S.A.M. (sailor angel moon) arc 1 chapter 9 not all as it seems enter sailor lightning cloud amaterasu and Jiro the third General
Vo: it was a clear autumn morning, the sun was as bright as ever. Samiko's birthday came and went in a blink of an eye. She came back to the castle early after spending the alone time she needed to figure things out.
When she got home, there was a cake waiting for her. She took the cake to her room and ate it whole, everyone respected her choice in not making a spectacle out of the day. She showered and hopped into bed in her pajamas.
She quietly thought to herself while staring off into space 'I am glad everyone respected my choice in not celebrating my birthday. I mean why celebrate it when I am a year closer to death anyways?
I don't have a reason to celebrate such a horrible day. I am the reason the moon kingdom was destroyed in the first place.
My entire existence is to destroy everything and everyone around me, I refuse to go down the same path when I was on the moon. I am a curse, a burden and everything under the sun. I still feel suffocated living here, why hasn't any apartments called me back yet. I have two jobs and manage all my club activities.
I know if I leave from here Usagi and Mamoru won't have to deal with the doom that has been placed on crystal Tokyo because i am living here. I should have moved out from my earth parent's house when I had the chance.
They unfortunately had forced me to move in with usagi because they felt she could raise me properly and teach me how to be normal. They only focused on their golden children who did absolutely nothing and got everything.
I practically raised those ungrateful brats, the thanks I get is being moved into my cousin's castle. They couldn't trust anyone to babysit them, I was forced and burdened half the time because I just wanted a normal childhood.
I made sure they were bathed, clothed, fed and that their homework was done on time by the time they got home from work. I am surprised I had time to do my own homework and kept up with my grades. Did they care? No they didn't care, not at all. My life didn't matter to them.
I am just so angry about how my life turned out, I raised myself and those brats. What good parents I had, yeah right. They had to keep up appearances for the people outside, when we were home, it was a different story. They were never pleased with anything I did, they made me feel unwanted and unloved. They never made me feel appreciated at all. I was mostly ignored my entire childhood.
I kept myself locked in my room and ignored the world with my headphones in my ears. I was even ignored on the moon, it makes sense that I would be the same on earth being reborn and all. I will continue to distance myself from people who are trying to get close to me. I don't want too many people to get close to me.
I am a very dangerous person to be next to or to be associated with, I keep my friends on a very long leash. I don't want them to get hurt because they are with me. I am doing everything in my powers to make sure that they don't have to endure being a scout.
I tried my hardest but it didn't work, so far I have Maiko and Midori as scouts. I seriously hope and pray to whatever sanity the cosmos have left in them not to make ama-chan and Miko into scouts.
I want those two far away from the title of senshi. I still haven't fully accepted that mii-chan and Mai-chan are senshi.
The cosmos and the kamis are really sticking it to me. They make it seem like I asked to be reborn. I didn't. I was better off being destroyed along with the moon.'
She finally fell asleep with all the negative thoughts she had that night, she was finally asleep on her bed instead of the couch. She was at peace as she slept.
Somewhere in the darker parts of the universe, Queen Masami was watching earth from her dark kingdom through her orb, she was quite annoyed that now she has three senshi to deal with instead of one.
Sailor angel moon ticked her off the most because she had a very smart mouth and it needed to be shut permanently. She had never met anyone who could silence her minions the way that angel moon did pissed her off.
She summoned the last three of her generals, Arata met his fate after failing all the time. He was reduced to his gem form.
Jiro appeared standing in front of his queen with his fist against his chest "Queen Masami, the energy we have collected should be more than enough to draw out this fabled crystal you seek. Those pesky scouts shouldn't interfere with our business. There are only three of them. We have the advantage. There are more of us then more of them.
We should be able to find that crystal, send me to crystal tokyo. I will find the crystal with the monster I have developed. She seeks the energy of crystals and those of great power. I want you to trust me with this mission. The crystal is within our grasp, I have a great feeling about this. We will get that crystal."
Queen Masami smirked and kept watching crystal tokyo on her orb "Jiro, you think you can do a better job then Iawo? I will give you this chance since Iawo keeps failing at his job. Go to earth and cause as much chaos as you can. I WANT THAT CRYSTAL!"
