Dear Readers,

I apologize ever so sincerely for my extended hiatus, and I'm even MORE sorry for the false chapter update and getting your hopes up! It's taken me quite a while to gather the courage to even type this up, but you guys deserve MORE than an explanation for my absence and neglect of my stories that you all have grown to love and have shown such appreciation and patience for.

First things first, I don't even have to tell you all that the year 2020 was an absolute shitstorm, not only from the pandemic, but also the trauma and abuse that I endured not long after the outbreak. Quarantine/Lock-Down had shown a LOT of people's true colors, and no matter how much unconditional love I had for said people, it truly got to the point where I either had to choose my heart, or my sanity.

For those of you who don't know (which is everyone, what am I talking about? Lol) I was married for 5 years to a foreigner, who conveniently needed a green-card to establish citizenship and means of working and earning a living here in this country… Give you three guess as to what happened at the end of those 5 years (which coincidently is the duration you need to be married with the green card before officiating citizenship). Not only was 2020 nearing the end of that marriage contract (for her) but it was also nearing the end of the façade I fell in love with. Once it became clear that the marriage was ending, that my use as her wife was done, it was like the woman I came to know and love completely dissipated in front of me. Heartless, narcissistic, manipulative, BORING, a cheater and a user. I gave her what she wanted, and she left me for the next person who could give her the next big thing, the most luxurious, grandest, most expensive lifestyle she cold now have since she was a citizen… and I was left with literally nothing.

Beginning of 2021, we officially separated. I was broken alone, absolutely DESTROYED in and out. I felt used, neglected, foolish, unwanted, unloved, and just pure Ugly. Yes, ugly. I swear I've never felt as ugly and insignificant as I did for those first three months. I literally cried every morning when I woke up and every night before going to bed. I looked around at the empty walls of the shitty apartment I had to force myself to movie into for the sake of budgeting and getting theeee fu** out of my current predicament…. And I nearly wanted to end it all there. I honestly didn't know what I was doing, not just in that empty and lonely place, but here on this earth. I felt like I had no control of my life, like I was watching it on a projection screen in a movie theater for my own guilty and depressing pleasure. I found no solace or comfort in the things that I usually enjoy doing: dancing, playing my flute, exercising, WRITING! [Needless to say, she never cared to read or even listen to me read parts of my stories…. To add insult to injury, she always thought I was cheating on HER from all the typing I do on my laptop. I guess she thought I was always chatting it up with someone online or something…. THE IRONY AND AUDACITY, I know…]

It seemed the only way I could escape those invasive and torturous thoughts, was to think about my world of Children of the Night and the VAST amount of ideas and story plots that could go into it. The only problem was, my motivation to type/write it all down was nonexistent, and that made me even more depressed. I had all this creativity buzzing around in me, but my broken heart just wouldn't allow me to uplift myself to get excited or driven enough to bring it to life. You all may think that I neglected my stories, and in the most direct say, I have…. But I promise, that couldn't be FURTHER from the truth!

But FEAR NOT, my fellow readers. For over the next few years, I slowly gained my confidence back. We officially divorced and I never saw or spoke to her again! I was free! And as I started to heal mentally, emotionally and spiritually, I have been achingly typing away the next few chapters in a blurred jumble just for the sake of getting my ideas in black and white. I am currently editing, scening, illustrating and structuring the story as I go. With that being said, CHILDREN OF THE NIGHT IS BEING REVISED! There are some plot points I have already established in the story that could conflict with the direction I want it to go in future chapters. And another thing, I know I said I didn't want to make this story that long, but EFF-THAT! (Pardon my French lol)

After all that fantasizing and scening I've down over the years, and all it took me to get back into this groove, this story deserves a full WORLD of magic. And that's exactly what I've been nearly driving myself cray-cray trying to imagine and come up with. So, starting with upcoming Chapter 5, I would very much appreciate it if you all would go back and reread the first four chapters. There may be big noticeable changes, or small ones, but they will ALL make the flow of the story better and easier. (The updated Chapters 1-4 will be immediately uploaded once I publish chapter 5. Until then, the story will remain the same)

As for Silent Beauty, I really hate to disappoint you guys. But I may be updating that one a little slower compared to Children of the Night. It's just I have fresher ideas with Children of the Night, and it's the one I'm more focused on at this time. That doesn't mean it's on hiatus either! Just may take some extra time between chapters to update. I'm only human okay lol?

Your girl is back ya'll, and I won't let you down again! I won't let MYSELF down again, ever! I pulled myself up, got my shit together, and I'm stronger and wiser for it. The thought of this story and where it's going, honestly saved my life. And I owe so much to YOU ALL! The thought of your kind and encouraging words over four meager chapters, a.w.a. the readers who still reviewed to check on me, did more uplifting than you could imagine.

All I ask now, is just a LITTLE more grace and patience from you all while I continue picking up the slack. I plan… key word PLAN… to have chapter 5 out by the end of May. And by that time, I'll already have the outlines for chapters 6-8 ready, and will have updates ready MONTHLY! :D

I love you all so much! And again, I'm truly sorry for the false update, I know that had to have been pretty annoying. But thank you to those who took the time to ready my damn sob story. AS of now, this hiatus is officially ENDED! Be on the lookout towards the end of May for a refreshing comeback on COTN!

PEACE, LOVE AND HAPPINESS TO ALL OF YOU MY DEAR, DEAR, DEEEAARRR READERS!

And thanks again!


"Granddad, what do you Do when you can't Do Nothing, but there's Nothing you can Do?"

"…. You do what you can "

-BDL234