Disclaimer: this chapter contains lemons

I had Sia's My Love on replay while writing this chapter. It's such a beautifully underrated song in the Eclipse Soundtrack!

As always thanks for reading x


Jasper sat on the edge of the windowsill, despite wanting to keep watch in case Edward decided to return—his attention was enraptured by the sleeping girl a few feet away. He'd waited until she fell asleep before sitting up from the bed, running the back of his fingers along her cheek in admiration. She'd smiled softly into his touch, murmuring his name even in her sleep.

It made him smile, feeling ridiculously content and utterly grateful to have her in his life now.

His love.

His mate.

Who would have known this was how they would have ended up all those months ago if Edward's deception hadn't kept them apart? That she would have loved him much sooner if only he'd noticed? Jasper wasn't sure when this overwhelming desire and immense love he felt for her began. It seemed as if he'd always felt this way for her.

He couldn't imagine it any other way now.

It only made his anxieties build even more with thoughts of Edward trying to hurt her again. Taking her or worse, taking someone she cares for only to exact some twisted retribution.

The game his brother had played earlier today, it had left Bella sinking into a never-ending spiral of emotions. When she'd found Charlie safe and sound in their home, Jasper had felt how immensely relieved she'd been. Powerful enough to make her break down in front of the man.

The sound of the sheets rustling brought him out of his thoughts. Bella shifted onto her side, a soft sound escaping her lips as she turned in her bed. Jasper knew she was a restless sleeper, but this time the usual distress that followed in her dreams was nowhere to be seen.

"Jasper?" Bella's soft voice was enough to make him go to her. Sitting on the edge of her bed, Jasper gently ran the back of his fingers across her cheek as Bella's eyes searched for him in the dark. As soon as he touched her, a small smile stretched across her full lips. It made his cold dead heart want to beat again if only once. For her.

"Were you leaving?"

"Never," he murmured, pulling the blankets she'd kicked off back over her waist. His fingers grazed the exposed skin between the hem of her tank top and flannel pants she'd chosen to wear to bed. Bella shuddered and warmth slipping into his skin for a brief moment. Such an innocent touch, and yet it ignited something inside him. Jasper smiled, "Just wanted to let you sleep. Noticed that Charlie left for his shift about an hour ago."

"I see," Bella's hand reached up and cupped his cheek, her joy seemed to double in size when he leaned into her touch. "I think I'd sleep better with you next to me though."

Jasper took a moment to contemplate his decision, to keep watch or be with the girl he loved. Then he made a choice, knowing he couldn't deny her anything nor did he want to, "Scoot."

Smiling, Bella rolled onto her side, turning her back to him to give him space to lay on top of the covers.

Wrapping his arm around her waist, Jasper sighed as he laid down and pulled her close to his chest. They interlaced their hands over her stomach while Bella settled into a comfortable position. Jasper couldn't help but pay close attention to her emotions, to her heartbeat, to her scent.

Affection, acceptance, and joy flickered down their bond. Making him close his eyes in sheer bliss.

"I love you," she whispered, kissing the back of his hand.

"I love you," he said back. Unable to resist any longer, he kissed the nape of her neck sending thousands of goosebumps all over her skin. Jasper pressed his lips against the sensitive place behind her ear and relished in the way she shuddered with pleasure.

Bella pressed her back further against his chest, as if needing to feel him completely—the same way he would have once needed air to breathe.

Jasper wrapped his other arm around her, holding her fragile body in his strong arms and encasing her fully in all that he was—in all he felt for this woman.

Resting his chin in the crook of her neck and shoulder he asked, "Did I wake you?"

"I don't know..." she mused, still sounding somewhat tired.

"What do you mean?"

Bella's fingers tightened around his hand, "It wasn't like I heard you move. More like, something told me you weren't beside me. Almost like a pulsing feeling in the back of my mind telling me to find you, even in my dreams." When Jasper didn't say anything, she asked, "Does that make me sound crazy?"

"No darlin'. It doesn't make you sound crazy at all. It's how I've felt the moment we were finally able to be near each other. You'll never know how much I've craved your nearness. Your scent and sweet voice. All of you."

Bella turned in his arms, her eyes searching for his in the darkness. Her heartbeat a powerful force when he held her so close, feeling each thump-thump-thump against his chest.