Jiro nodded "I will go to earth my queen, that crystal will be ours. I promise you that I won't fail. I will not fail like Iawo did."
He disappeared to earth unleashing his monster on the city in the middle of the night.
Somewhere in crystal Tokyo, Samiko was awakened by the screams of the citizens that were within city limits. She was in her pajamas and quickly transformed into her senshi outfit and jumped out her window rushing to the scene.
She hoped Maiko and Midori were sound asleep and didn't hear a thing, so she made it to the center of crystal tokyo. She saw the monster draining the energy from the citizens.
Jiro appeared on top of the monster's head and laughed "Sailor Angel Moon, come join the dark side. We have cookies and milk. We want the crystal that our master wants! Where is the rest of your team? Surely you don't think you can fight me by yourself. My name is Jiro of the dark shadows. My queen's name is Masami. We are here for the crystal that she wants! Hand it over!"
Angel moon was tapping her foot in pure anger because she didn't have time for this "Jiro, was it? You broke a cardinal rule just now. You awoke a beast from her eight to ten hours of beauty sleep.
I will make you pay for your crimes against my sleep! Everyone needs sleep. If we don't get enough sleep, we'll lack proper concentration for education and other things. One other thing, you trying to tempt me with sweets to bring me to the dark side is unforgivable!
I don't have a sweet tooth! I like my salads, thank you very much! I will make sure you suffer an internal and external seven layers of hell."
The fight began and it became intense, causing a lot of explosions and glass stores breaking from angel moon's body being thrown into it.
Amaterasu's apartment was in the middle of the city, she and midori shared a room so everything was heard waking only Amaterasu up, Midori slept with cotton in her ears for a peaceful night's rest.
Makoto came into their room and waved Amaterasu to come out, Amaterasu came out carefully walking over to her cousin
They sat in the kitchen with some snacks and some milk, and Makoto looked at her baby cousin. "I never knew how hard it is to raise a teenager, I have raised you since grade school along with Midori. I know everyone has the same emotions and feelings Ama-chan. It is time for you to become a senshi in training.
I want you to go to downtown tokyo and help Sailor angel moon, you are now in training as a senshi and as a princess of jupiter. I know Samiko has kept this from you because she has her reasons to, she wanted to protect you all from the life of senshi. She thought what we all wanted for you guys, not to follow in our footsteps and live normal teenage lives.
She tried very hard to protect you all and it failed, probably in her eyes she messed up big time but that isn't the case. Yes, it is true we haven't needed senshi since my time as one because we had nothing but peace and serenity.
There will be a lot of twists and turns as you all work together and train to become a perfected unit of senshi.
I have a horrible feeling akiko is the last one and rei isn't going to be happy about it. She is going to try and prevent akiko from becoming a scout. Samiko isn't gonna be happy about that either.
I am sorry to say this but akiko and samiko do have feelings for each other, they are just denying it to keep rei happy. The more they deny, the more it's going to get harder for them and they lose sight of each other.
They may not see it now but the red thread of fate is building between the both of them. I want you to join angel moon and save the city. Take this brooch and transform into your scout form. You have to yell Crystal lightning…… Makeup. Your senshi name is Sailor Lightning cloud. I named you after one of my favorite video game characters growing up. Yes, I played some video games with Minako and Usagi. If you ever became a senshi you will have both us mixed in. Now go to downtown Tokyo."
Amaterasu looked at her cousin confused trying to figure out what she was saying but she had to follow the rules as her cousin directed.
She threw up her brooch and yelled " Crystal lightning…… MAKEUP!" she transformed into her senshi outfit which was a dark first green skirt and the top of her outfit was all white, she had a bow in the middle of her chest to top it off.
She rushed to downtown Tokyo trying to find angel moon, and found her thrown into a glass shop which was highly popular for weddings and other special events.
She saw how tall the monster was but she cracked her fists multiple times "The bigger they are the harder they fall!"
Angel moon got up from being thrown into a building, she saw someone familiar fighting with the monster, when she rubbed her eyes from the confusion, she knew who it was. It was amaterasu fighting the monster with brute force and strength.
She summoned her wings and flew over to amaterasu from getting seriously injured or thrown somewhere, they were high above the monster who was seriously confused as to what just happened.
