WRONG DECISIONS
Disclaimer: The Cullen's, the Swans, and most of the characters mentioned in the story that are known from Stephanie Meyer's beloved Twilight Saga, are all hers and hers alone. I neither have nor wish to pass them off as mine. I do appreciate the fact that she did bring them to life and allows us to play with them in our imaginations. The only thing I will claim is the current storyline.
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"You both know that I'm working to remove myself as much as possible from the illegal side of the family business and working to dealing with only our legal stuff. I'm doing this because I'm going to get my wife back and this is the only way to do so." And, with that said, Edward turned and left the kitchen in the family home where Esme had cornered him.
CHAPTER 4: EDWARD'S MEMORIES
Edward stood staring out the large ceiling to floor window of his office remembering the last time he and Bella had been together. It was as if it all had happened yesterday since he could still feel the softness of her skin, still smell the scent of her body wash and shampoo, still remember the taste of her on his tongue, still remember the whispered sighs of her as they made love, still remember her expressions as she came completely undone as they both found completion together, and still remember the sadness that was in her eyes on the day the courts declared they no longer had a marriage.
As Edward reached this point in his thoughts his mind took him on a walk of remembering the events that had gotten him to where he was now.
The last few hours that he had spent with Bella he realized would stay with him for the rest of his life. He had been trying, true, off and on, even before Edward and Bella had married, to turn his side of the family business into more legal ventures. But in all honesty, he had to admit to himself that he was only half-heartedly working on it.
The thrill of knowing that you were able to be at your worst according to the law and still be able to get away with whatever you chose to do gave a special elation to mind and the emotions. Your family was the rulers of all they surveyed, and no one could stop them from doing anything they wanted to do.
And, I did have legitimate businesses that I managed, and it was decided that I would be responsible for bringing a more legal-looking face to all of the other businesses that each member of the family owned. So, I worked at it doing just that off and on when I wasn't enjoying the other aspects of being part of an untouchable family.
Of course, when I met Bella, I began making more of an effect to have more of a legal front since I didn't want her to know too much about the opposite side of the family dealings. Surprisingly, it seemed that Bella wasn't truly aware of my infamous family and as I introduced myself to her my last name didn't really make an impression upon her. It flowed passed her like water off of a duck's back.
Isabella Swan had such an air about her that I couldn't get enough. She drew me into her like a magnetic drawing metal to it, or a moth to the flame with me being the moth and her definitely being the flame. I had to have her, so our romance led to marriage, and I was in total bliss until she did become aware of the family business.
That awareness came innocently because of the late-night business that had to be taken care of from time to time, but when it became more than a once in a while thing her questions began.
I told her that my side of the business was dealing more with the legal instead of the illegal side of things, but I did eventually get caught in my own lies, although not all of what I told her about the business I managed was a lie. And despite of my reassurances to her things started to snowball out of control and Bella made her feelings known to me.
Bella did tolerate my lateness and the late-night phone calls which pulled me away from home up to a point until they became more frequent and then that was the first stage of failure.
That was when Bella had made her demands and fears known, he knew then that he had to work harder to bring his side of things totally on to the legal side of things. She had made it very clear that she wouldn't be happy to continue their marriage with anything less.
Another book tour came up and I thought the favor that my dad asked me to do would be taken care of without Bella's knowledge. Little did I know that that was what was going to lead to shit hitting the fan.
I had no idea that Bella had made a surprise visit from her book tour and found the woman asleep in our apartment. Not until she left me and let me know that she had found the woman asleep in our bed instead of staying in one of the guest rooms. That was something that even I didn't know about until Bella informed me that it had happened.
The escort that Carlisle had arranged to spirit the woman out of harm's way had arrived at our apartment before my return and took her immediately. There had been no signs left of where she had slept, so my ignorance became part of my marriage's undoing. Once Bella told me what she had seen, I had nothing that I could say that would have helped the situation.
It was too little, too late and I had pushed my luck too far for Bella to be able to deal with any more excuses or promises. I had made too many promises and done too little about them by thinking that I had time and could hide a lot of things from her.
She left and got a place of her own, and that was okay with me as I honestly thought that if I gave her time and space that she would come around enough to allow me a chance to make things up to her. In fact, that was what my parents had advised me to do as well, however, we all soon realized how mistaken we had been in our thinking; I was served with divorce papers.
My attorney was able to get the judge to give some extra time to give us a chance to work out our problems, but Bella was set in what she wanted. She had told me many times, after finding out about our family being a mafia business, that she didn't want to have to live with the fear of what might happen to me or to herself or any children we would have in the future.
She didn't want to have to worry about opening the door to find the police or some other law enforcement agency standing there ready to arrest me for anything that our family might have done.
And she was determined that none of our children were going to enter into the 'family business' as she dubbed it. She refused to risk their lives in any way or any form that might arise from that side of my life.
Of course, we had been ordered to try marriage counseling and then to return to the court in six months. But there was a lot that couldn't be said to an outside source, so that right there tied our hands and give us almost no chance at all.
