The Ball Flash Back (still dreaming)
"Do not show fear, you are safe with this Sesshomaru, although he does retain his pride, do not make him such a fool on this night," Sesshomaru lowly whispered in her ear before they walked in. Kagome let Sesshomaru lead her in the gorgeously decorated room filled with yokais of all different breeds. She carried herself as gracefully as Sesshomaru had done all his life, she could hear all kinds of whispers as she walked past them with her hand feathering over Sesshomaru's clawed hand, one yokai female lashed out at Kagome, her barrier went up, burning the female panther's paw.
"You're a miko, our lord has no business with such thing, look, you already have caused our lord harm," the panther yokai pointing, Kagome looked at Sesshomaru's hand and arm, she had burnt him with her powers.
"Milord, I'm so sorry," Kagome healing his wounds, he smelt tears,
"You were just protecting yourself, do not cry, you have healed this Sesshomaru, you did well," Sesshomaru cupping her face with his clawed hand, gently he kissed Kagome on the lips, right there in front of everyone, even in front of the panther female, she was appalled by what was happening.
"Guards, the woman has disrespected this Sesshomaru and Lady Kagome, she shall be banished from this land," Sesshomaru explained,
"Of course Lord Sesshomaru," the guards taking the woman out. Kagome's lips tingled, she licked her lips and tasted him still lingering, Sesshomaru noticed that she was tasting him on her lips and for some reason he took pleasure from it.
"Shall we?" Sesshomaru offering her his clawed hand again, she looked at him, he read her emotions in her eyes,
"You wont harm me again, this Sesshomaru has been around you long enough to trust you," Sesshomaru explained. Slowly she placed her hand in his and they took a walk to the garden for some needed fresh air. Silence was deafening,
"Maybe this was a bad idea," Kagome mumbled out loud,
"Lady Kagome, your powers saved you because you were being attack, you had no intention of harming this Sesshomaru," Sesshomaru strongly pointed out.
"Why didn't you try to stop her, this is your home," Kagome a little harshly. Sesshomaru stared at the House of Moon flower, a flower that only budded when the night sky held the crescent moon, he picked one and gave it to Kagome,
"You and this Sesshomaru are a lot like this flower, it only shows its true colors when there is a crescent moon hanging in the sky, you needed to be shown that you possess strength, you do not need the half breed or I to protect you all the time, you are your own person, not a copy as the half breed see you, but you hide behind him, you have shown your true colors tonight, besides, this Sesshomaru needed to show all of them that you weren't a worthless, weak human and this Sesshomaru is never showing his true colors unless he allows himself to actually drop his guard when he truly sleeps," Sesshomaru sitting down on the bench.
"I've noticed you don't sleep very much," Kagome's eyes running with tears, Sesshomaru looked up, he could smell her tears, he walked over to her, drying her face with his knuckles,
"What do you cry for?" Sesshomaru confused,
"You see me, not as anyone else, I mean Inuyasha…" Kagome being interrupted,
"The half breed does not care about you, he left you for dead, he saved the dead whore, when will you learn that he never cared for you, you know that deep down, you need to realize that, the sooner you do, the better off you will be, I have never compared you to anyone, I have judged you for what you are, and you are the purest, selfless, strongest miko I have ever met, I know you have that strength in you, you have never been given a chance to show your true strength because you have always counted on the half breed to defend you in battle," Sesshomaru explained in a monotone voice.
"Why, what do you gain from it, do you want me for yourself?" Kagome harshly, Sesshomaru got right in her face and stared her down.
"You do not separate yourself from him, you will be killed, you may possess strength, but he chose Kikyo, he chose her a long time ago, he will do anything she asks even if it means sucking your soul out of your body, you do not have the strength to kill him," Sesshomaru growling a little.
"I would take him out if it comes to that," Kagome harshly.
"You love him, you care for him, you probably always will, he is still considered as your friend right?" Sesshomaru asked. Kagome stared at him,
"Yes," Kagome hissed,
"Then you know in your heart that you could not kill him…even if your life depended on it," Sesshomaru lowly whispered. Kagome searched his eyes,
"Are you trying to tell me that you care about me?" Kagome still searching for a clue in his eyes.