Angel moon had Amaterasu in her arms bridal style and they landed on a building "I seriously can't catch a break can i? First Mai-chan and Mii-chan, now you ama-chan?
What have I done to deserve this? All I wanted was for everyone to live normal lives and enjoy being a teenager. I didn't want this life for any of you. We shouldn't be following in the footsteps of our relatives. I just wanted us to have a normal life. Is that so much to ask?!"
She still had lightning cloud in her arms bridal style as she was ranting about everything under the moonlight.
Lightning cloud blushed a light pink while still being held in angel moon's arms "Angel moon, can you put me down now? I will be your personal complaint department later. We have a city to save.
I have a feeling Akiko won't like it if you carried any girl this way. We are best friends and all but still respect akiko's feelings when dealing with other women. I want to defeat this monster and head back to bed. I know you don't like to be awoken from your slumber. You are terrifying when you don't get your recommended eight to ten hours of sleep."
Angel moon's eye twitched because of the akiko thing and she folded her arms "I don't know how many times i have to repeat this, there is seriously nothing going on with akiko and i. I think I would have known if there was something going on.
Who is feeding y'all this nonsense so late at night? I see akiko as my best friend and nothing more. You all have to get that we are a couple out of your minds. A couple is something we will never ever be. I will never ever date again. My time for romance has been over since my first and true love was taken away from me. I don't believe in romance or marriage.
I am too pissed off right now to even have this conversation with you, this jerk woke me up from my slumber and they will see the seven layers of hell for doing so, now if you'll excuse me this villain needs to be put in their place for dangerously awakening someone like me."
She flew down fast and landed in front of Jiro and the monster glaring at them.
Sailor Lightning cloud was thinking of a way to help angel moon, but she knew how stubborn she was, what attack could she use to entrap the monster and cripple it. She had to think of something quick before angel moon turned to space dust, how would she explain to akiko that their best friend was a senshi and she was defeated in battle by some creep and his pet monster.
She closed her eyes for a moment, calming down, envisioning an attack, clouds starting forming around the city, lightning was in those clouds, all of a sudden a lightning bolt appeared in her hands shaped as a mallet.
She ran and jumped off the building with the lightning shaped Mallet in her hands, she kicked Jiro off the monster and then whacked the monster in the neck and yelled "CRYSTAL…… PROTEAN. SHAPE ONE. LIGHTNING MALLET!"
The monster roared in pain, it was crippled by the intense sensation of the lightning, Angel moon saw her chance, she had her wings locked a loaded wondering what they can do
She flapped her wings and yelled " SCREAMS OF ANGEL WINGS!".
There was a high pitch sound as her wings flapped throughout, it sent the monster flying. She flew after it and gave it a halo of truth. The monster turned into space dust.
Angel moon flew back towards Sailor lightning cloud and her wings disappeared, she rubbed her temples in frustration. She instantly calmed down enough not to cause a scene.
Sailor Lightning cloud waited for her leader to calm down, when she did, she spoke carefully "Samiko, i know you didn't want this for any of us. I am highly upset you would hide this from me. The fact that you, Maiko and Midori would hide this from me and akiko hurts.
What did you think would happen if you never returned back to Crystal Tokyo palace? Did you not think for once we would notice that you are gone?
Akiko would catch a fit if anything happened to you or any of our friends. It's not fair to think that you are able to handle this on your own. I can go on and on about how irresponsible this was of you. I won't lecture you today seeing as the sun is about to rise and we both need sleep. Do we have anything important going on as regards to classes?"
Jiro had his nose broken and disappeared back to his queen, after his failed attempt to find the crystal.
Angel moon sighed and shook her head looking at lightning cloud "We have final exams coming up soon, we studied enough. We are focusing on the cultural festival. We deserve a break from studying. I want to know what play the council has chosen in our absence. I hope it isn't anything of the romantic kind.
I rather play a villain then play the lead to someone I have to kiss. My lips are on lock and forbidden. I am not kissing anyone today or ever. We should head home before the light blinds us to death."
They both got out of their senshi forms and went to their homes, Samiko went to shower and decided to miss school for today due to the fact that she had a night. She left a note on the counter for Usagi and Mamoru to read when they woke up to start their day.
