"Father, I am not sure what you have planned but I wish it would hurry as it's getting pretty bad in here, thankfully a murder hasn't happened but The Virus is making it's moves and I am afraid that it won't be long before a murder happens, and is it true big sis knew how to fix Hajime but didn't? Well if she didn't then there had to be a good reason no matter what I'll continue to monitor Hajime incase he makes an appearance but so far it seems only 2 sides have appeared so thankfully it seems he doesn't have much or any control though with how frightful it has been with how much she is affecting him I can take a guess that he is somewhere in there though how much is undecided so let's hope that Hajime can push through this" Chikai said softly no beyond that nearly impossible to hear as she carried Hajime carefully on her back. It seemed as if she was talking to someone but no one was there it was just her and empty space
I slowly open my eyes as I try to recall what happened. Then it came back to me. I felt once again incredibly embarrassed that I did that again I thought I was gaining a bit of control of that, what is wrong with me? No again it's not me it's this body but still I should have tried but...was it wrong for me to feel that good?...
"Ah, seems your awake Hajime" I could hear Chiaki's voice interrupt my thoughts
"Y-Yeah, what happened after I went under?" I ask her
"Nothing much we all just went our separate ways"
"Ah alright, I am sorry you had to clean me up again" I say with a small blush
"No problem Hajime, do you need help with anything before I head off to the hotel?" She asked with a soft yawn at the end
"No thanks Chiaki I am good" I say as I start to sit up on my bed
"Okay…" Chikai stopped and seemed as if she wanted to say something before speaking again
"Don't let what Monokuma said bother you okay?" Chikai said surprisingly with convection though she still seemed uncertain
"Don't worry, I am not going to do anything" I say with a soft smile
"Alright and remember if you wanna talk about anything even insane stuff just come to me…" she said before leaving she seemed to push that a lot which is perfectly fine though it felt a bit odd that she keeps pushing to see if I am fine, no matter I push that thought out of my head as I focus on another matter a more personal one
'I know I shouldn't think like this but yesterday… even though it was filled with so much despair I still was overwhelmed by my body's arousal it was...disturbing but...it felt good it felt good not to have a worry as pleasure overwhelms your brain it felt good for the release in general it felt amazing and...I kinda wanted to feel more of it though I knew that I wouldn't ever try to as it was disgusting and immoral but why?
I just want to feel good. What is wrong with that?' I began to wonder before I shook my head
'It's just wrong that's all it's wrong to feel pleasure from your own pain and despair that is all' I thought with a nod
"Argh, I hate that I even considered that this body is really screwing with me. I can't wait when I get mine back!" I yelled with a small stretch then hopped off my bed
"Urgh, but how?" I once again said aloud as I start to put my shoes on
'Monokuma… no! I am not gonna do that even if it might- no! I won't ever let that happen. I will find some other way I-I need th-there has to be a way right?' I stop in my tracks as I begin to delve deeper
'What if it is impossible? What if the only way to get my body back is to… kill someone? What if only Monokuma could do it? What...if?' I slowly begin to start to sit on the floor and curl up as despair began to storm
"I-I am g-gonna be s-stuck i-in this awful b-body...u-unless...I K-Kill s-someone… b-but I c-couldn't do th-that" I say as tears began to rapidly fall down getting my outfit
"N-No! I wouldn't n-no couldn't" I say as I rapidly shake my head but as I did I could swear I heard a voice
"interesting" but I quickly shook my head. I need to focus. I will never kill someone. Everyone here will get out of this situation alive, dammit! With new found hope I get up and put on a small smile while I open my door.