I figured that would be Grimmjow's reaction to the movie. I decided to just put on a show that I was currently watching called switched. I honestly have no idea what it's about. I just have it in the background for when I'm studying or reading. Grimmjow was attentive though his eyes never went to his phone to check if a…girl texted him. Speaking of girls.

"Hey, how many girls have you been with?"

He gave me an incredulous look as if that question amazed him. Obviously I was going to ask sooner than later since I mean I told him everything about me boyfriend wise. And if he wanted to become friends with me he had to start telling me stuff about him.

"Well that came out of nowhere I'd say I've been with my fair share of women. Yes I've had sex before and no I don't have any STD's or anything like that."

I frowned. I wasn't going to ask him all that but the thought of him having sex with other girls I don't know kind of upset me. I decided I wanted to change the subject but I didn't know what. I'm sure I looked constipated with how hard I was thinking of changing the subject.

"So Ichigo do you play any sports?"

Oh thank goodness he thought of something. I turned to him with a small smile, "Well yes, no I didn't really play sports but when I was younger my mother put Shiro in MMA fighting and me in karate but I do know how to wrestle thanks to Shiro."

"Really I guess I never noticed how toned you were, do you still do it?"

I looked away from him. I wish I did. "Nope I don't I umm quit when I hit my freshmen year. I wanted to focus on girl stuff."

I heard him sigh and then stand up. I was confused but he turned to me and got into a stance. I frowned as he flexed his muscles and stretched his back. I don't know how this man doesn't get jumped by women from the pure sexiness he displays.

"Well come on then attack me Ichigo lets see how good you are against me."

I looked him dead in the face and got out of the bed. Was I actually doing this was I going to attack Grimmjow? Just as I got in a stance, Grimmjow's phone went off. I honestly started to almost curse the person on the phone. He rolled his eyes and answered but he answered it in a totally different language. My body felt like it was on fire as he spoke in words I couldn't understand. He sounded angry as he hung up but then looked at me with a shit eating grin.

"Well I gotta go, my dad is being a dad right now. What are you doing tomorrow?"

Going to see my therapist, wallowing in self pity, hating my life the usual honestly. "Oh nothing really I have a…doctors appointment tomorrow morning but that's about it."

Grimmjow looked like he was thinking then turned to me after getting his jacket back on and shoes. "I'll come pick you up from your appointment tomorrow just text me the address and the time you need to be there."

I couldn't even say anything as Grimmjow left he didn't even have me escort him out he just waved and left. I locked the door just in time to see him give me one last glance before leaving. I couldn't help but smile throughout the whole night. Even during dinner with my family I was smiling ear to ear. I finally had something nice to write in my journal.

November 15th 20xx

So Grimmjow is amazing. He is most definitely my knight and shining armor. He is so hot and sweet and I am so happy I met him. He saved me from Kugo today and he watched twilight much to his dismay and bought me goodies. Perfect boyfriend ... .I mean if he was my boyfriend which he isn't I probably not even his type. With him around though life doesn't seem so bad

A/N It's Spring Break!. Please comment and review. Tell me what you like about it, tell me what you don't. Thank you so much for all your support. Just look at my Parent Life A/N on chapter 11 or The Nanny A/N on chapter 6. I appreciate the support and Night I'm exhausted. I just uploaded four stories. Alrighty bye!