Somewhere in the darker parts of the universe, Queen Masami was highly upset that a new senshi had appeared and that Jiro couldn't get rid of them.
She bonked Jiro on his head to make him learn his lesson for his failure "Jiro, i am disappointed in your actions. Not only did another senshi appear out of the blue and help angel moon destroy your monster but you came back with your nose broken.
These new age senshi are powerful, unbreakable. What do you have to say for yourself? We are failing in our duties to obtain the crystal that surpasses the crystal of neo queen serenity. We have to obtain that crystal by any means necessary! I do not care if we have to destroy Crystal Tokyo Palace itself, we will get that damn crystal! Neo Queen Serenity will fall to us if she doesn't hand over that crystal!".
Jiro held his head from being hit by his queen, he rubbed the knot that was forming on the top of it "My Queen, it is not our fault that new senshi keep appearing out of the blue. We should thank the heavens only one showed up, it would have been bad if one more showed up. We have now Sailor angel moon, Sailor Aqua, Sailor love me chain and Sailor Lightning cloud.
We should be safe for now as long as no more senshi shows up, we have nothing to worry about. We should count our dark blessings no more will show up."
Queen Masami nodded and kept staring at her orb "You are right, Jiro. We should be so lucky. If no more senshi show up, we should be fine. I will let you handle the senshi we have currently. You will not fail me."
Back to Crystal Tokyo castle, Usagi and Mamoru were the first to be up. They saw the note and understood what happened last night. They let Samiko sleep in. She was a good kid and a good student. A day of missed classes wasn't going to harm her grade point average.
Mamoru smiled and looked at his wife "I am very proud of Samiko, she has proved she can be versatile with her responsibilities. We honestly have nothing to worry about when it comes to her.
I know she still feels the pressure of having us to live up to, she doesn't have to worry about the pressures of ruling a kingdom just yet. We know she is studying advanced subjects, way beyond her normal schooling.
I mean in time she will rule her own kingdom, with her own rules and her own family. She will be different from what we went through. I hear the computer in the library ringing. We should go check on the call."
They went to the library to see who it was, it was Makoto and Ami. They both called out of work to discuss what happened last night with Amaterasu.
Makoto looked at her queen and king from ami's computer. "Usagi, Last night was a wonderful testament to what we accomplished in our youth. Amaterasu became a scout.
I know Samiko is trying her best to prevent certain things from happening but i think this is gonna break her if she doesn't start trusting in the process of her friends becoming scouts. She didn't lose her temper when Amaterasu became a scout, Amaterasu gave Samiko an earful after the battle. Samiko had no choice but to listen.
They did in fact return home unharmed. I have a bad feeling that Akiko is the last of the inner scouts to awaken.
I know both Rei and Samiko being the hot and stubborn heads they are, they are going to prevent it. One thing I can agree on is that if akiko becomes a scout, Samiko and Rei are gonna tell her to butt out and live a normal life. Akiko's awakening is going to be something very dramatic and we can't stop it.
We have to talk to Rei about this, before this gets out of hand. Rei is super overprotective of Akiko and Maiko, Minako is easy going when it comes to those two. We have to make Rei see that akiko has a higher purpose in life.
There is going to be a lot of conflict in the angel senshi team. We have to prepare for it as well."
Usagi sighed, rubbing her temples and nodded
"Mako-chan, you know talking to rei is like talking to a wall. Once she has her mind stuck on something, there is no telling what she is going to do.
Minako is out and about on business for the shrine. The shrine has flourished and such. I will consider talking to Rei if everyone comes along to the command center and each expresses their concerns and opinions about this. This will only work if we all come together and all talk to rei."
Makoto nodded and sighed "this is going to be one of those talks, isn't it? I seriously thought after Rei married Minako, she would slow down in her old age and behave like a proper shrine maiden. I swear she still acts like a hot headed teenager.
This is a new generation of senshi. We have to guide and prepare them for the best and worst case situations. We will have to train them when the time is right. They are fine right now for laying down the groundwork. What are we going to do about the outer angel senshi team?"
Usagi rubbed her temples again and sighed
"Outer senshi business should be handled by outer senshi. I am sure those three have the others under control. I mean our families have expanded far and wide. Who knows how many of us are there. I mean all the way out there. We'll have a meeting at the command center tonight.