"This Sesshomaru could not let you die for the sake of Rin," Sesshomaru walking away from her a little. Kagome was astonished, he cared for Rin, it meant he did care for someone in this world.
"You care a lot for Rin, its good, it means you have a good heart, means that those walls you built, she has somewhat cracked them, it is a good thing to care for someone, it will not make you weak as you think it will, you look at Rin as one of your pack members, but if you ask me I think you look at her as your own flesh and blood," Kagome explained. Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes at Kagome,
"Rin came upon me when the half breed managed to cut my arm off, she was never afraid of this Sesshomaru and she tried to care for him when he was injured, this Sesshomaru gave her life back to her in return, and she has chosen to stay by my side since," Sesshomaru stoically in a monotoned voice. Kagome nodded,
"It seems as you are like the rest of the human population, you do not realize what you have till it is gone," Kagome a bit harshly.
"This Sesshomaru does realize how much Rin means to him, it is no one else's business but mine alone, come, the night is not over for us," Sesshomaru holding out his clawed hand for her, Kagome stared him down and took his hand, they walked into the huge grand room, Sesshomaru sat in his spot as Kagome sat at a table by herself.
"Would you like some hot sake, milady?" a servant asked,
"Please, I'm not worthy of such a title, its just Kagome, or miko as Lord Sesshomaru would call me outside the walls of the castle," Kagome mumbled as she glanced at Sesshomaru, he appeared to be watching everyone dance from his high pedestal.
"Milady, you are so sad," the servant observed and so did Sesshomaru at least out of the corner of his eye, Kagome smirked,
"Its because I have such a big heart that I always get my feelings hurt, I don't think I need any more hot sake tonight, but thank you," Kagome looking up at the servant.
"I have seen how our lord interacts with you, I have seen the look in his eyes, perhaps our lord has finally found a nice lady to be by his side," the servant whispered to Kagome has she gave her a small smile. Sesshomaru heard the words of the servant and thought about ripping her head off for such words but he truly had his eyes opened by the servant, by his beast, and by Kagome herself.
~Do you not see she loves unconditionally? Look at the loyalty she bestowed on the half breed, look at how she has stayed by his side throughout her travels, no matter if he didn't love her, she is gorgeous, inside and out, you should tell her so and sweep her off her feet with a dance at least.~ his beast informed him. Sesshomaru stared at her, thinking over his beast's words, Rin was pulling Kagome onto the dance floor, Sesshomaru caught the look on Kagome's face and her eyes had a shine to them as if her smile was reaching to her beautiful brown orbs. Sesshomaru couldn't stop the turning up of his lips, almost a small smile even as he watched the two women currently in his life having fun. A half hour later Rin felt someone tapping on her shoulder,
"May this Sesshomaru have a dance with Lady Kagome?" Sesshomaru all seriously,
"Of course you can daddy, bye Lady Kagome," Rin giggled as she skipped off. Kagome bowed gracefully till Sesshomaru held his hand out for her to take, he placed her hands on his person, Kagome gave him a strange look,
"Do not be so tense milady," Sesshomaru bringing her in closer to him.
"Usually you do not like anyone to soil your person milord," Kagome still tensed,
"Lady Kagome, you are the cleanest creature in this room, and this Sesshomaru just gave you the highest compliment," Sesshomaru seriously. Kagome blushed a little,
"Lord Sesshomaru, I'm sure by now you know I am not from this era, but where I am from it's a nightly tradition to shower," Kagome explained softly. Sesshomaru was just getting lost in the waltz he was doing with Kagome, for some reason all she could concentrate on was golden orbs, they swirled and twirled all over the room. Slowly they slowed down, a servant came over to Kagome and whispered something to her, Sesshomaru didn't miss the shiver that ran down her body,
"Oh, thank you," Kagome tensing up, she subconsciously moved toward Sesshomaru as if asking for protection, then it hit Sesshomaru, Inuyasha was on the premises,
"I'll take care of this," Sesshomaru about to walk away,
"I'll put Rin to bed," Kagome following him,
"Do not worry milady, he will not step foot past the gate," Sesshomaru promised as he swept her hair out of her face and gave her a gentle kiss on the lips and went to handle the half breed. Kagome was stunned, there was a meaning behind that gentle kiss unlike the others he had given her that night. She touched her lips, she didn't know his motives, if he was just playing along with the whole night they had planned, or did he really and truly care for her, not just for Rin but unconditionally? She slowly moved toward the staircase to retrieve Rin, but she fainted, a servant found her moments later and took her to her room and had a healer come to check on her. When Sesshomaru came back in one of his most loyal servants was carrying Rin to bed.
