(Still Dreaming)
Kagome woke up the next morning with the curtain drawn open and the sunlight hitting her face making her nose itch.
"Milady, milord has wished that I wake you so you could eat breakfast, Lady Rin will be joining you this morning, but milord wishes for you to stay in bed for the day," the servant explained.
"I should have seen this coming," Kagome mumbled,
"Lady Kagome, he is just concerned about, milord was found asleep in your bed curled around your body as if you were his mate and he was protecting you, I have never seen anything like it, at least from Lord Sesshomaru," the servant smiling. Kagome started freaking out,
"You cant tell anyone about this, promise you wont tell," Kagome getting out of bed and stumbling toward the servant,
"Milady, please calm down, get back in bed before you hurt yourself," the servant helping her steady herself.
"Please, Lord Sesshomaru would be upset if word got out," Kagome serious. The door opened, Sesshomaru was entering with Rin following by another servant bringing both girls some food trays in. Kagome stood by the bed stunned,
"Milord, good morning, is there anything you request from me?" the servant was sitting the food trays down.
"You may leave," Sesshomaru glancing at Kagome, the servant bowed, Kagome snapped out of it and bowed to Sesshomaru.
"Lady Kagome, there is no reason for you to bow to this Sesshomaru, you must get in bed and stay for the day," Sesshomaru seriously. Kagome nodded as if she was in a trance, Sesshomaru sat down on the bed and sat the tray over her lap, Rin sat beside her and smiled.
"Goodmorning Rin," Kagome softly,
"Goodmorning Kagome, are you feeling well today?" Rin asked,
"I'm just a little tired, are you wanting to do some lessons today?" Kagome asked.
"I like my lessons, you are a good teacher," Rin curling up to her,
"You are a very smart young lady, we will continue lessons today but we might have to have nap time today," Kagome explained.
"That's okay, the faster you get well, the faster you can play chase with me," Rin smiling, Sesshomaru watched them for a little while,
"Ladies, you shall eat before your breakfast gets cold," Sesshomaru stoically.
"Yes Lord Sesshomaru, you may leave, I can watch over Lady Kagome now, Rin is a big girl now," Rin smiling.
"This Sesshomaru will be in his study," Sesshomaru hesitating on leaving.
A week later
Kagome was completely healed and had her energy back, but she was feeling a bit depressed in the castle, Sesshomaru was avoiding her for some reason she still didn't understand. Sesshomaru on the other hand was in heat and his beast was plaguing him to rut with anything that moved, basically meaning the female servants and Kagome. Kagome was healed but Sesshomaru wouldn't let her go back to Inuyasha for the sole purpose she would not be protected by him, he knew Inuyasha would get her killed and he wouldn't have any of it. Sesshomaru was visited by a servant who had been trusted to take care of Kagome for her stay,
"Milord, Lady Kagome has been depressed for a few days now, maybe she misses her pack?" the servant threw out. Sesshomaru glanced up at the servant,
"This Sesshomaru will not allow her to travel with that half breed," Sesshomaru growled. The servant didn't question him, she simply bowed and left the room. Kagome was in the garden with Rin, she watched the little girl decorate the little green imp with flowers, she felt someone watching her, slowly she turned to see Sesshomaru staring down at her, slowly she raised her hand up to wave, he gave a small, almost unnoticeable nod and stepped away from the window.
~She's sad, why don't we go cheer our little miko up, I'm sure you could find a way to cheer her up somehow.~ his beast explained.
~Quiet, this Sesshomaru wont allow you to hurt this woman any more than she has been already.~ Sesshomaru huffed.
Later that Night
Kagome had not come down for dinner Sesshomaru didn't understand what would make her so sad, maybe it was because she felt betrayed by the half breed, but he couldn't be sure but he had to find out. Abruptly he shoved his chair across the stone floor and got up, he left the room quickly. Kagome was sitting on the balcony outside her room staring at the stars,
"Lady Kagome, your presence was missed at dinner tonight, are you ill?" Sesshomaru trying not to get upset for her rube behavior,
"I'm not hungry tonight," Kagome explained in a tiny small voice.