Samiko decided to stay home today from school because last night evil decided to play coy and wake her up from her slumber. I love my sleep as much as the next person, but Samiko needs it more with her workload."
Samiko was in her room asleep, she was tossing and turning due to the nightmare she was having.
She couldn't make sense of it but this nightmare was why she kept her friends on a tight leash when it came to things. She woke up screaming, alerting Usagi and Mamoru who were a few doors down from her.
They both ran towards Samiko's room, she wasn't there. She had gone into the bathroom to wash her face and to calm down, she couldn't calm down and was hyperventilating so bad it was making her panic.
Mamoru knocked on the bathroom door that was in Samiko's room, he was very concerned because she hadn't come out. He decided to call Haruka and Michiru to come and help her. They finally arrived at the castle, they brought their helicopter Tenoumaru. When they entered her room, they gave Usagi and Mamoru the nod to let them deal with her.
They left the room, closing the door behind them. Haruka knocked on the door carefully. "Hey small lady, we are here to help. Please come out. Talk to us. It's just Michiru and I."
Michiru placed her hand on the door, she heard the heavy breathing 'Small lady Samiko, please come out right now. It is only us. The king and queen aren't in your personal space. It really is me and Ruka."
Samiko finally came out after twenty-five minutes of pure panic, she ran into Haruka's arms and started crying in her shirt, she was hyperventilating badly, Haruka's gentle aura started coming in and calming the young girl in front of her.
Haruka patted her head softly "There, there small lady, we are here. Calm down. Want to go outside and talk? We can go to our place so you can relax for a while. We'll order some chinese or italian if you want."
Samiko nodded and was slowly calming down, she regained her breath "i would like that very much. I am just not feeling like myself anymore. I feel like there is more of me and she wants to escape but can't. I need a break. A clear mental break."
Michiru nodded and hugged Samiko tightly "We'll leave now. We have our helicopter ready for you. It's much easier to land on the helipad since our apartment is on the top floor. We also have a house in the forest as well for extra privacy. We'll go anywhere you want so you can feel comfortable."
Haruka went to Mamoru and Usagi's library, she sat down in a chair looking at her rulers "We'll take the saturn rabbit for a few days, whatever happened it really spooked her. She nearly passed out from her panic attack.
We'll find out what spooked her, we can't blindly ask her personal questions. She'll open up when she is ready and more comfortable. We got this, it's a good thing you called us right away."
Mamoru nodded sitting in the chair "We were talking to Makoto on the computer, we heard Samiko scream and ran towards her room. We heard the sink water running, she wouldn't open the door at all, so we called you and michiru to see if you could get her out.
I am highly concerned about her wellbeing. I don't know where to go from here. I see the concern in Samiko's eyes, like she is waiting for something to happen, like something horrific. She jumps up whenever we say her name, she flipped me into her wall once. It wasn't pretty and she automatically assumed she was grounded. She fixed her own wall, you barely noticed my body imprint."
Haruka sighed and rubbed her forehead " Michiru and I will take care of it, she has been paranoid lately and we don't know why. It all started when we visited the history and art museum, after that it's like a flight or fight response with her.
She says things almost like riddles, riddles we can't make sense of, but we do know she hasn't been feeling like herself. We'll talk to her. We have this covered."
Michiru had a going away bag for Samiko all packed and ready to go, sure it was only going to be for a few days and such but they needed to make sure she was going to be comfortable. They left in the Tenoumaru heading towards the apartment, Samiko was napping peacefully on the ride there. The ride was thirty minutes away from Crystal Tokyo Palace, it was a peaceful ride.
They finally arrived at the Helipad and landed carefully, Haruka carried Samiko in her arms safely while Michiru carried the bookbag for her, they smiled noticing how adorable she was asleep.
Back at Crystal Tokyo palace, Mamoru was in the library looking for information on all moon relatives, but he couldn't find anything on Samiko. He knew that Samiko and Usagi were in fact related because she did have some of the Tsukino traits even though she didn't want to admit it, but she was also a Tomoe as well.
He figured that she was in the middle of an emotional battle with herself and she wanted to find out who she really was besides being royalty, Samiko just really wanted to be normal without the perks of having a title. Usagi had came in and brought her husband some hot chocolate and a slice of cheesecake. She saw what he was doing in the library and she sat down on the chair waiting for him to notice she was in the room with him.
