TW: aftermath of domestic violence
Two weeks later all exams are done and Blaine is tease. He was while studying but now while waiting for the results even more. He was scared that he'll black out in an exam, he always is, but this time he blacked out in biology and he doesn't has the best feeling about his math exam.
Luckily Kurt is by his side and tries to comfort and distract him. They watch movies and shows, they sing together, dance around the living room, they cook together and try new recepies and sometimes they just cuddle and talk or read.
Once the weekend is over it's time to get grades. Kurt isn't surprised. A in french and else B's and C's like usually. He did his best, he did well. His grades aren't a surprise anymore. He holds them since middle school. It's fine.
Blaine had a feeling that he might not get straight A's this time. He always fears but with the blackout it's not really a surprise for him when he gets his A's but a B in math and a C in biology. Stupid blackout. He isn't surprised but it's still a shock for him. He fucked up.
He finds Kurt by his lcoker and goes to him "Hi". The chestnut haired boy hears the sound of his voice immediatly "Honey what happened?". Calling each other with pet names happened naturally about a week ago but whenever one of them uses them the other one feels fuzzy and warm inside.
"I fucked up. A B in maths and a C- in biology. This stupid blackout. I never got a C-. Never. Oh god I'm dead when I take this exam home" Blaine rambles. He looks freaked out and it breaks Kurts heart. It's sad to see which impact Blaines father still has on his son even tho they don't live with him anymore. With a soft, reassuring smile Kurt takes Blaines hand "Blaine". But the curly haired boy keeps on rambling about the C-. Next Kurt lifts his other hand and holds it to Blaines cheek, his thumb stroking over the soft skin "Blaine, honey".
This time Blaine stops talking. Stops moving. Stops breathing. Stops blinking. Like he's frozen. "Breath Blaine" the older boy reminds him and Blaine does. In. Out. Better. "Are you okay?" Kurt asks but the other by shakes his head in defeat "A little but Kurt a C-. You know how bad that is". "Blaine honey. Stop talking for a moment and follow me" Kurt says and starts leading the way to the empty choir room. Blaine follows him and sits down next to him on one of the chairs. "Now you breath and listen to me" Kurt says, his hand not letting go of Blaines.
"Blaine you're not in Westerville anymore. You're in Lima. Your dad isn't here and your mom is not as strict as he is. It's okay. She will understand and support you still. I know you're scared but no one can hurt you here. Now c'mere so I can hug you" he says. With tears in his eyes Blaine hides in Kurts arms, his face in the crook of Kurts neck. "I'm so glad he can't hurt me anymore" Blaine sobs quietly. Kurts heart breaks just a little more while he strokes up and down Blaines back.
Yes Kurt and Blaine talked about Blaines dad but never too much. Blaine likes to avoid the topic and push the bad thoughts away. There were lonely tears and days where Blaine wan't feeling well but never sobs and words that even cut Kurts heart so deep just hearing Blaine talk about it. "Honey get up. I get you home. We catch up with literature tomorrow and it's okay to skip glee for once. I think it's best to get you home for today" Kurt says. He helps Blaine up and wipes away the tears on his cheeks. They get their stuff from the locker together one by one and tell Finn where they are going so he doesn't wait for Kurt after school.
They are alone at Blaines when they arrive. Pam meets with a client and Angela travels. The boys put their stuff down and sit down on the couch in the living room. "Now we can talk if you want" Kurt says while he wraps his arms around Blaine again so Blaines back rests against Kurts front. "Tell me anything. Let it all out. Rant or do whatever. I'm here. And if you don't want to talk we can just sit here and enjoy the silence or something" he continues.
"Sometimes I hear mom cry. At night when I can't sleep. She thinks I can't hear her because her room is downstairs and mine is upstairs but I know. I don't want her to feel bad. She felt bad for so long for what he did to me. To us. But she misses him. I know she does. They've been together for so long before this all happened" Blaine tells.
"Sometimes I remember what he did. I try to forget it most of the time but you know those times when I had a bad day?" Kurt nods "That's when I slept bad or had a nightmare or something. Days where I can't forget what I' so desperately trying to forget. But the toughts and nightmares are still there. Either I remember what happened or sometimes I dream about what would be if we were still with him".
