Todo left not long ago. He took another younger boy that I've never met before with him. He showed up with the paramedics from Jujutsu High and apparently is similar to Shoko as far as abilities go. He said he was going back to rescue Satoru. I hope he does, but I don't want him to get killed either. I wish I could go in there and kill that bastard myself, but i'm in no state to move right now.
Shoko has been watching over me for the past thirty minutes. Checking vitals and healing any wounds from birth. She said i'd still be sore for a while, but I should be fine by tomorrow. I think she just worries if I have to get up and go because of the fighting that without healing I wouldn't be able to. For now I need rest though.
Niko sleeps in my arms. I haven't let go of him since they gave him to me for the first time. I've already fed him and he's already sound asleep. Using his cursed technique probably wore him out. I wish Satoru was here to see him. He's the most beautiful parts of both of us, and he's missing it. I'll kill Geto for that.
My mind goes to dark places. I haven't felt rage like this in a long time. Probably since I learned of Geto's crimes all those years ago. But this rage is still somehow different. This rage is blinding. It makes me want to scream, and cry, and beat his fucking face in. I want to kill him, and I want him to look into my eyes when I deliver the final blow. I want to be the last thing he sees when he dies.
I try to come out of this darkness, I try to pull myself out like Satoru used to every time for years. But I can't. I have no will left in me to do it. I only dive deeper and deeper into this pure anger. The only thing that pulls me out is our son. He hiccups in his sleep and I snap out of the dark. I look around and notice I've been staring at the same spot for a few minutes. I look down softly at Niko and he snuggles deeper into me. I lean down and kiss his forehead.
Shoko walks over and checks on me, "hey, how're you feeling?" She asks.
"Like I could rip the whole world apart." I say looking at her with a blank expression. "I feel nothing anymore. There's no room for love, no room for sympathy, no room for understanding or patience. Only hatred. I'll kill them all." I say looking forward coldly.
She sighs and nods looking at her feet, "I know. I know you want to go in and fight. But you need to stay here with Niko. You're all he has in this world." She says.
Again, I snap out of my dark thoughts and take a deep breath. "I'm sorry, I just... I'm so angry. I'm losing myself Shoko. I'm slipping away, I can feel it. I can't slip away again like I did back then." I say looking at her.
She nods, "I know."
"I need to figure out how to get Satoru back." I say looking back down at Niko.
"And we will. But right now, the only thing I want you to think about is Niko. Nothing else yeah?" She says.
I nod, "yeah, okay."
Just then, I see Ino get carried in looking beat up. I sit up straight and shake my head in disbelief.
"Ino?" I say.
"Set him down." Shoko tells the paramedics.
The set him on an empty cot they had prepared for this event not long ago and Shoko gets to work.
"His wounds aren't too bad. He's mainly just worn out and beaten up. He'll heal just fine." She says.
I let go of a breath and nod, "this is going to suck." I say realizing how bad it could get.
She nods, "recent reports are saying there's quite a few in this group causing all the chaos."
"And what am I doing? Just sitting here while my comrades are fighting." I say frustrated.
"No," she says taking her attention off of Ino and looking at me, "you have that baby. That is top priority."
"And if we can't get Satoru back? Shoko, they'll try to come for Niko too. They want his power. Or to snuff it out while they have the chance. They already got rid of Satoru for the time being. Now all they need to do is get rid of him." I say nodding to a sleeping Niko.
"And we will protect him. But right now you need to stay here with him." Shoko says seriously.
"And what if everyone gets killed?" I ask.
"We'll cross that bridge when we get there. Give everyone a chance first. Worst case scenario, I'll watch Niko and heal you up some more just to make sure you're good. Then you can go out. But that's absolutely last resort." She says turning back to Ino.
I sigh, "fine."
Shoko works on Ino for a while as I listen to the battle in the distance. It's huge whatever or whoever it is. It's a lot of crashing sounds, almost like bombs are going off in the city. I close my eyes really tight when something grabs my shirt. I open my eyes and look around in surprise only to find a little hand belonging to Niko grabbing my shirt. He's awake.
I smile and look down at him. He stares at me with his big blue eyes. He starts getting upset and I rock him back and forth trying to calm him.
"No no no little man, it's okay. Mommy's here." I say shushing him gently and decide to feed him again. Yaga went out to get some formula from one of the stores around here earlier. Everyone was evacuated in the area around Shibuya so finding supplies isn't an issue. I doubt people will return here and miss two cans of formula.
He accepts the bottle gratefully but kinda yanks it from my hand a bit, "taking after your father already?" I say jokingly. "Satoru is so excited to meet you. I wish he could be here right now but I promise you I'll bring him back." I say determined.
A few minutes go by where only the sounds of Niko's cooing and explosions go by. I try to tune the explosions out. If I keep thinking about them, I'll keep getting worked up and enraged. I need to remain calm for now. But it gets hard after a while.
Then, someone is carried in half dead. Someone I never thought I'd see get carried in. I wipe my eyes with one hand trying to see if I'm really seeing what I'm seeing. But it's true.
"No. No no no!" I say standing up and upsetting Niko a bit.
I walk over to the cot where they set him down. I look at the black haired sea urchin head kid before me as tears flow down my face. How could they? Why? Why are they doing this? He's beaten half to death. He's not conscious and I'm not even sure if he's even breathing. I cry for the boy. The boy Satoru and I raised from a child. The boy that could be dead.
"Megumi."