" Jax There's something I need to tell you and I'm not sure how your gonna handle it." Tara said as she looks down for a moment as she wasn't sure how to tell him.
Jax reached over and lifted her face up towards him as he was staring at her with worry and concern." Tara, what's going on? Just talk to me babe."
Tara sighs as she closed her eyes." I got accepted into College. I was accepted at SDU." Tara answered softly.
Jax dropped his hand as he couldn't believe what he was hearing." Are you serious?"
Tara nods her head." I'm supposed to be moving in with my dad's cousin when I get to San Diego."
" When are you leaving?" Jax asked as he wasn't ready for the answer.
Tara sighs again as she closed her eyes." I'm supposed to leave tomorrow morning."
" Tomorrow morning? Are you fucking serious right now?" Jax asked angrily as he got up from his bed and shook his head as he scoffed.
" What about us? What about our future?"
Tara got out of bed as she quickly walked over to Jax and grabbed his hands." Come with me." Tara said as she looked into his eyes." We can leave first thing tomorrow morning." She then placed her hand against his face." Please Jax, do this for us. For our future."
Jax shook his head as he closed his eyes for a moment." I can't Tara, I can't just leave. I can't leave Charming, and I can't leave the club either." Jax then turned his head as he couldn't look at her right now as he was too upset and hurt.
Tara scoffed as she dropped her hand and walked over to the bed and grabbed her stuff." Of course, you can't. Because for some reason the club seems to be more important to you than us. Because you're mother can't seem to do anything without you." Tara retorted as she puts on her Jacket.
" God, Jax. I truly thought for once in our relationship that you would actually care more about me and about us, then your club. But I guess I was wrong." Tara stopped talking as she shook her head once more and opened the door of his room at the club house.
" Tara, I am sorry. But leaving right now isn't an option for me right now."
Tara nods her head as she could feel the tears coming down her face." I know that Jax, but it's for me. Goodbye Jackson. " She said as she could feel her voice break as she walked out of his room and out of the club house for good.
Tara took a deep breath as she stood outside of Jax's room. The last time Tara was here was the night she was telling him she was leaving Charming for school and they ended up having a huge fight over it, and now here she is standing outside his room again. It's a good thing nobody isn't at the club house.
Tara inhales and exhaled as she raised her fist and knocks on his door. As she Tara waited for Jax to open the door she scoffed as she was about to turned back around and walked out of the club house as she knew that this was a bad idea.
" Hey Tara." Jax said as soon as he opened the door." I'm glad that you came over. I was kinda worried that you wouldn't show." He said with a small smirk.
" Whatever. Wipe that smirk off your face Teller." Tara responded as she walked passed him and into his dorm room. As she looked around she saw that not much has changed since the last time she was here eleven years ago.
Jax chuckled lightly as he missed her being so fiesty." So, how have you been?" Jax asked as he closed the door behind him and walked towards his bed and sat down as he watched her for a moment. He so desperately wanted to reach out and touch her again, to feel her again. But decided against it since he knew this wasn't the time or place right now.
Tara shrugs her shoulders as she crossed her arms over her chest as she looked back at Jax.
" I'm doing alright just been busy with work at the hospital. So, you wanted to talk and that's why you asked me over here. So, start talking." Tara said getting straight to the point.
Jax sighs with a small nod as he took a deep breath." Why are you back?" Jax questioned as he looked up at her.
Tara rolled her eyes as she shook her head " That's why you asked me to come over here? Because you wanna know why I came back?" Tara asked with scoff as she shook her head.
" Just answer the question Tara, I think I have the right to know." Jax said as he kept staring at Tara. The woman that he ever loved. The woman that he still loves.
Tara sighs as she dropped her arms down her sides." I came back for the Job Jax. A few months ago Margaret Murphy called my boss from the hospital I was working at in Chicago saying that she was interesting in me and offered me a job at St. Thomas, so I took it."
" So, you didn't come back for me then?" Jax asked as he was kinda hoping she did.
Tara snorts as she shook her head." Hmm, sorry to disappoint you. But no, my coming back has nothing to do with you." Tara knew she was lying since he is the reason why she came back to Charming but he doesn't need to know just yet.
Jax gave her a small nod as he was little disappointed by her answer."How come you never came by to see me? Or stop by at the clubhouse?"
Tara shrugs her shoulders again as she shook her head." Because honestly, I wasn't ready to see you yet or even talk to you. I been either at the hospital working or at home cleaning out my dad's stuff. I'm planning on selling it soon."
" Your selling your dad's house?" But why?" Jax asked in confusion.
" Because that house is full of memories that I don't want to have. Not to mention I think it's better for me to sell the house and move on."
Jax nods his head in understanding" Where would be staying?"
" Your definitely full of questions tonight." Tara said with a small smirk." I'm actually looking for an one bedroom apartment actually."
" You can stay here with me if you want." Jax said with a grin on his face.
Tara snorts as she shook her head." Thanks, but no thanks. I would rather live in an apartment then have to deal with the crow eaters again. Besides I don't want to risk running into your mother."
" Good point." Jax said with a chuckle.
Tara pulled out her cell and check the time." I should get home. I gotta be at St. Thomas first thing in the morning." She said as she placed her phone back into her pocket.
" Why don't you just crash here tonight? You can sleep in the bed and I can just go sleep on the couch." Jax offered as he knew it was getting pretty late and he's probably sure that Tara doesn't want to drive back home right now.
But Tara shook her head as she declined his offer."Hmm, as tempting as that sounds Jax. I rather not since I don't wanna risk running into Gemma tonight." Tara said as she walked up to him and leans over as she gave him a friendly kiss on the cheek.
" Good night Jax." Tara said with a small smile as she walked out of his room and heading back out of the club house. Walking across the lot Tara raised her fingertips against her lips as she could still feel the stumble of his beard against her lips. She took a deep breath as she got back into the car and back into the driver's seat. After she got the car started and got buckled in she pulled out of the lot and headed back home.
Jax fell back against the bed as he ran his hands down his face. Seeing Tara right in front of him and just talking to her made him miss her even more. It took everything inside of him to not to reach out and to touch her again. To feel her again. Everything that he felt for Tara that he had buried deep down inside of himself has come back up to the surface and he has no idea what to do about it.
Jax glanced over to the night stand as soon as he heard his burner viberate. He reached over and picked it up. He was about to answer but when he noticed that it was Wendy calling him, he decided to ignore it and set his burner back down as he decided that he will call her tomorrow instead.
Jax rolled over on his stomach and fell asleep thinking about Tara.
AN: Not a whole lot going on right now. But don't worry though things will start picking up soon. More updates for this story are coming soon. In the meantime just enjoy this chapter and leave reviews. Love hearing/reading everyone's thoughts.