"What troubles you lately, this Sesshomaru does not keep you caged up nor does he expect a lot from you," Sesshomaru explained. Kagome shook her head,
"Its nothing to do with you milord, its just I will never be a normal girl, the only friends I have left are the ones who live in this time, I don't belong here though, the only thing that has ever tied me to this era is that jewel, that stupid jewel, you know I've always thought of you as a mean, cold hearted and selfish killer but on this night I admire you for who you are and the strength you possess, stupid me thinks that there is good in every soul and with this huge caring heart I have to help everyone I meet, for once in my life I wish I could be selfish, all I do is put others first, its never been about me and my feelings and because of that I'm the one who is always standing hurt and alone," Kagome holding her tears back as she turned away from Sesshomaru, he could tell that wasn't all that she was depressed about.
"And the rest? There is more that you do not tell this Sesshomaru," Sesshomaru strongly, Kagome shook her head,
"I…you would think it was stupid, and I don't want to be rejected by you, I have already been rejected by your brother, and to have you reject me just tells me I am not good enough for anyone," Kagome mumbled out. Sesshomaru knew then that she had become close to him with her stay at the castle, she had come to care a lot about him and a lot about Rin, apart of him did think it was silly for a miko to care about a demon like himself, but he had been around her to see that she was very loyal and very caring to those who grew close to her, and he didn't want to take advantage of her especially he didn't know if he could get past the fact she was human, he didn't want to treat her as bad as Inuyasha had treated her. Slowly he reached out and gently grabbed her shoulder,
"Milady, this Sesshomaru has always known this life, his father taught him to be strong, when this Sesshomaru watched his mother walk away he cried for her to come back, to stay with him, father made this Sesshomaru fill with hate and anger because of what he did with the human woman, this Sesshomaru does not understand love, all he understands is breeding that's what happened to his mother, Sesshomaru's mother was deemed as a perfect breeding mate for father, they did not love each other, but father did not think twice about saving the human woman and his half breed son, Lady Kagome, if you give into your selfish desires you would not be the strong miko this Sesshomaru finds he wants and is protecting from the half breed," Sesshomaru strongly. Kagome turned to stare at him with tears glittering her cheeks in the moonlight. He could tell it was going to be hard enough for her to leave this era in leaving her only friends behind, with her closeness to him it was tearing her up inside, she didn't want to leave him and was crying for the sole reason that she thought she was being rejected by him, she was crying for him now,
"Why would you want to protect me?" Kagome confused.
"This Sesshomaru has been betrayed by those who were supposed to have cared for him, he does not want you to turn into himself nor does he wish to see you killed by the one you have loved," Sesshomaru slowly wiping her tears away with his knuckles. Kagome was stunned by his words, she wrapped her arms around his waist and buried her head into his unarmored chest,
"I don't know where I belong anymore," Kagome cried, Sesshomaru was caught off guard by her actions, he slowly wrapped his arms around her and held her in the moonlight.
"You belong in the era you were born in, do not worry of the jewel, you have collected almost half, return to your time in a couple of days, forget you ever traveled here, Naraku will not hold a tentacle to this Sesshomaru, live your life the way you wish," Sesshomaru pulling her away from him and staring her in the eyes.
"I could never forget my friends, or you milord," Kagome softly, Sesshomaru's eyes flickered with something Kagome had seen before but not in his eyes, Kagome stared a little longer, his eyes were starting to tear up, he jerked away as if she had burnt him with her powers.
"Are you alright milord?" Kagome moving toward him,
"This Sesshomaru must leave your company now," Sesshomaru stoically.
"Did I do something wrong milord?" Kagome confused,
"No milady, this Sesshomaru needs space from females, his beast wishes to rut," Sesshomaru huffed.
"Oh, is that why you have been avoiding me lately?" Kagome asked,
"Yes milady, I do not wish to bring you anymore pain, this Sesshomaru respects you," Sesshomaru holding his head and almost growling, he quickly turned and walked out of the room. Kagome thought of Sesshomaru's words,
"I wonder why or how even," Kagome staring up at the crescent moon.