It made him realize her heart was a fragile thing too, so utterly fragile like a shard of glass. Jasper knew he needed to cherish it, every little inch. Careful not to break it, and knowing full well that he never could do such a thing.

Jasper rested his forehead against hers as she breathed his name, deep and rich like silk, "Jasper."

"I'm here," He whispered, his hands running over the thin fabric of her tank top until his palm reached her waist, pulling her closer.

Bella shifted even closer, running her hands through his hair as he trailed open mouthed kisses down her face, her jaw, until gently nipping her neck. That was when he heard it. The soft barely audible moan that slipped past her lips.

Jasper moved back up, taking the side of her face with one large hand, his fingers sinking into the silken strands of her hair until she slowly opened her eyes.

And looking into those eyes...

He knew he shouldn't admit what he wanted out loud. It wasn't the right time.

But when would be the right time? He asked himself.

As much as he didn't want to admit it, Edward's games had to continue. If he knew anything about his brother, it was that Edward always had a plan and made to fulfill it regardless of what anyone said. If the time came and Jasper never had this moment with Bella again? He needed to say it. Say exactly how he felt.

"I want you," his voice was a whisper, admitting such a thing into the darkness for her ears only seemed entirely forbidden and intimate.

Bella's emotions swept over him like a powerful storm upon hearing him say those three words.

She was nervous at first, the feeling fluttering go him much like her heart seemed to be doing. Then she was fully aware of the position they were in, in her bed, laying together.

And finally, the sweet scent of arousal that ignited the self-control he'd maintained all this time. Sweet aromas that reminded him of lavender and vanilla.

"I want you too," She admitted.

Jasper caressed her cheek, "I don't want to make you do anything you're not ready—"

"I want...to try," Bella answered but when embarrassment swept over him, Jasper knew why she was hesitant to explore any sort of intimacy.

"Why are you embarrassed?"

Bella sighed as she frowned, moving to sit up. Jasper followed, placing a hand on her back in silent support as she appeared to battle with her own thoughts.

"I never had anything like this before. Sex or anything else, I mean. I wouldn't know how to—"

"You wanting to be with me at all is all I need, Bella," Jasper said, taking her by surprise as she looked at him, "don't get me wrong. I'd love nothing more than to show you just how badly I want you in the physical sense, but I don't need it." He moved so he was kneeling in front of her on the bed. She leaned into his touch when he brushed the strands on her temple away, "What we have now is enough for me. And when you're ready to try, we'll learn together."

"I wouldn't know where to start," She laughed breathlessly, clearly still feeling shy. It made him smile as he placed a kiss upon her brow.

"You do what you feel you want," Jasper said, cupping the nape of her neck with one hand as he moved closer, "What you crave to experience," Bella looked up at him beneath her lashes as he placed a kiss on her lips. It was soft yet full of want as he took her bottom lip between his. When he leaned back, he continued, "What you want me to feel with you. Like a relationship, it's something we share together."

Shadows shifted as moonlight spilled between the rustling leaves of the trees outside. The faint outline of the leaves moving painted both of them in their silhouette and pale blue light.

Bella swore she could see his eyes darkening, the amber swirling beneath his irises until only a pure onyx remained.

"What I feel..."

"Do you want me to show you how I feel? What you're making me feel?" He asked, his voice suddenly husky like smoke.

"Yes," Bella bit her lip, chest falling and rising with every shallow breath she took. He was barely touching her and yet, it seemed as if his words alone could unravel her entirely.

He liked that—so much.

"My Bella. My love."

Bella's eyes shined at his words, her tender affection coating his senses and driving him forward.

Jasper kissed her again, pressing his full lips against hers. He claimed mouth in a way he never deemed to before. Her lips were warm, feverish, compared to his which were like ice. His tongue swept out, licking the seam of her lips and waiting for her to grant him permission to go further.

When a sudden wave of need took over, he pulled back. With a gasp, Bella followed him without meaning to and opened her eyes. Those eyes which sank into his soul every time.

They were dazed and lost in him as she licked her lips.

He cursed, taking her chin between his fingers and pressed his thumb against her bottom lip.

"Part them for me darlin'," he requested before they moved toward each other again. Bella doing as he asked much like the first time they'd shared a kiss and parted her lips. Enough for Jasper's tongue to gently caress her own in a languid dance that left her breathless in seconds. Their shallow breaths and pants filled the room, the sound of the mattress creaking as they shifted.

