Entry #002: The Girl Who Waited

Tuesday, March 11th

1:45 P.M

Andre hadn't returned at all yesterday or even call to tell me that he wasn't coming back.

I'm mad… but I feel like I shouldn't be.

Why, you ask?

As I said in my last entry, this project that Andre and Jade were doing was very important and if the two of them had to spend all night practicing to get it right, then so be it.

…

Yet here I am, furious that he didn't have the nerve to even call.

I mean, if you're not gonna return to someone's house after telling them you'll come back, at least call!

Ugh! Why did they have to get partnered up? Why couldn't he have been partnered up with Robbie instead?

I wouldn't be so freaked out if that was the case, but no! It had to be Jade! Who knows what she could be doing to him now…

What if he…

What if he forgot about me?

What if Jade got to him?

Sure, Jade was with Beck, but…

It was clear that she had some feelings for Andre, and I already knew that Andre liked her as well.

It could have happened.

Jade could have seduced Andre and… Ugh, I don't even want to think about it.

But it wasn't as if Andre and I had an intimate relationship going on or that my feelings for him were returned; it was always a friendship, a close friendship.

Sure, we depended on each other plenty of times, but it always felt like something that friends do.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Sighs

Even though I soooo wished that there was more between us.

But I know what you're thinking.

"What about that moment that you two shared yesterday?"

If whatever was about to happen between us was really important, then wouldn't Andre have at least said something about it?

At all?

But he didn't.

However, both Andre and Jade liked each other and something more could have come from that.

It was only a matter of time before it happened.

But that was the thing with friendships.

Friendships come and go.

Friendships could be forgotten.

Ugh, I'm ranting way too much.

I could sit and complain about Jade and Andre possibly hooking up or I could go out there and do something about it.

Guess you already know which one I chose.

2:39 P.M.

I was just about to leave the house to look for Andre, when Trina arrived.

"Where are you going?" she asked, walking past me and sitting down on the sofa.

"I'm gotta find Andre." I answered, "For some reason, he's not answering his phone."

"Well of course not, I saw him and Jade at the library near our school."

"The library? Really?"

"Yeah, why is that so hard for you to understand?" Trina asked, grabbing the remote off the table and turning on the TV.

"Well… you rarely go to the library."

"I do, too! Like today, I saw this really cute guy going in there and I spent 15 minutes trying to talk to him."

"You spent 15 minutes trying to talk to some guy in the library?"

"Yeah, but then that mean old librarian kicked me out because I was too loud. It's ridiculous!"

"You do know that you have to be quiet in a library."

"Tori, Tori, Tori. So pretty, yet so naïve. They wouldn't kick me out because of that." she scoffed, returning her gaze to the TV.

This was surely one of those moments where I really felt sorry for Trina. But I couldn't let that bother me right now.

I had some very important business to take care of.

After driving for about 5 minutes, I finally arrived at the library down the street from Hollywood Arts.

Hopefully Trina's information was true, but then again, I was hoping that it was wrong. Dead wrong.

Upon entering the library, I immediately bumped into Robbie and Rex as they were about to leave.

"Hey, Tori." smiled Robbie, holding the door open with his free hand.

"What's up, sweet thing." pestered Rex, staring at me, "You lookin' pretty good today."

Ugh, I didn't have the time to talk to them! I had to find Andre and Jade!

"Hi, Robbie. Hi, Rex. Can't talk right now." I rattled, as I rushed past the two.

Sadly, they didn't take the hint.

"So what'cha been up to lately?" asked Robbie, as he followed closely.

"Not much, just gotta find Andre." I responded, walking faster and looking around the vast library for a glimpse of Andre.

"Andre? We saw him heading towards the reference section with Jade earlier." stated Robbie.

I stopped walking.

The words that were uttered by Robbie made my heart stop beating.

The reference section of the library.

Anybody who's anybody would know that the reference section was the most quiet part of this library.

Complete silence.

But that wasn't the bad part about it.

Because of its quietness, the reference section was infamous for the constant make out sessions that happened there.

It was the perfect ingredients for a couple to make out in:

Complete silence.

Secluded study rooms.

And in some areas, dim lighting.

And both Andre and Jade were in there! Why would they even be in the reference section? Their scene has to be completely of their imagination, no outside sources or references.

But that wasn't what was worrying me.

The very thought of Andre… kissing Jade…

…

As I stood there, in the middle of the library, a tear ran down my cheek.

A part of me wanted to just cry and run out of that library. But I couldn't! I had to be strong. I had to keep going, despite what I might find out.

Taking a deep breath, I wiped the tear away and continued walking.

"Uh, thanks, Robbie." I spoke, as I headed up the stairs that led to the reference section.

"No problem, tell them I said, 'Hello'." uttered Robbie, waving goodbye.

"Andre's gonna be too busy up there, if you know what I mean." laughed Rex.

"Uh, maybe you're forgetting something. Jade has a boyfriend." Robbie corrected him.

"That wouldn't stop me." responded Rex.

"You're sick, you know that?!" Robbie exclaimed, as I began losing sound of their argument.

Entering the reference section, I immediately felt a deafening silence fall over me. This was soon broken by the gentle sounds of kissing, breathing and groping.

So much groping.

Boy, the librarians should really walk back here once in a while, cause it was ridiculous.

As I passed each aisle, I only noticed some people that were actually trying to study and some people whom were trying to swallow one another.

But no sign of Andre or Jade.

I then moved on to the hallway that contained the study rooms.

I could only hope that they weren't in there as well.

Some of the windows to these rooms had their blinds shut, so I had to mostly depend on listening through the doors.

One by one, I listened in on a guy studying quantum mechanics, a girl who would rather study than make out with her boyfriend, and some really heavy breathing and moaning in the last room.

But I was thankful it wasn't Andre and Jade.

It was two guys.

I was just about to give up searching for them, when I heard Jade's voice coming from the room that was once quiet.

"I really don't care, okay? We both like each other, right? For the longest time, I have wanted to be with you."

I could then hear Andre's voice say, "But, we can't... we just can't. You have a boyfriend and… if we were caught, it could ruin everything."

"Can't you feel this intensity that's between us? That spark that has been there since the beginning?"

Andre sighed, "Of course, but that doesn't make this any less risky."

"I want you... If you really don't care, then look at me and tell me that you don't want me." insisted Jade, who sounded as if she was about to cry.

"I do want you… Why would you even ask me that? I can't picture myself with anybody but you." Andre replied.

"Then prove it… kiss me."

I felt like my world was ending.

It was over.

It was all over.

As I sat down on the floor, I began to cry.

I didn't care who saw me.

I was heartbroken from what I had heard, and I was just glad that things couldn't get any worse.

*A musical chime plays on my phone*

Damn! Who's calling me now?!

I quickly tried to hurry up and silence my phone, but it was too late.

The door began to open…

"Tori?"