As I write this i'm wearing a loose,silky,low-neckline,purple nightgown my grandma gave me,putting my knee WAY too high up(my mother would flip out if she saw me like this,not sitting like a dignified lady lol) and i feel like a no-rules pRiNcEsS OMGGGG- Haha in the Genderfluid spectrum trying to say i'm female sucks but i like feeling like a boss once in a while- god i really want a suit and skirt when i'm old enough for prom- or a dress top and pants- that wouldn't be too bad B)- ok onto the story i can make a blog/not-so-secret diary of random thoughts if anyone wants that for some reason XD

Percy looked away from Nico as he grabbed waterbottles from the cooler. When he stood up fully he saw Nico sitting on the ground. He looked at him,puzzled,but sat next to him,leaning against a tree.

Nico took a deep breath,and said, "We need to talk."

It had always shocked Nico how quickly Percy could be reduced to grumbling. "I don't wanna..." Right now was one of those times as Percy straight-up grumbled at Nico to cover up how awkward this was.

"And who do you think has the more awkward side of this,Perce? Me or you? Yeah,probably me,considering i was the one who did most of the talking."

Percy blushed. "I guess,I just...Fine,you want the truth? I like you. I've known since a bit after you came back from the Apollo cabin. There. That's it."

Nico felt his face burning. He felt like he was either flying,or falling. "You too,huh? I just can't even get my head around this... I realized around when you just looked into my eyes like I'd just killed your grandma after i said something shitty about myself...but it took a little to accept it,to be honest."

Percy's heart beat faster,and the urge to kiss Nico was near to overwhelming. But...he needed to clear his head. Sure,he felt so much more than he'd ever thought was possible when he was around Nico,but...that was the whole fucking problem!

God,this is so confusing...

Just then,Nico spoke Percy's mind. "You know,it's funny. I never thought you'd like me back. And...you do? But i'm not sure if that's the solution or the problem." He caught a falling leaf and held it next to his heart,uncharecteristically open and soft seeming as he continued. "I just...everything you do or say,your face,even just the mention of your name is so unexplainably overwhelming. You might think i'm saying all this dumb shit for an ulterior motive,but i just needed to say it."

Percy smiled suddenly. Nico blushed at this,as Percy spoke. "Just for the record,i feel exactly the same. Every time i see you,i get so nervous it's plain stupid."

Nico's heart pounded louder. "Yeah...Gods,i literally just forgot what i was about to say." He looked into Percy's eyes,such a deep,ocean green. Nico didn't know whether he felt like he was falling or flying most of the time when he was around Percy. But right now,he felt like his life was flashing before his eyes as he drowned in those sea-green eyes that he could just sink into forever and ever.

Falling and flying...felt virtually the same. But right now,he was falling so,so,hard.

Percy looked away from Nico,blushing,and said, "You know,i really like you. And i have for a while. But what are we even supposed to do now? Date? Kiss? Just 'get over it'? Part ways and forget we were ever even friends?"

Nico looked up at the sky,his beautiful brown eyes shining with surprise. Brown eyes were so common,over half the population had them,but they had dark and light and sorrow and love and heartbreak and a strange calm to them that Percy always got lost in,he barely even heard Nico's words.

"Perce? Percy? Earth to Perseus Jackson,the most colossal idiot in camp half-blood!" At this,Percy laughed a bit,but also blushed,praying to the gods that Nico would never find out what he was just thinking about. "Oh- yeah. Just...spacing out. What'd you say?"

Nico looked up at the sky. "I was just responding to what you said before. We...need time and space to be around each other as just friends to see what we actually want to do,or if this'll go anywhere."

Percy felt his heart crack slightly at those words,but he would've said the same. He didn't really know what he wanted besides to be near Nico. Hold him close in his arms forever,kiss all the pain and fear he could ever have- No- bad Percy. Bad Percy. He nodded. "Yeah...that's..a good plan. We should actually bring the water,I'm never hearing the end of this from Annabeth-"

She walked out from behind a tree. "No,you aren't ever hearing the end of this,either of you. It is plain disgusting that you haven't kissed once,it's clear how much both of you want to. Now shut the fuck up and come back to the training rink."

Annabeth pulled Percy up by the collar,and said, "Jackson,if you don't make a move on him soon,i swear i will either kill you or make a move on him myself just to piss you off."

Nico felt himself turn pink at this as he hesitantly followed Percy,who shrugged,but was clearly also embarassed at Annabeth's boldness.


Annabeth sighed. She wasn't quite over he crush on Percy,but...it had never been fully genuine. Soon enough,she would have to tell them that...