Soon nothing else mattered.

Only them.

Lost to their kiss that turned savage with want. Lips crashing together as Jasper lost all sense of control with her. Moans filled the little space in between kisses.

His fingers dug into her waist as Bella sat up on her knees, resting her arms on his shoulders as she hovered over him. Jasper watched as she shifted, her body taking over and moving on instinct as she pulled him closer than ever before.

"Bella," he groaned as she bit his bottom lip. He kissed her until she was out of breath and finally pulled away.

She was panting and dazed with lust as she looked at him, mesmerized by the man before her.

Jasper leaned back, his own chest rising and falling as he uselessly fought to control his breathing.

In one swift move he lowered her back onto the bed.

"Close your eyes, darlin'. I'm going to show you," He said gently yet possessively as he stared at his mate. At the hem of her tank top that rode up and revealed her soft skin beneath. Bella, though nervous by this new experience they were both exploring, did as he said. Closing her eyes as she laid in the middle of her bed, Bella waited with bated breath. Jasper kissed her neck, making her gasp in surprise. He whispered, "If it's too much tell me and I'll stop."

"O-okay," She panted, still trying to keep her eyes closed.

Making the effort to not touch her, Jasper pushed up on his arms and watched as he shared his emotions with her.

At first, it was a warm tendril of love. Warming her cheeks and making her breath catch as she felt it linger all around her.

"This is the first true emotion you ignite inside me every time I see you, when I think of you," He said as he allowed his gift to dance around her stuttering heart. Then he added another emotion. One he couldn't ignore no matter what he did, "and this is how I feel every time I kiss those lips of yours."

Lust.

It was a searing thing. A liquified heat shooting through her belly and down, down, down—

Bella's eyes shot open as her back arched and a breathless sound escaped her lips before she could hold it back, "Oh..."

She found Jasper's intense gaze watching her closely as the powerful emotion slowly dissipated until she didn't feel like she would combust.

Bella's legs moved to snap shut when an alarming pressure built between them. Only to be met with Jasper's. He wasn't touching her at all. Not even kissing her the way he'd been moments ago. Even his leg wasn't pressing against her until she'd tried to close her legs. But he made no movement to do so, even when she writhed beneath him.

"Jasper," She panted his name, sounding so unlike herself. "That's..."

"That's what I feel. How you make me feel every damn time we're like this. So close and yet too far for me to touch you."

A warm pooling feeling gathered between her legs, making her swallow thickly as her arousal continued the more he spoke.

His nostrils flared as he must have sensed it, intoxicating him.

Jasper leaned down this time, still hovering over her as his cool breath fanned her ear, "How do you feel?"

"Good," she found herself answering, staring up at the ceiling as her legs began to tremble. "Really good and...not sure at the same time. Like something strange was starting until you stopped."

"How did it feel?"

"Like," she bit her lip, not believing that she was about to admit this, "like a string being pulled, right on the verge of snapping."

A low rumbled emanated from his chest, a growl that was full of need to claim her.

"What do you want me to do next? What do you crave?"

"You. Always you."

"Be more specific, Bella. I need to know what you need so I don't do anything you don't want." Bella struggled to find her words. Overwhelmed. She was too overwhelmed with the strange sensations he was introducing her to, and it drove him crazy in the best way possible, "Tell me, baby. Fuck, I need to know."

That was her undoing.

"T-touch me," her voice trembled. Hands going up to wrap around his shoulders and pull him down to her swollen lips, "touch me, Jasper."

And he did. Gently cupping her face before slowly moving his hand down to the center of her chest. Goosebumps invaded her flesh as his cold touch bled through the tank top. He never took his eyes away, always making sure she was still alright with how he touched her.

When his hands caressed her breasts, Bella arched into him. Her nipples hardened instantly, pressing painfully against his palms.

"Perfect," He murmured, biting his lip. This time he allowed his gift to soar past her walls, the same hot swirling heat of passion and arousal he felt. Bella pressed the back of her hand against her lips to keep herself from moaning again, but it was no use. Jasper's thumb tentatively swept over her nipple, before moving lower. Until his mouth was a mere inch away from her. "I want to taste you. Can I?"

"Y-yes. Please...I need to feel you."

Reaching up for the strap of her tank top, Jasper kissed her bare shoulder as he pulled it down and exposed her right breast.