"Where is Lady Kagome?" Sesshomaru getting angry,
"Milord, we found her passed out on the floor beside the stairs, the healers are checking on her as we speak, shall I take Rin to her room?" the servant asked. Sesshomaru nodded,
"The lady is in her room," the servant walking upstairs. Sesshomaru walked toward his room upstairs, just before he got to his room he opened a door. Inside the room a servant was slipping a light night gown over Kagome's head, Kagome was still out. A healer remained in the room, Sesshomaru stared at the healer, he quickly made his way to Sesshomaru, he bowed,
"Milord, it seems she is running a fever, we gave her some herbal tea, we also have checked her wounds from earlier, it seems her powers has finished healing them, we also have thought with her powers healing her wounds for be the cause for the fever, we have done everything we possibly can for her," the healer explained.
"Leave," Sesshomaru in a bad mood from dealing with Inuyasha, the healer quickly bowed and ran out, the servant had finished covering Kagome with fur blankets on her bed, then she walked to the bathing room and a few minutes later came back with a bowl of water and a rag. She sat the bowl on the bedside table and rang out the cloth, Sesshomaru held his hand out for the damp cloth, the servant gave him the cloth,
"This Sesshomaru will be staying in the lady's room tonight," Sesshomaru explained so the servant could leave, she didn't ask any questions,
"Of course milord, our lady is strong," the servant trying to lessen the concerns her lord had for Kagome.
"Leave," Sesshomaru growled, the servant bowed and walked out the door, shutting it behind her, she was met by the guards that were stationed outside Kagome's room. Sesshomaru got comfortable and sat on the bed by Kagome's fevering body. Slowly he rubbed her face down with the damp cloth, her powers were trying to flare up at him, but as soon as her powers licked at Sesshomaru's hand they died, recognizing he was no immediate threat. Sesshomaru didn't need much sleep but he had been watching over Kagome ever since he brought her to his castle and with the trying night he had he was exhausted. He made sure Kagome was well covered and kept the damp cool cloth on her head as long as he could and fell asleep leaning his head close to hers. Kagome had woke up shortly after her fever broke, she hadn't remembered what had happened but Sesshomaru was by her side so she figured something must have happened to her since he had always been in her room throughout the worst times of her healing process, slowly she raised her head to see him sleeping really close to her, then she spotted the damp rag.
~I must have had a fever, poor guy, he is exhausted, probably from making sure I was alright, his guard is down, he looks so peaceful for once in his life.~ Kagome thought, slowly she reached up and touched his cheek. Slowly he started moving around, he opened his eyes to find Kagome awake,
"Sleep Lady Kagome, you have exhausted yourself tonight," Sesshomaru strongly, he moved from the bed slowly.
"Lord Sesshomaru, stay, you need sleep as well, you have exhausted yourself from worrying about my health," Kagome reaching out and touching his hand. He was rumbling in his chest, almost growling,
"You care for this Sesshomaru?" Sesshomaru asked a little harshly.
"Just concerned for your well being as you have been over me, there's a little girl who needs you to care for her still," Kagome smiling a little, he had his back turned toward her,
"That little girl needs you as well," Sesshomaru not thinking before he spoke. Slowly he turned and crawled back onto the bed,
"Not a word leaves this room," Sesshomaru growled out,
"You have my word," Kagome yawning. Sesshomaru leaned against the headboard, as Kagome started drifting back to sleep she was curling up to Sesshomaru, he wanted to throw her off of him but found himself tangling around her body in a protective way and fell asleep.