"He freaked me out. Still does. Especially when exams come up. I'm always afraid to screw up because he used to punish me for that" Blaine finishes "and today I did". He's crying again, holding on to Kurts arms for dear life. Kurts safe arms. His closeness, his breathing, the careful touches and calming words. Little things that help him breath steady again and somehow calm down again. He enjoys the feeling Kurt gives him and realizes in that moment that Kurt is right. His dad is not with him anymore and his mom will understand. She loves him, no matter what.
Now that they started the couple talks. Openly. About everything. Blaines dad, Pam, Kurts mom and what she was like, how it was for him and Burt when she died and so much more. There are a lot of tears and open feelings. Happy tears, sad tears, tears of anger and laughter. From both sides. Talking about everything to with a person he really trust felt like therapy, like a big step forwards. It was a good idea from Kurt to bring them home and not power throught the rest of the school day. He really needed that.
A bit later that day Pam comes back. She greets the boys and quickly goes to the bathroom to change out of her work clothes and into something a bit more comfortable. Once done she comes back to the living room and sits down in the arm chair "How was school boys?". "Okay" Blaine answers "We got our grades back today". "How did it go?" Pam asks but sees her sons facial expression change so she asks "What's wrong?". "I- I got a B in maths and a C- in biology" Blaine mumbles quietly. "Oh Blaine. You told me about your blackout in biology and math is not your strength. It's okay. You did your best as always" Pam says.
She stands up and when Kurt takes his arms away she hugs him tightly. The woman smiles and releases her son again just for him to lean back in Kurts embrace again. "And your grades?" Pam now asks Kurt who shrugs "Ah well. Same as always. Mostly B's, a few C's and an A". He smiles and presses a kiss on Blaines temple when he sees his relieved smile.
Kurt eats dinner at the Anderson house and only goes home after making sure that Blaine is really okay now. The curly haired boy brings him to the door and gives him a kiss goodbye. "Call me if you want to talk, have a nightmare or anythign else. Promise?" Kurt asks and his boyfriend answers "Promise".
That night around 2 Kurts phone rings. Blaine had a nightmare. His dad found out about the B and the C- and came to Lima to punish him. To punch him, lick him, cslap him, call him names and when Pam tried to defend him he started doing the same to her. Blaine didn't cry while telling Kurt everything but his eyes were glassy and his voice still broke. But Kurt calms him with words once he's done. His voice drunk of sleep and raspy but still so soft and wonderful.
"Thank you Darling" Blaine whispers "I didn't want to wake you but I needed that". It's okay honey. I told you to call me if you need me and I'm proud that you did" Kurt says "Now lay down again. I'm staying on the phone and we just sleep like that. Like I'm right next to you". "You don't have to-" the younger boy starts but Kurt interupts him "Honey I offered. I want to do that". Both lay down again and Kurt stays awake until he hears Blaines soft snorring and is sure that he's back asleep before closing his own eyes and falling asleep again too.
The next mornign they wake up almost at the same time, only that Kurt is a bit earlier. But he stays quiet so he doesn't wake Blaine until the boy really has to wake up too. They both wake up earier than Finn or Sam for example. They just put on some clothes and go down for breakfast while Kurt and Blaine need more time to get ready. They need to pick out an outfit and while Kurt takes a lot of time for his skin Blaine needs time to gel down his messy curls so they don't stick out in every direction.
They meet in front of the school and Kurt greets his boyfriend with a kiss. Blaine, not wanting to let go, pulls Kurt in a hug after and mumbles "Thank you for last night". "For you always B" the other boy answers "Are you feeling better?". "Tired but much better thanks to you" Blaine says. He breaks the hug just to kiss his boyfriend again.
"Let's get through the last few days of school and enjoy the summer. We will have so much fun once school's out for summer" Kurt then says. He kisses his boyfriend again and again. He can't wait for the summer to start so he can spend a lot of time with Blaine outside of school. Then he intertwines their hands so they can go inside and get stuff from their lockers before their first class starts.