He was breathing heavily as he leaned down and finally claimed her nipple into his mouth, sucking and nibbling her sensitive area until the flesh was pink. Bella moaned louder this time, unable to hold back.

Good, he thought with satisfaction before sharing his emotions with her once more. Adding to the building climax he felt within her. Don't hide from me. Never from me, Bella.

Jasper's tongue swirled around her nipple once more before moving to the other, pulling the rest of the tank top down over her abdomen. She was a sight to behold. Flushed and panting, hand over her mouth and staring at him with those depthless brown eyes he loved so much.

"You're so soft, so warm. I can't ever get enough of you," he admitted, kissing her stomach and leaving a wet trail across her skin.

His hands held her hips as she moved, trying to get some form of friction.

"What do you want me to do next? What do you feel you need?"

"I need..." Bella sucked in a shaky breath as his tongue continued laving at the valley between her breasts. "More. I need more."

Jasper bit down gently on her navel before moving further down. His hand cupped her sex over her pants, barely applying any pressure at all and relishing in the heat he felt emanating from her core. His tongue did wicked things as he kissed her exposed flesh above her pants, looking at her.

Bella's nod was all he needed before tugging them down and then her panties, leaving them to pool around her ankles until they were completely gone. Then he was sucking on the tender, sensitive skin between her wet core. Bella jolted, moaning in pleasure as her first orgasm threatened to crash through.

"Oh god."

"Fucking delicious and I haven't even tasted you yet," he looked down to the wetness visible between her lips before finally kissing her. His tongue pressed between her lips until he found the swollen nub there, flicking and teasing in slow circles. Bella cried out, her hands fisting the sheets as her legs bent and closed around his head.

Jasper never stopped, eating her out as if he were a starved man while his hands wrapped around her legs to keep her in place.

Pressure built within him next. His hard cock throbbing with need for release. He knew hearing her breathless moans and words of love she said to him were enough to make him climax. And he needed it so badly now.

"I'm so close...I don't know-"

It was then when he allowed all of his gift to engulf her, claiming her and pushing her off the edge at the same time he gently bit down on her clit, groaning his own pleasure.

Wave after wave of heat, of yearning, and lust and love. So much love.

"Ah, Jasper!" Bella gripped his shoulders, staring at him wide eyed as she finally orgasmed. Jasper panted as he watched his mate unravel before his very eyes, rocking and arching while he gently licked her clit to ease her back down. Making her shiver with every pass of his tongue.

Their lips met once more when he finally crawled back over her, wet sloppy kisses replacing the tender one's they'd shared up until now.

"Perfect," He finally said once they were laying back down.

Bella stared at him in awe, then glanced down to his still hard member beneath his jeans.

He knew what she would ask before she said it, "You can touch me. If you want."

"Show me," she repeated his own words and Jasper knew he wouldn't last long if she touched him now.

Taking her hand in his, Jasper slowly guided her down to the button of his jeans. He helped her unbuckle his belt before finally pulling them down just enough for his member to come free. Bella's breath caught as she felt him in the darkness, her hand cupping his long length when he guided her there.

Jasper groaned louder this time, "Bella, I'm going to cum by the warmth of your touch alone."

Bella and Jasper faced each other as they moved over him. Jasper's hand held hers in a closed fist as she glided over his cock, slow and gentle. Almost too gentle.

"You can...go faster, darlin'. Grip a little harder. Yeah, like that," he moaned this time, his head falling back against her pillow as Bella did as he asked. "It feels so good."

Pumping him up and down, building up a rhythm until he was finding it extremely difficult to breathe. Something which was impossible but still.

"Come here," pulling her to his lips, Jasper kissed her as she continued working him over. Over and over until he finally reached his climax. Groaning, he rested his forehead against her shoulder as he came in her hand, shuddering his pure bliss.

"That was..."

"Yes it was," Bella kissed his cheek when they finally caught their breaths, curled into each other's embrace as they held onto one another. Staring up at the ceiling, an incredulous sort of joy took over, "I love you."

"I love you," Jasper sighed as he looked down at them, "We made a mess of your bed."

"I'll change the sheets," she smiled against his neck as he wasted little time in carrying her to the bathroom, cleaning them both up before they did in fact change the sheets. Before getting back into bed and finally falling into a blissful rest.

Jasper closed his eyes as he held her, knowing that there was no going back after this. No way in hell was he letting anyone pull them apart ever again.