Mamoru looked up and saw his wife "Usako, How come there aren't any files of Samiko from the moon archives. What do you remember from your time on the moon?" He drank some of his rich and smooth hot chocolate.
Usagi drank some of her own hot chocolate as well and looked at her husband, she placed her cup on a small tea plate " I honestly don't know mamo-chan. I mean I know we are related but how is the question. I don't remember much from the moon, it was eons ago. I do remember falling in love with you, sneaking down to earth to see you. The moon was destroyed with us and we were reborn.
I think if Samiko was around during the moon kingdom, I would have seen her around the palace. I mean she is eight years younger than I am. I didn't see her at all. I have a feeling something is blocking my memories from knowing she was alive at that time. I think we should ask Setsuna, I mean she was the keeper of time after all. I honestly want a connection with Samiko but I feel like she has to have her guard up when it comes to me and she won't let me in.
I think she knows more then she lets on and won't tell us because it's her secret and it will harm us. Samiko, I believe she is protecting us from the harsh truth because she thinks we won't be able to handle it if it comes from her mouth."
Mamoru blinked and ate his slice of cheesecake carefully, he looked at his wife calmly " I agree with you Usako, ever since she moved in with us she has been on high alert and having these random panic attacks out of nowhere, the screaming from her bedroom made me very concerned. She is hiding something, something dark but i can't place my finger on it. We'll ask Setsuna when the time is right, as for right now we have to guide and nurture Samiko as a regular person but also as a senshi.
We have to encourage her that working as a team is good for her, she isn't alone anymore. She has to be able to trust her team instead of thinking it's a bad idea for her friends to be a senshi, we'll try to talk to her and see where her train of thought is at.
Makoto is right though, If Akiko is the last to awaken as a senshi then it's going to be a rude awakening for us all. Rei is hard headed and stubborn, she isn't going to like this one bit. She is going to do everything in her power to make sure akiko never steps into the role of senshi." he rubbed his temples because of how exhausting it was to even approach rei when she has her mind set to something.
Usagi sighed and rubbed her own forehead but calmed down after a while "Mamo-chan, We are raising a teenager with full potential. We need to make sure she is comfortable around talking to us about anything her mind is calculating or processing.
I don't want to feel like she is in hostile territory with us, she is family at the end of the day and we are her guardians. I want her to know that our home is a safe space for her to be able to communicate with us."
Meanwhile at Haruka and Michiru's place, Samiko was asleep in the guest bedroom, she was finally at peace and sleeping comfortably.
Michiru was very worried about Samiko's mental health and how she manages everything the way she does, she looked at Haruka with a concerned look in her eyes because this was the first time they heard about Samiko screaming in her sleep "Haruka, we need to get to the root of Samiko's anxiety and her panic attacks. I feel like there is more she isn't telling us.
We clearly explained to her that she has a line of open communications with us so she doesn't need to hide what's in her mind and in her heart. I am worried whatever she is hiding isn't going to be good at all. She wants to tell us, but she can't due to the fact she is still getting to know us and build trust in us as adults.
We promised to treat her like an adult, we will continue to honor that promise. I know she will come around. She has so much potential to be great without the pressures of the kingdom.
She doesn't have to worry about much, actually she doesn't have to worry about anything at all. She is free to be herself. I want her to have a normal teenager life experience. I mean we'll still watch her from the shadows as planned but she needs to be outside more."
Haruka opened the door after she paid for the food, she placed the food on the table. She went to get the nice plates and set them on the table, she started to place the food on plates.
Michiru quietly went to the room Samiko was in and softly nudged her "Small lady, dinner is here. Time to awaken from your laten slumber. We ordered Italian with some dessert."
Samiko woke up slowly, rubbing her eyes. She got up to wash her face and brushed her teeth and do her hair. She was already in her pjs so she didn't have to make the change from street clothes to pjs.
She walked with Michiru to the kitchen table, she pulled out her seat as common courtesy.
Michiru smiled and sat down carefully, samiko pushed her softly and took her own seat.
Haruka messed with Samiko's hair playfully "let's eat, we have a lot of things to discuss but not all at once. We'll take it day by day to make sure we get the information we need to understand what's been happening lately."