To give credit where credit is due, Bella's attorney managed to get us together one more time before the six months were up for Bella and me to discuss any possible reconciliation and that came to a sudden halt with the first question that Bella asked me. "Are you through with the family business?" I knew immediately that my answer to that question was the finish of all my dreams of the future with my beloved wife.
All it took was one look from Bella at my face for her to receive an answer. She had always been able to read me like a favorite book. I didn't have to say anything, and I wasn't going to say anything that was a lie, so she knew. And, with that knowledge she gathered her things together and left without saying another word. That was the last I saw of her until just before we entered the courtroom for the judge to deliver his verdict. My marriage was dissolved against my wishes.
I did try to talk her out of the divorce before we entered the courtroom, knowing the whole time that it was a futile effort. She wasn't going to change from her original declarations.
I did manage to get a note passed to her before the judge made his announcement asking her to meet with me at our apartment one last time. I did get lucky as she agreed. Then once she arrived, I told her to take whatever it was that she might still want even though she had left it behind when she had first left.
Also, I told her about the amount of money that I would be depositing into a bank account in her name. There was no way that I was going to let my wife do without. I took my responsibilities seriously. She had told me and the court that she didn't want anything from me, but that wasn't going to stop me from making sure that she was taken care of.
Standing there watching her look around with a thoughtful frown on her face, my heart was breaking. It felt as if it was slowly bleeding out and that nothing but the woman standing before me could stop it. I had lost her, never to feel the warmth of her love or body, never to be able to hear her laughter or see the sparkle in her eyes as they were filled with nothing but love and longing for only me.
Without thought I walked over to her without any conscious thought as to what I was doing to only begin to let my hands roam up and down her arms. She turned around to tell me to stop I'm sure and that was when all thought left both of us and instinct along with love took over. Our emotions led us both to what we wanted; what our hearts, our bodies and love desired and demanded.
While still kissing Bella, I lifted her up to begin walking toward our bedroom as she wrapped her legs around my waist without thought or hesitation. Then once in the bedroom it didn't take long to get rid of all of the clothing, we each had been wearing.
I broke the kiss so we could draw breath, but I continued leaving small kisses along her neck and shoulders as I was slowly walking her backwards to the bed. At one point Bella did try to speak, but I suddenly stopped her by kissing her once more because I didn't want to give her time for reality to catch up with us that would ruin the mood and using the tip of my tongue running it around her lips to be able to gain entrance into her mouth. And, as she opened her mouth, I began the sexual battle with her tongue only to be rewarded with a moan which was expressing her mounting excitement.
As we reached the edge of the bed, I slowly began to lower her down onto the bed itself. Then once I have us securely laying on the bed, I begin a more complete assault on her senses.
I'm squeezing very gently her breasts as I kiss and lick my way from her mouth, her neck, and her shoulders down to her twin mounts. I pinch one nipple as I suckle the other and then switch over to the other to suck on it as I pinch the opposite nipple.
As her moans and groans become more pronounced, I move down to circle my tongue down around to her belly button, swirling my tongue around it and dipping in it from time to time which elicits even more groans alone with a tossing of her head from side to side with trying to manage the rapid rising tension her body is feeling. This is always the way my Bella responds so perfectly to my ministrations to her body and the playing of her emotions.
As I work my way lower still, I begin running my fingertips up and down her thighs as I'm nudging them to spread completely open for me. I reach her clit where I lick, flick my tongue and bite until her first orgasm is reached.
As she's riding the wave of release, I position myself to enter the point of her body that will join us together as one and begin moving slowly and gently in order to build the sexual tension for her once again to bring on another orgasm.
Feeling the tightening of her muscles around my member tells me that she is nearing another orgasm the same as I'm close to reaching my own release. Then suddenly I fall over the edge.
After Bella had achieved her second release, she slowly closed her eyes to rest as I lay next to her just watching her, soaking up her beauty and committing everything about her and this moment to memory as I knew that this would be the last time, I would be able to be with her ever again.
As time passed Bella and I came together again three or four more times before she finally gave in to exhaustion. I wanted to remain beside her but knew that that wasn't an option because knowing my Bella like I did, she would be up and giving me hell for what we had done. So, I got up, got dressed and left the apartment since I couldn't manage for these final memories to be spoiled by anger and accusations. I took the coward's way out and that was the last I saw of my darling wife. I say my darling wife because that's what she will always be to me no matter what the courts declared.
I wanted to find out how well Bella was doing privately, instead of having to depend on the media and the internet which made mention of her as she releases a new book, but I dared not to send anyone to check up on her.
I had noticed that her tours have become almost nonexistent, and I would like to know why. However, I have no way of asking her since I made every effort not to try to locate her.
In the beginning, I did try to keep track of her, but soon she seemed to have just dropped out of sight and off the face of the earth. At least, she did for a while and I wondered if our last time had produced results, but quickly let go of that idea as she released a new book during that period. I felt that that explained why she had disappeared from sight for a while.
AN: We now have Edward's point of view about what went wrong in the marriage. We also have an insight as to where his thoughts had gone when Bella dropped out of sight for a while.
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