Samiko blinked in confusion and looked at Haruka. "Is this about me scaring the life out of Mamoru and Usagi? I didn't mean to. I just woke up from a nightmare that's all. I didn't mean to scream myself out of my nap.
I haven't been sleeping well, a lot of things have been bothering me and to be honest I don't like it. I don't like how the turn of events have basically made me paranoid and more angry.
I didn't ask to be a senshi, I didn't want my friends to be senshi either. I just wanted the normal teenager life that's all.
I mean I am grateful for everyone for getting used to me being around. I just preferred to be unknown. I was used to just school, work and coming home at a decent time to start my homework or go over the work from classes. Is that selfish of me to want simple things?"
Michiru looked at samiko with a smile "it's perfectly natural to be selfish, you are a special case. You aren't selfish all the time. The simple things in life are attainable. You just have to navigate how badly you want it.
You are a senshi, yes. There is more to you, unlocked potential that we can't see yet because you want to keep it locked. It is understandable for you to keep your guard up.
Samiko, when you are with friends and family you don't have to have a wall up all the time. It is ok to be vulnerable, it's ok to feel weak but with the right people surrounding you with all the support in the world. You have the biggest support system in the world, not many people are that fortunate. We want you to be free of whatever is bothering you. We haven't seen you smile at all.
What is in that brilliant mind of yours that is troubling you so?"
Samiko ate some of her food and cleaned her lips with a napkin. She looked at Michiru "Michiru-san, there is something I am hiding. It is troubling. My nightmares are getting worse by the day.
My nightmares are telling me to run away and never return, all I am seeing is a huge betrayal coming but I can't place who is going to betray me.
Everyone suspects that Akiko and I are a couple, but we are not. I am sure her cousin hates me for whatever reason. I keep my friends on a tight long leash.
I don't get why our friend group thinks something is going on between her and I.
I gave up on relationships and romance a very long time ago. I just want to hurry up, graduate from school and focus on a career. I want to live the rest of my days in peace.
I lost my first love at thirteen, her parents kinda looked like you both. They took her away from me. We were each other's first. I couldn't describe if it was pure lust or love at the time…. But if her parents hadn't interfered we probably would have been better off.
The kamis are warning me to never fall in love again. I am following the orders set in place for me. I have my heart locked for a reason. I can't let anyone in, not at this moment. I don't even believe in marriage."
Haruka's eyes widened when she heard samiko speaking from her own experience "Small lady, what do you mean you two were each other's first? You mean that you and this mysterious person did the deed? Did you at least use protection?"
Samiko looked at Haruka's expression and blinked "Haruka-san, are you ok? Yes, that's exactly right. The deed was done. There was no turning back from that point. We were fine with what we did.
Once her parents found out what happened, they blew a gasket, calling me all sorts of names and such.
They called me the dirty blood heir. I didn't know what that meant, I looked it up in a dictionary and it had a horrible meaning, after that I decided to be a brood and not let anyone romantically get close to me."
Michiru grabbed a small newspaper and tapped samiko on the head softly "Small lady, even though it was four years ago, you should have waited for the right one. The parents weren't aware of a true gift you are.
They sound very uptight. Your blood isn't dirty, it's a rare mix. You are both titan and silver millennium. Your blood is rich in culture and history. Whoever those people were didn't understand you. You are perfect the way you are.
Do not, I repeat do not let what others say about you get to you. You are truly a gift. We are happy to get to know you more. We will continue to have an open line of communication with you whenever you want without judgment. We respect your wishes of having a normal life and wanting what's best for you. There is nothing wrong with wanting more out of life on your own time.
I want you to smile and laugh a lot more when you are with your friends. Enjoy your life.
I know it's a hard balance with school and work and senshi work. We are going to support you no matter what you decide to do with your life. You are still young, you have a lot of time to waste, be silly with your friends. Your grades are perfect so you have nothing holding you back."
Haruka smiled, eating her food "I agree with Michiru. We both care about you.
We want you to enjoy the finer things in life. Your wings aren't clipped. Spread your wings far and wide. We want the very best for you."
They ate and drank, enjoying deep meaningful conversations. It was a peaceful day after all.
They went to bed and all was well with the world……